Funky Aunties

First week of work didn't go so well. Monday, turned up with bad sore throat and non stop leaking nose. Bleeding mother fucking irritating can. By the time I was on my way home, I started to feel feverish and once it was 10pm, I had a full blown fever.

It got worst throughout the night and woke up with a high fever the next day so had no choice but to call in sick cause I was feeling so weak and faint. Every time I got up to make myself to go to the clinic downstairs, I just could not get myself to do it because I was so afraid I'd faint somewhere on the 10 minutes journey. At the end, I waited for mummy to finish work then met her at the bus stop before she took me to the clinic.

Although I had 2 days worth of MC to allow me to recuperate, I had to go back the work the next day. -cries- And till today, only my fever and leaky nose have bade me farewell. Cough and sore throat still sticking to me like a couple of warts.

So yes, I'm tired, exhausted physically and mentally but I do enjoy working there. Being the youngest always has it's benefits, especially when all your colleagues are aunties (Aged late 30s and above) who listen to Justin Timberlake and know the latest R&B/Hip Hop hits from the Radio. :D

*Exclusive: Hershey the Chocolate Monster looking BEE-Z.

`Spinning: Eve Featuring Swizz Beatz - Tambourine

First & Last's

Been wanting to change my blog layout for awhile now but after an aimless 2 hours of surfing or procrastination of creating my own, I'm just too darn lazy to do any HTML/CSS or to upgrade it to XML. Shall wait for another time when I'm too damn bloody bored and when the mojo kicks in.

Today's my last day at NAFA and I'm just here to do nothing the entire day, which sucks because it makes me so damn sleepy especially after having 2 meals in a day already. Plus, I came in at 0815 so I can leave earlier and because I didn't sleep at all. -grumbles-

It's kinda sad to leave here cause I get along with my colleagues and boss rather well. Then Monday will come along and I'll have to get used to a new environment again. I hate this routine.

Well at least my new manager seems pretty nice but then, so did the bitch that I worked for previously. Though I'm a lil wary of my new boss (who is my manager's boss but my boss as well) but I have learnt that, sometimes, first impressions are very deceiving. For all I know, my boss may be the nice one and my manager's from hell to torture me.

I hope I find a smoking kaki at the new place because currently at NAFA, I'm the only one who smokes in the entire department and it doesn't help that it's an educational institute so it makes smoking very lonely and a chore to smoke "outside" the building.

Then there's the dreaded 5.5 working days. I want to complain non-stop but I will not harp on it and just live with it. One more thing, MSN had better be for "legal" usage at the new place because I'd really harbour "I want to quit right away" thoughts once I realise MSN is STRICTLY not allowed.

Sigh. I really pray that it'll turn out good and if it doesn't I will do my best to live with it because I want to buy a couple of things and go for another holiday soon.

"There's never a perfect job
Not even when you're self employed."

The Forked Path

It is now August, 8th month into 2007 and what have I accomplished in this year? Nothing. Absolutely nothing.

I'm disappointed, I really am. Now, I'm given a choice to prove myself once again, but will I fail like I have the past few times? Will I be able to leave this path behind and embark on a brand new one? I don't know. I do know that I am the only one who can answer these questions and ultimately, it's all up to me.

I'm scared. Even presently, I'm failing, again. So should I take this chance with determination? But what if I fail once again. I don't know how many times I can take failing. How many times before it totally wears me down.

I will not make excuses for myself anymore. What I am today, is no one's fault but mine. Can I take this challenge and prove everyone, including myself wrong? All I know, there's this hesitation, because I don't want to fail again.

`Spinning: Alex Gaudino Ft. Crystal Wa - Destination Calabria

"Sometimes it seems no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul"