Its a God Damned Saturday night and i'm stuck at home. So fucking hell bored. Dammit. Been real moody since yesterday. Everything just doesn't seem right. Nothing to be precise. Nothing has been right ever since the start of this year. 2004just sucks for me. Okay i know. Its only March. Long way till the year ends. But fuck it. It still sucks and i don't think its going to get any better for me.

I'm bored bored bored bored. Omfg. Im so fucking bored that i'm even swearing at almost every other thing. I don't like to be bored. Cause, my mind runs wild. I start thinking about everything. Too many things have happened. Trying to be the strong one. The one who is there for everyone. I'm trying. Trying so hard. But i can't hold on for long. I'll just try my best. I'm human too.

I miss you. Here it goes. For the first time after a month or so. I miss you so terribly. Its finally getting to me. (But I am taking y stand still) Now i'm free to do anything i want. No restrictions what so ever. But as i do things i never got to do when i was with you. I thought about you.Thought about what you would say if you knew i was doing this or doing that. I thought i smelt you somewhere. I almost broke down. I'm sorry. Sorry that things didn't work out.You took too long to realise. Too long. I was hurting so bad and it was taking a toll on me. I wish the best for you. Hope you'll be happy. The next girl's going to be great. Just remember what i told you. Somethings youhave to change cause i won't be the only one pointing them out to you.I Love You.

Here Without You - 3 Doors Down

A hundred days have made me older, since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder and I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me

The miles just keep rolling as the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that this gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
it gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl, there's only you and me

My Godmum is back from Japan! Ooohh Wee~ So excited! Went to the airport to pick her up along with my Godsister and Godbrother. Omg. So cute please my Godsister. Those rosy cheeks of hers. So wanted to pinch them. But i didn't scare the lil girl of course.

Headed to town later with Shaunie Shaun Shaun. Hehe. We were supposed to go catch Dirty Dancing 2. But, its a pretty old show so the only available time slot was at 1145. Shaunie Shaun Shaun has Jap Test tommorrow morning so ya. Didn't catch it. So Argh! I have to watch the darn show dammit. Instead, walked around town, ate dinner then headed back home. Pretty tired honestly. Lately everything seems so monotonous. Its like School -> Home -> School. Boring?! But i'm glad i have the rest. :D

Omg this is so cool please. Hahahaha. I am truely a Convent Girl. And i'm so proud of it!


CHIJ
You scream for your school at any opportunity and
for some strange reason you love your school to
no end. You wear your belt so low that ACS
boys' pants would be considered high!


Wad girl's school should you be from?
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I feel like i'm Six Feet Under or actually worst than that. Cause when you are Six Feet Under i reckon you don't feel pain. Im going through fuckin horrible pain. Major fuck ass shit as i would say. But i'm better now. I mean i'm up in front of the com ain't I? Guess i'll visit my doctor tommorrow if i don't get any better that is. We shall see. Don't want to see the doc if possible. But if i do, i can get MC and not go for Econs! Hmmm.

No i didn't have school today. Or rather i already planned not to go for Arts Appreciation tutorial cum Drama Workshop. So yucks! Andrea, Drama. No no no. This two words do not go with each other as yall should know. Cannot make it lor as Ah Ryl would say. Haha. Just one day of not seeing Da Gang I miss yall so much!!!

// If Only*

Toxic - Britney Spears

// You*

Baby can't you see
I'm callin'
A guy like you
Should wear a warnin'
It's dangerous
I'm fallin'

There's no escape
I can't wait
I need a hit
Baby give me it
You're dangerous
I'm lovin' it

Too high
Can't come down
Losin' my head,
Spinin' round and round
Do you feel me now?

With a taste of your lips I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slippin' under
With a taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't ya know that your toxic?
And I love what ya do
Don't ya know that your toxic?

It's gettin' late
To give you up
I took a sip
From my devil's cup
Slowly
It's takin' over me

Too high
Can't come down
It's in the air,
and it's all around
Can you feel me now?

With a taste of your lips I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slippin' under
With a taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't ya know that your toxic?
And I love what ya do
Don't ya know that your toxic?

Don't ya know that you're toxic?

Taste of your lips, I'm on a ride...

You're toxic, I'm slippin' under
With the taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't ya know that you're toxic?

With a taste of your lips I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slippin' under
With the taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't ya know that you're toxic?

Intoxicate me now
With your lovin' now
I think I'm ready now
(I think I'm ready now)
Intoxicate me now
With your lovin' now
I think I'm ready now

I am done with Ryl's blog. Hope she likes it. I didn't do much. Just editted the template for her. Just want to see a smile on your face babe. Anything can ask for help okay? Check her blog out here

I'm so full. Ate so much today. Feel like a pig today. Haha. Ate so much food. Been a long long long time since i pigged out like that. Felt kinda good. On the way to Andrea days again. :p

Having a slight sore throat but i'm fine. Things have been going well i suppose. Back to normal. Not as hectic. But i still pull a long face now and then. Reason? Shall not mention. Refer to my previous entry.

So exams timetable is out. And my last paper is on the 23rd Apr!! I was so happy. Can celebrate my birthday in peace. Will blog the details when the time is closer. Now as i count down to my birthday, i seem to counting down to my birthday.

// If Only*

Don't Tell Me - Avril Lavigne

You held my hand and walked me home I know
While you gave me that kiss it was something like this it made me go ooh ohh
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears, why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love cause you're so hard to trust
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that?
You're the one who gives it all away

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that I was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

Don't think that your charmin the fact that your arm is now around my neck
I got you in my pants I'll have to kick your ass and make you never forget
I'm gonna ask you to stop, thought I liked you a lot, but I'm really upset
Get out of my head get off of my bed yeah thats what I said
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that, you're the one who, throws it all away

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that I was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

This guilt trip that you put me on won't, mess me up but you're no wrong
Any thoughts of you and me have gone away

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that I was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

Better off that way
I'm better off alone anyway

Didn't want to blog but decided to. My only outlet. One and only outlet. My heart aches for you both. Quek and Ryl I love you both so much. And it hurts to see you both this way. Somehow i wish i could do something for you two. To let you both to cheer up. Smile more like you both usually do. My heart ached as i passed those msgs. Tears were at the brim of my eyes. I really love you both. I'll be your eyes and hands for you both. And i'll promise to take care of both. Promise. Don't say thank you. I'll hear non of that. Its my duty as a friend.

I'm finally going to be the Andrea yall used to know. I fucking can't take it anymore. I will not mention names or anything. But if you are reading and you know who you are. Then good. Firstly, don't act like you care when you acutally don't really. Lesbians have their rights too. We are humans as well. Humans have feelings okay fuck shit. Noone can control their feelings. So what if we love the same sex? I don't see what is wrong. Morally and religiously some may say its wrong. That's your opinion. Just keep your fuck ass outta stuff that doesn't concern you fuck. I'm pissed so pissed. So pissed at how some can be so fake. So fucking shit fake. That's why precisely noone can take my shit. Just cause i'm honest. Just cause i don't lie and that i'm not fucking fake.I don't wear a mask to school and fucking act.

Then i realised my mood. My imood on the left. This year alone i have set the mood inferior god knows how many times. I really need to do something to boost that morale of mine. I need to learn that people love me for who i am. I need to. The two words of the week. "IF ONLY" Go think about it.

// If Only*

This is for you. You know who you are. :)
You're amazing, so amazing
Have I told you enough?
You're an angel, my guardian angel
God knows I, I've been blessed with love

Been pretty occupied. *smiles* Glad that i am occupied with you. Thanks for being there for me. Really. Thanks alot. Though many things are going on around us now. I'm sure everything will be fine soon. I'm so so broke. Literally zero now. -sighs- The trouble of being poor. Just everything doesn't seem right. Somehow. Future seems so bleak. So unsure.

School's been okay. Not very busy but okay. Just i think i'm a little worn-out with everything else. Thursday stayed back for the photoshoot. Chy and Jem's photoshoot. Two of them just look so great. Fantastic Chemistry. So happy for the both of them. Friday had NATAS travel fair. I honestly thought it was crap. Was already having some problems. The smell of pamphlets was over powering, there was so many people, thus resulting in a very headachy and grumpy Andrea. Went down to accompany Shaun during his work. Spend time talking about alot of stuff. Thanks. :) Today, headed to Quek's place and quek and Shaun cooked for me! Hehe. Yummy~ Felt like a princess, didn't need to lift my tiny fingers. Haha. Shaun sweets, your pasta was great! Can't wait for somemore food! Hehe. Tommorow i think i'm going to my aunt's new place.

Ryl* Babe i love you. You know i do. My shoulder and ears are here for you 24/7. Love you loads.

Quek* Same goes for you. I love you too. I'm here even at 0300 remember? Anytime ducky.

Chy* My pretty Chy. I love you too! Hang in there! And please drink more water. Remember its not your fault. Not one bit. *hugs*

Jem* I can't believe i'm saying this but i love you dude! Please take good care of Chy. :)

Keke* *hugs u titely* I'm always here for hugs. They are unlimited okay? U'll have my hugs for life. Love you too babe.

Shaun* Sweets, thanks for everything. Esp your Aglio Olio. Can't wait for you, Jem and Keke to enter Saffron. So exciting! Thanks for everything. The hugs and your ears. Please take good care of that sore throat or you will zhao xia like Chy. *hugs*

//Everything will be fine soon. I promise*

APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret.
Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong
mentality. Loves attention.Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves
people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous.
Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional.
Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates
oneself and others.Sickness usually of the head and chest.
Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

True about me? Let me know. Haha

After much reluctance i'm here to blog proper. Abit. Just feel like letting things out. My only place where i can type whatever i want. Pretty stressed up with school. It has been so busy. Like Major. Only have time to hang out with the rest during breaks and meet for dinner.

Honestly, i don't know what is going through my mind. I haven't been myself lately. And i'm going on a major weight loss. I'll be fine soon. Im trying to eat as much as i used to but my tummy is kinda rejecting food. But hey, i'm trying ain't i?

Keke, Chy, Ryl, Quek, Jem n Shaun especially. Thanks for everything. I really don't know what i would do without you guys. Love yall so much. *hugs all tite*

The Trouble With Love Is - Kelly Clarkson

Ooooohh
Oooohhhh ya
Mmmmm

Love can be a many splendored thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses
Diamond rings
Dreams for sale
And fairy tales
It'll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
It'll fool you every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See you've got no say at all

Now I was a once a fool it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
I'm sadder but I'm wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See you've got no say at all

Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin
And I keep on fallin
Over and over again
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pouring rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

The trouble with love is (the trouble with love)
It can tear you up inside (it can tear you up inside)
Make your heart believe a lie (Make your heart believe a lie)
It's stronger than your pride
(The trouble with love is) It's in your heart it's in your soul
(It doesn't care how fast you fall) You're losing all control
(And you can't refuse the call)
So you've got no say at all
The trouble with love is (Oooo ya)
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie (the trouble with love..)

Don't Tell Me You're Sorry - S Club 8

You took me up, drew me in
Like a moth into your flame
Put your jinx in a deadly kiss
Your body locked me down in chains.
Didn't read the danger signs
'Til you crept into my mind
Made me believe you were so in love
I was mesmerized.

Fell Down to earth now baby
I heard my wake up call
You're not a high I can't get off.

Too little too late girl
Didn't know what you had 'til it's gone
(Don't tell me you're sorry now)
Too little too late girl
Can't get back what's already lost
Now you're alone

I still see your reflection in
A corner of my head
You're the tainted mirror image
That my heart has to reject
So I've gotta keep my distance
When you tell me you can change
You can't burn me
With the heat of your love
Cos I've put it in the shade

Nothing you can do can phase me
Since I got my wake-up call
You can't do your damage like before

Can't turn back the clock
Can't make momentum stop
And every time I look at you
I hesitate
I get a trigger in my mind
That makes me rewind
And remember how you blew my heart away

// Nothing you do will change my mind. Nothing*

So here i am. Sitting in front of the com not knowing what to do. Irony, I have a zillion things to do. Firstly i'm not even supposed to be at home. I'm supposed to be out and about with the rest of the Cougars. Secondly, i'm supposed to be doing Mbs. If not i still have travel kit presentation to do. Or even change this blinking blog skin. But i'm not doing anything but blogging.

Was going to write a testimonial for Ryl, Chy, Quek, Shaun, Keke and Lor Mee. But then Friendster refuses to accept my testimonial for Chy and Ryl. So i gave up. So i'm deleting some friends on friendster. Like those i have no idea who the hell they are and what the hell they are doing on my friendster. Hahaha.

Finally i'm breaking down. Its finally gotten to me. One week has passed. Soon i hope, i won't be counting the days slowly. Being Single is good ain't it. Noone can make me do anything. I go where i want to. Do what i want to. Talk to who i want to. Freedom in exchange for love some may ask. *shrugs* I don't believe in regretting. What is done cannot be undone right. Just live with it. And be strong. And i know, i'm doing just fine. I am.

Then i realised i've been feeling inferior. To almost everyone. I was never like that. Never. Some of you know. What in the world happened i have no idea. I need to learn to love myself. Love myself for who i am.

In school till about 1600 hours again. Doing Mbs. Pretty much, my life has been Mbs Mbs Mbs. *sighs* And its still not completed. Gotta tie up loose ends. Chy was doing all the work today. Sorry my dear Chy. *hugs* In e end, Shaun cancelled work to accompany me to watch Honey with Chy, Jem, Ryl and Quek. If not i'll be a Major light bulb. Honey is still as good even after watching it the second time. Oh, Quek and Ryl thanks for paying for my ticket. Love ya guys! After the movie, headed to Coffee Bean and pigged out. Haha. Got home around 1200. Im so tired. Off to do my stuff now.

Got home not long ago. Stayed in school till about 2200 hours then headed to Shaun's place to watch Keke's Husband on Tv. Haha. Although half the time i was falling asleep on the couch. Then went down to 85 for a feast. My poor tummy had a hard time. All the not eating finally got to me. Then Shaun, sent Keke and i home. Thanks Shaun. As i speak, gastric pains are still going on. Going to continue with some of my work then head to bed. I'm sleepy. Gotta be up at 0730 hours tommorrow. :/

I'm so darn tired. My eyes are popping out. Mbs is killing me. Not only me actually. Everyone else too. Stayed in school till about 2200 hours. Was doing Mbs the whole day. Today is going to be a long day too. Mbs, Econs, Travel Kit presentation. These are the things that are due next week. I'm falling apart.

Will only be looking forward to Shaun's place later on at night to chill and watch William Hung together with da rest. We all need a break. We deserve one.

Chy* Babe, if it ain't for you i would probably die. Thanks for putting up with my nonsense etc. Tmr, mbs. We can do it!

Ryl* Ah ryl "quek's accent", you can do it too! Although your Jie Mei can just go and die. You can do it on your own! Jia you!

Keke* My dear Swa He, you'll do just fine. We are all here. Love ya too!

Shaun* Thanks for everything. Especially the chocolates. So much chocolates in one day. Trying to make me fat right? Haha. Can't wait to head to your place later. We will all make it through Mbs!

KC Cougars* I miss you babes SO much. Can't wait to see yall on Sunday! So glad we decided to meet up again. I miss yall so so much. Miss cheerleading so badly. C ya on Sun!

*hugs Ryl, Chy, Quek, Shaun, Jem, Becks, Ron, Keke*

// My poor little weak eyes.

Sarah McLachlan - Fallen

Heaven bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

We all begin out with good intent
When love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
I've held so dear.

I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

Heaven bend to take my hand
I've nowhere left to turn
I've lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
That it's one misstep one slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

America's Next Top Model is DARN Depressing. Now i feel even more shitty than ever. Im unwanted. Noone wants me.

I'm going to change a new blogskin soon. Tired of this one. When i'm finally done editing with it that is. Keep your eyes on a lookout.

I'm feeling sleepy. I guess i'll go take a short nap. Meeting the rest of my project group members online later at 2300 hours to do peer appraisal and reaction paper i reckon. *sighs* Mbs is due next week, Chy and i haven't even started doing a single thing. Must remind her again.

Stomach has been rejecting food. I feel so uncomfortable now. My eyes are closing. -_-And soon i'll be able to dental floss them like how i threaten Shaun. Haha. He's going to kill me if he sees this. :p

I was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye as she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many time before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
And I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many time before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
And I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything's alright
My pressure on your hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that's what you want me to do

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many time before
Her heart is breaking in front of me
And I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many time before
And my heart is breaking in front of me
She said Goodbye too many times before

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many time before
Her her her (Yeah) breaking in front of me
And I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore


This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many time before
Her heart is breaking in front of me
And I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

Sel*Thanks for everything. I love you too my girlfriend. Hahaha. Meet up again ya? And remember if he bullies u, i'll castrate him arh. Love you baby!! *hugs and muacks* Oh oh oh, go check my review of the day in your guestbook. I was laughing like hell as i was typing it. LOL.

Mac, landlady, rusty, kaka, baa, anty, sissy n etc.*I miss yall. Been a long time since i spoke to some of u online

Chy, Ryl* Love you too. Thanks for the concern. Im fine. C yall in school tmr.

Quek* U don't ttm too. Tc ya. C ya ard. :)

Shaun* Ah shaun, thanks for the concern too! I'll be fine. Meet for ba chor mee and simpang milo dino soon!!

Sarah McLachlan - Angel

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memories seep from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless then maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you feel
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe
in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you feel
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

Whoever has this song, please send it to me. Thanks. I'll appreciate it very much.

Sarah McLachlan - Angel

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memories seep from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless then maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you feel
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe
in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you feel
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.

You are a Queen!
Beautiful, Wise, Strong
Righteous, Commanding, Humble


You are the beautiful and compassionate Queen. You are the epitomy of what every woman should be. You are confident, bold, aggressive, smart, womanly and feminine. You know the right thing to do and do it. You command respect and earn praise. You are moral and loving. In times of trouble, you draw strength from within, and are a source of strength for others.

I'm dreading the play today. Yeah, i'm going to watch Such Sweet Sorrow. Such irony huh. Such Sweet Sorrow. I'm prepared for the worst. What could happen? Nothing i hope. Nothing i hope. Talked online till late last night. Better then going off to bed not tired which will end up making me think about crap shit. Y am i even blogging? No idea. Noone ever leaves comments on my commenting board anymore. All dead huh?! I'm still sane okay.

Cruise Inspection today. Finally for once i decided to upload the pics onto imagestation. Yeah i know, must be a member to view. Just join dammit.

Bad mood today. Bad bad mood. Nothing to blog. Just. Nothing. Have fun viewing the pics then.

I'm going to blog proper this time. Been slacking around since yesterday. Today slacked in the library with Shaun, Jem, Kerrie, Chy, Ryl and blah blah blah. I had plenty of time to kill anyway. Tommorrow, i'll be crashing the morning econs lecture cause we have this star cruise trip in the afternoon. No i ain't going for a cruise. Just going for a cruise inspection. Formal wear please. Court shoes and blazer all. :/ I will be melting away. So darn hot.

Finally Travel Kit is over. So is my Arts Appreciation. Now its left with Mbs and Econs. But both ain't that tough as Travel Kit. So at least the main one is done with. All the lack of sleep is still getting to me. Still recovering. Am yawning as i speak. I'll go sleep after this. Need my beauty sleep. :p

Thing's haven't been going very well for me. But i'll be strong. I can do it. Yes i can. *smiles* Somehow i can't wait for my birthday to come. *beams* Anyway, i saw this tinkerbell snowglobe at wheelock earlier on. It costs 88 bucks i think. Its so PRETTY please. I think im in love. But i don't have da cash for it. *pouts* As i mentioned earlier, my birthday is coming! *hint hint* The tinkerbell in the snowglobe is crystal. So darn pretty! *winks at all*

I need to change my blogskin. Getting very sick of this one. When im free la huh. Taataa~

Should i stay, Should i go?

Im in school's lab blogging and chatting on miRc. Hahahaha. -evil laugh- Im so bored and hungry! Waiting for princess beautiful chy to come to school to have lunch with me cause Ryl and Ryn are busy doing their project now. Teeheehee. :p

Im dying of hunger~~~ X(

My presentation this morning was so screwed.. I never had a presentation worst than this. Was lost for words for the first time. Damned. There goes my A grade. Bloody fucked up tutor. Argh. Shall not think about it anymore. its over anyway. What can i do. :/

Honey! Watched Honey just now. I just had to de-stress. Really shagged out. It was a Fantastic show. Fabulous so to speak of. Wish i could talk the talk and walk the walk like Jessica Alba. Hahaha. But of course i can't. Just hoping. *crosses toes* Anyhow, a good movie to catch. Loads of smooth grooves. Funkay please. Made me so wanna go clubbing again.

Had a long day in school. And tommorrow's just going to be another long day. Tourism Destination & Travel & Tour Business, Arts Appreciation projects are due on Wednesday. So i'm pretty caught up with work. Good luck to all my fellow Tourism Students. Hang on~ The project's almost over.

Haven't been getting enough sleep and been facing the com doing my projects endlessy. That explains the mood swings cum depression i suppose. =/

Yeah
Uh
New Blaque
Darckchild, Darkchizzle
The jump off

I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good

Is it true that I'm the one making you nervous?
Trying real hard as if I'm for sure priss
By you and your crew, that's helpless
You saw that, that's me outside
I know you, kinda seem so confused
You can't understand how my diamonds seem blue
But its cool its true, its unusual
A girl so fly out shining a guy

We can talk about this, lets talk about it
We can talk about this, don't think about it
About me on the floor, that's what I came here for
So pump ya breaks it seem as if ya wantin' more

It ain't me, I’m sorry you got the wrong one
It ain't me; I just came out to have fun
It ain't me, go and find another one
I don't like what your kickin' son, now leave

Cause even if I leave alone, I'm good
And even if you come along, I'm good
Don't mean a thing to me cause, I'm good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, I'm good
Say what you do for me than, I'm good
You don't really mean a thing cause, I'm good
With or without you

I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good

Playas please, please stop frontin' and do you
I didn't know Benz started making Isuzu's
But its new, cause I do what I do
Which causes me not to be needin' you
When I leave, I got a crib to go to
That I got myself straight out of high school
So if you comin' at me, be ready
Cause there ain't no way I'm gonna let somebody play me

We can talk about this, lets talk about it
We can talk about this, don't think about it
About me on the floor, that's what I came here for
So pump ya breaks it seem as if ya wantin' more

It ain't me, I'm sorry you got the wrong one
It ain't me; I just came out to have fun
It ain't me, go and find another one
I don't like what your kickin' son, now leave

Cause even if I leave alone, I'm good
And even if you come along, I'm good
Don't mean a thing to me cause, I'm good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, I'm good
Say what you do for me than, I'm good
You don't really mean a thing cause, I'm good
With or without you

I'm good I'm good without you (said I'm so good)
I'm good I'm good (whoooaa)
I'm good I'm good without you (said I'm so good)
I'm good I'm good (whoooaa)

(Introducin' Natina yep!)

Yo, I'm only Clyde if you clip me
And I still got ice even if you ain't wit me
Candy paint and I still bump Biggie
Halter, throwback, ripped up dickies
She hate me cause I'm nice up on the mic
I'm twice the size of rice
My flow keepin em' right
Brain dead you need cents like 50
Cause you don't truly love me like Bobby love Whitney
No

Cause even if I leave alone, I'm good
And even if you come along, I'm good
It don't mean a thing to me cause, I'm good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, I'm good
Say what you do for me than, I'm good
don't mean a thing cause, I'm good
With or without you

I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good

I'm good!

Feeling some what of fucked up and upset. All the things are finally getting to me. School everything. Just realised we'll be getting back Mid Term results back. Fuck shit. Going to fail every single fucking paper. Fuck fuck fuck. Argh. I hate my life. N most of all. I hate myself. Fucking moron.

While she lays sleeping
I stay out late at night to play my songs
And sometimes all the nights can be so long
And it's good when I finally make it home, all alone
While she lays dreaming,
I touch her face across the silver light
I see her dreams that drift upto the sky
And she wakes up to my kiss and I say it's alright
And I hold her tight.

And she believes in me
I'll never know just what she sees in me,
I told her someday if she was my girl
I could change the world with my songs, but
I was wrong
But she has faith in me
And so I go on trying faithfully
Forever in my heart she will remain
And I hope and pray
I will find a way,find a way

While she lays waiting
I ask myself do I hurt her so
What called me on a long and this lonely road,
Why dont i turn around and head back home where I belong
While she lays crying
For she knows my heart is ripped in two
I'm torn between the things that I should do
She deserves it all and I'd give it if i could, god her love is true

While she lays sleeping
While she lays sleeping for me.

Currently tying up loose ends on travel kit and will start doing my arts appreciation. Baby's over at my place now. But i have to do my projects. =\ Anyhow, Congrats to all who recieved their O level's results. From what i know, there aren't any bad news. Looking forward to seeing yall in Tp then. *winks*

Met up with Lili and her new other half, Loh, Leong, Mich, Jamie. We headed down to Wheelock's Nooch. I had tom yam glass noodles~! Yummy~ They were debating if glass noodles was tang hoon. I kept telling them it was and Jamie didn't believe. Then my tom yam glass noodles came! Haha. Tang hoon~! I told ya so!! Bwahaha. After dinner we walked around town then headed down to Monks. Oh oh oh, Loh and Lili said i lost alot of weight. *beams* But they say it ain't a good thing. And asked me to becareful! Why is everyone telling me the same thing? Its supposed to be a good thing ain't it?

Monks was okay. It was pretty quiet though. Never seen the place so empty before. Loads of drama that night. First up, Jamie brought her own Bacardi with Coke. For gods sake, it was almost Pure Bacardi. Trying to kill all of us please. And before Midnight. We had one very high Leong and Jamie. Yes Jamie your fine. You just puked that's all. Haha. Then we bought our entry drinks and went in. No idea why, but all of us got pretty high. I fell three freaking times. Now i have two blue blacks!! =/ First, i fell off the bar top while dancing with Leong. Then fell of the top of the toilet cause of some drama. Then fell off the stage while searching for Leong. What a night please. Stayed till closing. Mad dancing that night please. Totally. And it seems like i was the only one dancing away. Hahaha. Headed for Cheese and Egg Prata for supper. Yummy~ Hehehe. Then went home to zZzzZz. Damned tired i tell you. Just now for dinner, Mummy brought baby and i for Blk 85 Ba Chor Mee~!! Whooppeee~! Fabulous i tell you!!

School starts on Monday. And its going to be packed with the JAE going on. =/ Have a new lecturer for Tourism Destination. Like wtf, change the lecturer after half the semester is gone? Madness. *yawns* Off to do my work. Its going to be a real busy week with so many datelines.

Finally kinda done with travel kit. Just trying to tie up some loose ends here and there. And also trying our very best to cut cost. The current whole package selling price is SGD 1400. About there or so. Which is very expensive in our context. Its a 8 days, 7 Nights, Chiang Rai, Chiang Mai and Bangkok tour with a hot air balloon flight in Chiang Mai. Cool rite? Haha. Im in charge of Chiang Mai. *grins* Pretty happy that we are almost done. So that there will be no need for last min rushing or panicking.

Econs project has been put aside for the time being. Still have Arts App to do. Did most of my research already. Left with the presentation to do. Sheesh~ Mbs, haha. Wasnt't fruitful today (thurs). Both blur cocks (chy n i) just sat there n stared at the thing. Then we figured we had no idea on what to do. Plus her heart was with travel kit so decided to meet later today at 1300 hours after my travel kit meeting. Okay, why am i going on about my project?!~

Im pretty tired from all the projects. Late nights, early mornings and facing the com all the time. My poor lil eyes. But, will be going for dinner with leong, lili, loh, mich etc for dinner. Just realised i'll be the youngest there. =/ Then some of us will head down ta monks! Haha. Been months since i've been to that place. Shall go de-stress!

Good luck to all who are taking O'levels results today! Remember msg Andrea arh! Esp those who i have reminded constantly. *hugs*

Sel Darling: My girlfriend. You are my girlfriend lor~! And i have your picture in my wallet ever since duno when. U so bo sim. =(

Baby: Can't wait to see you! Miss you loads suddenly. =p

Leong: Blog girl blog. Whoopee Monks here we go. *pinches yer ass*

Some Love Quiz
i did.
My results:

1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and
free. *Am i? Haha*

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is straight-forward, just tell you he/she
loves you. *Yes! Totally!*

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is stylish. * Wth. Really? I do not have the slightest idea*

4. What you hate most in your partner is that the person is
ruthless, cold-blooded, and/or ironic. *shrugs, maybe*

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is that both of you can talk about everything and
anything, no secret is kept.* Ya sia~! Totally!*

6. You are tolerant; you'll try very hard not to commit adultery. * Im loyal, and yall know that. Il never cheat. Haha*

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married,
you'll treasure it and your partner very much.* We shall see in e future ah*

8. At this moment, you are quite self-centered; you think of love as
something you can get and trash anytime you want. *Don't think so*

Some kind of ass luck today. Saw Janice Yap again. Like what fuck! Anyway, she was sneaking peaks at us (baby + i). I glared back of course. Enough about her. Not worth mentioning anymore.

Was in school doing project from 1300 hours - 1800 hours. Madness. As jermaine said in his rececnt blog entry. Everyone is so busy with the projects. Sheesh~ Tomorrow, i will be in school doing Mbs with Chy chy. Haha. Two blur shits doing Mbs. Going to need help again. =/ Got to start on my Cost sheet now. *mutters* Crap shit i tell you.

Been real busy lately. Like major. The holidays aren't so holidays after all. All the projects are driving me nuts. Datelins datelines and more datelines. And half of my week is already gone! I'm trying to blog a super speed cause my mum has been like get off the com at 12am Sharp!! Damn her. I'm so freaking busy, u don't give me enough allowance. And you want to control so much of my life. Fish it please.

Went down to Nyp to accompany baby while she does her Fyp and i do my work alongside. I guess that's going to be the case for the rest of the semester. Haven't even got the chance to sleep in yet. This ain't holidays! its pure torture. Argh~! Got to go continue with the Projects

*pats tummy* Heee. I really really really Full. *burps* Like major. Cooked pasta! Muahahaha. Yes Andrea cooked pasta! Heyy come on, i can cook if i want to okay! It may not be fantastic but it's edible afterall. Haha. Im blardyy full dammit. *beams proudly*

Saturday we headed to katong! My old hang out! To eat katong laksa of course! Yummy i tell you. Considering i haven't eaten it for a long long time. Then went to watch Somethings gotta give at Ps. Nice show please. Romantic and totally hilarious. Haha.

Its like suddenly i have no idea on what to blog. Tsk. So irritating. Shall go do my Travel Kit already then. Taa~

Seline darling* heyy babe.. Mid-term tests over already! Yay! Can go out shopping! Heehee. I miss you please! Promise that we'll meet up soon ya? Don't worry about everything. Everything will turn out fine ya? And most importantly, Andrea's here for you! Hahaha. Count yourslef lucky okay best friend! *muacks* Catch up with ya real soon. *hugs*

Mid term tests over. Finally over. I am going to fail all as expected. I mean, i have no idea what was going on at all. Hardly studied. But i'm glad its all over. But now comes the other part, project datelines. Heaven knows how much more i can take. Physically and mentally. But, i'll hold on. I will.

Worst week of my life so far. Everything just seems so wrong. Hardly even slept. 3 hours per day. I'm dozing off now as i type. *yawns* Today was the worst day. Worst.
I saw her. Yes her. Janice Yap. I was happily walking alone. About to get outta town and go pick baby up from work. When, i saw her. I just stood there and stared. (she was sitting down on a bench) I reckoned with my cap on, she couldn't recognise me or maybe she was just too engrossed with her ugly boyfriend. I think i stood there for about 5 mins or so. Just stood and stared at them. I don't know what got into me. I got so upset. Tears fell. Could feel my blood pressure rising. Hands turned cold. Was just about to walk up to her and act like a mad woman when Mahathir, Jess, Tracy, Zhi Fan popped outta no where. They saved me. Saved me from breaking down and acting like a fool.

Just saw her at the wrong time. When i felt the weakess. Physically and mentally. I just broke down. Everything just fell apart. Everything.

Skies are dark
It's time for rain
Final call
You board the train
Heading for tomorrow

I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears, you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow

How can I be smiling like before
When baby you don't love me anymore?

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Mmmmm....
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go,
So say isn't so

Ten to five at least we've tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the door behind you
Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I'd never found you, whoa...

How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be stong enough to carry on?

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go,
So say isn't so

Miles and miles to go,
Before I can say, before I can lay
My love for you to sleep
Oh darling oh
I've got miles and miles to go,
Before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again.

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say isn't so

Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say isn't so

If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say isn't so

Staccie Orrico - I Promise

Will I always be there for you
When you need someone
Will I be that one you need
Will I do all my best to
To protect you
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night
Will i keep the rain from fallin down into your life
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender care of you
Take your darkest night
And make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong
And to lean on
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold


Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life
I promise, I promise
I promise, I promise
I promise I will, yeah

And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I'll promise I'll be there for you
There for you

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life
I promise, I promise
I promise I will, yeah

Trust me. Please trust me. Please.

Celebrated Valentine's Day over two days. *smiles* On Friday, we went walking around town as usual. Then watched Along Came Polly. Go watch it. Its a good show. Go catch it. Got my valentine's day present! Its a swatch watch! *smiles widely* I Love the watch! So Andrea. Haha. Stripes! Wheeee~ The only part that it ain't me is that the watch is baby blue. But e contrast in e stripes and e blue is so nice. Love the watch. Thanks baby! *muacks*

Might be Mia for a few days. Mid term test next week. *frowns*
Monday, 16th Feb ---> Tourism Destinations, 1100-1200 hours.
Wednesday, 18th Feb ---> Managing Business Systems, 1100-1200 hours.
Thursday, 19th Feb ---> Macroeconomics, 0900-1000 hours.

I'm going to die. Haven't started studying. *frowns hard* But then again like what Chy and Ryl says. Drea you won't study till the day before. So don't pretend to be hardworking. Bwahahahaha. *grins* I'm trying to be hardworking okay! Heehee. Worst case scenario, fail my tests lor. Choy!

Lil Cow: Baby! You are finishing your Sip soon so don't worry okay? The moment I finish my mid-term, you finish your Sip! So yay! Can go clubbing! Heehee. Love you baby and thanks for the watch! *winks and muacks*

Chy and Ryl: Mei nu's! I'm like the grass and you two the flowers. I know what a analogy. But so many people said that you two were pretty I'm jealous! *whines* Bwahahaha. Anyhow, both study hard ya. Then again Chy study hard. Ryl scores all A's so no need to ask her to study hard. *grins* Love ya both! *muacks*

Leong: Wheee~ I got my White Flash Havaianas already! Yay! I love it! So funky and comfortable! Show you another day k? Anyhow, take care and I'll see you soon! And maybe go clubbing ya babe? *winks*

Sel darling: Whey! Scare the hell outta me today. Saw you with your date! Heehee. Not bad not bad. If anything happens i must be the first to know okay. And i Miss clubbing with you can! Now i got no more clubbing khaki already! Tsk. I don't care. During the holidays must go club with me. Meanwhile study hard for your mid-term. Love ya loads. Miss ya too. *hugs*

Mac, Rusty, Kaka, Baa, Sissy and all Irc mates: Love yall! Heehee. You guys take care ya. Will talk to yall when my test are over or when i come online to destress for awhile. *muacks and hugs*

Okay, now must pretend to be studious already. Taataa~

Reality Check. You ain't one bit pretty. You ain't one bit smart. You ain't one bit attractive. You have a blinking bitchy look. You are dao at times. You are bitchy. You just ain't every other girl. You get judged by people all the time. But, You have someone who loves you. I guess that's all that matters. *hugs baby tightly*

I am who i am. And i'll let the world see that. Your loss not mine. I like the way i look. I like the way i speak. And i love me. No, i ain't a narcissist. Just happy with the way i am.

I've been really busy. Like really. School and everything else. Just really hectic. Big time. Pretty tired. Late nights and early mornings everyday. Its starting to get to me. But i'll be strong and hang on. I have to be.

// Don't look at me

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down oh no
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone left the puzzle undone
It that the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down oh no
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down oh no
So don't you bring me down today...

No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what we say
(no matter what we say)
We're the song inside the tune
Full of beautiful mistakes
And everywhere we go
( and everywhere we go)
The sun will always shine
(sun will always, always shine)
But tomorrow we might awake
On the other side

We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down oh no
So don't bring me down today...

Don't you bring me down...today...
Don't you bring me down...mmmmm...today...*

So depressed now. I need you dear. I swear. I really do.

Heaven bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

We all begin out with good intent
When love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
I've held so dear.

I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

Heaven bend to take my hand
I've nowhere left to turn
I've lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
That it's one misstep one slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

Third time i'm blogging. Fuck Bill Gates. One more time his bloody Explorer hangs on me. Grrrr. *growls* Bloody hell.

Blogged about unhappy stuff anyway. Shall not talk about it anyway. Janice Yap Yi Hui, i hope your doing fine out there. Just leave Bessy alone ya? Don't need to message her happy birthday this year. Thanks.

Okay i'm officially nuts. Talking to a person who doesn't even know my name. Only known to her as "my ex's gf. The mad one who want to beat me up." But hey, she might chance upon this right?

Okay Andrea. Im fine now. Needed to talk to myself in a third person. Hahahas.

Went to school for one lecture and skipped the rest! Lol.. Not my idea, Chy and Ryl wanted to go down town to get Valentine's Day presents so we just skipped lecuture. Plus nothing important this week so heck it. *grins* Bought your present already. Hope you like it. *smiles weakly*

Saw the Fcuk Skirt again. Falling in love with it even more. Totally. Its 99 bucks for heaven's sake. I can't afford it. *frowns* I like it so much! It so. Nice. Never mind. Somethings just aren't meant to be yours.

Presentation tommorrow. Got to go prepare. *frowns harder*

Brunch - Main Course: Maggi mee, Drink: Coke, Dessert: Chocolate from Chocolate Box.
Hahahaha. That was my brunch for today. I know. Im sick and i shouldn't be having all these when i'm coughing my lungs out. But i can't help it! I'm alone at home and noone is here to control me. I get all these cravings and i can't help it! Heehee. I've eaten them and noone can stop me. *chuckles* Okay, i'll take my medicine after this and drink loads of water and get more rest. I can already hear people nagging away in my head.

Didn't turn up for school again today, massive headache, slight fever blah.. No choice but to come online to continue my research and all. Sheesh. *whines*

Vday is coming! Haha. I shall put up a wish list in case anyone wants to get me anything. Haha. Chances are none of you are going to get anything from my list even. Heehee. Typical andrea.

1. Mango Skirt - $65
2. Fcuk Skirt - $99
3. Mango red leather bracelt - $20

Errr... Nothing else.. Hahaha.. That's all that caught my eyes while i was shopping. Hehehe..

Maye: Thanks for e *.. Hahaha.. I love ew.. U tc ya. And enough of those fags sissy. =)

Off to my work now. Love yall.. *muacks*

Retail theraphy today! Or to be precise these two days. Bought my Esprit blazer as i blogged yesterday. 50% discount. Then went to get my Topman belt. On sale too! Got it at 9 bucks! *grins* Then got this long sleeved top from Mango. You know, e usual semi see through type i wear. 29 bucks only~ *beams* I feel so accomplished. I mean. All so cheap! Hahaha. Cheered me up somehow. *smiles*

Lil cow found out what i was getting her for Valentine's Day. *whines* Not fair. This always happens! *sulks*

I'm broke already. All my ang bao money gone. *weeps* I still have a whole load of school work waiting for me. Guess i have no choice but to do them. *sighs*

I was searching for my econs article when i chanced upon this. Fourteen year old girls most vunerable. Its a full article on the straits time or something. Know what. I was fourteen when i went with that hell of a asshole ryan rodrigues!!! Bwahahahahaha.. Now we know why... hahahahaha... rofl....

Fourteen-year-olds are more vulnerable than other age groups because with hormonal changes in their bodies, they are more likely to 'throw caution to the wind and do anything they want,' said PAGi chairman Carmee Lim.

And they become easy prey because they are easily influenced,she said.

Cher: Hey babe. Nice seeing you yesterday too! Missed ya! *hugs* Though we didn't have a chance cause you were with your "ahem" Peiwen.*cheeky grin* Haha. Im fine girl. Still very stressed up though. But techinically i'm fine. I think. Hee. You take care of youself and i'll catch up with you real soon k? Love ya babe.

Where are you. What's going on. I need you. I miss you. I'm so tired. All so tired. Tell me you love me. Tell me that everything's going to be fine. Tell me. I'm more than anything. That finally, i mean more than she does/did before. That you love me the most. That you never felt this way. I guess, this is just Me: Blabbling away. I wish. How i wish. All these were the truth. I wish.

Stoning away now. Waiting for your message. But i think it ain't going to come. Off to my school work then. At least, i'm kept busy for awhile longer. At least.

Thanks for your concern everyone else. Im fine. No worries ya? If i need a listening ear. I'll talk to either one of you. Love all. *hugs and kisses*

Bought my blazer finally. Its so cool. Its different from your every other blazer. The collar is kinda satin. Its in tux style to be precise. Cool right? And it was on 50% discount! Though it cost 90bucks after discount but i LOVE it!

Cried on e bus again. Crying everyday. Just can't take it anymore. Falling apart.

I have a new piercing!Whoopee~ Hahaha. Don't ask me where i'll have a hard time describing. Its on e ear la. Don't think dirty! *grins*

I'm still feeling a little upset and all. With school. Stressed la. At least Review 1 of Mbs is over. But i still have Arts Appreciation and Econs due next week. And the on-going Tourism Destination/Travel & Tour Business Project. Busy me!

Got hit by a football on e face today. Freaking assholic guy. Hope his weenie turns in a banana! Hahahahahahaha. He made me cry okay. Cried twice today. Irritating. Thank god my mascara's water-proof!

Tommorrow i'm going to do my mask. With lil cow as my victim. Or put it in nicer terms. My model. Hahaha. Meeting Leong, Lili and Michele for dinner at night too.

So tempted to pick up a fag.

I guess i said i won't blog. But i have to. I need on outlet for all my stress and whatever not crapp shit. I'm so tired. Physically, mentally. Im breaking down.

Gave up on Mbs already. Fuck Bill Gates. He can go and die. I hate Microsoft Access as of now. Its fucking screwed. Big time. I don't know what the fuck to do for the fucking project. Thank god i still have Chynna. If it was a Solo project. I would have failed. Fuck TP for its lousy school system. Want me to volunteer during Open house? Then don't fucking put the mid-semester test the following week. We haven't even started on Macroeconomics Portfolio. Fuck it. Then there is Arts Appreciation. I fucking haven't done anything. And its fucking due next week! What the fucking hell is this! I haven't done Macroeconomics tutorial. I so don't want to do it. But i have to. I don't want to take supp again this semester.

Im breaking down. So much. I need you baby. So bad. But what is wrong with you. What is wrong? You're not saying a thing. Just telling me you're upset. With what fuck? Tell me! Stop keeping quiet. I can't take it. I don't know how long more I can bear with all the stress. Dear i need you. So badly.

The thought of my birthday conciding with Exams just makes things worst. I'll be mugging like fuck on my fucking birthday. My god damn it 18th birthday.

Fuck Fuck Fuck F u c k.

as i speak. tears fall.

STRESS~ Mbs, Econs, This, That, You, Me, Her, Him. Everything!

Won't be ircing these few days. Neither will i blog. Too busy way too busy. But i'm still on msn. *winks*

I'm coughing my lungs, stomach all internal organs out. Wana die~

Off to fooking Ms Access. Hate bill gates!

S t r e s S e d !

Somethings are just never meant to be. I hope some people get that. I'm happy the way i am. Happy somehow. Happy enough that i have a chance to even love her. Yes my lil baby. Even if it was one-sided. Im happy.

Its 7:55am in the morning. I have class later. Don't ask me why the hell i'm doing here so early in the morning. Some things just need to be cleared.

Hardly slept last night. Just couldn't sleep. Woke up before the alarm clock had a chance to ring.

I'm sorry if i said things i shouldn't have said. Just understand. Please.And leave me as i am.

Nothing happened. No nothing happened.

Has anyone even checked out the meaning of my url? I'm sure some of you know. For those who don't, go check. It's something most of us doing unknowingly. For me, I guess it happens. Most of the times.

Love you baby. *winks at lil cow* This one is for you

Oh
Yeah
Huh Oh

You complete me
Like air and water boy
I need thee
And when I'm in your arms I feel free
Fallen
My heads up in the clouds in love
I'm proud
To you say it loud
Like an accident it happend
Out of nowhere
It just happend
And I aint mad at all
Because I've

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love (Because of love)

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love

Baby
To let you get away is crazy (Let you get away)
so I'm doing what it takes
To make you pledge your love to me
You see cause I'm tryna be a lady
For ever and ever baby
The picture wouldn't be the same
If you weren't standing next to me
Can't you see I'm fallen

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen (I'm fallen)
In love with you
I've fallen (Oh)
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love (Because of love)

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I can't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

You compliment me
Not an accesory
Your nesesary
You never could speak bad words against me
Your bare with me
Security
Are you here with me
Your my hapiness
My joy (Joy)
It's all because of you boy
I look forward to the time
I spend with you
Whatever it is we do

Cause I'm fallen for you boy
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Fallen
I've fallen for you
Fallen
Head over heels for you
So in love with you
Fallen
Love, oh
For you

Touch me (Touch me)
Hold me (Hold me)
Love me (Love me)
Kiss me
In love with you
Talk to me (Talk to me)
Caress me (Oh)
Play with me
Don't wanna get up
Explore me
Your my everything

Fallen
Head over heels (To let you get away is crazy)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (I won't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

Fallen (Touch me)
Head over heels (Hold me)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen (Whoa)
And I can't get up (With you)
Don't wanna get up
Because of love

Fallen (In love)
Head over heels
I've fallen (My joy)
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I can't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

Fallen (Head over heels for you)
Head over heels (So in love with you)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I cna't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

Ryna on msn: "hey girl are u ok? u seem to mia alot this sem leh"
*sighs*.. I know people.. I've been mia alot this semester. And no, not mia cause i've run off to spend time with lil cow. I've been falling sick so constantly. This has never happened to me!!! What the hell in the world is wrong with me?!?! *shrugs* I have no idea either.

So i missed school again! Okay, what's new now. Sheesh~ I'm feeling better somehow. I mean at least e Snot ain't dripping like a leaking tap anymore. I know.. Ewwww. Yes. Now my sister is lying in bed sniffling away. She's got the virus from me i reckon. Not my fault hor! Poor girl..

Alamak! *slaps forehead* Chy msgd to say MBS Review Due this fri!! And i thought hari raya haji saved me from it! *mumbles*

Stress stress stress. . .

Sel darling, Im here for you. No matter what happens all of us supports your decision yar? Anything give me a msg or call.. Love ya babe.. *hugs*

S t r e s S e d !

I'm sick. AGAIN. *whines and whines and whines*

I've been pretty busy. Pretty busy with my lil cow that is. *smiles* Somehow things are back to normal. For good i hope. Spend the last 3days 2 nights with her. Quality time. *smiles again*

Saturday
Went to auntie Ryl's place to bai nian! Haha. Tracy, Jessica, Zhi Fan, Mahathir, Aaron, Ashraf, Lil cow, Jermaine were all there too. They were karakoing away half the time. Ryl and Tracy were such good singers! Can go join competition! And no i ain't bull shitting. Both of them were fatastic singers. *applauds* Lil cow and i left ealier and went down to town for a movie (stuck on you) And thanks to Ryl's wonderful food, we only had one meal for that day! The food at Ryl's house was so yummy~ After the movie we headed back to my place.

Sunday
Got awaken by a sms. Lil cow had to go visting, so she left for awhile. Then my mum decided that she will bring the both of us out for dinner @ Sakae Sushi! Yay! had so much food. So yummy~ And my mum paid! Ate my FAV ice-cream after that too! Compliments of my mum. Like what lil cow asked "Your mum good mood arh?" Me *nods head* Then we walked around and my mum decided it was time for me to buy my blazer. Saw this Mango one 119 bucks! And she was like buy lor! *fainted on the floor* BUT guess what. No more UK size 10 in the WHOLE of Singapore. (fook Mango). They asked me to wait for the repeat shipment and i asked when will that be. Her answer was " I don't know. When you are free come and see." #*@$&)~@! I very free huh?! Dammit. Never mind. My mum gave me 120bucks for it anyhow. Shall go look look around the shops for a nice nice and cheaper one. So i can go buy other things. *chuckles*

Tomorrow, do homework day. *mutters and mumbles* I got a whole lotta them waiting for me.

Kaka ~ Yes i agree in this world you either back stab or get back stab. But this one. Is one of the worst i've ever seen?

Cheryl ~ Yeah. Its been a long time too. You take care. I'll catch up with you soon.*hugs*

Mac ~ Youcan msg me anytime you want to. Anything just msg me. I'm here for you. Dun worry. Things will be better. They always get better.*hugs*

Yes, i didn't turn up for macroeconomics tutorial for e second time. I don't even have any idea how my bloody tutor looks like. And its already Week 4 of school. Thanks to my blinking headache and gastric again. All that talk about being more hardworking this semester. Constantly falling sick ain't helping one bit at all. not one bit. Can't seem to concentrate this semester. Everything seems so whoosh? Its just going to fast i suppose? Or am i just slow? *shrugs*

Headaches, migraines, gastric pains. They seem to be never ending for me. What the hell is wrong with me. Its affecting everything. Oh well, at least my insomnia is alot better. Somehow.

I'm so messed up. So messed up.

I'm disgusted by the way some people handle things. By the way how "back-stabbing" can happen. After going through so much in KC. This is probably the worst i've ever seen. But, its none of my business. So i shall not go on. Just really disgusted. Big time. *speechless*

I guess i'm going to continue research on Edvard Munch now. Anyone who is also a fan of his. Let me know. I need more information about him.

I though i fell in love this time. But as i did, i fell out of love. *irony*

Oh
Yeah
Huh Oh

You complete me
Like air and water boy
I need thee
And when I'm in your arms I feel free
Fallen
My heads up in the clouds in love
I'm proud
To you say it loud
Like an accident it happend
Out of nowhere
It just happend
And I aint mad at all
Because I've

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love (Because of love)

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love

Baby
To let you get away is crazy (Let you get away)
so I'm doing what it takes
To make you pledge your love to me
You see cause I'm tryna be a lady
For ever and ever baby
The picture wouldn't be the same
If you weren't standing next to me
Can't you see I'm fallen

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen (I'm fallen)
In love with you
I've fallen (Oh)
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love (Because of love)

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I can't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

You compliment me
Not an accesory
Your nesesary
You never could speak bad words against me
Your bare with me
Security
Are you here with me
Your my hapiness
My joy (Joy)
It's all because of you boy
I look forward to the time
I spend with you
Whatever it is we do

Cause I'm fallen for you boy
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Fallen
I've fallen for you
Fallen
Head over heels for you
So in love with you
Fallen
Love, oh
For you

Touch me (Touch me)
Hold me (Hold me)
Love me (Love me)
Kiss me
In love with you
Talk to me (Talk to me)
Caress me (Oh)
Play with me
Don't wanna get up
It's gonna be
Your my everything

Fallen
Head over heels (To let you get away is crazy)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (I won't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

Fallen (Touch me)
Head over heels (Hold me)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen (Whoa)
And I can't get up (With you)
Don't wanna get up
Because of love

Fallen (In love)
Head over heels
I've fallen (My joy)
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I can't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

Fallen (Head over heels for you)
Head over heels (So in love with you)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I cna't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

Fucking understand that im busy with project datelines okay!

I'm so stressed out. Datelines datelines and more datelines. Everything seems sp vague and confusing. No idea what is going on in school. And mid-term test is coming soon! *faints* Madness. I hate school. Especially projects. Gotta go complete my research, homework, project etc etc etc. Sheesh~

*mutters and mumbles*

Everything is fine. I'm so glad. *smiles* I Love You.

Met Toxic, Rusty and Kaka on Saturday and we caught Magic Kitchen. Not too bad a show. But nothing fantastic i suppose. Maggie Q was just sucha BABE. Made my money worth watchin e show. Just love her. So sensual, sexy and... Fantastic! I sound so pl-ish! *giggles*

Met up with Sel darling today too. Three of us walked around town. Bitched, Crapped and quarreled (cow and Sel). I Cut My hair! And I LOVE IT! *grins* If you want to see it. Come see me in person! Haha. Sounds so. Someone. Shall not say. =X Watched Peter Pan with cow today! I love e show! I love Tinkerbell!

I believe in faires. I do. I do.

Bleeding silently. Alone.

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh, things are gonna happen naturally
Oh, And taking your advice and I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
Oh, But it often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright light turns to night
Oh, Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of, others only read of bout' the love
Oh, the love that I love

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages, forewords
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of and if you could see me now
Oh, love love, you and I, you and I,
not so little you and I anymore, Umm
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of and if you could see me now
Well that I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally-dee-deedle le dee dee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I am free, Oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you had to go away
Oh, just remember the telephone well their workin it both ways
But if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of and if you could see me now
Well that I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of, Finally-dee-deedle le dee dee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Out of words

First day of Lunar New Year. Nothing Fantastic i suppose. Its just e same old routine. I think this year i recieved lesser Ang Baos. Well i haven't counted the money inside yet so who knows. *shrugs* As usual as i predicted, had loads of "suaning" from my relatives about my tube top and levi's super low. But i predicted. So was prepared for it. Just flash them my sweetest smile. And act all innocent.

Finally, the First day of Lunar new year is over. I can take out that mask of mine. Had to cheer myself up. Now, i feel free. Me. I can just be myself. Stop acting happy. And just show how i feel.

To you. Chances are you won't get to read this. If you do read this, then you did. If you don't then, you don't. I can't believe you doubt my love for you. After everything, you asked me if i still love you. If i didn't, i wouldn't have changed so much. I did everything for you and now you ask if i love you? Seriously, that made me speechless. Totally. Just because i don't treat you like before i don't love you? I told you time and time again. I'm reaching my limit. I'm tired of being the giver. You know what. Just forget it. Im rambling to myself anyway.

Bliss. Bliss of darkness. That's what someone said on MiRC to me yesterday. Just immersing myself in trivia. Stops my mind from going wild.

Sorry but my commenting board is down somehow. I think its enetation.co. Not me. Crap Shiat. Spoil my new year. *scowls*

Whee~ Happy Chinese New Year Everyone!
Collect more Ang Baos!
*muackies*

Gong Xi Fa Cai
Nian Nian You Yu
Wan Shi Ru Yi
Cai Yuan Guan Jing
Xue Ye Jing Bu

Like this song alot. Its so groovy~

Still in PMS mode though. -sulks-

Baby, can't you see
I'm calling
A guy like you
Should wear a warning
It's dangerous
I'm falling

There's no escape
I can't wait
I need a hit
Baby, give me it
You're dangerous
I'm loving it

Too high
Can't come down
Losing my head
Spinning round and round
Can you feel me now?

***
With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic
I'm slipping under
taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic?
And I love what you do
But you know that you're toxic
***
It's getting late
To give you up
I took a sip
From my devil's cup
Slowly
It's taking over me

Too high
Can't come down
It's in the air
And it's all around
Can you feel me now?

***
With a taste of your lips,
I'm on a ride,
You're toxic,
I'm slipping under,
taste of a poison paradise,
I'm addicted to you,
Don't you know that you're toxic?
And I love what you do,
But you know that you're toxic!
know that you're toxic!
***
Taste of your lips, I'm on a ride
You're toxic
I'm slipping under
taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic?

With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic
I'm slipping under (toxic)
taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic

Intoxicate me now
With your loving now
I think I'm ready now
I think I'm ready now
Intoxicate me now
With your loving now
I think I'm ready now

Im Fooking Stressed. Like bloody seriously. Fuck it. Okay sorry for e profanities. But what the bloody fuck!! -growls-

Im tired. Exhausted. Sick. And frigging Stressed.

Nothing is going my way since school started. Nothing at all.

Everything if fucking screwed. I just want to die. Now. Instant death please.

Im Sick. And alone at home again. No food. -sighs- I guess it will have to be maggi mee again. No choice. Il cook later. Feeling a lil wozzy at e moment. And i bloody missed Mbs Lab and Tourism Destinations Tutorial and lecture. There goes all my attendance. This semester seems to be going to fast. I can't catch up at all. I have no idea what is going on. Totally. Hate it when this happens. Im supposed to do better this semester. And its just e beginning of the semester. Im already lost. What's going to happen to me when all e bloody dateline's and Tests and Exams start. Il crumble beneath stress. I hate school.

Everything else is fine i suppose? Its just that everyone else seems so troubled and depressed. -sighs- It ain't helping me at all. Chinese New Year is coming. Im only probably looking forward to Tuan Yuan Fan. Yummy~

Gotta rest now. Nothing else to blog anyway. Love you guys. -muacks-

-exhausted-
-tired-
-drained-

Any other words?

Im fine.
Im too fine.
*shrugs*
Somehow, something seems to be all so wrong. I have no idea what though. I guess im just thinking too much into everything. Im pmsing too. No mood to blog even.

Thanks for everyone who was there for me. You guys know who u are. Thanks alot. *hugs*

Dear, i hope all goes well. All i can do now is hope and pray. Love you.

This song just perfectly describes how i feel.

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh, things are gonna happen naturally
Oh, And taking your advice and I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
Oh, But it often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright light turns to night
Oh, Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of, others only read of bout' the love
Oh, the love that I love

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages, forewords
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of and if you could see me now
Oh, love love, you and I, you and I,
not so little you and I anymore, Umm
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of and if you could see me now
Well that I’m almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally-dee-deedle le dee dee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I am free, Oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you had to go away
Oh, just remember the telephone well their workin it both ways
But if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of and if you could see me now
Well that I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of, Finally-dee-deedle le dee dee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Out of words

You Choose To Leave. Not Me.

Saturday
First we went down to Ikea. Had a Fabulous lunch there! Ate the local special: Chicken Rendang, Swedish meatballs and the kids meal: Chicken nuggets fries with Sparkling ribena. *licks lips* And the lil piggy cow, ate another two chicken wings! But it was so yummy, e chicken wings that is. Too bad i was too full so i missed out on e chicken wings. Then after feeling all full and lil piggy cow went to shiat! Haha. We walked around Ikea. Bought this stripey placemat. ONE only hahaha. -selfish- And some coloured boxes i've been wanting to get for sometime. Yay! Wanted to grab a hotdog but was still too full. -grins-

After Ikea, we went down to Queensway to look for lil piggy cow's shoes. But she lived up to her name and couldn't find any shoes cause she's all too small. -grins- Oh Oh Oh, saw this wonderful cum fabulous Addias BAG! Like OMG i like it so much! But, i have no money for a new bag. -sighs- Then bumped into my "mother-in-law and brother-in-law and both of us got a Rude shock of our lives. Thank god we were holding hands or anything.

Later, met up with Mich, Leong, Stace and Sel. But all for only a short period of time. Then we walked around and continued the search for lil piggy cow's shoes. But still couldn't find e Perfect one. Decided that i needed good food so we went down to Sakae Sushi! Yummy~ Ate so much that we were both so full. -grins-

Sunday
Went for that bloody travel tour briefing crap. Was like so boring. But thank godness it only lasted for 30mins or so. And plus i had Chynna and Ashraf for comany. Made me go all e way down to Chinatown to listen to crap i could have gotten off e internet with just a click. Afterall, i suppose its the experience right?

Met lil piggy cow for tea and we ate fried hokkien mee and guo tie! Yummy~ Then walked around continuing her search for her shoes and my spotting of Cny clothes. After walking e whole of Suntec and City Link. Finally bought my Addidas Beanie!! -beams- And lil piggy cow bought a nice black t-shirt from Addidas too!

Guess what?! I lost 3kgs during the holidays! Like oh yea~ But with my constant feeding from cow, i guess il put back the weight on in no time. Never mind. Il try to maintain it. Im 45kg now! Same as my sister! Mwahahaaha..

Crap, forgot to get Sel's present and i have homework to do. -sulks-

Imagine me and you, i do
I think about you day and night, its only right
To think about the girl you love and hold her tight
So happy together

If i should call you up, invest a dime
And you'd say you belong to me, I'd lose my mind
Imagine how the world could be so very fine
So happy together

I can see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies will be blue
For all my life

Me and you, and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it had to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together

I can see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies will be blue
For all my life

Me and you, and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it had to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together

Love the song above. So meaningful. Somehow i suppose. *sighs* Its e song from the Heinekin advertisement. The one with Rachel from friends at e supermarket. Yeah. Got it on my Mp3 too. But i've got e cover version by Simple Plan. Not too bad but i prefer e original one.

Skipped Macroeconomics lecture today. Just didn't feel like going and plus had a slight headache. I'm just not recovering from the bloody flu. Totally please. Feeling even worse than ever. I don't even want to go to school on Monday. *sighs* But i can't afford to miss lessons anymore. My resolution this year is to do well this semester. I guess its just going to turn out like every other year. Resolution Failed.

Just tired. All so tired.

You were my sun
You were my earth
But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no
So you took a chance
And made other plans
But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down
No

You don't have to say, what you did,
I already know, I found out from him,
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me all alone
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me on the phone
But girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
Bridges were burned, now it's your turn to cry

Cry me a river
Cry me a river girl
Cry me a river
Cry me a river girl (yeah, yeah)

I know that they say
That some things are better left unsaid
It wasn't like you only talked to him and you know it
(Don't act like you don't know it)
All of these things people told me
Keep messin' with my head
(Messin' with my head)
You should've picked honesty
Then you may not have blown it
(Yea..)

You don't have to say, what you did,
(Don't have to say, what you did)
I already know, I found out from him
(I already know, uh)
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
(No chance, you and me)
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me all alone
(All alone)
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me on the phone
(When you call me on the phone)
But girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
(I'm not like them baby)
Bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
(It's your turn)
To cry

Cry me a river
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river girl
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river girl

Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leavin'
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leavin'
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leavin'
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be... leavin'

You don't have to say, what you did,
(Don't have to say, what you did)
I already know, I found out from him
(I already know, uh)
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
(No chance, you and me)
And don't it make you sad about it

Cry me a river
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river girl
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river
(You can go on and just)
Cry me a river girl (yeah yeah)

Cry me a river (Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river girl
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river
(Cause I've already cried)
Cry me a river girl
(Don't wanna cry no more, yeah yeah)

Cry me a river
Cry me a river, oh
Cry me a river, oh
Cry me a river, oh

2nd day of school.
Not too bad after all.
Had Arts Appreciation lecture.
VERY interesting! To me that is.
Artsy Fartsy! Hahaha.
I know i sound mad, but honestly it didn't turn out as bad as i expected it to be.
Talked about the different forms of art, source of inspiration etc.
Basically, its about Art History.
But tomorrow i have the bloody tutorial at 9am!!
*faints*
So bliking early please!
Hope I get nice classmates!
Oh ya, my class has this exchange student from Finland.
Pretty cool huh?
Some of e girls are going gaga.
He's not exactly good looking but not bad.
Not that it bothers me anyway.
Darling, Just want to say I Love You.
Miss You Loads.

Love can be a many splendored thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses
Diamond rings
Dreams for sale
And fairy tales
Itll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
Itll fool you every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
So you've got no say at all

Now I was a once a fool it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
Im sadder but Im wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
So you've got no say at all

Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin
And I keep on fallin
Over and over again
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pouring rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

The trouble with love is (the trouble with love)
It can tear you up inside (it can tear you up inside)
Make your heart believe a lie (Make your heart believe a lie)
It's stronger than your pride
(The trouble with love is) Its in your heart it's in your soul
(It doesn't care how fast you fall) You're losing all control
(And you can't refuse the call)
So you've got no say at all
The trouble with love is (Oooo….ya)
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie (the trouble with love..)