Me
According to Miss Stephanie Quek who came over to my place to chill today, I didn't inherit one particular gene from my mother. That would be the funny gene. Well, I'm no joker that's for sure. I'm not the clown in the group or the one who makes people laugh all the time. But that's me I guess. Why am I not funny I don't know. But I do know that Shawn thinks I'm funny, funny in a weird way I reckon.
Someone mentioned to me recently that I'm unpredictable. That's something new to me. Am I that unpredictable? I know I'm hard to understand. Not many understand me, well enough that is. I do know for a fact that I quite a bitch at times. That I'm straight forward or blunt. Too honest for my own good. Sarcarsm is my 2nd language not chinese.
Is that all that I am? Who am I then? What characteristics makes Andrea up? -shrugs. I'm trying to find my feet in the midst of the commotion in my life. Searching for myself, searching for the girl who just turned 18.
Friday, April 30, 2004
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
To all HTM freshies, on 6th May there will be some SIP event thingy held in school by the HTMIG at LT19 from 0900 to 1200 hours. Check Blackboard for more details. Ain't I sweet? :p
Towning with the gang today. :D Caught 50 first dates, walked around, ate alot and laughed alot. :D Collected my birthday present from Ron. Thanks pal, love it! :)
Headed to Topshop where I tried two tops and a skirt. I love the skirt. Its bloody 66 bucks for crying out loud. *mumbles. The Addias bag at Topman is so nice too! I love it. Its 69 bucks, holy crap shit. *grumbles. Got stuck at Buger King due to the sudden downpour but we made a dash to Borders anyhow. Was quite fun to be under the rain. At Borders I saw my book again! :\ Sarah Waters - Affinity, saw another author (Sarah Wohart or something) that caught my eye. But I'll finish my collection on Sarah Waters before I move on. Then there's V.C Andrews to go. The trouble of being broke. I need a job badly. Any recommendations anyone?
Towning with the gang today. :D Caught 50 first dates, walked around, ate alot and laughed alot. :D Collected my birthday present from Ron. Thanks pal, love it! :)
Headed to Topshop where I tried two tops and a skirt. I love the skirt. Its bloody 66 bucks for crying out loud. *mumbles. The Addias bag at Topman is so nice too! I love it. Its 69 bucks, holy crap shit. *grumbles. Got stuck at Buger King due to the sudden downpour but we made a dash to Borders anyhow. Was quite fun to be under the rain. At Borders I saw my book again! :\ Sarah Waters - Affinity, saw another author (Sarah Wohart or something) that caught my eye. But I'll finish my collection on Sarah Waters before I move on. Then there's V.C Andrews to go. The trouble of being broke. I need a job badly. Any recommendations anyone?
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
An email from Maureen. Its rather meaningful, take some time and read it.
The One That Got Away
By Mark J. Macapagal
The Manila Times
In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with...and the one that got away.
Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in
the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.
I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.
How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.
Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.
So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be
married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.
You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.
If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.
Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.
But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one? Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."
You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."
The One That Got Away
By Mark J. Macapagal
The Manila Times
In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with...and the one that got away.
Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in
the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.
I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.
How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.
Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.
So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be
married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.
You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.
If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.
Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.
But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one? Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."
You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."
Self Inflicted Pain
I'm sure this sounds familiar to some. Taking a pen knife slashing your wrist till it bleeds, punching the wall till your knuckles are bruised and what other self torturing methods you guys have.
The main point, venting your anger on yourself. Thinking that by this way, you won't hurt anyone but yourself. Wake up and look around yourself, the people around you, the people who love you so dearly are going to get hurt emotionally. Stop all this crap. Its hurting everyone around you. Don't make me threaten to not speak to you. I love you dearly. So does she. We all do. -hugs.
I'm sure this sounds familiar to some. Taking a pen knife slashing your wrist till it bleeds, punching the wall till your knuckles are bruised and what other self torturing methods you guys have.
The main point, venting your anger on yourself. Thinking that by this way, you won't hurt anyone but yourself. Wake up and look around yourself, the people around you, the people who love you so dearly are going to get hurt emotionally. Stop all this crap. Its hurting everyone around you. Don't make me threaten to not speak to you. I love you dearly. So does she. We all do. -hugs.
Monday, April 26, 2004
Commenting board is still down. Fucking enetation. Sorry to all who have commented, I can't see your comments for the time being. Use the tag board yeah? Thanks.
So its god dammit 0430 in the morning. I fucking still can't get to sleep. Insomnia back in action again. This time round, with a whole "new" set of problems. I'm going to be ranting and raving a lil today. Just feel like it. Feel like a whole fuck load of shit now. My usual advice, if you don't want to see it click the bloody "x" on your top right hand corner.
My friends have been a real supportive bunch. Thank you all for being there and offering me advice, love, hugs and everything else. Thanks for being able to accept me for who I am. Whether it is me being straight forward with my feelings, my (as some would call it "weird") preference for girls at times. Basically, thanks for loving me as I am.
I'm going to be real honest here. I don't know how many more entries I can post here. How long before my hp gets cut. Whether if I'm able to attend school next semester. I'm facing some serious financial problems at home. Too many unpaid bills. Money going one way, which is out not in. I have no idea what my mum is doing about it. I don't want to ask either. She has enough burdens as it is. Been living without allowance for about 2 months or so. When she gave me some money for my birthday, I had half a mind to shove it back to her and ask her to pay the bills. But I need the money to survive. Kept it anyhow. As some of you know, I've been walking half the journey to and fro school. No, smoking is not the main reason. Its to save the 80 cents for the other bus journey. Plus, the walks are pretty calming. Gives me sometime to myself in the day. I know, some ask why am I smoking then? You should be saving the 10 bucks for transport. One last pack okay? Until I get a job for the holidays.
If you bothered, you would have msged me on my birthday. I don't believe that you will forget my birthday. Cause you didn't. You had the cheek to msn me happy belated birthday more than 24 hours later. Know what? I don't need the wish if it didn't come from your heart. I don't need you to pretend you care about me. I don't. Don't tell me you are still here for me no matter what. You have changed. Changed so much. Maybe its just your way of handling the situation. Then I have nothing to say. Cause that's your weakness. You know it. Don't tell me you don't read my blog anymore. I know you do. Even if you don't, I don't give a fuck shit either. I'm living well without you. I may not be happy now, but I'm happy cause I don't have to put in so much effort to make you happy when I'm not. I loved you so much, you jolly know how you treated me. And listen up. I'm over you. So over you. Good luck to your next girlfriend. Remember what I said, if you aren't going to change your ways, every girl that walks into your life will leave. Because, love isn't everything. The world doesn't revolve around two people.
To the other you. I'm tired of being the one taking the initiative. Tell me that those kisses meant something. The msgs meant something. That everything meant something. I'm tired of guessing what is going on. Tired of being stuck in a haze, not knowing what to do and what to say. I have to think before I do or say anything. Worried that I may say something to put you in a spot, that I may say something wrong. The feeling fucking sucks. I don't know. I'm about to give up. Tired of being the one fighting. It takes two hands to clap. Do what you want. I'll still be here, for how long? I don't know.
To my bestest friend. You'll know who you are when you read this. I know asking you to cheer up won't work. Things have been a mess for us. Its been such a long time since we even truely laughed on the phone or even joke around. When we are out, you are busy and I keep to myself and my ciggarettes as much as I can. I love you so much. It really hurts me to see you like that. You may not realise how worried I am. I really am very worried. I'm here no matter what. Looking forward to the calls at 3 am in the morning since I can't sleep even. Please come to me. Don't keep everything to yourself please.
What I need now is to marry some rich fuck. Or get a real rich Bf/Gf who has the moolahs. Intro anyone? *laughs. I think i'm going to do what I did about 2 years ago. Disappear from human contact for a month or so. I love everyone.
So its god dammit 0430 in the morning. I fucking still can't get to sleep. Insomnia back in action again. This time round, with a whole "new" set of problems. I'm going to be ranting and raving a lil today. Just feel like it. Feel like a whole fuck load of shit now. My usual advice, if you don't want to see it click the bloody "x" on your top right hand corner.
My friends have been a real supportive bunch. Thank you all for being there and offering me advice, love, hugs and everything else. Thanks for being able to accept me for who I am. Whether it is me being straight forward with my feelings, my (as some would call it "weird") preference for girls at times. Basically, thanks for loving me as I am.
I'm going to be real honest here. I don't know how many more entries I can post here. How long before my hp gets cut. Whether if I'm able to attend school next semester. I'm facing some serious financial problems at home. Too many unpaid bills. Money going one way, which is out not in. I have no idea what my mum is doing about it. I don't want to ask either. She has enough burdens as it is. Been living without allowance for about 2 months or so. When she gave me some money for my birthday, I had half a mind to shove it back to her and ask her to pay the bills. But I need the money to survive. Kept it anyhow. As some of you know, I've been walking half the journey to and fro school. No, smoking is not the main reason. Its to save the 80 cents for the other bus journey. Plus, the walks are pretty calming. Gives me sometime to myself in the day. I know, some ask why am I smoking then? You should be saving the 10 bucks for transport. One last pack okay? Until I get a job for the holidays.
If you bothered, you would have msged me on my birthday. I don't believe that you will forget my birthday. Cause you didn't. You had the cheek to msn me happy belated birthday more than 24 hours later. Know what? I don't need the wish if it didn't come from your heart. I don't need you to pretend you care about me. I don't. Don't tell me you are still here for me no matter what. You have changed. Changed so much. Maybe its just your way of handling the situation. Then I have nothing to say. Cause that's your weakness. You know it. Don't tell me you don't read my blog anymore. I know you do. Even if you don't, I don't give a fuck shit either. I'm living well without you. I may not be happy now, but I'm happy cause I don't have to put in so much effort to make you happy when I'm not. I loved you so much, you jolly know how you treated me. And listen up. I'm over you. So over you. Good luck to your next girlfriend. Remember what I said, if you aren't going to change your ways, every girl that walks into your life will leave. Because, love isn't everything. The world doesn't revolve around two people.
To the other you. I'm tired of being the one taking the initiative. Tell me that those kisses meant something. The msgs meant something. That everything meant something. I'm tired of guessing what is going on. Tired of being stuck in a haze, not knowing what to do and what to say. I have to think before I do or say anything. Worried that I may say something to put you in a spot, that I may say something wrong. The feeling fucking sucks. I don't know. I'm about to give up. Tired of being the one fighting. It takes two hands to clap. Do what you want. I'll still be here, for how long? I don't know.
To my bestest friend. You'll know who you are when you read this. I know asking you to cheer up won't work. Things have been a mess for us. Its been such a long time since we even truely laughed on the phone or even joke around. When we are out, you are busy and I keep to myself and my ciggarettes as much as I can. I love you so much. It really hurts me to see you like that. You may not realise how worried I am. I really am very worried. I'm here no matter what. Looking forward to the calls at 3 am in the morning since I can't sleep even. Please come to me. Don't keep everything to yourself please.
What I need now is to marry some rich fuck. Or get a real rich Bf/Gf who has the moolahs. Intro anyone? *laughs. I think i'm going to do what I did about 2 years ago. Disappear from human contact for a month or so. I love everyone.
Sunday, April 25, 2004
Yay! I'm 18 and its the holidays! *beams. Had a great time with my darlings at Chinablack last night, although the birthday girl was on a puking frenzy (wonders of the straw) I enjoyed myself throughly. Everyone was pretty tired so we all headed home rather early.
My mummy is cooking tom yam for me now. *grins widely. Thanks to everyone who made this birthday a unforgettable one. I love all of you! :D
Quek* Ducky duck! After about one year and I finally get to club with you! *grins. Thanks for everything and don't forget, you still owe me my birthday present! Hehe. Love you loads! *muacks n hugs.
Sel* Darling, hope everything is going well now. Let me know if your wallet and all gets returned okay? Don't worry yeahh? Too bad you weren't there with me at Chinablack. Missed clubbing with you so much! Another time perhaps? Take care and we'll meet up soon. -hugs.
Ryl* Ryl Ryl~ Thanks for the birthday present!! I love it!! Been eyeing that stud since last year. And you guys actually bought it for me! So sweet! *beams. Love you loads and sorry for the slight puking disaster and too bad everyone either woke up early or had to wake up early the next day. You fulfilled your promise to me. It was the best birthday ever. -hugs.
Chy* Chy!! Yay! You got in! I remembered the smile you gave to the bouncer when he looked at Khoo's Id. You and Kerrie were so happy in the lift please. Lol! And of all people he checked Cheryl who is actually legal already! Haha. Thanks for the present and everything else. Hope you managed to puke when you got home. Take care and we'll meet soon k? *muacks.
Shaun* Shaunie Shaun Shaun, thanks for the Mango top that I have been eyeing since I first saw it! Love it love it love it! *beams. Thanks for taking care of me when I wasn't feeling well and all. Thanks for making this a memorable birthday. Don't worry about your operation, you'll be fine. Remember to be a good boy yeah? *winks. Love ya loads! I'll see you soon k? Take care. *hugs n muacks.
Keke* Kerrie Ho Hei Hei! Lol. I can imagine your face now. Girl, thanks for everything. Soon, it will be your turn to go clubbing legally! And I remembered what you said in the cab. On your birthday, you are going to open a bottle and dance like mad! I have Shaun and Quek as witnesses. The next time you club, you are going to shake that bootie I tell you! I love you loads! Meet up soon k? -hugs.
Becks* Becks!! Thanks for the present and everything else! You looked so different ahh. Pretty that is. Hehe. All of us looked pretty that night. *grins. Hope you had fun yeahh? Take care and enjoy your holidays k? And remember to bring that aussie hunk back for me k? *grins. I'll be waiting for him. Hahaha. Love you loads babe! -hugs.
Jem* Hi hi hi!! Thanks for everthing pal. Love you loads. This birthday is a unfrogettable one. Especially when its the first time I puked and left for home so early. Nonetheless, I enjoyed every bit and soon we'll club again. On Keke's birthday. *whispers: She said she's going to open a bottle. *winks. Take care and enjoy the holidays! -hugs.
Marilyn* Mei Nu!! Thanks for going down and celebrating my birthday with me! Love you loads!! Too bad I screwed up and went down for a breather and never went up again and missed you bar top performance. There will always be another time yeah? You take care and don't think too much. I'll see you soon to turn your Condo upside down together with Adele, Chy, Ryl and Mel yeah? Remember, he wasn't man enough for you. *winks!
Shawn* *smacks you ass! Now, I did that first! Stop the smacking ahh. We aren't very close hor. Lol. Joking. Thanks for the cookies!!! Love them to hell! Finished them on the very day as you know. Hahaha. And don't worry, I'll definately support your cookie business next sem. Discount please! Take care and thanks for everything! -hugs. Oh, say hi to Fatsy for me.
Everyone else* Adele, Mel, Jermaine, Ryna, Khoo, Teresa, Ling, Baa, Tox, Shawna, Elaine and etc. ( Sorry I can't name all, too many but yall know who you are) Thanks for the birthday wishes. Love yall loads. For those having holidays like me. Enjoy. The others, have fun during work and school as well. Thanks! :)
My mummy is cooking tom yam for me now. *grins widely. Thanks to everyone who made this birthday a unforgettable one. I love all of you! :D
Quek* Ducky duck! After about one year and I finally get to club with you! *grins. Thanks for everything and don't forget, you still owe me my birthday present! Hehe. Love you loads! *muacks n hugs.
Sel* Darling, hope everything is going well now. Let me know if your wallet and all gets returned okay? Don't worry yeahh? Too bad you weren't there with me at Chinablack. Missed clubbing with you so much! Another time perhaps? Take care and we'll meet up soon. -hugs.
Ryl* Ryl Ryl~ Thanks for the birthday present!! I love it!! Been eyeing that stud since last year. And you guys actually bought it for me! So sweet! *beams. Love you loads and sorry for the slight puking disaster and too bad everyone either woke up early or had to wake up early the next day. You fulfilled your promise to me. It was the best birthday ever. -hugs.
Chy* Chy!! Yay! You got in! I remembered the smile you gave to the bouncer when he looked at Khoo's Id. You and Kerrie were so happy in the lift please. Lol! And of all people he checked Cheryl who is actually legal already! Haha. Thanks for the present and everything else. Hope you managed to puke when you got home. Take care and we'll meet soon k? *muacks.
Shaun* Shaunie Shaun Shaun, thanks for the Mango top that I have been eyeing since I first saw it! Love it love it love it! *beams. Thanks for taking care of me when I wasn't feeling well and all. Thanks for making this a memorable birthday. Don't worry about your operation, you'll be fine. Remember to be a good boy yeah? *winks. Love ya loads! I'll see you soon k? Take care. *hugs n muacks.
Keke* Kerrie Ho Hei Hei! Lol. I can imagine your face now. Girl, thanks for everything. Soon, it will be your turn to go clubbing legally! And I remembered what you said in the cab. On your birthday, you are going to open a bottle and dance like mad! I have Shaun and Quek as witnesses. The next time you club, you are going to shake that bootie I tell you! I love you loads! Meet up soon k? -hugs.
Becks* Becks!! Thanks for the present and everything else! You looked so different ahh. Pretty that is. Hehe. All of us looked pretty that night. *grins. Hope you had fun yeahh? Take care and enjoy your holidays k? And remember to bring that aussie hunk back for me k? *grins. I'll be waiting for him. Hahaha. Love you loads babe! -hugs.
Jem* Hi hi hi!! Thanks for everthing pal. Love you loads. This birthday is a unfrogettable one. Especially when its the first time I puked and left for home so early. Nonetheless, I enjoyed every bit and soon we'll club again. On Keke's birthday. *whispers: She said she's going to open a bottle. *winks. Take care and enjoy the holidays! -hugs.
Marilyn* Mei Nu!! Thanks for going down and celebrating my birthday with me! Love you loads!! Too bad I screwed up and went down for a breather and never went up again and missed you bar top performance. There will always be another time yeah? You take care and don't think too much. I'll see you soon to turn your Condo upside down together with Adele, Chy, Ryl and Mel yeah? Remember, he wasn't man enough for you. *winks!
Shawn* *smacks you ass! Now, I did that first! Stop the smacking ahh. We aren't very close hor. Lol. Joking. Thanks for the cookies!!! Love them to hell! Finished them on the very day as you know. Hahaha. And don't worry, I'll definately support your cookie business next sem. Discount please! Take care and thanks for everything! -hugs. Oh, say hi to Fatsy for me.
Everyone else* Adele, Mel, Jermaine, Ryna, Khoo, Teresa, Ling, Baa, Tox, Shawna, Elaine and etc. ( Sorry I can't name all, too many but yall know who you are) Thanks for the birthday wishes. Love yall loads. For those having holidays like me. Enjoy. The others, have fun during work and school as well. Thanks! :)
Saturday, April 24, 2004
Thursday, April 22, 2004
I'm sick! Okay maybe its nothing serious. But my gastric is back in action. I've got god dammit gastric pains. Before yall jump into conclusions and go "Drea! You haven't been eating again right?!" No. In fact I've been eating regulary. Overeating I reckon. Hehe. Shall not elaborate on how much I've been eating but trust me, its alot.
Due to the gastric pains, this lil girl hasn't studied yet! :x I'm going to study after I'm done blogging because someone called and was so fierce to me earlier on, I had better go study before I get scolding from that someone tommorrow. :p
Chants " Cookies cookies cookies cookies" to Shawn. I'm looking forward to your cookies on Saturday or something. :p
// Everybody in the club getting tipsy!*
Due to the gastric pains, this lil girl hasn't studied yet! :x I'm going to study after I'm done blogging because someone called and was so fierce to me earlier on, I had better go study before I get scolding from that someone tommorrow. :p
Chants " Cookies cookies cookies cookies" to Shawn. I'm looking forward to your cookies on Saturday or something. :p
// Everybody in the club getting tipsy!*
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
Today's paper was easy. Much easier than expected that is. Although Daga gave us a whole load of hints and clues which were pretty obvious, I thought she would make it up by giving super tricky and brain wrecking questions. But Nooo! The questions were brain dead please! Practically off the revision notes she gave us. But, yes there's a but. Andrea Lim who is as careless as usual made a grave careless mistake. I thought that Versailles was in London and Windsor Castle was in France when actually its the other way round. Bloody fuck these two palaces. At least 5 marks flew away. Guess I'm not fated with royalty huh? Haha. I just want my grades to stay the way they are. Not expecting anything above B+.
Macroeconomics to go but it seems like most people are celebrating the "end of exams" already. These are those who have no problems with Macroeconomics of course. But Andrea Lim has begun planning for partying even when she mostly probably will be taking a supp paper or two. Haha. Was on Msn conference with Kailing and Marilyn and talking about Chinablack on Saturday. Omg please. I hope and pray that Chy & Ryl get to go. *crosses fingers, toes, eyes and whatever body part you can cross.
Now I need to get that biological clock of mine fixed. Its in a mess and I look like some zombie looking for its victim around TP Business school. :P
Its almost 4am and I'm wide awake sitting in front of the com eating rice. Second serving already. Heh. :p Okay, so I'm stressed. Pigging out non-stop, reservior as 2nd hang out during breaks, major irregular "sleeping" hours, crazy mood swing and yes, I've been blogging and blogging. That's probably another way to destress. If you think I'm over blogging, what the fuck are you reading this?! Click that lil X on your top right hand corner.
Tourism Destinations is going to be a killer paper. For me at least. Cause Chy and Ryl the two smarty pants seem rather confident about it. I'm not going to get my hopes up high as I still have some trouble with the god dammit Currency codes, airport codes, country codes, GMT and EFT. Bloody hell.
Oh oh oh, for the people who have been complaining that I need to pile the weight on (which I think is total crap), I put on 1 kg! *scowls. So I'm 46kg now. That's where its going to stop. Can't afford to put on more.
Ah fuck. Back to the bloody notes. *mumbles.
// She wants to know what you want*
Tourism Destinations is going to be a killer paper. For me at least. Cause Chy and Ryl the two smarty pants seem rather confident about it. I'm not going to get my hopes up high as I still have some trouble with the god dammit Currency codes, airport codes, country codes, GMT and EFT. Bloody hell.
Oh oh oh, for the people who have been complaining that I need to pile the weight on (which I think is total crap), I put on 1 kg! *scowls. So I'm 46kg now. That's where its going to stop. Can't afford to put on more.
Ah fuck. Back to the bloody notes. *mumbles.
// She wants to know what you want*
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
I'm supposed to study, but something so hilarious just happened I have to sabo my sister! So I'm in front of the com eating my PJ sandwich about to start flipping my notes when she mutters about how she always can't find her keys in the morning. Then she found them, said a bye to me then i heard her opening and closing the door. 5 seconds later, I hear her giggling outside the door. She opened the door laughing and said. "I actually forgot to wear my socks and shoes!" God, it was too much for a girl who had 2 hours of sleep. I can't stop laughing. Talk about bad memory man. Amanda Lim ah!! Don't tell people I'm your older sister! *winks.
Girl, hope you have a great 20th birthday. Yes its the Big 20. Hahaha. Man I feel young. Okok, I will not go on before I get smacked the next time I see you. Hope NUS isn't killing you with the exams on your birthday. Anyhow, hope it will be an enjoyable one for you. Good luck in whatever you do and stay irritatingly smart. Missing you!! I'll contact you once exams are over yeah? Then we'll go clubbing together!! My bar top dancing mate. *winks. Love you loads!! And oh, did I mention I miss you!! -hugs n muacks.
Monday, April 19, 2004
I asked myself this. Am I happy now? The answer? Honestly, I don't know.
Supposed to be cramming for tommorrow but as usual, my mind is taking me to many places. It like the nearer my birthday is, the worst it gets. If only people can just forgive and forget. Then maybe things wouldn't turn out to be like that. Or maybe, they decided to forget the girl who tries so hard all the time. I've given up. Completely. Even asked ducky if I should try one last time. Maybe my birthday will be a good opportunity. Then I remembered, I'm a jinx on my own birthday. Something has to go wrong every year without fail. Then, the birthday girl always ends up in tears. Not tears of joy or happiness mind you. Friends. Ha. I laugh at that word now.
On a lighter note, i've got my ciggys. Yes! Sharing with Kailing. Going to get it from her after T&T paper. God damn it. I need the ciggs.
Supposed to be cramming for tommorrow but as usual, my mind is taking me to many places. It like the nearer my birthday is, the worst it gets. If only people can just forgive and forget. Then maybe things wouldn't turn out to be like that. Or maybe, they decided to forget the girl who tries so hard all the time. I've given up. Completely. Even asked ducky if I should try one last time. Maybe my birthday will be a good opportunity. Then I remembered, I'm a jinx on my own birthday. Something has to go wrong every year without fail. Then, the birthday girl always ends up in tears. Not tears of joy or happiness mind you. Friends. Ha. I laugh at that word now.
On a lighter note, i've got my ciggys. Yes! Sharing with Kailing. Going to get it from her after T&T paper. God damn it. I need the ciggs.
Will one die from eating overdue peanut butter? If yes, please prepare for my funeral. Lol. Made PJ Sandwich was happily eating untill I realised the peanut butter has been left there for quite some time. Took a look at the expiry date and fuck it read 16th March 04! Chee pok, by that time I was left with one bite of the sandwich so fuck suah. Just ate it anyway. Haha.
Okay I know I'm supposed to be studying but I can't seem to dammit. It wasn't a productive day. Not one bit. Considering I have 2 papers on Tues. I'm pretty dead. So again, please prepare for my funeral.
Then the god dammit fucked up weather. Its like fucking hot lahh! But its good in a way, it ensures that I don't fall asleep while i try to understand what Gross Domestic Product is. Hahaha. Just joking. I know what it is! If I don't, then good luck to me.
I need to smoke please!! Don't tell me no. Especially to the smokers. Don't come tell me what "Smoking causes cancer. General health warning!" Fuck ahh. Tempted to ask Marilyn to share a pack. I'll see how. I'm so fucking stressed I tell you!! Need to smoke!!! I need to drink!! I'm very cranky at the moment. Its 3am!! I'm not one bit tired. Kao, I'm this close to taking my mum's ciggs. *tahan.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fcuk fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. Spot the difference. (Inspired by one of Quek's testimonials.)
Okay I know I'm supposed to be studying but I can't seem to dammit. It wasn't a productive day. Not one bit. Considering I have 2 papers on Tues. I'm pretty dead. So again, please prepare for my funeral.
Then the god dammit fucked up weather. Its like fucking hot lahh! But its good in a way, it ensures that I don't fall asleep while i try to understand what Gross Domestic Product is. Hahaha. Just joking. I know what it is! If I don't, then good luck to me.
I need to smoke please!! Don't tell me no. Especially to the smokers. Don't come tell me what "Smoking causes cancer. General health warning!" Fuck ahh. Tempted to ask Marilyn to share a pack. I'll see how. I'm so fucking stressed I tell you!! Need to smoke!!! I need to drink!! I'm very cranky at the moment. Its 3am!! I'm not one bit tired. Kao, I'm this close to taking my mum's ciggs. *tahan.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fcuk fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. Spot the difference. (Inspired by one of Quek's testimonials.)
Sunday, April 18, 2004
2 days to exams. 5 days before its over. 6 days to my birthday.
Technically I haven't really studied. My mind just keeps drifting off. Drifting off to things I shouldn't be thinking or worrying about now. I'm supposed to think about The Vatican City, What should be in a Tour Manager's file, The difference between MIS and TPS, Tariff or Quota?! *mutters.
I have a question for everyone. If you could choose, which Charlie's Angel would you date? Cameron Diaz the "cute and pretty",Lucy Liu the "intellectual" or Drew Barrymore the "kickass"?
Please answer this!! I really want to know!! Ahahaha.
I miss you. Yes you you you you you you you you. If you think its you then yes its you! I Miss You!! Ahhhh. Fuck it.
// I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memories seep from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless then maybe
I'll find some peace tonight*
Technically I haven't really studied. My mind just keeps drifting off. Drifting off to things I shouldn't be thinking or worrying about now. I'm supposed to think about The Vatican City, What should be in a Tour Manager's file, The difference between MIS and TPS, Tariff or Quota?! *mutters.
I have a question for everyone. If you could choose, which Charlie's Angel would you date? Cameron Diaz the "cute and pretty",Lucy Liu the "intellectual" or Drew Barrymore the "kickass"?
Please answer this!! I really want to know!! Ahahaha.
I miss you. Yes you you you you you you you you. If you think its you then yes its you! I Miss You!! Ahhhh. Fuck it.
// I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memories seep from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless then maybe
I'll find some peace tonight*
Friday, April 16, 2004
I don't have a single D for any of my coursework grades!!! *beams. 4 days to exams. 7 days before its all over. 8 days to my birthday, and I ain't looking forward to it. Not one bit.
// Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share, with no one who truly cares for me*
// Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share, with no one who truly cares for me*
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
20th April, Tuesday
Travel & Tour Business: 0900 - 1100
Managing Business Systems: 1400 - 1600
21st April, Wednesday
Tourism Destinations: 1400 - 1600
23rd April, Friday
Macroeconomics: 1400 - 1600
Exams are in 6 days. *mutters. Its all going to be over in 9 days. Hang in there everyone. Study hard and Good Luck. :)
// Everything means nothing, if I ain't got you*
Travel & Tour Business: 0900 - 1100
Managing Business Systems: 1400 - 1600
21st April, Wednesday
Tourism Destinations: 1400 - 1600
23rd April, Friday
Macroeconomics: 1400 - 1600
Exams are in 6 days. *mutters. Its all going to be over in 9 days. Hang in there everyone. Study hard and Good Luck. :)
// Everything means nothing, if I ain't got you*
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
Things aren't as simple as they seem. There's more to the eye.
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you
Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share, with no one who truly cares for me
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you
If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you
Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share, with no one who truly cares for me
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you
If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby
Monday, April 12, 2004
Okayy yes you see a new template. Why? Refer to the previous post. Don't want to explain. This template is much simpler although you can see the banner above its fine. Someone teach me how to get rid of the banner. Simple, clean and neat. Tired of complications.I realised that its been a long time since i did shout outs. So here goes.
Seline darling* Sel darling~ Was so suprised to see you in biz park today. Or rather suprised to hear you scream drea. Haha. I've miss you loads and loads and loads. You have no idea how much. Too bad you were rushing for lesson and I was rushing to eat. Hee. :p Really hope to catch up with you real soon. Immediately after exams okay? To celebrate my birthday. I still owe you half your present. Hahaha. Really really miss you loads. Don't worry I'm fine. Thanks for asking. I'll fill you in asap. Take care and study hard for your exams okay girlfriend? Or my PL Partner. Hehe. Tell Zhenhui to shoo. Bleahh. *muacks babe.
Ah Quek* Donut, thanks for being here for me when i need you the most. Although things have come to the point where you don't even know what to say to console me. Thanks. Please cheer up. You used to be the only one who could cheer me up. But now, I see a different ducky. A rather "happy" one that is. Happiness that doesn't come from within but rather smiling for the sake of it. It hurts me to see you this way. No matter what I'm here for you okay? After my exams, we'll meet up with Sel okay? Miss spending time with two of my closest pals together. Love ya duck.
Ah Ryl* Auntayy Ryl~ Its been a long time since we called you aunty huh? Anyhow, just want to wish you good luck for exams although you don't need any!! Bring the distinctions back baby! Last sem 2 distinctions right? I want you to get 3 this sem!! Haha joking. Just do your best and don't stress yourself out too much okay? I know things haven't been going very well and its affecting you. I guess you and I don't feel comfortable with the group anymore. The reason? I'm not sure either. Just want you to know, whatever happens I'll always be here. I love you and you know that. *hugs*
Chy Chy*My everdearest Chy, please study hard for your exams. Don't laze around at home or basically get your eyes off that tv!! No more Arsenal and Man U quarrels with the boys anymore please! Haha. Down to serious things. Somehow, things between us have been rather awkward. I don't know. But I guess its because of the Shaun and Jem thing. There seems to be a barrier between the both of us somehow. I just hope, our friendship doesn't get too affected. Cause I love you. Its been a great 2 semesters with you and I want things to remain as they are. *hugs*
Keke* Kerrriieeeee~ *hugs* Haven't been seeing you recently cause I've been heading home after school. I miss you loads. Always remember you as the one who made me laugh so hard at Simpang. I honestly miss those days. Babe, study hard for exams yeah? Don't just laugh laugh laugh and I'm here if you need me okay? Going to give you a beeggg hug when I see you tmr or something. *smile girl.
Jem* Yishun~ Suprised to see this? Haha. Wait wait. Hello hello hello! Okay, enough of crap. Yishun, study hard for your exams and after that, you can go shake that bootie of yours already!! Love yew! Hahaha. Bye bye bye!
Shaunie Shaun Shaun* Brother bear xiu xiu~ Haha. Things haven't been going well one bit. I can't promise that things will be the same again but just don't isolate yourself please. With you missing from the group, everything seems so wrong. Everything. Study hard for exams and I'm here if you need me. You know I'll be here. Love you. *hugs*
Quek, Ryl, Chy, Jem, Keke & Shaun*I'm going to be a lil blunt here. But I know yall understand. The 7 of us used to be so close. I'm sure memories of 85, Simpang, Shaun's place, Ryl's birthday are still fresh in your heads. I don't know about yall but i miss the times together as a group and i miss the group alot. I want to make my stand first. I know what i say may not help but I'll give it a shot anyhow. I'm not upset with Shaun anymore. So I hope you guys forget about the matter. I had a part to play and though I was hurt. I'm fine. Everyone makes mistakes, for noone is perfect. I'll pick up my life where it stopped and continue. The issue between Shaun and I are the least of my worries. My opinion? Basically, its between the two guys. Yeah i know, face and all what not rubbish shit. I don't know. I personally think yall should talk things out. Be civil and open minded. We are friends after all. Honesty is important. All i want is for the group to be the same. Everyone to laugh together. Not one isolating himself, the other not happy, the rest getting affected and all sorts of funny situations. Don't start assuring me that things will be the same. I'm bloody sick and tired of hearing that crap. Honestly I am. I don't want empty promises. I love yall so much and you guys know, its pretty much everything I have. The 7 made me pull through the stress with school and the problem with her at that point of time. And yall have yet to go to sentosa with me! I just hope this will help. That the whole group will take some time to think about everything. There isn't much time left, exams are coming so are the holidays. And trust me, the holidays might just make things harder. I'm tired of being the middle person to tell Shaun not to drift away. Please tell each other what yall feel. I've tried my best to put the group back together, if all else fails. Then, I'm Sorry. But as long as we believe and try, and noone gives up. There will always be a glimmer of hope. I love each and everyone of you. God bless and good luck. *hugs all tight*
Seline darling* Sel darling~ Was so suprised to see you in biz park today. Or rather suprised to hear you scream drea. Haha. I've miss you loads and loads and loads. You have no idea how much. Too bad you were rushing for lesson and I was rushing to eat. Hee. :p Really hope to catch up with you real soon. Immediately after exams okay? To celebrate my birthday. I still owe you half your present. Hahaha. Really really miss you loads. Don't worry I'm fine. Thanks for asking. I'll fill you in asap. Take care and study hard for your exams okay girlfriend? Or my PL Partner. Hehe. Tell Zhenhui to shoo. Bleahh. *muacks babe.
Ah Quek* Donut, thanks for being here for me when i need you the most. Although things have come to the point where you don't even know what to say to console me. Thanks. Please cheer up. You used to be the only one who could cheer me up. But now, I see a different ducky. A rather "happy" one that is. Happiness that doesn't come from within but rather smiling for the sake of it. It hurts me to see you this way. No matter what I'm here for you okay? After my exams, we'll meet up with Sel okay? Miss spending time with two of my closest pals together. Love ya duck.
Ah Ryl* Auntayy Ryl~ Its been a long time since we called you aunty huh? Anyhow, just want to wish you good luck for exams although you don't need any!! Bring the distinctions back baby! Last sem 2 distinctions right? I want you to get 3 this sem!! Haha joking. Just do your best and don't stress yourself out too much okay? I know things haven't been going very well and its affecting you. I guess you and I don't feel comfortable with the group anymore. The reason? I'm not sure either. Just want you to know, whatever happens I'll always be here. I love you and you know that. *hugs*
Chy Chy*My everdearest Chy, please study hard for your exams. Don't laze around at home or basically get your eyes off that tv!! No more Arsenal and Man U quarrels with the boys anymore please! Haha. Down to serious things. Somehow, things between us have been rather awkward. I don't know. But I guess its because of the Shaun and Jem thing. There seems to be a barrier between the both of us somehow. I just hope, our friendship doesn't get too affected. Cause I love you. Its been a great 2 semesters with you and I want things to remain as they are. *hugs*
Keke* Kerrriieeeee~ *hugs* Haven't been seeing you recently cause I've been heading home after school. I miss you loads. Always remember you as the one who made me laugh so hard at Simpang. I honestly miss those days. Babe, study hard for exams yeah? Don't just laugh laugh laugh and I'm here if you need me okay? Going to give you a beeggg hug when I see you tmr or something. *smile girl.
Jem* Yishun~ Suprised to see this? Haha. Wait wait. Hello hello hello! Okay, enough of crap. Yishun, study hard for your exams and after that, you can go shake that bootie of yours already!! Love yew! Hahaha. Bye bye bye!
Shaunie Shaun Shaun* Brother bear xiu xiu~ Haha. Things haven't been going well one bit. I can't promise that things will be the same again but just don't isolate yourself please. With you missing from the group, everything seems so wrong. Everything. Study hard for exams and I'm here if you need me. You know I'll be here. Love you. *hugs*
Quek, Ryl, Chy, Jem, Keke & Shaun*I'm going to be a lil blunt here. But I know yall understand. The 7 of us used to be so close. I'm sure memories of 85, Simpang, Shaun's place, Ryl's birthday are still fresh in your heads. I don't know about yall but i miss the times together as a group and i miss the group alot. I want to make my stand first. I know what i say may not help but I'll give it a shot anyhow. I'm not upset with Shaun anymore. So I hope you guys forget about the matter. I had a part to play and though I was hurt. I'm fine. Everyone makes mistakes, for noone is perfect. I'll pick up my life where it stopped and continue. The issue between Shaun and I are the least of my worries. My opinion? Basically, its between the two guys. Yeah i know, face and all what not rubbish shit. I don't know. I personally think yall should talk things out. Be civil and open minded. We are friends after all. Honesty is important. All i want is for the group to be the same. Everyone to laugh together. Not one isolating himself, the other not happy, the rest getting affected and all sorts of funny situations. Don't start assuring me that things will be the same. I'm bloody sick and tired of hearing that crap. Honestly I am. I don't want empty promises. I love yall so much and you guys know, its pretty much everything I have. The 7 made me pull through the stress with school and the problem with her at that point of time. And yall have yet to go to sentosa with me! I just hope this will help. That the whole group will take some time to think about everything. There isn't much time left, exams are coming so are the holidays. And trust me, the holidays might just make things harder. I'm tired of being the middle person to tell Shaun not to drift away. Please tell each other what yall feel. I've tried my best to put the group back together, if all else fails. Then, I'm Sorry. But as long as we believe and try, and noone gives up. There will always be a glimmer of hope. I love each and everyone of you. God bless and good luck. *hugs all tight*
WHY AM I USING BACK MY PREVIOUS SKIN?! CAUSE EITHER I ACCIDENTALLY SCREWED MY BLOG UP WHICH IS HIGHLY IMPOSSIBLE CAUSED I BLOGGED EARLIER DURING MBS OR SOME FUCK SHIT HACKED INTO MY ACCOUNT AND SCREWED EVERYTHING UP. LIKE MY LIFE ISN'T SCREWED ENOUGH!!!!SO THE SKIN WAS HALF DESTROYED AND IM SO FUCKING GOD DAMNED PISSED. EVERYTHING IS IN A MAJOR MESS. I HAVE TO REDO THE WHOLE DARN THING FUCK!! AND I'M NOT GOING TO DO SO, CAUSE EXAMS ARE COMING FUCK IT. I'LL THIS FUCKED UP BLOG WHEN I WANT TO. IM GOING TO SLEEP EVERYTHING AWAY. I HATE EVERYONEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IRRITATING!!!
*ps: ignore the profanities. god damned it im being fucking sacarstic. just let me be or click that lil X on your top right hand corner dammit.
*ps: ignore the profanities. god damned it im being fucking sacarstic. just let me be or click that lil X on your top right hand corner dammit.
Sunday, April 11, 2004
I'm depressed. But I can handle it. Handling it better than i did 2 years ago. I won't die. I'll do just fine. I guess.
Ice cream more ice cream please. I've eaten about 1.5 litres of ice cream in 36 hours and i want more more more! Been eating and eating. Loads of ice cream and chocolates. I guess that's the only two things that can cheer me up now.
Tuition was horrible.
1. My student is half a head taller than me when she is only 12 for gods sake.
2. She is a EM1 Student.
3. The weather was so darn hot!!
Bahhh. I'm going to stop sulking about tuition and be a proper tutor. Went towning with my cousin after tuition and finally for once i managed to window shop proper. Saw so many things that i want. And to make matters worst, i fell in love with another pair of Levis. I know i know. I own too many Levis. But come on, I can only wear 2 outta 6 now!! Be fair people!! So its 3 pairs on the waiting list.
1. New type ones
2. Saddle stitch.
3. Red loop.
Now for the worst part. 2/3 costs $160+. I'm going to faint. Plus with my iPod mini, someone get me a suga daddy/mummy please. I need one!!
to that special someone*you
Ninety miles outside Chicago
can't stop driving I don't know why
So many questions, That need an answer
Two years later, you're still on my mind
Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart
Who holds the stars up in the sky
Was true love is just once in a lifetime
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you
Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
What the wind says when she crys?
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninty-seventh time, tonight
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that I was the one for you
I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watch the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me, tonight?
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that I was the one for you
Ice cream more ice cream please. I've eaten about 1.5 litres of ice cream in 36 hours and i want more more more! Been eating and eating. Loads of ice cream and chocolates. I guess that's the only two things that can cheer me up now.
Tuition was horrible.
1. My student is half a head taller than me when she is only 12 for gods sake.
2. She is a EM1 Student.
3. The weather was so darn hot!!
Bahhh. I'm going to stop sulking about tuition and be a proper tutor. Went towning with my cousin after tuition and finally for once i managed to window shop proper. Saw so many things that i want. And to make matters worst, i fell in love with another pair of Levis. I know i know. I own too many Levis. But come on, I can only wear 2 outta 6 now!! Be fair people!! So its 3 pairs on the waiting list.
1. New type ones
2. Saddle stitch.
3. Red loop.
Now for the worst part. 2/3 costs $160+. I'm going to faint. Plus with my iPod mini, someone get me a suga daddy/mummy please. I need one!!
to that special someone*you
Ninety miles outside Chicago
can't stop driving I don't know why
So many questions, That need an answer
Two years later, you're still on my mind
Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart
Who holds the stars up in the sky
Was true love is just once in a lifetime
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you
Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
What the wind says when she crys?
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninty-seventh time, tonight
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that I was the one for you
I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watch the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me, tonight?
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that I was the one for you
Saturday, April 10, 2004
Friday, April 09, 2004
A girl has got to dream doesn't she?
My Birthday Wish List!
-- iPod
-- Canon ixus i
-- Nike Dunk Highs
-- Neon Orange Mango Tank Top
-- Black Voodoos Doll Top
-- Pink Roxy Denimn Skirt
-- Addidas Jacket
-- V.C Andrews - Falling Stars or Sarah Waters - Affinity
-- Rook Piercing
-- Striped Note Book from Paperchase @ Borders
My Birthday Wish List!
-- iPod
-- Canon ixus i
-- Nike Dunk Highs
-- Neon Orange Mango Tank Top
-- Black Voodoos Doll Top
-- Pink Roxy Denimn Skirt
-- Addidas Jacket
-- V.C Andrews - Falling Stars or Sarah Waters - Affinity
-- Rook Piercing
-- Striped Note Book from Paperchase @ Borders
Thursday, April 08, 2004
"to love and be loved, is to hurt and be hurt" quoted from Leong Love is supposed to a many splendour thing ain't it?
The "walks" home have been quite calming in fact. Minus the fact that its 30 something degrees out there. I guess being alone made me realise a number of things. Like for one, I have been holding back. Holding back what some may ask. Holding back my freedom of speech. I know, i've been through it on one of my previous entries. No i'm not going to rant and rave like a Mad woman again. Just I don't know. Would you rather be someone who speaks her mind without any friends or someone who keeps everything to herself and is the most popular person around? I'm definately not the latter as most would know.
Now, i'm getting comfortable with being Me. Me being alone. I admire those who are truely independent. People who watch movies alone, goes shopping alone, have a meal alone. Am I not independent or is it just insecurity? I'm learning, and one day I will do just fine, just fine Alone.
Cause I want it all or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you've reached the bottom
It's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing...
Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No room inside
For me in your life
The "walks" home have been quite calming in fact. Minus the fact that its 30 something degrees out there. I guess being alone made me realise a number of things. Like for one, I have been holding back. Holding back what some may ask. Holding back my freedom of speech. I know, i've been through it on one of my previous entries. No i'm not going to rant and rave like a Mad woman again. Just I don't know. Would you rather be someone who speaks her mind without any friends or someone who keeps everything to herself and is the most popular person around? I'm definately not the latter as most would know.
Now, i'm getting comfortable with being Me. Me being alone. I admire those who are truely independent. People who watch movies alone, goes shopping alone, have a meal alone. Am I not independent or is it just insecurity? I'm learning, and one day I will do just fine, just fine Alone.
Cause I want it all or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you've reached the bottom
It's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing...
Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No room inside
For me in your life
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
Sunday, April 04, 2004
So now i'm going to speak my mind. Or lets say, speak without using my brain. Something i have been holding back for such a long time. Last time i did that was probably in KC days. Fuck everyone. I can only depend on myself. Me, Myself and I.
Independence would be the perfect word. Or isolation/anti-social or something like that. I need time alone. Or maybe everyone just piss off. Go somewhere else with your problems. I happen to be human too. And i have my own set of problems. I'm only 17 for gods sake. I'm not supposed to be worrying about so much shit. I'm supposed to be studying hard. Which i obviously can't.
Friends? Seems like such a distant word now. After all the KC fuck. Now it seems like Some TP fuck is brewing waiting to explode somehow. Maybe its just me after all. Maybe i'm just hard to get along and picky and stubborn and what have you. As simple as, its either humans can't face reality and take real shit. Or I am just TOO blunt. I choose to believe in the latter.
Love? Fuck that shit.
Money? Guys, i don't even know if i can continue studying. So i hope yall get the flow.
I'm fine. What haven't i gone through. Just that this time, i rather go through everything ALONE. Tired of being dependent on people. Fucking Sick and tired.
This world is just so fucking full of shit. Or maybe again. Its just you ANDREA LIM.
So-What am i not s'pposed to have an opinion?
Should i be quiet because i'm a woman?
Call me a bitch (bitch) cause i speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if i sat and smiled
When a female fires back
suddenly big talker don't know how to act
So he does what any little boy would do
Makin' up a few false rumors or two
That for sure is not a man to me
Slanderin' names for popularity
It's sad you only get your fame through controversy
But now it's time for me to come and give you more to say
This is for my girls all around the world
Who have come across a man that don't respect your worth
Thinkin' all women should be seen, not heard
So what do we do girls?
Shout louder,
Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground (our ground)
So lift your hands high and wave'em proud (wohoh)
Take a deep breath and say now,
Never can,never will
Can't hold us down
Nobody can hold us down(us down)...Nobody can hold us down(us down)...Nobody can hold us down(hold us down)
Never can never will...
So what am i not supposed to say what i'm saying
Are you offened with the message i'm bringin'
Call me whatever 'cause your words don't mean a thing
Coz you ain't even a man enough to handle what i sing
If you look back in history it's a common double standard of society
The guy gets all the glory, the more he can score
While the girl can do the same and yet you call her a whore
I don't understand why its OK,
The guy can get away with it while any girl gets named
All my ladies come together and make a change
And start a new beginning for us,everybody sing
Lil' Kim:
Here's something I just can't understand
If the guy have three girls then he's a man
He can either give her some head, or sex her raw
If the girl do the same, then she's a whore
But the table's about to turn
I'll bet my fame on it
Cats take my ideas and put their name on it
It's aight though, you can't hold me down
I got to keep on movin'
To all my girls with a man who be tryin to mack
Do it right back to him and let that be that
You need to let him know that his game is whack
And Lil' Kim and Christina Aguilera got your back
You're just a little boy,
Think you're so cute,so coy
You must talk so big, to make up for smaller things
You're just a little boy
All you'll do is annoy
You must talk so big, to make up for smaller things,
This is for my girls...
Ahh Wahoo ahh
Spread the word
Can't hold us down
Yeh we here
We Back again
Yeh Lil Kim and Christina Aguilera
Yeh
Can't hold us down!
Independence would be the perfect word. Or isolation/anti-social or something like that. I need time alone. Or maybe everyone just piss off. Go somewhere else with your problems. I happen to be human too. And i have my own set of problems. I'm only 17 for gods sake. I'm not supposed to be worrying about so much shit. I'm supposed to be studying hard. Which i obviously can't.
Friends? Seems like such a distant word now. After all the KC fuck. Now it seems like Some TP fuck is brewing waiting to explode somehow. Maybe its just me after all. Maybe i'm just hard to get along and picky and stubborn and what have you. As simple as, its either humans can't face reality and take real shit. Or I am just TOO blunt. I choose to believe in the latter.
Love? Fuck that shit.
Money? Guys, i don't even know if i can continue studying. So i hope yall get the flow.
I'm fine. What haven't i gone through. Just that this time, i rather go through everything ALONE. Tired of being dependent on people. Fucking Sick and tired.
This world is just so fucking full of shit. Or maybe again. Its just you ANDREA LIM.
So-What am i not s'pposed to have an opinion?
Should i be quiet because i'm a woman?
Call me a bitch (bitch) cause i speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if i sat and smiled
When a female fires back
suddenly big talker don't know how to act
So he does what any little boy would do
Makin' up a few false rumors or two
That for sure is not a man to me
Slanderin' names for popularity
It's sad you only get your fame through controversy
But now it's time for me to come and give you more to say
This is for my girls all around the world
Who have come across a man that don't respect your worth
Thinkin' all women should be seen, not heard
So what do we do girls?
Shout louder,
Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground (our ground)
So lift your hands high and wave'em proud (wohoh)
Take a deep breath and say now,
Never can,never will
Can't hold us down
Nobody can hold us down(us down)...Nobody can hold us down(us down)...Nobody can hold us down(hold us down)
Never can never will...
So what am i not supposed to say what i'm saying
Are you offened with the message i'm bringin'
Call me whatever 'cause your words don't mean a thing
Coz you ain't even a man enough to handle what i sing
If you look back in history it's a common double standard of society
The guy gets all the glory, the more he can score
While the girl can do the same and yet you call her a whore
I don't understand why its OK,
The guy can get away with it while any girl gets named
All my ladies come together and make a change
And start a new beginning for us,everybody sing
Lil' Kim:
Here's something I just can't understand
If the guy have three girls then he's a man
He can either give her some head, or sex her raw
If the girl do the same, then she's a whore
But the table's about to turn
I'll bet my fame on it
Cats take my ideas and put their name on it
It's aight though, you can't hold me down
I got to keep on movin'
To all my girls with a man who be tryin to mack
Do it right back to him and let that be that
You need to let him know that his game is whack
And Lil' Kim and Christina Aguilera got your back
You're just a little boy,
Think you're so cute,so coy
You must talk so big, to make up for smaller things
You're just a little boy
All you'll do is annoy
You must talk so big, to make up for smaller things,
This is for my girls...
Ahh Wahoo ahh
Spread the word
Can't hold us down
Yeh we here
We Back again
Yeh Lil Kim and Christina Aguilera
Yeh
Can't hold us down!
Saturday, April 03, 2004
Friday
Before heading for Ryl's birthday dinner. I accompanied Quek to TM to buy her present for Ryl and also a sunflower for the special birthday girl. People, yall should have seen the smile on Ryl's face after she got the sunflower. Non-Stop Smiling please. :D
After which we headed to Cafe Cartel (change of plans) at Suntec for dinner. Food was pretty okayy. Nothing fantastic but we sure did have loads of fun talking crap. Talked about loads of stuff while eating. Keke said she's buying Jem a ferrari for his birthday. Hahaha. Took some pictures and irritating clumsy plus blur ME accidentally deleted ALL the pictures in my camera. I almost cried please. My chicken picture is gone!! -sulks- Then we gave Ryl her Mango Dress. The silly girl was almost in tears. So glad you loved your present girl. Then Quek presented her birthday present to Ryl. Our silly Birthday girl put her head in the paper bag cause she was in tears!! (I have visual proof) So cute!! Quek gave her a pink Swatch Skin watch by the way. Headed to Esplanade after that to take more pictures. Ryl changed into her Mango Dress and boy she looks ravishing. Hahaha. So jealous. But i got Ice Cream from Shaunie Shaun Shaun! So so so nice pleasee. Thanks sweets!! :D All headed home after that. We were all pretty tired. Photos will be posted up later after Ryl send me the rest of the pictures in her Camera.
Today
Was supposed to crash the Macroeconomics Remedial but i was too tired to get outta bed so didn't go. In the end, i still headed down to school to accompany Shaun while he was doing his project. Apparently my grandma's place is across the road from Shaun's grandpa's place. We each headed to our grandparent's place. So nice of us right? Haha. Currently i'm like watching Miss Singapore Universe. Hmmm. No complains so far although i think the girls can afford to tone some parts of their bodies. Some abit flabby. Doesn't look that good on national TV. I'm not saying I have a perfect figure or anything but yeah. Miss Universe please. The opening act was pretty good. Loved the Retro looking short dress they were wearing. Nice please. Will be going down to the airport later to send my godma off.
Nothing much to blog about. Just updating my life. I'm getting so boring. Bahhh.
Thursday, April 01, 2004
I am currently in school. Bored to tears. But staying here till Shaun and Jem are done with their project. Accompany Shaunie Shaun Shaun. Ain't i nice? Hahaha. Macroeconomics is finally over. 2nd last project down. Only left with Arts Appreciation and its pretty much done with too. Feeling much more relaxed and less stressed. Just need sleep. Need sleep badly. Then there is Charlie's Corner tmr to celebrate Ryl's Birthday. I know she's going to love her present. So excited please!!
This song has been stuck in this lil brain of mine. Perfect Song to club to.*winks at sweets* 3 weeks more before i can club on my birthday. Legally that is! Ha!
Beyonce Knowles - Naughty Girl
I'm feelin sexy
I wanna hear you say my name boy
If you can reach me
You can feel my burning flame
I'm feelin kind of n-a-s-t-y
I might just take you home with me
Baby the minute i feel your energy
Your vibe's just taken over me
Start feelin so crazy babe
I feel the funk coming over me
I don't know what's gotten into me
The rhythm's got me feelin so crazy babe
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
We're gonna turn this party out
I know you want my body
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
I see you look me up and down
And I came to party
You're so sexy, tonight i am all yours boy
The way your body moves across the floor
You got me feelin n-a-s-t-y
I might just take you home with me
Baby the minute i feel your energy
The vibe's just taken over me
Start feelin so crazy babe
I feel the funk coming over me
I don't know what's gotten into me
The rhythm's got me feelin so crazy babe
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
We're gonna turn this party out
I know you want my body
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
I see you look me up and down
And I came to party
I love to love you baby
I love to love you baby
I love to love you baby
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
We're gonna turn this party out
I know you want my body
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
I see you look me up and down
And I came to party
This song has been stuck in this lil brain of mine. Perfect Song to club to.*winks at sweets* 3 weeks more before i can club on my birthday. Legally that is! Ha!
Beyonce Knowles - Naughty Girl
I'm feelin sexy
I wanna hear you say my name boy
If you can reach me
You can feel my burning flame
I'm feelin kind of n-a-s-t-y
I might just take you home with me
Baby the minute i feel your energy
Your vibe's just taken over me
Start feelin so crazy babe
I feel the funk coming over me
I don't know what's gotten into me
The rhythm's got me feelin so crazy babe
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
We're gonna turn this party out
I know you want my body
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
I see you look me up and down
And I came to party
You're so sexy, tonight i am all yours boy
The way your body moves across the floor
You got me feelin n-a-s-t-y
I might just take you home with me
Baby the minute i feel your energy
The vibe's just taken over me
Start feelin so crazy babe
I feel the funk coming over me
I don't know what's gotten into me
The rhythm's got me feelin so crazy babe
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
We're gonna turn this party out
I know you want my body
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
I see you look me up and down
And I came to party
I love to love you baby
I love to love you baby
I love to love you baby
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
We're gonna turn this party out
I know you want my body
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
I see you look me up and down
And I came to party
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