Splutter

I am sick. I am so damn sick and tired, both metaphorically and literally.

It started out with a horrible sore throat and flu, then carried on with a headache. Now it's down to a dry cough which gives me chest pains.

It started out right from the start and I don't even know when it's ever going to end, pathological liar.

"How could you?"

Monotony

So there's been a huge lack of updates on this blog, all because my internet connection at home has been cut. Bahh. So I can only blog when I'm at Baby's and yesterday when I was blogging, her laptop's batt died on me and I was too lazy to plug in the adaptor. :

The monotony in my life is getting more and more apparent and it's begining to bug me. All day long all I do is, sleep, eat, go out, club, sleep and the cycle just repeats itself all over again. Sigh. I need a job so desperately and it's not that I'm not looking but lady luck hasn't been on my side. ):

There's nothing much to update honestly. Life's the same. 3rd week I've been bumping at the Baby's and finally we're going back to my place for the weekend. ((: Baby's just as naughty and giving me equally as much of a headache as she always did. Speaking of which, we're going out to choose her cane soon.

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Spencer: Okay baby, we'll go get the cane at cash converters. LOL. Stop being such a piggy and sleep so much la. I know you love my bed and mostly importantly, LOVE ME! Love you too smelly pooty. =)

"I don't wanna know
If you're playing me - keep it on the low.
'Cause my heart can't take it anymore.
And if you're creepin please don't let it show.
Oh baby, I don't want to know.

I think about it when I hold you.
When lookin' in your eyes - I can't believe.
I don't need to know the truth.
Baby, keep it to yourself."

Just another girl, the girl I love.

Haircuts and midnight Mustafa till 0400 yesterday with Bel, Diva, Tiao-Kia and Baby. Back at Bel's place, random hair dyeing, pool and early morning breakfast. Baby and I knocked out finally at 1000 and snuggled all the way till 1700. Then it was lazing in front of the telly, playing with Citrine and Tweety then we decided to Zouk.

Know, I begining to hate clubbing. Note that I said hate, not 'getting sick of'. Yes, I still enjoy clubbing to a certain extent but sometimes, the idea of it really puts me off.

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*edited 1330

So my Drea baby left this entry incomplete cos my laptop battery went flat.
But anyway, here's something for you:

One summer night
We ran away for a while
Laughing, we hurried beneath the sky
To an obscure place to hide
That no-one could find
And we drifted to another state of mind
As we lay upon the grass
There in the dark
Underneath the stars

Weak in the knees
Wrapped in the warm gentle breeze, and I,
So shy, a bundle of butterflies
Flush with the heat of desire
On a natural high

As we drifted to another place in time
And the feeling was so heavy and sublime
As I lost my heart to you
There in the dark
Underneath the stars

Beautiful and bittersweetly
You were fading into me
And I was gently fading into you

I'm yours and you're my own
My one and only baby
As we lay underneath the stars


PS: Cheer up my baby. Don't be upset anymore please. I'll go choose my own cane okay? Hugs.

Blah Blah & More Blah

Zouk-ed the usual 3 days; Wednesday, Friday and Saturday. Weed and I figured that we Phuture too damn much because we always manage to predict what song comes on next and Andrew has been a good boy recently. (:

Supper with Bel and Weed last night was MADNESS. In total we ordered, 1 mushroom cheese prata, 1 egg, onion & cheese prata, 1 beehoon goreng, 1 maggi goreng ikan bilis pattaya, 3 chicken wings, 1 basket of onion rings, 2 iced limau and 2 barleys.

So KNN fattening! Especially at 4am in the morning. But it's okay, of late, everyone keeps telling me that I lost quite a fair bit of weight. So, YAY!

Weird part is, I'm not un-happy or stressed that's why I'm losing weight. I don't know what's wrong with me either but fuck it seriously. Just drop me to 43kgs and I'm one happy babe. 1 kg to go~!

So I haven't really been home for almost 2 weeks, obviously I've been camping out at the Weed's. Right now, I'm having a bad bout of home-sickness. Honestly, I think I just miss my bed and mummy. :

I'm camping out in her room, on her bed, with her lappy, hugging her chou-chou, blogging, listening to Chamillionaire and falling asleep at the same time while she's outside playing mahjong with her relatives.

I think I know what's wrong. I'm just bored-ed out of my wits. -SCREAMS-

Hershey's Chocolate Kisses

While everyone was busy watching the Femme Quest contestants strutting their stuff over at Zouk, Weed and myself were busy playing with her crib's newly arrived guest. No doubt he's just here for a mere 3 day stop over, he has already found a lil place in our hearts.

Note: I normally abhor Chihuahuas because they tend to look alien like and are extremely bimbotic. Okay, how about I don't like small dogs. But there are always exceptions. (:

Swing Left, Then Swing Right

So you ask, what's swinging over here. I'd reply, mood swing. Fuckingknnbccbmotherhell mood swings; PMS.

I swear I hate it because it makes me emo every once a hour. Fucking fuck fuck. Best part, I don't have anything to be emo about, or do I?

Now, what am I doing home on a Wednesday night? Actually, I'm going to shower right now. Hello Zouk. Sigh. I'm sick of clubbing.

"Let's do the swing dance."

I Write Sins, Not Tragedies

I wish, you could see what's going on inside of me.
Maybe that way, crying alone would be the last to be.
But sometimes, some things are better left unspoken.
The truth hurts, like it leaves my heart broken.

Signs you never read, hints you never see.
Maybe one day, you'll feel my pain, understand the hurt.
But till then, I'll keep them bottled up.
Waiting for you to open me up.

"I wanna pour out my secrets to you but leave you unburdened;
Impossibility"

Eu amo Portugal

*edited: 0750 hours

World Cup 2006 was crap, crap and more crap. 3rd/4th placing match between Germany and Portugal was disappointing. My poor Portugal, poor Cristiano Ronaldo and Figo. Stupid Germany, stupid Ballack.

Then the finals between France and Italy. Poor Zidane, poor France. Why you like that huh? What the hell was the head butt for?! Stupid Italy, stupid Buffon (Sorry Zen). I actually teared when Italy scored the final penalty kick against France. -wails- )):

Oh well, another 4 years for my Portugal to come back. Another 4 more years for Babyboo's Brazil to even get to Semi-Finals. x:

Believe it or not, I actually watched the finals ALL ALONE at home. It was so sad I tell you. I couldn't kao-pei to anyone when Zidane lost his mind or when the Italians fouled the French or when either side scored. (I am very nosiy when I watch soccer) So I called Babyboo everytime something "major" happened to kao-pei. Hur.

Last week was a whole week of clubbing.

Wed, Zouk where I finally heard Square Rooms and podium-ed my way through that song feeling all so high, high, high. Whee~ Friday was Zouk once again with loads of beer and Smirnoff Red Bull.

On Saturday, Babyboo and I clubbed hopped like mad. First was to Devils where Ryl, Chy, my mummy and her colleagues (Yes, my real mother) joined us. I know, my mum's so damn cool, she was so sweet and even bought me a pack of ciggarettes much to Babyboo's distaste. ((:

Hopped over to HRC to meet Jie and Jo for drinks and after that we headed to Zouk to meet Bel for the Germany and Portugal match. Randomly, Andrew was hell good on Saturday. (:

Anyhow, HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY TO TAU POK BESSY TAN. I love you, you stupid moron. Hope you and Zen have a blast at Bintan. -hugs-

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And up till this moment, I am unable to understand why.
Why you do so, time after time.
Tell me I'm over reacting, like I always am.
But deep down, I know, I ain't.
These lies, they eat me up.
And I just don't know what to do anymore.

But afterall, you're my wonder wall and I love you just the same.

"And I'd give up forever to touch you,
'Cause I know that you feel me some how.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now."

The Crowning

The King has been crowned. I'm proud of you, my brave lil one.

Stickwitu 24/7, literally, complete with bickering sleep-overs. Old memories surfacing, evolved mixed feelings. Promises left unkept, like always. You never see how much they mean, as miniscule the magnitude. It's eating me up, bit by bit. But beneath it all, I still love you, just the same.

I'm sorry for the lack of updates, I've been busy with my love.

"The collision of your kiss that made it so hard."

Vintage Flavour

I'm totally pooped despite the 12 hour marathon sleeping session I had earlier. I could have slept even longer but Weed was already awake for awhile and kept bugging me to get up. |:

My body is aching from the shopping we did the day before (where I didn't sleep) and my tonsils are so damn huge and sore from the "excessive" smoking. Bah. I seriously need to quit smoking because I don't want to go for the damn operation. Bummer.

Bel, Weed and myself went on a vintage shopping trail on Saturday. First stop was to 'Army Market' at Beach Road where we pigged out at the hawker on kway chap, char kway teow, fried wantons and fruits. Then we walked around the place looking for cheap deals.

Second stop was Arab Street & Haji Lane, the streets of goodies. House of Japan was rewarding with it's hidden jewels if you rummage through carefully. Bel's friend's vintage record store was dope with all the vinyls and sorts.

We chanced upon this pretty lil vintage store called Hoity Toity which stocked the most beautiful vintage bags and dresses. Best part, everything in the store has only 1 piece. I fell in love with this vintage see through dress. I swear it's so pretty. Tried it on and contemplated buying it but it was a tad bit too big for me. I really like the dress a lot. ):

Walked on to Bugis and rested our tired feet, feeding ourselves with diet Coke, the dopest drink on earth when you're thirsty. Hur. Then Jon came along with his Land Rover and we headed over to Mustafa for more shopping!

After conquering Mustafa, we drove over to Zouk to drop our shopping bags at baggage while blasting Power 98's Red Hot Mix and smoking in the jeep. Whee! Dinner finally at 2200 at some "Seafood Restaurant" a short distance from Zouk. You tiaos, hotplate tofu, broccoli, fried rice and hor fun and a pot of chrysanthemum tea. Shiokness.

Headed back to Zouk just in time for the England - Portugal match. YAY! Portugal won! The babyboo calls me a traitor just because I wasn't rooting for England like she and Bel were. I would support England if they played against any country but Spain and Portugal. Next round, they're up against France who surprisingly won the previous champions, Brazil. It's going to be one interesting match.

Our shopping stash at the end of the day:
Bel - A beautiful vintage bag, a t-shirt, a ethnic looking top, a Japanese robe, an anklet, a watch and a book.
Weed - A pair of denims, a t-shirt and suspenders.
Yours truly - A striped halter and a crocodile singlet.

Bel obviously won hands down with the things she bought but Weed and I were equally satisfied with our stash of goodies. ((: Next stop, handicraft shopping at Arab Street and Spotlight!

"Quaint shophouses and secret rendevous"

Chained Affinity

Tracing the silhouette of your tender kisses, lying upon the fluffy pillow we both laid upon the night before. Memories still fresh, as if you were there, right next to me. As your breathing grew steady, bringing you into deep slumber, I kept vigil, thoughts running through my mind.

Choices to make, often intricate. Take a right turn, it leads to perfection. Take a wrong turn, disaster waits ahead. Material wants versus reality, head versus heart, which path shall I follow?

Breaking away from the norm, praying, hoping and wishing. Keep this affinity, chained together with the steel from our hearts; unbreakable.

Then there were promises. Promises made but never kept. I question myself but the answer remains the same. I'm in love. A fool in love, that's what I am.

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*edit: 0410 hours

I have a WHOLE list of people to meet and since I have nothing better to do, I shall type it here just in case y'all think that I have forgotten!

I owe dates to Maye, Mel Anne, Denise, Ryl, Chy, Marilyn, Jac.
I've been trying to date Queky and Sel.

I will meet every single one of you before I land myself a job. Now note, I have yet to land myself a job. So please please pray that I've been waking up early for a good reason. Or I will just kaopei all day long.

Saturday, 0900. KNNBCCB why must so early can?! Pui. Now, to club later or not to club. I kinda miss Zouk and I need to "punch card". Hrmmm. Set, at most don't sleep and go straight. Okay, ready, get set, go.

GOOD LUCK! (to myself). PS. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME HOR. TOLONG TOLONG. PLEASE. I REALLY NEED IT THIS TIME.

"Then there were two; two in love."

Butterflies & Creepy Crawlies

I am suffering from a delayed bout of Monday blues since it's already officially Tuesday.

It's not good since tomorrow's a big and long day for me. The anxiety and stress is just building up inside me, waiting to explode.

On a lighter note, this picture calms me a little. I just need the real person. I miss my babyboo. I really miss her. Now I feel like crying. ): Sigh. I need my happy pill, NOW.

Wish me luck. I'll need it.

"If only everything was as easy as ABC"

Bite Me

It doesn't pay being civil in society these days. If you keep your mouth shut and attempt to be nice, people take you for a wuss and trample all over you. I've been very generous, in fact too generous, so now I've had it, two can play the game.

http://eternalbeautifulchild.blogspot.com

This blog URL belongs to the ex's sister. Not my ex mind you, my ex-es and their family members have better things to do.

Note the entries on June 23rd and 24th. It was specially written in honour of Spencer and myself. Awww, we're flattered.

• A can be for many things, didn't your kindergarten teacher teach you? Yes, I'm a bitch and I'm proud of it, no need to emphasize on that fact. But like what you said, it's your blog and so this is my blog as well.
• I have something that your sister would do anything to have. That's how far the status would get me.
• I can't wait to see what will become of me either. I could ditch her instead maybe? You never know girl.
• Oh no. I've planned my next suicide. Next time around, I'll jump off the overhead bridge across PIE and make sure I die. Then I'll come back to haunt those who deserve haunting, so I can totally understand your excitement.
• You're spot on about the cheating. Congratulations on spotting the fact. But come on, someone always has to get hurt in a relationship, don't you know that? Oh, I forgot, how would you know, you've never been in a BGR.
  
• This time, you've got your facts wrong. Your mum is the one who's contacting Spencer, not the other way around. Maybe you should learn your status in the family and let your mum do as she deems fit.
• You're one ironic child. First you say a girl can never be addressed as Mister, so how can SHE be an actor? Shouldn't it be actress? Ah damn, your entries are full of grammatical errors anyway.
• Congratulations on being wanted as well. I hope it wasn't something you conjured in your dreams though.
• Hmmm. Spencer may have kissed other girls when she was with your sister but as of when she's been with me, she's only been kissing me.
  

http://damoomoo.blogspot.com

This blog URL belongs to the ex. Just in case you KPOs are dying to know who's who and what's going on. I know, but please don't laugh at the URL, it's a very mean thing to do. -stifles a giggle-

A gentle warning to all, I am not liable for making you guys read bad grammar.

"I am everything; everything you're not"

Love & War

I planted seedless grapes, I wonder what seeds you spat out.
All's fair in love and war. Now you've lost the battle, it's time to retreat. Leave us alone.

Status Quo: In a relationship.

I know. Like finally after almost 5 months of shit I had to put up with. Now, I just signed a contract to put up with more shit till 'death do us part'.

I love my girlfriend. (:

"When will you get the picture
You're the past, I'm the future
Get away, it's my time to shine
If you didn't know, the boy is mine"

SORE

Made an appointment with Suzanne on Tuesday so that Weed would finally get off my back about her hair being too long, too heavy and what nonsense.

Bel joined us shortly after for some mad cab chasing from Specialist Centre to Heerens just so that we could catch soccer on time at Serangoon Gardens.

In between the 2 matches, we headed to Bel's and played pool, played with her animals (2 dogs, 1 tortoise, 2 terrapins, 1 hamster, 1 rabbit and a lot of kois) and ransacked her food supply. Hurhur. Weed and I are absolutely smitten with her dogs, especially the fatty one. Awww.

While watching the 2nd match, my eye started playing tricks on me. My poor right eye was oozing out pus, it felt like some rotten waterfall. Bah. It never got better till Weed bought eye drops from a nearby petrol kiosk.

Zouk-ed with Bel, Jo and Weed earlier. I finally deviated from my weekly Wednesday routine. Instead of spending all my time at Phuture, I camped out at Zouk's members instead. I'm happily mambo-ed and Chivas-ed. Met my long lost Glam Queen who just came back from a flight. I've missed you so much you stupid Mei Nu! We need to meet with the rest. Hugs.

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Until now, my eyes are still SORE but I think it's cause of the lack of sleep. ): My throat is so SORE that I'm close to losing my voice. I think it's gotta do with the annoyingly increasing number of SORE people. -clears throat-

Very randomly, grapes are one of the loveliest fruits. They're the best when you sit on one side of the fence and watch Miss J eat the sour ones on the other side. J'adore des raisins. (:

Okay, my fever has just gone up a notch. I need to sleep. :|

"Sometimes the last thing you want comes in first
Sometimes the first thing you want never comes
But I know that waiting is all you can do
Sometimes

I'll put a spell on you
You'll fall asleep
When I put a spell on you
And when I wake you I'll be the first thing you see
And you'll realise that you love me"

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edited by the baby:

I don't know what to blog cos my brain can't think.

So I shall just post part of the conversation I had with Bel.

stab you says:
you also love andrea a lot wat
stab you says:
i thougth it was sweet yesterday the min you wake up you ask about her eye
stab you says:
if it were me i will forgert one lor..ill just kaobei i hungry
stab you says:
then still go toilet wet the tissue bring back clean her eye
stab you says:
SIGHHHHH

---> So is this good enough to show you that I care?

Get well soon my baby. Hugs.

Love Me

One complains that I don't blog as often anymore so here I am, blogging. Another complains that I don't blog about her anymore so here I am, blogging about her. You two know who you are. I love you both very dearly. I don't know what I'd do without either one of you.

Yes I may be demanding, melodramatic, possessive and un-trusting. I whine and cry too much for my own good. I lose my temper and do rash things. But that's who I am and that's who you fell for no?

And with all honesty, you're equally or even more demanding, possessive and un-trusting.
Love me for who I am won't you? Because I love you just the way you are.

My stupid bastard sexay Spencer. MINE MINE MINE. -silly grin-

"I'd love to hate you but I'd rather love you"

Finally Back From The Hiatus

I haven't updated in like 2 weeks, like OMG. So anyway, breakdown of my exciting life.

2nd June, Friday - Zouk-ed with Bel, Jo and Weed.

3rd June, Saturday - Town-ed then Zouk and HRC with Clair, Bel, Jo, Bess and Weed.

4th June, Sunday - Zouk Flea & Easy. I'd have to say the previous Flea & Easy was better but anyhow, we had fun. Weed finally bought her Vintage Clock and she bought me a new Lego Ring!

So pretty aye.

5th June, Monday - I was cooking dinner/lunch in my PJs when I heard someone scream "BABY!" at my front door. Awww, Weed popped over to surprise me.

6th June, Tuesday - You guys know by now that I have an non existent sense of humour so cartoons are usually a definite boo boo for me but I promised the baby that I'd catch 'Over the Hedge' with her so we booked the tickets online and trotted over to TM. It was so fucking CUTE and funny please. Like I WANT A BABY PORCUPINE LIKE RIGHT NOW. Thankyouverymuch. Lol.

7th June, Wednesday - Lunch-ed with the Mummy, mummy's bf and the Weed. Weed headed home to change while I headed for Graduation Ceremony with mummy and the bf. It was so damn mother fucking boring that mummy and I were texting each other complaining about the state of boredom we were in. Lol.

Then, the emcee pronounced my cheena name wrongly! So fucking paiseh. But I totally expected it and cringed my way to shake hands with the Guest of Honour to take the damn Diploma.

THEN, I tripped while walking back to my seat and my fucking worn for less than 2 hours heels broke. WAH FUCK, literally. I just wanted to dig a hole and bury myself. Thank God I was around people who have seen me in my most un-glam manner in the past 3 years or I would have cried bloody murder.

The Girls(L-R): Drea, Chy, Ryl and Kerrie.
The Boys (L-R): Brian, Joseph, Jem, Stewart, Ron and Shaun.
I'll miss you all. ):

Phuture was like full house but thank God for the Privilege card. Everyone was there! I was a rather happy girl with my darling girls at Mambo and the YTF girlies at Phuture. Stayed till closing (haven't stayed till closing for the longest time) and headed for prata shop but it was totally packed so we headed over to Spize.

8th June, Thursday - Weed and I were just so tired so we stayed in and lazed around the whole day.

9th June, Friday - Weed finally headed back home then it was Party Up! @ DXO.

10th June, Saturday - Met Jo in town and basically slacked around till 0400.

11th June, Sunday - Met Jie and Ash and headed to Coffee Club for World Cup till 0500.

12th June, Monday - Weed's crib then headed to Jie's for more WC.

13th June, Tuesday - Still stuck at Jie's after MORE WC.

14th June, Wednesday - Zouk. Do I have to say more?

15th June, Thursday - WC with Weed at the coffeeshop downstairs my place.

16th June, Friday - Cried, Zouk-ed, 65M-ed home alone.

17th June, Saturday - HRC-ed with Bel, Jo, Jie, Bessy, Clair and Weed.

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I spend 3 days a week clubbing, the remaining days I entertain myself with WC. I am a Spain and Portugal fan, not that you'd want to know. I need to do something with my life.

And it's already almost July. Oh my freaking God la. It's all World Cup's fault, it's a huge distraction.

Then when I finally set myself to start on something, I fall sick. The timing's perfect. -scowls-

I have this horrendous sore throat, perpetual leaking nose/teary eyes, horrible bodyache. I don't like. -sulks, pouts and grumbles-

This post is extremely brainless and boring but that's all I can generate with the stupid sickness. I promise, the next will be something more substantial.

"Don't keep me waiting."

I Won't Be Second To None

I WILL NOT be second to none. I REFUSE to be second to none.

I'm starting to feel the pressure. In fact, I'm begining to crumble under it. You'll never understand because it's all just but a game to you.

But I'll get over this. I always do. At least that's everyone's expectations.

So, fuck you, you, you and you. Thankyouverymuch.

"Without you i was broken
But I'd rather be broke down with you by my side."

Chopsticks and Spoons

"Down for Maintenance
Blogger is temporarily unavailable due to an unexpected problem.
We will be back up as soon as possible."
HAHA.

So, I'll have to do this entry on the notepad.

MRS Andrea TAN wants me to confess that,
Spencer has been a very naughty daughter
BUT a very good baby.
Because,
I've been staying over at the baby's crib since Saturday.

We wanted to stay in so that we can save money
and be part of GSS.
But I guess we've failed to do so cos we've spent quite a bit on FOOD!

Till date,
we've eaten 9 packets of golden mushrooms,
a whole cabbage,
a packet of snow peas,
luncheon meat,
alot of otahs,
many cups of bubble tea,
rice, maggi mee, instant porridge,
and too many other things to be mentioned.

We have concluded that we cannot live together
because all we do is COOK, EAT, WATCH TV AND SLEEP!

These are days which are simple yet filled with so much love.
I wanna wash those vegetables,
prepare the food
and cook for you everyday.
Though those are just simple food
but that's how we build a simple life together yes?

Its how time passes which makes you, me.
You'll see what you've given all worthwhile.
I'll put them down
and take you to where we belong.


I promise.

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I am very busy with Weed at the moment. Be back to blog soon. Do not disturb baby and I. BYEBYE. ((((((: