Negative Karma

Finally got a chance to spend quality time with my best friend. Long John's Silver, MacDonald's and Madagascar. ((:

The first half of the movie was pretty good. Funny like shit please. The second half, er, I don't know cause I fell asleep for the first time during a movie. I was that tired please. Heh.

Had a good chat with Quek. *smiles. She's the only one who's able to see through me like a glass sheet and love me for being me.

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Been wanting to blog about this for a long time, I reckon today's the day. I don't really care if it gets me into trouble again cause this is how I feel and this is my blog.

So maybe I am self-conceited, self absorbed, narcissistic, tactless, blunt, rude, violent, insensitive, and whatever else you have to add on.

If anyone has something against me, say it to my face. Gossip and rumours aren't the way to let me know. If anyone really cares and really misses me, call me and arrange an outing. Not proclaiming you do when I seriously wonder if you do.

Its not going to work if I'm the only one who is bothered. Get it?

I hate friendships that disappear into thin air for god knows what reasons. I hate people who tell me one thing and do another. I hate broken promises and lies. I hate every one of you.

I wished work would get real busy soon. Cause I'm sick and tired of all of you and at least then I wouldn't have the time so worry so much about dying friendships.

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I love Mummy. I love Pain in My Ass Manda Lim. I love Quekypoo. I love Sotong Sel Ham. I love Ah Ryl. I love Marilyn. I love Shawn Low. I love Cousin. I love Sister Mel.

I love them because these are the ones who keep me sane and insane at the same time. They ask after me once in a while, crack silly jokes to cheer me up, tease me and so on.

But not everyone has been meeting me often enough or even talking to me often enough. I miss you.

Okay, so yes I am feeling depressed. Whatever.

The Weekends

The much awaited weekends finally came. It will be gone in another 14 hours though. Oh well. Tomorrow, its week 2 of SIP. Argh. 22 more weeks to go please.

Met Shawn dearest for coffee after work on Friday. He owes me too many ice creams and coffees already la. Haha. That avid photographer managed to snoop a couple of pictures of me. Pretty nice though. Not me la, the perspective and the background deh.
Please meet me more often kay bro? Now we're working near one another, there's no excuse. Lol.

Sister Mel's birthday party at The Gallery Hotel after that. Room 608. The party was fantastic. Alcohol galore, laughter, food and beautiful people for company. The party gave me a chance to meet my much missed homeless darlings.
Mel, thanks for the party. I enjoyed myself. Hope you liked your present from us. Take care and call me anytime kay dear? Love you.

Stayed till 0700 in the morning. Tiong Bahru market for breakfast! I miss having breakfast there. *faint smile.
Hello Cousin, Sal, Rachiee, Queky, Jon, Mel. I still miss yall like fuck please. Meet me for dinner/lunch soon please. Take care. Loves.

I then spent my whole Saturday sleeping. From Saturday 1100 - Sunday 0500. Not bad huh? I am so going to do something today. I'm not staying at home to fucking rot please.



I've never felt more lonely before.

Confessions of A Bored Intern

Shhh. Don't tell anyone I'm writing this entry on Microsoft Word in the office. Oh right, my blog is public.

It's 1520 hours now, another 2 hours and 15 minutes till I'm out of here. Today's the 3rd Day of my internship, another 22 weeks and I'm really out of here.

Kept myself busy the whole morning with the questionnaire and then did a cover letter. Shan't disclose too many details before I get sued for god knows what.

So now, I have nothing to do. After I was done with the cover letter I asked for more work and she said this to me on MSN (Yes we communicate through MSN Messenger. How cool right?):

Supervisor: I know you're really bored now. But there is nothing for you to do at the moment. So just act busy.

Me: Lol. Okay. No problem.

Supervisor: Shhh. Don't tell ***(My HR Manager) that I said this!

Me: Don't worry. Goes in one ear, out the other. Lol.

So I'm "blogging", sms-ing, msn-ing and surfing Tomorrow. If you don't know Tomorrow, I suggest you search for the nearest pillar and bang your head against it.

Tomorrow is the Singapore "blog" for Singaporean bloggers. Where people send in interesting (in every context) blog entries that they read about, Singaporean or Non-Singaporean. It is also some sort of a portal for fellow bloggers to interact and what not blah blah. Trust me, go read it you'll find many funny entries.

With editors like Mr. Brown, Mr. Miyagi , Xiaxue and Cowboy Caleb, you're in for a good laugh at the comments they give. Kudos to all editors and contributors for making my currently boring internship (as it's not peak season for the publications) much more enjoyable with the funky contributions.

Psst. I want to kena Tomorrow-ed also leh.

Day 1, 2 and Counting

Good News: I'm attatched to the publications team (or better known as the Travel (Sales) team).
Bad News: For a time frame of 5 weeks.

Its better than nothing I reckon. At least I get a gist of it. :))

My in-charge of the publications team is a quirky, funny, sweet ex-hospitality student with a slight addiction of shopping during lunch time. Haha. She's really nice and funky. Totally not strict but I still have to adhere to rules because of the HR manager.

Day 1
2 hour orientation. Was first briefed about the corporate structure by HR then my in-charge briefed me about the different publications. Technically there are 6 publications but they have plenty of sub-publications.

Spent the whole day reading the past issues of their publications. I felt like a walking hospitality and tourism encyclopedia at the end of the day.

First day, first project. The project is actually a request from the Managing Director (I have yet to meet him). Best part about it? Its a competitive analysis. Equivalent to Applied Research. Someone rescue me. I'm doing it all alone. The thought that my MD wants it just gets me even more stressed..

One thing for sure is I won't be able to see the whole project through cause I'll be with the Events Team in 4 weeks. Oh well. I'd rather see it through as much as I hate Applied Research. Zhang Wei just has to haunt me even when she's not my LO or ALO.

Day 2
Complied the mock up show diary for the upcoming event. It involved papers, pen knife and scotch tape. Good old handicraft work which took me almost the whole morning.

After lunch was my greatest nightmare. I practically stoned all the way till work ended. So damned fucking boring can. I rather have a whole lotta work to do. Couldn't do much for the competitive analysis cause we're not sure what my MD wants in the first place.

So it was pretty much stoning, day-dreaming, doodling and finding methods to prevent myself from falling asleep. Boy, I'm tired after all that.

Honestly, I'm enjoying myself so far. No complains what so ever. Hope it continues the way it is, minus the having nothing to do part of course.

How are my fellow course mates doing? Update your blogs so I can read yeah. Take care and have fun everyone!

I'm losing control this girl's got a hold.

Pre-SIP Jitters

I can't sleep. This is not good. :((

God bless me.

Monday Blues

22 hours to the end of freedom.

Pasir Ris Park with Quekypoo and Rachiee. The 2 chickens didn't dare to scale the "spiderweb".

MOS Burger at TM with Dan and Queky after that. I ate so much yesterday. Ba Chor Mee, Vegetarian Bee Hoon, MOS Chicken Burger, 4 pieces Chicken Nuggets and Microwave Nonya Sambal Chicken with Rice from 7-11. *burps.

Headed for a Daytona challenge. *ahem. I won again. Like what's new? Lol. *smirks. Challenge anyone?

Mahjong at Yihan's with Queky and Pam all the way till 0600. Pssst. Miss Darth Vader fell asleep on her bed halfway. Lousy.

Yes, I'm still awake. :))

Revenge of the Sith later at PS, 1830. I hope I don't fall asleep because currently my eyelids seem to be failing me. I seem to be in Queky's one eye asleep mode. Zzzzz.

Wait wait, I need to say this:
Wah lan eh. KNNBCBBLPPL Fucking fucktards bitch slut bastard fuck @#$^*&)#!@#.

Jin random leh. Just felt like that. Lol. Ya la, I'm cranky, grumpy, sleepy and what neh neh sai you have la okay arses.

I want to go back to school, I don't want to go for SIP. :((

If only I could turn back time.

The Untold Story of The Future

Good morning world. Its a bright and beautiful Saturday morning.

As usual, I haven't slept. Neither am I planning to sleep later or anytime soon.

I have to fix this reversed body clock of mine that thinks I'm living on the other side of the globe. Not sleeping is probably the only way to get it fixed, I think.

Kingdom of Heaven with Queky and Yihan earlier this morning at Tampines Mall - Golden Village. Prata at 0400 at some coffee shop next to Holy Trinty Church after that.

Despite all the negative comments I have received about Kingdom of Heaven, I would say that its a rather good movie. Inspiring is the word I reckon. Go catch it and see if you share my sentiments.

After prata, we settled down and talked about pretty much a lot of things. School, SIP and the future.

The glint of excitement in their eyes as they talked about going back to their "normal" school lives; checking out the freshies, endless projects and late nights, screaming for each other from one end to another (Design School is small enough for that), evoked a sense of desire of doing likewise.

Of course it is literally impossible to scream for someone in Business School. Firstly Business is too big and everyone around you would start staring. I can hear Quek going, "Yeah, business students are boring and stuck up just because they are supposedly the smartest faculty in TP what".

I'm going to be devoid of meeting up with the gang during breaks, glaring at those who shake their legs in my presence during lectures, smoking sessions with Marilyn at the reservoir, running to ITAS Ultra Supplies to print reports and projects, calling Queky on the phone bugging her to visit me in Business, running to tutorials because I'm late, staying in the labs till 2200, okay the list can go on and on, for 24 fucking weeks till the final semester starts.

Moving on to the topic of SIP, I popped the question of whether they truly enjoyed and learned from their 8 week stint with their respective companies. I'm glad I got a positive answer.

The topic of what we were going to do after graduating crept into the conversation unknowingly.

Yihan wants to get her degree in media studies in Australia. Quek wants her degree but doesn't know what she's planning to do after graduation and prefers to not think about it yet. Queky please don't go back to the States, I'll be devastated.

As for me? After thinking for about 6 months, honestly I'm not sure. I want my degree but I know my own financial condition would not allow it.

SQ Stewardess? Sales & Marketing in a hotel? Events? Attractions? Discovery Travel & Living? *grins at Queky. You'd never know. The future is just a blur haze.

Put it this way. I don't know if everyone knows that I never planned to be doing Tourism Management.

What I really wanted after O's was Fine Arts at Lasalle. Painting was and still is my passion. The smell of oils, fingers stained with the smell of turpentine, the texture of the paint when its dried, manipulation of the colours and the satisfaction of knowing that there is nothing else you can do to the painting. I miss all these.

Then there was Mass Communications at Ngee Ann. The interviewers told me straight in my face that I was digging my own grave when they shot me this question "Why not Lasalle since you've got the passion and the talent for painting". My answer? "Financially incapable".

I guess they were right. If you dare to dream, be brave to do it. But they didn't understand and I don't blame them. My life is such that it has revolve around making money. Fine Arts at Lasalle is not going to bring food to the table.

Most artists are poor and as shallow as it sounds, I'm tired of being poor. I want to go back to the days of spending money without a worry or at least knowing I have enough for necessities.

First two options were out so the rest I left to fate. First choice for JAE was Law Management at TP. No idea why they posted me to Business (which was like my 4th/5th choice) at TP since I met the cut off for Law. I'm glad now I didn't do Law.

Then there was Tourism. Headed for the interview with my cousin. I went to accompany her. Voila, I got accepted on the spot and she didn't.

I didn't sign the acceptance letter and thought I was stuck with Business. Then two enrolment packages came. In the end it was Tourism because my mum preferred Tourism (she was in the hotel line for awhile).

I'm glad fate brought me to Tourism. Through the past 2 years, I've developed an intense passion and interest for the industry. This is where I see myself in the future.

But then again, you'd never know do you.

Snoop Dogg

Its 0409 and I'm bored shitless and suffering from a reversed body clock.

So I decided to snoop around my SIP company's website and check out what events they have planned and are planning.

I know I'm supposed to know all these but I went for the interview like months ago so why the fuck would I remember.

They plan CTW (Corporate Travel World Asia-Pacific) and IT&CMA (Incentive Travel & Conventions, Meetings Asia) annually I think.

This year both events are combined and held in Pattaya from the 11th to the 13th of October.

Then there's TTM (Thailand Travel Mart) and ITS (International Travel Show), 15th to the 19th of June, held together (again) in Bangkok or affectionately known to Tourism Students as BKK. Anyone misses Airline Business and Amadeus? Sorry, digressing there.

Woohoo. Since I'm going to be part of the events team. I pray I pray I get to go to Thailand. Especially Bangkok. I honestly don't mind an all expenses paid for trip. Hur.

Although the company was established in Singapore (SIN) and parent company is in Hong Kong (HKG), they quite fancy Thailand huh.

Eh eh. What's the City Code for Pattaya? Anyone remembers? Tag me please. Thankyouverymuch.

Oh oh. I stumbled upon some profiles of my colleagues to be as well. Interesting.

Cigarettes and Alcohol

Chinablack Jade, 2rd week in a row. I officially declare that I'm sick of clubbing. I'm going to abstain from it for quite awhile.

I've had my fair share of alcohol; getting high and drunk, cigarettes; excessive smoking and music; same old clubbing music, the past 3 - 4 weeks to satisfy my desire for clubbing. Which equals to no Zouk tomorrow. Sorry girls.

Plus, I'm totally bankrupt already. I have no idea how am I going to survive my first week of internship when I'm zero. Sugar Daddy anyone?

The Virgin Suicides at Dan's place earlier. Woohoo. I just love that movie. :))

Had a small puking session. No idea why. Puked for about 4 - 5 times. Urghh. Gross. I'm feeling mighty fine now though.

Have you ever felt so distant from the closest people in your life? I have. I'm feeling that right now. All because of lack of communication. I miss my best friend and my mum.

Sometimes your voice is loudest when its written down.

Cute Without The E
-- edited*

Thanks to Kailing I've got it fixed. Why didn't I think of putting a negative in front?! Omg Andrea. Anyhoos, still ain't totally completed. I wanna play around with the text colours. Till I'm free then. :)) -- 1714 hours

Bah. New layout. But its still not completed yet. Not really in the mood for html. My navigation bar is blocking my body text. At least that's how it looks like using Netscape and Internet Explorer. Cousin says it looks fine on Safari.

So those using IE/Mozilla/Netscape and what other nonsense. Let me know if its blocking okay? I wouldn't mind some help from a html genius as well. Buggershitcrap.

So yes, I'm here to update rather unwillingly. There's nothing much I want to say. No idea why. Kinda weird coming from someone who blogs every other day ehs? Oh whatever.

Okay, I'm feeling blah/cranky.

Oh oh. Guess what? I'm broke again. Yeah, its like old old news on this blog. Andrea's always broke. Wtf right. Not good considering I owe Queky and Cousin money. Kns.

One thing I'm glad is that my whole week is pretty packed with activities and what not. Let's do a run through:

Wednesday: Sleep till late afternoon. Granny's place for dinner. Chinablack with my 2 darlings; Ryl & Marilyn. (I'm going to take the first bus home. Haha.)

Thursday: Stay home and do some cleaning/chores.

Friday: Zouk with the homeless girls.

Saturday: Some filming thingy with Dan

Sunday: Sentosa!

Monday: Stay home and suffer from Pre-SIP Jitters. LOL.

Roughly that's about it I think.

Okay, so what have I been up to the past few days.

Friday: Caught the movie "Are We There Yet?" with the homeless. Fucking waste of my moohlah dammit. The show was so dammit lame. It wasn't funny. If you think its cause Andrea is a "un-humorous" person. No it isn't me. It was the damned cheat my $8.50 movie. Neh neh.

Saturday/Sunday: Met the homeless boys really late in town. Pool at Lucky Plaza. Roamed about and ended up at Dan's place with Rayve in the end. Watched City Of God and Garden State then stayed up the whole day camping out on his couch watching cable. Cabbed home all the way from Bukit Timah.

Monday: I was a good girl so I stayed home and slept till 1900 hours. Lol.

Tuesday: Wanton mee at Sunshine Plaza with SalDanMerv. Woot. Fried wanton with mayo. Not bad. Roamed about town again. Like what's new. Starbucks at Liat Towers.

Oh oh. Anyone wants to go for the Esprit Sale. I can bring another 2 people. Its exclusive to membership card holders only. Fri, Sat and Sun 1930 - 2300 hours. Text me if you want me to bring you along or if you want more details.

Okay. So the whole entry is full of nonsensical rubbish. Like I always say. IF YOU BLOODY DON'T LIKE IT, THEN DON'T FUCKING READ MY BLOG. *ahem. There you have it.

Sometimes a satisfying lie is better than the awful truth.

Stone-nation

**Warning: Major long entry. Prolly the longest since I started blogging for almost 3 years now.

So yes I blogged about 2 hours ago? I'm just bored shitless and all cranky. I'm tired but I don't want to sleep. Get the gist of it now?

I'm sick of all the R&B/Hip Hop music in my computer. Yes. You heard it first. I'm fucking sick and tired of it. So now Norah Jones's Come Away With Me album is playing instead.

Blog surfing. The only few who seem to be enjoying their SIP stint so far are the Ritz Carlton people, Pan Pacific people, basically those who are doing something they're passionate about I reckon.

Fuck shittards. The more I think about TTG the more I dread it. I need to look through my MEIT notes. Considering out of so many MEIT lectures and tutorials, I only turned up for 2 tutorials and 3 lectures.

I'm basically screwed major. Okay, I got an overall B grade for MEIT in the end, cause of the shit loads of effort Ryl and I put in for the damned report. I miss the days of staying up till 0700 doing the report.

Side-tracking there. So as I was saying, I'm screwed because I'm going to events and I know fuck shit about this sector of the industry.

Everytime a senior asks where I'm posted to for SIP, and I go "TTG", they give me this horrified look then pat my shoulder and tell me good luck. Like wtf. When I ask for details, everyone just decides to shut their trap when they shouldn't and not say a single thing.

Fucking scaring the fuck outta me. Plus the fact that the previous batch had 3-4 interns and this time round I'm fucking alone. *screams.

By just reading what some of my fellow coursemates who are in events are doing during their internship, I'm ready to take a knife and slit my own throat. Okay, if you have the passion for it, then its okay. But when you happen to hate this sector of the Hospitality & Tourism industry, you'll know how I feel.

Okay, sorry. I was just going all paranoid about SIP. Pre-SIP jitters. Keep an open mind Andrea! Dammit.

So before I start my nightmare of becoming a typical Raffles Place office lady and have to time to blog proper (Cringes at the thought of reserving seats by putting tissue packs on tables, dressed like an office lady, babbling and gossiping about office politics. Sorry sidetracking again.) , I'm going to do random shoutouts to people who actually read this shit.

Sel* Self-proclaimed Princess Sotong Seline Han. I'm missing you hell loads. I'm going to arrange a day out for the 2 of us before both of us start SIP. I've got fuck loads to talk to you about and I haven't been shopping with you in years. Literally. Please take care of yourself you butterfly eyes. Love you plenty plenty.

Quek* My one and only Quekypoo. Things have been kinda rough for us lately but you'll always be my bestie no matter what okay? I'm sorry if I've hurt you in anyway and I know I did. It sucks that you're doing your SIP during my last holiday cause I have no fucking holiday because SIP fucking lasts till there's only 1 week of hols before Year 3, Sem 2 starts. Fuck shit. Okay yes, please remember I'll always love you okay? Love you plenty plenty too.

Ryl* Lil Miss Cheryl Chan Mali Chan! *big grin. I fucking miss you like hell please. So anyhoos, when are you going to meet me for coffee or some alcohol with funky music and dirty dancing? When when when? I'm glad that you're having a good time with Ritz Carlton. Pray hard for me. I miss the days that we would have to stay up till 0700 or go to school without sleep cause we were working our asses off for the project. I'm so proud the 2 of us did rather well for those projects. Miss and love you plenty my perfect project partner.

Chy* Chynna Woon SM! Muahaha. I don't know if you'll read this but wth. My all so pretty friend whom I had to double up as a bodyguard fending off disgusting little boys in Year 1, Sem 1. Resulting in her darling thinking that we were a couple. Hah. Hope Ritz is treating you well too. Miss you and your blur antics lots! Don't fall asleep at work ah! Loves.

Jem* Yishun! Heh heh. The one guy that I had something against because he looks like my ex from hell. Looks are deceiving. Everytime I think of you and Chy I smile. Haha. Mr Butler to be at Raffles Hotel, enjoy your stint there and take good care.

Shaun* Shaun Chong! Boo! Okay, random. But yes, hello! Haha. How have you been? Sorry about the delay about the money I owed you previously. So sorry ehs? Take care and have fun at Raffles too!

Kerrie* Keke! I've read and heard that you've become way bitchier than you normally are after going to Meritus Mandarin. I mean, I've seen it but prolly not in full force mode. Haha. What have they done to you?! Hope you're enjoying yourself there as well. Miss you loads dear. Take care yeahs.

Joseph* Jo-Seph!! Heh. Hope you're doing "all right" at Pan Pacific. Haha. You seem pretty happy there. Take good care and see you soon kays?

Jo-Ron-Brian-Trev-Becks* Hey guys, hope you guys have fun at Vox Productions, Ritz Carlton, Gallery Hotel, Saint Pierre and Flutes respectively. Take care!

Marilyn* My fellow coursemate cum smoking partner at Bedok Reservoir (rain or shine) cum bitching partner cum clubbing kaki. I'm going to miss all our smoking and clubbing sessions so fucking much please. Argh. Remember to buy plenty plenty of Sunblock cause I don't want you to be unrecognisable after you come back from your stint at Sentosa. I'll visit you when you get posted to your F&B outlet. Yes, I'm praying hard for you that it will be km8 cause that's where my queen belongs right? Love you loads Mei Nu.

Adele-Mels-Jerms* Lee Siew Mai, ACE Daytons seems to have already stolen you away. Is events THAT horrible? :( Take care babe! Melissa Tomato Chew Pang Sai. We're going to meet for lunch and reserve tables like office ladies since our offices are relatively close. Take care too! Mr. Britney Spears. 1 sentence for you. Cathay Pacific/CX sucks. No la, you seem to be enjoying but you CX people all seem pretty worn out. Take care!

Ryna* Hey Rynnie! Heh. Hope CX is treating you fine too. It was nice bumping into you that day. You look pretty tired and what not. Please take good care.

Aaron-Ashraf-Mahathir-Zhi Fan* Hello you SATS boys. Haha. Is Aaron in SATS? I can't remember. Anyhoos, will miss you mad guys! Have fun at SATS and update me yeahs.

Winnie* Hey girl, please cheer up yeah. You entries are all so depressing. Hope Valuair is fun for you. Maybe I shouldn't have rejected Valuair after all. Oh well. Take care dear! Note: We have yet to club together before.

Shawn* Shawn Low Tze Kheng. I know I owe you an outing with my short skirt. LOL. Now everyone is going to know you're a big pervert! Muahaha. My future boss who is going to pay me 10k a month as his Personal Assistant. You owe me truckloads of ice cream you liar! When are you going to sign me in to ZOUK?! Smack you. Take care and enjoy while you can before serving the nation you ladies man.

Mac* Hello the one who got me dead drunk at Zouk the previous time. Haha. Not your fault. Just kidding. Please take care yes? Hope to talk to you soon! -hugs.

Denise* Bet you didn't expect to see your name? Its weird how we got to know one another but that was almost a year ago? Strange Deja Vu ehs? Please try to cheer up dear. Don't do silly things anymore. Take care babe.

Leong* Leong Cui Shan Cheryl! Now happening already la. NUS has finally let you off on holidays. Please take care and I miss clubbing with you! Those were the days at Madmonks man. Lol.

Bessy* Hey, its been awhile since we've spoken or seen one another. Hope you're doing fine. Say hi to bitbit and tumtum for me. Take care yeah.

Dawn* Boo! Haha. Glad that after 5 years of no contact what so every, we're talking again. Take care and enjoy your trip to San Frans later in the year kay? :)

Mervyn* Cousin!! Heh. Thanks for the wake up calls and the "scolding" you gave me yeahs. Really glad to know you. Love you much much worx. Haha. Please remember to visit me during my SIP!

Mel* Sister! Another long lost relative. I'm glad we've bonded so much in such a short period of time. I love you loads! Please take care and remember I'm always here kays? Much love.

Rachel* Rachiiiee. Haha. The mad/scary one. No la, not scared of you anymore. Zouk zouk zouk next friday to celebrate the end of your SIPs and the start of mine. :( Take care dear.

Jon* Looks are deceiving. I'm going to drag you to Sentosa and check out your abs. LOL. Omg, I sound so wrong. But ya, thanks for the talks too. Take care fellow homeless.

Sal* My ninja master. Firstly, stop failing me please. Thankyouverymuch. Haha. Thanks for being brutally honest with me. Really appreciated it. More ninja days please. :)

Miguel* Hello fellow homeless who likes psycho thrillers like I do. We haven't watch Infection yet please!! Haha. Enjoy your NS life! *grin.

Dan* Lousy wooden ox. Heh. I want to play mahjong and read that book at Mel's place again. Thanks for everything so far. Its been a blast knowing you. :))

I think I pretty much covered everyone whom I know reads my blog. Sorry if I missed you out. Andrea still loves you!

Take care and good night world. I took a fucking hour to finish this entry.

Love, Lies and Betrayal

Chinablack on Wednesday night/Thursday morning.
QuekDanMarcellaSal

Queued for 2 fucking hours. I'm glad I had my fair share of Whiskey Dry's though. :))

House Of Wax with Dan today. Please don't bother watching it. Storyline boring. Effects not too bad.

Paris Hilton at her best (Read: Getting laid, blowjobs and running around in her underwear) . Chad Michael Murray and Jared Padalecki looking might fine though. *grins.

11 days of freedom left. I'm going to make full use of the remaining 11 days. Think Clubbing, Towning, Movies, Friends, Family and the list goes on.

Love
verb [T]
to have strong feelings of affection for another adult and be romantically and sexually attracted to them, or to feel great affection for a friend or person in your family.

Lies
verb [I] lying, lied, lied
to say or write something which is not true in order to deceive someone.

Betrayal
verb [T]
to not be loyal to your country or a person, often by doing something harmful such as helping their enemies.

"Don't phunk with my heart"

10 Good Reasons Why My Sister Is A Pain In My Ass
(In Random Order)

1. She likes to borrow my clothes and complains when I borrow her clothes.
2. She doesn't pick up after herself.
3. She's 17 and "boy crazy".
4. Her Simple Plan, Good Charlotte kind of music drives me nuts.
5. She always seems to have money!!
6. She hates me. Ditto.
7. Her fucking phonebill goes up to 100 odd every month without fail and now, my outgoing calls and sms-es are barred all because of her.
8. She buys the most non-sensical stuff online and then bugs me to open the letterbox everyday.
9. Hogs the computer. Doing what? Online shopping.
10. Major attitude problem.

The list can go on and on and on. Amanda if you're reading this, GOOD. Because I am fucking pissed about the handphone bills. So fucking pay your own fucking bills in future and don't fucking get me into your shit.

I still love you despite all the shit. What choice do I have right. Lol.

That Girl Was Me

I saw a girl today.

Walking the streets of Orchard.
Smduged mascara and red eyes.
Tears falling off her cheeks.
Lips quivering as she spoke.

That girl was me.

I don't wanna fall to pieces.

I Need Moolah

Usual today. Met the homeless.
MervSalJonMig

4 boys and a lady. *ahem.

Coffee Club is seriously fucked up. Major. They refused to give me my pay check cause I have yet to return them my uniform.

Like hello, its not like it's Gucci or Louis Vuitton. Why in the world would I want to keep the stinking uniform. Fucktards.

Shopping with the guys. 3 boys spent SGD520 in total. Talk about women and their shopping sprees. Tsktsk.

I think I'm in love. In love with this Mango Denim Jacket. Its a beauty and I need SGD110 right now! I want the jacket so bad. Any sponsors?

Anyhoos, I didn't get the Blondie Tee that I posted in my previous entry. My sister did a miscalculation with the currencies so its actually SGD65. I'm not going to pay 32 when I have to share it with her. Oh well. :(

I'm finally feeling the effects of being financially independent. I'm sick and tired worrying about money day in, day out. Its really taking a toll on me.

I haven't shopped in eons. I mean, I have trouble getting 3 proper meals a day. Shopping is the last thing on my mind.

I can't wait for SIP to start or at least I can't wait for my first pay for SIP.

Oooh. Joseph set up a blog for The Gang. I think I'll have to fix all the html shit right? Haha. By the way, I miss you guys!
JemTrevJosephShaunRylChyBrianJoBecksKeke

This is the last of illusions

Dragonfly Blondie Spray Tee

My Sis (Manda) and I bought this tee at the ASOS online mid-season sale.




Woohoo. I'm fucking broke so she's paying for my share first. I love the tee!

Chastity

Out with the homeless earlier. :))
I love the homeless. :)))

Met Dan earlier to supposedly collect my paycheck. Fucktards the Coffee Club people. Pay's only going to come in on the 7th. I'm already fucking zero. Literally.

Cousin came along, Rayve came along, Sal came along, Queky and Yihan came along. You get the picture.

Last minute plans for Zouk. Excitedly went down, joined the queue. Then fucktards again. Closed entry to Phuture. Cabbed home straight with Quek.

I can't seem to get a decent sleep. Waking up every 2 hours. Fuck. The headaches are coming back. Popping Ponstan days are back again.

I love the homeless boys. Thanks for the advice and all the stupid antics. I love you guys!
SalMervJonDan

Jin random entry. Since when are my entries not random anyway.

I'm a virgin. Like seriously. Believe me or not, Drea's a good girl. No, I'm not saying non-virgins aren't good girls. Random. Only Jon and Sal will know why I'm spamming this on my blog.

I ain't no hollaback girl.

30 Minutes

Announcement:
To All Homeless
Saturday, 7th May'2005
Xiao Long Bao Gathering

Mervyn.Queks.
Rach.Mel.
Sal.Jon.
Mig.Dan.
Yihan.
And whoever I've missed out.

Miss Andrea has officially booked you guys. So no excuses except for production.

I'm still up trying to finish the damned Vacation CDS - Psychology of Creativity project.

Unproductive is the word to use on me. For the past 6 hours or so, I've only managed to complete about half.

Around 40 minutes ago, I decided to go down for a walk and buy cigarettes at the same time. Happily grab 10 bucks and left.

10 minutes later, I reached 7-11 and realised I fucking forgot my I.C. But was thinking, fuck I'm of legal age, they better sell it to me.

Walked in and asked for the usual and she fucking refused to sell it to me. Bitch.

What choice did I have back to walk back again to take my I.C. Like I was telling cousin. Fucking seh my I.C. at her please.

All in all, it took me 30 fucking minutes to buy a pack of cigarettes. Bloody bitch.

I understand that I may not look 18 although I'm already 19 but KNN.

Back to the bloody project.

Please just tell me what you want from me.

Bed Of Roses

Life's not a bed of roses. Its fucking bullshit. Some may agree, some may disagree.

Its been one hell of a hectic week. Or how about, I've never been like that.

Alcohol every single day since Wednesday. I hear my liver screaming out to me already. I've gotta stop this lifestyle.

Late nights or early mornings every single day as well. Home at around 0500 every day.

Don't get me wrong, I think its fantastic cause I don't need to see my mum. For example, I'm home earlier today and she just couldn't shut her trap.

Better still, I totally forgot to do my individual reflection for the bloody VT CDS and I'm fucking tired cause I only had 3 - 4 hours of sleep the previous night.

I'm cranky, sleepy, pms-sy, pissed, angsty and what fuck have you now.

Shutting myself out from everyone is what I do best now. I don't want to talk to anyone about anything that's going on in this empty head of mine.

I don't even know what is going on myself. Honestly I don't and I don't want to know either.

I'm boycotting Coffee Club as well. I fucking should have quit half a year ago. Fucked up bitches.

Forget it. This entry is going no where. Too pissed to think proper.

I'll prove the whole world wrong.