To All My Ladies

Shout out time!

Jie - Jie, we need to have a proper talk soon. There are some things that I would like to speak with you about. Besides all that serious shit, I really miss hanging out with you. Meet soon please. Loves.

Queky - Quekypooooo. I miss you, you idiot. Where have you disappeared to? And when are we ever going to meet!! Text me when you see this. Misses.

Ryl - My lil' Ryl. Things may not be going as well as we both hope it would but remember, we have faith in you. You gotta have some faith in yourself. Missing you badly. Call or msn me anytime you need someone to talk to kay? I miss you, even more so a thousand miles away. HUGS.

Bel - Smelly Belly. In 2 days time, you'll join me in the 2- club. Welcome to the club honey. To many more crazy nights out and tattoos. LOL. Love you la you bitch. Happy Birthday!! You're 20! I just have to stress that. Hur.

MINE - Hello sweetheart. Where is my entry and damn testimonial huh huh huh?! ((:

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I am so tired, sleepy, exhausted and what have you but I cannot go to bed because if I do go to bed, I wouldn't be able to wake up for work. -screams- Thank God today's just half day or I'd drop dead and die ten times over.

Anyway, finished work on Friday around 1915, I know, late huh? I've unwillingly become some sort of workaholic. Bahh. On average I end work 1 hour later than the supposed time daily. Argh. There's nothing I can do about it because there's just so much work every single damn day.

Reached back to MINE's around 2030, headed straight for the shower then straight to the bed. Knocked out till 2330 then got up, changed and headed for dinner/supper. By the time we finished dinner/supper and got to Zouk, it was already 0130. Hah.

Stayed till closing then Belly kao pei-ed for Geylang Tau Huey and we ended up there. By the time we got back to MINE's, it was 0530. Tell me, how to sleep?! If I went to bed, I seriously can forget about going to work. NB.

I want to sleep with my baby on the bed now. Argh. Time to get ready for work. -whines- )):

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*edited: 0916 hours.

I am in the office. -grumbles- Alone at that because I'm the only one on shift today. NBCB. Sigh. So as you can tell, I'm doing anything and everything but work.

Oh oh oh! Today's the 28th! Which means, PAY DAY! Cha-ching. Just checked my bank balance online. For once I see money inside le! Though it's just half a month's pay but it's still money. -beams-

MINE has already planned to go Vivo City later in the afternoon to shop. Yay! But I need to nap first when I get back. Now, I'm going for a toilet break. Hehehe.

"Her need for me; And mine for she."

With Or Without You

Bahh. 2nd week into work and I am already sick. Bloody bugger. I don't know is it because of the lack or rest or what but I am down with a really leaky nose and sore throat plus I have some difficulties breathing.

Took MC last Wednesday because I overslept like major. x: But it was a blessing in disguise because now I have medication with me. /:

So far, work is mighty fine minus my boss. Seriously, am I lucky or what? The 2nd largest hotel in Singapore and I have to get the boss that the WHOLE hotel hates. Let's just say I have the urge to bitch slap her once daily. Hah.

I love my colleagues and hopefully the feeling is mutual. Here they call me "Lil girl" (Because I'm the baby of the department) or On-dre-ya (Correct proununciation of my name).

It's lunch break now and I just settled for a sandwich from 7-11 because I have zero appetite. Smart la, last night still had Popeyes for dinner/supper, asking for trouble.

Life's pretty much the same with work. I still have my late night suppers and regular clubbing at Zouk. Still meet up with the usual suspects to do silly things like cruising around in the Evo 9. Wheee.

Thank God for the PH tomorrow or I'll prolly drop dead and die. Arghh. Okay, I've got loads of work to do. Another time.

P.S. Baby, I love you. (:

"Through the storm, we reach the shore
You gave it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you.
I can't live with or without you."

the ups and downs

Today, or rather yesterday was a day of equity. It contained of both good and bad news alike. The good news, I'll share with everyone but the bad news I'll keep it private because it concerns others.

The good news would be, I GOT A JOB! Like finally, I know. It's a job that I somewhat look forward to because it meets my expectations in most areas.

Firstly, the remuneration package exceeds my standards. I'll be getting more than $1,500 (I refuse to disclose the exact figure) and once after confirmation (3 months probation), there will be a pay increment of $200. CHA-CHING! :D

Secondly, it is a 80% desk bound job, lovely job scope and typical office hours but that means I have to get up mother fucking early, which is everyone's worry. YES I WILL WAKE UP FOR WORK! I PROMISE! ):

Lastly, it is a 5 star corporate hotel chain in City Hall area, which would look pretty good on my resume in future. (: But that also means I'll be around that area a lot, Hello Marina Square.

The bad news just basically made me cry. I cried because I felt stressed and more importantly bad. I admit I have been insensitive and selfish and I can only blame myself for what happened. I'm sorry, it's my fault.

I wish I could just lie down and forget everything in the world. Pretend I'm invisible to all. Keeping everything to yourself is hard to do. I hate being a burden so keeping everything bottled up is the best way to run from reality. But how far can I run? How long will take before I lose it all over again.

But maybe, that's how everything just goes away, maybe, just maybe.

"Hold me and tell me everything's going to be alright
Wipe my tears away and tell me everything's going to be alright"

hope my foot

I am so sick of Marina Square.

Went for another interview there today. Tomorrow, I'm headed back to the same area for another interview, 3 working days in a row. I'm so sick of Marina Square! Especially of the Macdonalds there.

But by the looks of it, I might end up working in that area. Bahh.

Anyhoo, the first thing I heard on the radio early in the morning was Eddie Grant crooning "Gimme hope, Jo'anna. Hope, Jo'anna". Like WTF.

Seriously Joanna did not give me any hope but made me very dulan and even grouchier. -.-

P.S. No offense to any Joanna out there, my friends named Joanna included.

I'm Bringing Sexy Back

Firstly, HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY LIL' BRAT. I'll see you at Zouk soon. ((: Love you!

Good Morning Singapore. It's 0700 and I am still awake, as usual. (:

Friday, I went for the interview after sending MINE to school without sleep. Waited for an hour before they told me they weren't able to interview me cause the interviewer was stuck in an urgent meeting. Fucking fuck.

Back to grandma's to sleep but she was complaining bout a family member for an hour, then my baby cousin came along and disturbed me while I was asleep. So I pretty much only slept 2 hours. Grrr.

Walked mummy home after dinner and accompanied her for awhile before cabbing back to MINE's. I was too tired to endure an 1 hour's bus ride, I'd die.

Zouk it was with Belly, Elena and MINE. It wasn't really fantastic but okay I reckon. Supper at Zouk's prata shop and by the time MINE and I got home, it was 0500. We knocked out pretty much immediately after our showers.

Saturday, slept in till 1800 and MINE slept in till pretty much that time as well. That was how tired we both were. -mumble-

Headed out to town for dinner, just the two of us. Emerald Green's foodcourt for Korean food, so fucking filling till we both almost puked. Walked around aimlessly, window shopping till we bumped into Tau Pok (Bessy) and Tau Gay (Zen).

Chilled at Spinellis with the couple before heading off to Butter Factory with Belly. Okay, so Butter's not our kind of club (all our virgin trips). The R&B was kinda old school, Rouge style. MINE and I just spent time there yawning and stoning away.

Thank God for Belly's guest list or I'd faint if I had to pay (since when did I pay to club anyway). Left for Zouk around 0100 plus.

Phuture was good because it was rather empty. No pushing, no staring, no scolding of "Your mother never teach you manners ar. Fucker. Chee Bye." to anyone. (The above 3 actions apply to me)

Okay, I'm finally tired. Goodnight everyone. Till then.

"Dirty babe
You see these shackles baby I'm your slave
I'll let you whip me if I misbehave
It's just that no one makes me feel this way"

I'm emo, very emo.

P to the M to the S

Everybody please clap your hands. It is officially 0530 and I am still wide awake.

I have to get up in an hour's time to get ready and send MINE to school and then "do nothing" till 1115 for my interview and then continue to "do nothing" till MINE's done with school.

FANTASTIC! Considering that we're Zouk-ing later at night, I think I'll just drop dead and die twice over.

I would very much like to go back home and sleep but I cannot! Went back home on Tuesday and OMFG, I couldn't recognise my house. Not because I haven't been home in like ten thousand years but because, IT'S MOTHER FUCKING MESSY.

The floors are covered with card boxes and the make shift toilet is disgusting. The house is just plain disgusting la okay. The only decent area left in my house is my room (where my mummy has "moved" into for the time being).

Fucking upgrading. Upgrade my ass. The stupid bangalah workers will finally stop walking in and out of my house by the end of next week which means I can finally go home and sleep but not in peace BECAUSE MY NEIGHBOURS NEXT DOOR STARTS THEIR UPGRADING. I will fucking ban all drilling and hacking. -pulls hair-

I've been having this crazy bout of mood swings/PMS for a day or two already. Yesterday, I was talking to MINE bout my mummy till I cried and then, I couldn't stop crying and MINE was tired from the lack of sleep and tolerating my mood swings for 1 whole day already and so we fought, and I CRIED EVEN MORE.

Nahbeh. I think I cried for a full 1 hour. No matter how hard I tried to stop crying, I couldn't. So much so I fell asleep crying but at least with MINE hugging me to sleep.

Woke up with swollen eyes and even Belly noticed when she came over to MINE's to chill. BAHH.

So I'm emotional and a huge cry baby. Sometimes, crying is just a form of stress relieving for me and it's also a sign that, I need to talk to someone. But everyone's too busy to notice. Especially when you're the one with all the free time in the world, everyone just passes you and go, because they have better things to do than listen to your nonsensical insecurities and worries.

"Take me to somewhere,
Somewhere where we belong."

It is 0500 hours and I am wide awake and craving for pizza or rather, food in general. I can't stop eating! ):

Know what? I shall go and sleep since there's nothing to do anyway.

Oh oh wait! Guess who's back in the house? MINE has adopted Hershey! He's been here since Monday.


The lil' one when it stayed over in July. ((:

Yesterday, MINE and Hershey both fell asleep on the couch, together. So cute. Will take pictures soon. ((:

Time to hug MINE. Byebye.

Glock-Glock Shots To The Block

So the plan to go home really failed, utterly. Bahh. Oh well. Headed to Belly's place after the damn interview. Waited for Belly to finish her school work before heading out to run some errands with her.

Basically on Thursday, I travelled from MINE's place to Woodlands then to City Hall, then to Serangoon Gardens, then to Geylang Lorong 23, then to Bras Brasah, then to Sunshine Plaza, then to Dhoby Ghaut, then to Skate Park, then to Taka, then to Selegie Tau Huey, then to Mount Emily's playground and finally back to MINE's. Mad huh? Hur.

Friday, MINE did not go to school, AGAIN. -shakes head- We were both too knackered from the lack of sleep and the previous day's activities so we slept till like 5 odd in the evening. Heh.

Went out with the in-laws to the central. Had like, hokkien mee, prawn noodles, oyster omelette and fish & chips. So KNN filling please! Then to NTUC for grocery shopping and back home to change before heading to Zouk to meet Buds.

By the time MINE and I got to Zouk, MINE's dearest Buds was already half way to 'Land of Drunkards'. HAHAHA. At Zouk there was Vodka with Cranberry, Red Wine, White Wine and our ever favourite Sour Apple 7up! (: Zen, Bessy, Jo and Jie then came along and it was so damn funny with Jie high and Buds gone. ROFL.

Supper after which with Lian Jin, his look alike, Buds and MINE at River Valley's 5 Star Chicken Rice. DAMN SHIOK LA. -drools- Home sweet home to MINE's it was then. ((:

Oh oh, forgot to mention. I lost my Project Shop Brothers card holder on my way to Zouk and it contained my I/C, Zouk card and EZ Link ($17 value!). I was so distressed that my mood was totally ruined till SMRT called at around 0200 telling me they found it! I reported it lost at Orchard control station cause I lost it on the train.

So today, headed down to City Hall to collect my dear I/C and Zouk card (Honestly, I didn't give a damn about my EZ Link) and to meet mummy dearest. MINE, Mummy and I then walked around City Link, Suntec and Marina Square before settling down at Carl's Jr for dinner.

Knnbccb. We ordered 2 meals amongst ourselves and shared and we couldn't even finish the damn food please. Bahh. But the salsa sauce is damn shiok! Then we walked mummy to bus stop and accompanied her to wait for her bus.

MINE and I finally did a lil' shopping. -beams- Mummy bought me a striped spag top from Zara and MINE bought a polo from Topman. Wheee! :D I LOVE MY MUMMY!

Dilly dallied our way to MoS and Buds arrived shortly after we did. In we went and started drinking games with Ming and Lian Jin. After which, we joined Sam, Suhan, Diva. KNN, wrong move.

Sam asked if I liked Champagne and like of course I said yes cause I do but I know it's my weakness when it comes to alcohol. So just because I said yes, he opened a bottle of Moet! -beams-

In total I drank like 3 glasses of Moet, 2 shots of JW, 3 glasses of JW with water, 1 glass of Absolut with water and 1 glass of Absolut with Cranberry but I still remained sober. Which proves that my alcohol tolerance level is still doing might fine. ((:

BUT, MINE is dead knocked out. I am very sure she drank more than me. After all Sam and Suhan shoved so many JW shots down her throat. My poor baby. I tried to help her drink as much as I could but they insisted on getting her drunk, which they did. ):

Thank god for Jay and Buds or I wouldn't know what to do. Thank you both for sending us back and helping me with MINE. Love you both dearly!

Okay, time for me to sleep. I have a slight headache, which I think is caused by the alcohol from both days. -.-

MINE, remember the promise you made to me in the toilet. I'll keep mine if you keep yours. I love you. MY BEE BEE, MINE. ((:

"Catch me ridin' dirty"