Tuesday, October 16, 2007

I am here to announce that yes, I am still alive and kicking. Haha. I have avoided coming online, because, I just don't feel like it, I guess. E-mail hasn't been checked for a million years and I'm not intending to check it anyway.

Every time someone asks if I'm okay, my only reply would be "I'm not okay, but not not okay either, I guess the best answer would be that I'm alive and kicking." (:

It's been a week and yet, the memories of you walking away are still so fresh in my head. In a sense, I've been expecting this but I guess it came too sudden. I actually woke mummy up at 0700 hours on a Sunday morning and cried to her for 2 entire hours non stop.

In other words, I'm also out of the closet to mummy. LOL. Which is also obvious enough just that I never said it out loud. But it sucks I guess, she's treating me so fragile like I'm a time bomb going to explode anytime. I don't even dare to cry in front of her, because I know she's worried.

It's been hard, pretending I'm okay so as to not make her worry but I guess I've been doing well enough, at least, I think so.

Besides all that, I've just been staying home, first couple of days, I killed time by reading Harry Potter AGAIN for the 1000th time. LOL.

From last Thursday till Sunday, I killed time by spending time with my lock and void walker because Mike finally was done with his laptop, 1 and a half more bars before I ding to 43 (If you do not understand this sentence, it's because it's bout WoW.)

Yesterday and today, I killed time by finishing up this Hong Kong drama serial that mummy's been watching. Yeah, I cried like a baby during the emo parts just like how I cried while watching the last episode of the 2100 hours show yesterday. Hur.

But that's just me I guess, I'm a cry baby and that will never change. BUT BUT, I've been good, the entire week I only cried on Sunday, Thursday morning and last night. Which in my terms, is already very fantastic.

I would like to thank quite a few people who've been so sweet to listen to me cry, go on and on etc.

Firstly of course to mummy, who though has been treating me like a time bomb, I know you're just as simple as concerned. And for secretly putting money into my wallet though I told you I had money when I didn't. I love you.

To Simon, thanks for listening to me and offering me tissues. Hur. To Ah Bay aka Lil Brat, by acting like yourself and making me laugh even when I was crying like mad. I love you both. Be good to one another yes?

To my mage in shining armour (LOL), Mike. Thank you for always being there for the warlock in distress. Stop calling me noob though. LOL. I'm giving you enough time to level Shucks to catch up with Aandra okay?! AND, STOP IRRITATING ME HOR!

To Jie, thanks for emo-ing with me while I had a stolen conversation with you in my toilet last night (to avoid mummy seeing me cry which she did figure out after that anyway). And yes, I remember our Thursday balcony date though someone said, either KTV or Play ends up saying don't KTV, we go Play. LOL. Smack you. Love you la Jie.

To Lian Jin, thank you for bringing me out on Thursday morning at 0400 hours to play arcade and in your words, to beat the crap out of "monsters" so I will feel better though I made it clear to you I'd rather beat the crap out of humans and you weren't man enough to let me beat you. LOL. One more thing, I hope you remember to bring Daniel Henny back for me so I can marry him. LOL.

To Elena, for letting me "see the light". Thank you for being so brutally honest, I really appreciate it.

To Bessy, for being another brutally honest person and made me hide in the toilet to cry to Jie. I know you care and I really appreciate it, we can emo together this weekend when you're out of camp and when Jie & Jo are busy pak tor-ing. LOL.

To Jac, for promising to take me out as often as you can when you come back at the end of next month. And for giving me hope that you'll have money to buy me an air ticket to Perth tomorrow. LOL. Can't wait for you to be back to drive me around Singapore. Hur.

To Denise, Miss Tee Su-An. Get your ass back from Tokyo. I need a coffee session with you. Haha. Hope you're doing fine there. Misses. And and, I WANT VOGUE!!

Lastly, to everyone else who cares.

WHO WANTS TO BRING ME OUT TO KTV?! AND LISTEN TO ME GO OFF TUNE AND SING JIE KOU TEN THOUSAND TIMES? I know Jie will be the first to run. LOL

`Spinning: Jay Chou - Jie Kou