Yes, i didn't turn up for macroeconomics tutorial for e second time. I don't even have any idea how my bloody tutor looks like. And its already Week 4 of school. Thanks to my blinking headache and gastric again. All that talk about being more hardworking this semester. Constantly falling sick ain't helping one bit at all. not one bit. Can't seem to concentrate this semester. Everything seems so whoosh? Its just going to fast i suppose? Or am i just slow? *shrugs*

Headaches, migraines, gastric pains. They seem to be never ending for me. What the hell is wrong with me. Its affecting everything. Oh well, at least my insomnia is alot better. Somehow.

I'm so messed up. So messed up.

I'm disgusted by the way some people handle things. By the way how "back-stabbing" can happen. After going through so much in KC. This is probably the worst i've ever seen. But, its none of my business. So i shall not go on. Just really disgusted. Big time. *speechless*

I guess i'm going to continue research on Edvard Munch now. Anyone who is also a fan of his. Let me know. I need more information about him.

I though i fell in love this time. But as i did, i fell out of love. *irony*

Oh
Yeah
Huh Oh

You complete me
Like air and water boy
I need thee
And when I'm in your arms I feel free
Fallen
My heads up in the clouds in love
I'm proud
To you say it loud
Like an accident it happend
Out of nowhere
It just happend
And I aint mad at all
Because I've

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love (Because of love)

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love

Baby
To let you get away is crazy (Let you get away)
so I'm doing what it takes
To make you pledge your love to me
You see cause I'm tryna be a lady
For ever and ever baby
The picture wouldn't be the same
If you weren't standing next to me
Can't you see I'm fallen

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen (I'm fallen)
In love with you
I've fallen (Oh)
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love (Because of love)

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I can't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

You compliment me
Not an accesory
Your nesesary
You never could speak bad words against me
Your bare with me
Security
Are you here with me
Your my hapiness
My joy (Joy)
It's all because of you boy
I look forward to the time
I spend with you
Whatever it is we do

Cause I'm fallen for you boy
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Fallen
I've fallen for you
Fallen
Head over heels for you
So in love with you
Fallen
Love, oh
For you

Touch me (Touch me)
Hold me (Hold me)
Love me (Love me)
Kiss me
In love with you
Talk to me (Talk to me)
Caress me (Oh)
Play with me
Don't wanna get up
It's gonna be
Your my everything

Fallen
Head over heels (To let you get away is crazy)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (I won't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

Fallen (Touch me)
Head over heels (Hold me)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen (Whoa)
And I can't get up (With you)
Don't wanna get up
Because of love

Fallen (In love)
Head over heels
I've fallen (My joy)
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I can't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

Fallen (Head over heels for you)
Head over heels (So in love with you)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I cna't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

Fucking understand that im busy with project datelines okay!

I'm so stressed out. Datelines datelines and more datelines. Everything seems sp vague and confusing. No idea what is going on in school. And mid-term test is coming soon! *faints* Madness. I hate school. Especially projects. Gotta go complete my research, homework, project etc etc etc. Sheesh~

*mutters and mumbles*

Everything is fine. I'm so glad. *smiles* I Love You.

Met Toxic, Rusty and Kaka on Saturday and we caught Magic Kitchen. Not too bad a show. But nothing fantastic i suppose. Maggie Q was just sucha BABE. Made my money worth watchin e show. Just love her. So sensual, sexy and... Fantastic! I sound so pl-ish! *giggles*

Met up with Sel darling today too. Three of us walked around town. Bitched, Crapped and quarreled (cow and Sel). I Cut My hair! And I LOVE IT! *grins* If you want to see it. Come see me in person! Haha. Sounds so. Someone. Shall not say. =X Watched Peter Pan with cow today! I love e show! I love Tinkerbell!

I believe in faires. I do. I do.

Bleeding silently. Alone.

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh, things are gonna happen naturally
Oh, And taking your advice and I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
Oh, But it often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright light turns to night
Oh, Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of, others only read of bout' the love
Oh, the love that I love

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages, forewords
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of and if you could see me now
Oh, love love, you and I, you and I,
not so little you and I anymore, Umm
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of and if you could see me now
Well that I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally-dee-deedle le dee dee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I am free, Oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you had to go away
Oh, just remember the telephone well their workin it both ways
But if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of and if you could see me now
Well that I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of, Finally-dee-deedle le dee dee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Out of words

First day of Lunar New Year. Nothing Fantastic i suppose. Its just e same old routine. I think this year i recieved lesser Ang Baos. Well i haven't counted the money inside yet so who knows. *shrugs* As usual as i predicted, had loads of "suaning" from my relatives about my tube top and levi's super low. But i predicted. So was prepared for it. Just flash them my sweetest smile. And act all innocent.

Finally, the First day of Lunar new year is over. I can take out that mask of mine. Had to cheer myself up. Now, i feel free. Me. I can just be myself. Stop acting happy. And just show how i feel.

To you. Chances are you won't get to read this. If you do read this, then you did. If you don't then, you don't. I can't believe you doubt my love for you. After everything, you asked me if i still love you. If i didn't, i wouldn't have changed so much. I did everything for you and now you ask if i love you? Seriously, that made me speechless. Totally. Just because i don't treat you like before i don't love you? I told you time and time again. I'm reaching my limit. I'm tired of being the giver. You know what. Just forget it. Im rambling to myself anyway.

Bliss. Bliss of darkness. That's what someone said on MiRC to me yesterday. Just immersing myself in trivia. Stops my mind from going wild.

Sorry but my commenting board is down somehow. I think its enetation.co. Not me. Crap Shiat. Spoil my new year. *scowls*

Whee~ Happy Chinese New Year Everyone!
Collect more Ang Baos!
*muackies*

Gong Xi Fa Cai
Nian Nian You Yu
Wan Shi Ru Yi
Cai Yuan Guan Jing
Xue Ye Jing Bu

Like this song alot. Its so groovy~

Still in PMS mode though. -sulks-

Baby, can't you see
I'm calling
A guy like you
Should wear a warning
It's dangerous
I'm falling

There's no escape
I can't wait
I need a hit
Baby, give me it
You're dangerous
I'm loving it

Too high
Can't come down
Losing my head
Spinning round and round
Can you feel me now?

***
With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic
I'm slipping under
taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic?
And I love what you do
But you know that you're toxic
***
It's getting late
To give you up
I took a sip
From my devil's cup
Slowly
It's taking over me

Too high
Can't come down
It's in the air
And it's all around
Can you feel me now?

***
With a taste of your lips,
I'm on a ride,
You're toxic,
I'm slipping under,
taste of a poison paradise,
I'm addicted to you,
Don't you know that you're toxic?
And I love what you do,
But you know that you're toxic!
know that you're toxic!
***
Taste of your lips, I'm on a ride
You're toxic
I'm slipping under
taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic?

With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic
I'm slipping under (toxic)
taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic

Intoxicate me now
With your loving now
I think I'm ready now
I think I'm ready now
Intoxicate me now
With your loving now
I think I'm ready now

Im Fooking Stressed. Like bloody seriously. Fuck it. Okay sorry for e profanities. But what the bloody fuck!! -growls-

Im tired. Exhausted. Sick. And frigging Stressed.

Nothing is going my way since school started. Nothing at all.

Everything if fucking screwed. I just want to die. Now. Instant death please.

Im Sick. And alone at home again. No food. -sighs- I guess it will have to be maggi mee again. No choice. Il cook later. Feeling a lil wozzy at e moment. And i bloody missed Mbs Lab and Tourism Destinations Tutorial and lecture. There goes all my attendance. This semester seems to be going to fast. I can't catch up at all. I have no idea what is going on. Totally. Hate it when this happens. Im supposed to do better this semester. And its just e beginning of the semester. Im already lost. What's going to happen to me when all e bloody dateline's and Tests and Exams start. Il crumble beneath stress. I hate school.

Everything else is fine i suppose? Its just that everyone else seems so troubled and depressed. -sighs- It ain't helping me at all. Chinese New Year is coming. Im only probably looking forward to Tuan Yuan Fan. Yummy~

Gotta rest now. Nothing else to blog anyway. Love you guys. -muacks-

-exhausted-
-tired-
-drained-

Any other words?

Im fine.
Im too fine.
*shrugs*
Somehow, something seems to be all so wrong. I have no idea what though. I guess im just thinking too much into everything. Im pmsing too. No mood to blog even.

Thanks for everyone who was there for me. You guys know who u are. Thanks alot. *hugs*

Dear, i hope all goes well. All i can do now is hope and pray. Love you.

This song just perfectly describes how i feel.

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh, things are gonna happen naturally
Oh, And taking your advice and I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
Oh, But it often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright light turns to night
Oh, Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of, others only read of bout' the love
Oh, the love that I love

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages, forewords
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of and if you could see me now
Oh, love love, you and I, you and I,
not so little you and I anymore, Umm
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of and if you could see me now
Well that I’m almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally-dee-deedle le dee dee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I am free, Oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you had to go away
Oh, just remember the telephone well their workin it both ways
But if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of and if you could see me now
Well that I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of, Finally-dee-deedle le dee dee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Out of words

You Choose To Leave. Not Me.

Saturday
First we went down to Ikea. Had a Fabulous lunch there! Ate the local special: Chicken Rendang, Swedish meatballs and the kids meal: Chicken nuggets fries with Sparkling ribena. *licks lips* And the lil piggy cow, ate another two chicken wings! But it was so yummy, e chicken wings that is. Too bad i was too full so i missed out on e chicken wings. Then after feeling all full and lil piggy cow went to shiat! Haha. We walked around Ikea. Bought this stripey placemat. ONE only hahaha. -selfish- And some coloured boxes i've been wanting to get for sometime. Yay! Wanted to grab a hotdog but was still too full. -grins-

After Ikea, we went down to Queensway to look for lil piggy cow's shoes. But she lived up to her name and couldn't find any shoes cause she's all too small. -grins- Oh Oh Oh, saw this wonderful cum fabulous Addias BAG! Like OMG i like it so much! But, i have no money for a new bag. -sighs- Then bumped into my "mother-in-law and brother-in-law and both of us got a Rude shock of our lives. Thank god we were holding hands or anything.

Later, met up with Mich, Leong, Stace and Sel. But all for only a short period of time. Then we walked around and continued the search for lil piggy cow's shoes. But still couldn't find e Perfect one. Decided that i needed good food so we went down to Sakae Sushi! Yummy~ Ate so much that we were both so full. -grins-

Sunday
Went for that bloody travel tour briefing crap. Was like so boring. But thank godness it only lasted for 30mins or so. And plus i had Chynna and Ashraf for comany. Made me go all e way down to Chinatown to listen to crap i could have gotten off e internet with just a click. Afterall, i suppose its the experience right?

Met lil piggy cow for tea and we ate fried hokkien mee and guo tie! Yummy~ Then walked around continuing her search for her shoes and my spotting of Cny clothes. After walking e whole of Suntec and City Link. Finally bought my Addidas Beanie!! -beams- And lil piggy cow bought a nice black t-shirt from Addidas too!

Guess what?! I lost 3kgs during the holidays! Like oh yea~ But with my constant feeding from cow, i guess il put back the weight on in no time. Never mind. Il try to maintain it. Im 45kg now! Same as my sister! Mwahahaaha..

Crap, forgot to get Sel's present and i have homework to do. -sulks-

Imagine me and you, i do
I think about you day and night, its only right
To think about the girl you love and hold her tight
So happy together

If i should call you up, invest a dime
And you'd say you belong to me, I'd lose my mind
Imagine how the world could be so very fine
So happy together

I can see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies will be blue
For all my life

Me and you, and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it had to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together

I can see me lovin' nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me, baby the skies will be blue
For all my life

Me and you, and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice, it had to be
The only one for me is you, and you for me
So happy together

Love the song above. So meaningful. Somehow i suppose. *sighs* Its e song from the Heinekin advertisement. The one with Rachel from friends at e supermarket. Yeah. Got it on my Mp3 too. But i've got e cover version by Simple Plan. Not too bad but i prefer e original one.

Skipped Macroeconomics lecture today. Just didn't feel like going and plus had a slight headache. I'm just not recovering from the bloody flu. Totally please. Feeling even worse than ever. I don't even want to go to school on Monday. *sighs* But i can't afford to miss lessons anymore. My resolution this year is to do well this semester. I guess its just going to turn out like every other year. Resolution Failed.

Just tired. All so tired.

You were my sun
You were my earth
But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no
So you took a chance
And made other plans
But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down
No

You don't have to say, what you did,
I already know, I found out from him,
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me all alone
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me on the phone
But girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
Bridges were burned, now it's your turn to cry

Cry me a river
Cry me a river girl
Cry me a river
Cry me a river girl (yeah, yeah)

I know that they say
That some things are better left unsaid
It wasn't like you only talked to him and you know it
(Don't act like you don't know it)
All of these things people told me
Keep messin' with my head
(Messin' with my head)
You should've picked honesty
Then you may not have blown it
(Yea..)

You don't have to say, what you did,
(Don't have to say, what you did)
I already know, I found out from him
(I already know, uh)
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
(No chance, you and me)
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me all alone
(All alone)
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me on the phone
(When you call me on the phone)
But girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
(I'm not like them baby)
Bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
(It's your turn)
To cry

Cry me a river
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river girl
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river girl

Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leavin'
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leavin'
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leavin'
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be... leavin'

You don't have to say, what you did,
(Don't have to say, what you did)
I already know, I found out from him
(I already know, uh)
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
(No chance, you and me)
And don't it make you sad about it

Cry me a river
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river girl
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river
(You can go on and just)
Cry me a river girl (yeah yeah)

Cry me a river (Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river girl
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river
(Cause I've already cried)
Cry me a river girl
(Don't wanna cry no more, yeah yeah)

Cry me a river
Cry me a river, oh
Cry me a river, oh
Cry me a river, oh

2nd day of school.
Not too bad after all.
Had Arts Appreciation lecture.
VERY interesting! To me that is.
Artsy Fartsy! Hahaha.
I know i sound mad, but honestly it didn't turn out as bad as i expected it to be.
Talked about the different forms of art, source of inspiration etc.
Basically, its about Art History.
But tomorrow i have the bloody tutorial at 9am!!
*faints*
So bliking early please!
Hope I get nice classmates!
Oh ya, my class has this exchange student from Finland.
Pretty cool huh?
Some of e girls are going gaga.
He's not exactly good looking but not bad.
Not that it bothers me anyway.
Darling, Just want to say I Love You.
Miss You Loads.

Love can be a many splendored thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses
Diamond rings
Dreams for sale
And fairy tales
Itll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
Itll fool you every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
So you've got no say at all

Now I was a once a fool it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
Im sadder but Im wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
So you've got no say at all

Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin
And I keep on fallin
Over and over again
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pouring rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

The trouble with love is (the trouble with love)
It can tear you up inside (it can tear you up inside)
Make your heart believe a lie (Make your heart believe a lie)
It's stronger than your pride
(The trouble with love is) Its in your heart it's in your soul
(It doesn't care how fast you fall) You're losing all control
(And you can't refuse the call)
So you've got no say at all
The trouble with love is (Oooo….ya)
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie (the trouble with love..)