The projects are finally over! Yay! *jumps and hops around. But to be precise, its not really over over. Its only half done. Okay, shall not spoil everyone's mood. Up and coming, Mid Sem tests. Okay this is a fact. Spoilt half my mood already. But luckily, all htm year 2's, only have two papers! Accounting for Hospitality and Tourism, and Organisational Behaviour. Yay! *jumps around again.

Back to reality. Enough of jumping. I wished I was that cheerful today. Went to school around 9 am with Beef. Was suffering from slight cramps for the first time in my life. Bugger. Had breakfast at Mensa then she accompanied me to print and hand in my projects. Headed to Ang Kiong area to buy ciggs and slacked around for awhile. Then sent to the bus stop and went to meet my groupies for the last time this term. *beams. Finalised our projects, printed, emailed our tutor and handed in the hardcopies!

Slacked around Biz Park while my groupies ate lunch. Headed to reservoir. Then went for Marketing Lecture. I think all the hospitality and tourism lecturers know how terrible Zhang Wei is as a lecturer. Goodness. She's a nice person but a horrible lecturer. Go back to zhong guo please. Okay. Shall not be a bitch.

Accounting Tutorial was the best part of the day! Yeah. Its coming from Drea who absolutely hates accounting. Its because, number 1, I passed my accounting test, number 2, I've got an A! My very first A. Yes, I'm hopeless in my studies. Lastly number 3, 36/40! I'm sooooooooo proud of myself although half the cohort got an A. Wheeeee~! *sings.

Went to Somerset after lessons to collect some stuff for work. The new outlet should be opening next week. Finally. So any of you guys who wants to pop by when I'm working. I'm working at Coffee Club (Orchard Fountain Park) Outlet, which is in front of California Fitness, opposite Heerens. Its a 24hours Al Fresco Cafe so drop by anytime. So as I was walking to the bus stop to head home. Some philippino guy came up to me and asked where Mount Elizabeth Hospital was. I gave him the directions and continued with my cigg. Then he continued asking me if I was local. I nodded. Then he asked if I lived here (I think he meant if I lived in town), I got quite irritated and nodded although I live Far from town. Then he walked off. I was walking behind him all the way to Lucky Plaza bus stop. As you would know, Mount E is at the back of Lucky Plaza and Paragon. He didn't turn to the hospital, just continued walking with his friend. Wtf. I gave clear directions. What in the world was he trying to do? Pick me up? Lol.

Fragile seams, I opened up too quick and all my dreams,
Were walking out I'd slowly,
Lost my fire,
With every single man a river cried,
I had no sensation,
Completely numb,
left with no satisfaction,
I thought no-one could ever get me high again,
I swear, I was not looking,
Oh, waited so long,
I thought the real thing was a fake,
I thought it was a tool to break me down,
You proved me wrong again,

If love were liquid it would drown me,
In a placeless place would find me,
In a heart shape come around me and then,
Melt me slowly down,
If love were human it would know me,
In a lost space come and show me,
Hold me and control me and then,
Melt me slowly down,
Like chocolate,

Tastes so good,
My heart's been mended who'd have thought it would,
An empty bet and still I won the cash,
A man who I love and who,
Loves me back,
Oh, waited so long,
For love to heal me so I'd feel it,
Thought it wasn't breathing then you came,
You proved me wrong again,

If love were liquid it would drown me,
In a placeless place would find me,
In a heart shape come around me and then,
Melt me slowly down,
If love were human it would know me,
In a lost space come and show me,
Hold me and control me and then,
Melt me slowly down,
Like chocolate,

Like chocolate come here,
Zoom in, catch the smile,
There's no doubt it's from you,
And I'm addicted to it now,

Just one look boy to melt me down,
Just one heart here to save me now,
Your candy kisses are sweet I know,
Hold me tight baby don't let go,
Just one look boy to melt me down,
Just one heart here to save me now,
Your candy kisses are sweet I know,
Hold me tight baby don't let go.

I'm sick. Bugger. Didn't go to school. Yes again. Went to the doctor finally. Had no choice, needed a mc for lessons anyway. I've got a case of runny nose, bad gastric. Basically just feel like crap. I've been forced by Beef to take my medicine. She paid for it anyway. Stupidd. There's some liquid thingy. Drea can' t take liquid solutions! I puke. Throw me 10 capsules or tablets anytime. *whines. Someone eat my medicine for meeee.

Beef stayed over last night, she be staying over tonight too. Sorry for not being able to accompany you. I just have too much work to do. *mutters. Entre is 3/4 done. Comm skills is 1/4 done. At least we finally managed to complete Applied Research and Business Ettiquette already. Tonight I won't get any sleep. Gotta chiong all the way to finish everything. Crappo shait. Arggh. *growls.

My first warning letter from Ms Zhang Wei came already. She darn bloody efficient please. Lesson was on Monday and today's what? Thursday. Biatch. Mr Tan Hsien Wei is so flexible. He should haven sent me a warning letter a long time ago and I've yet to recieve it. Bugger. Its better this way ain't it.

Love it when the parentals aren't at home. Noone nagging. Oh well, everything will be the same when my mum gets back tommorrow. *grumbles. Crappy cranky mood. Time to complete my work. So sorry to my group mates for constantly missing meetings. I was never like that. Argh. What is going on Andrea Lim! Grrrrrr.

Okay. I'm seriously bored now. Beef's not online. Her com is screwed. It was already seriously screwed. Bahh. I've got a new name everyone. A pet name from Beef. Dou Dou or Sha Dou. Which is Bean or Silly Bean in Chinese. Holy crappo shiat. Sounds like a Dog's name pleasee. Heard people calling their dogs that before. *mutters.

So today was a much better day for me. Feeling more cheery and all. No idea why. Strolled into Zhang Wei's lesson 20 mins late. She obviously marked me absent so I didn't bother to debate. I just wanted to sit for my test. At least she didn't ignore me like she ignored Kailing. So I'll let the bitch go for once. Its a good Monday. I don't want to spoil it. :D The test was okayy. I expected it to be much harder. But it was rather simple. Should be able to pass I reckon. Noone studied for the test please. Literally nothing to study. Plus, it was open book. *grins. She let us off early for once then I ate beehoon during the unofficial break. Went for Accounting lecture, ate chicken burger during break. Basically I ate so bloody much today. Met Beef and Stacey in town after lessons. Then I ate Macs cheese burger deluxe extra value meal. I just love Beef. Then about 3 hours later, ate sushi and ice cream. Came home. Sat in front of the com and ate a bowlful of rice. God I'm such a pig. Oh well. Its normal. For me at least. Thank god I don't put on the pounds so easily. But I'll have to watch myself in case. Haha.

I'm so darn lazy to do my work. BESE research, Email App Res to group, Marketing and BESE online quiz, Comm Skills reflective journal and entrepreneurship proposal. Bugger.

I misss my Beef. Oh crap it. Time to get my arse moving. By the way, I love everyoneeeee. *muacks. Lalala. I'm a happy lil bean. :D

After blogging for almost 2 years, I don't know If I blogged about this. Maybe not all of it. But some.

My Story

I had a wonderful life. From the day I was born, I was the apple of the eye of everyone in my family. Loved by my parents and both sides of my grandparents. I got what I wanted. Dressed in branded from top to toe. My mum bought her Gucci and Prada when she wanted. So I was spoilt. I am still spoilt. Somehow.

My dad was a smart and hardworking man. SJI student and not to mention from a rich family. My mum was a loving mum. But of course a lil fierce at times. My dad never laid a finger on me. Never. He has never hit me. Not once. I was truly loved. But that didn't stop him from hitting my mum.

My life started changing in late Primary 4. I hardly got to see my dad. His business was booming. Which was good of course. But like any of his male counterparts. He could not resist the things that money brought him. He started gambling. Loan Sharks. I've met them. Nothing new to me. Family abuse. Been there done that. Parents getting divorced. Nothing new too. Infidelity. Screw the men.

Somewhere in Primary 5, I started being independent. Took the public bus to school with my sister. I had the responsibility to look after her. Hardly saw my dad anymore. Like every child I slept early. But one fateful night. I woke up to screaming, shouting and crying. I was so scared. I didn't dare to go out. My lil sis woke up soon after. I decided to go out. But told my sis to stay in the room no matter what happened. I witnessed my father beating my mother up. The memories are still fresh in my head. He took the iron and threw it at my mum. Which hit her hard. I got scared and naturally started crying and pleading for him to stop. He didn't. My mum was lying on the bed in pain and he continued. The next thing I knew was I was right in front of my mum. Trying my best to protect her. Like I said, my dad never laid a finger on me. The moment I jumped in front of my mum. He stopped. I vaguely remember my mum taking us to her best friend's house for a couple of days. That was when she went to the police. Then I knew. This wasn't the first time.

He was an absolute asshole. The last time I saw him was in Primary 6. The last thing he bought me was my Playstation. His promises were never fulfilled. Including the last one. He promised to come back for us when his business took a better turn. But I never saw him ever since. Never.

After that, I changed. Somehow. Trust and promises are big things to me. I don't trust easily and value promises. My close friends would know how much promises mean to me. I became a girl full of hatred. Anyone who offended me would not have a peaceful day. Never. And I remember who let me down. For life. I became sensitive to everything and I still am. I even slapped my best friend in Sec 2 which resulted us fighting literally in school. Sorry Sel Darling! From Sec 1 to Sec 2. For two whole years, I hardly saw my mum. My sis and I literally became orphans with parents and money. My mum went out of town constantly, went clubbing almost every other day. It was that two years that changed me completely.

People from my primary school would say. Drea you were such a nerd in Primary school. I even remember Hannah telling me, I hated you in Primary school cause you were such a nerd. Lol. I've been to the principally office for drawing on my teacher's skirt in Secondary school. The discipline mistress brought the whole group of us down cause we confronted a girl. But I was just standing at the back of the group listening what they said to her. In house suspension for playing Dai Dee in class. My Sec 4 was the cleanest year I had. But the worst of all. My best friends all turned against me. Fell in depression and lost weight. I put all my heart and soul into Painting. The end result was my darling unicorn.

The after O'levels I started working. I disappeared for about a whole 6 months. Didn't contact a single person. Not one. I've grown immune to the pain. The last time I broke down because of my dad was in Sec 2. Its been 6 years since I saw him. He has another family now. Sometimes I wonder if he remembers he has 2 grown up daughters. I guess we mean nothing to him now.

Now when I'm down and out. I want to pick up my oils, brushes and canvas again. To paint. To put all the sadness into something that will turn out beautiful. I will do just that. One day.

Now, I have my lovely friends. My lovely mum and my not so lovely sister. I worry about my sister the most. She has never spoken anything about the divorce. Not once. I remember her lying to friends about the divorce when she was younger. Her studies are a flop and she's more rebellious than I was at her age. Anyhow, I still love her. To my best friends, Sel and Quek. Thanks for being there. I love you guys the most. To my baby Beef, thanks for taking care of me. Giving me allowance when my mum doesn't give me money for the whole month. Lastly thanks for loving me. I love you. To my buddies, Leong, Ryl, Chy and whoever else. Thanks for supporting me and loving me for who I am.

To the people who have disappointed me and done me wrong. I love you too. But you'll go to hell. So I'm okay with it.*grins. To the women my dad were with and is with. I hope the asshole gives you STD. That includes your kids. Love you. *muack muack.

I'm still a bitch. That will never change. Somethings never change.

To that someone who I tagged on your blog. I know you might be reading this. Just remember, there are many people who love you. Don't give up on yourself and hurt yourself. God gave you this life. Treasure it. At least we're not physically ill. But somehow, mentally and emotionally, we're not as normal as the rest. Stay happy anyhow.

Back to my projects. Bugger.

Its been a long day for me. One of the longest ever. Didn't turn up for the NE Forum in the end. Spent the previous night crying my eyes out. Was too tired.

Met up with the rest for project. A significant progress in the projects. Significant I think. Brain dead. Can't think straight anymore. Don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight. Too many things to consolidate and complete. Cancelled work, too tired to work anymore. I'll just fall flat on the ground.

Finshed the projects at 4. Sat at the Tp bus stop for an hour talking to the Tp cat. Just wanted to be alone. Well, technically I wasn't alone. I was with a cat. The fat and so darn adorable Tp cat. Took 15 to the Mrt Station. Lingered outside the Station and decided to hop on. No idea why but I got down at Kallang but I did. Walked aimlessy around. Then took at bus to Suntec City. Walked around for awhile then went to meet Beef and her family. My mood took a better turn after that.

Went to Olio Dome for dinner. All expenses paid by her parents. Beef and I shared an entree called Beef and Reef, it consisted of a steak (I ordered Medium Rare. Love the blood), garlic mashed potato and prawns. Goodness me. It was delicious. Well, its bloody 30 bucks. It had to be good. Her mum knew the management there so guess what? There was a complimentary Creme Brulee. My favourite!

Her parents and Brother went home after that, we stayed around the area. Town is just too boring. City Hall area is more refreshing. Walked around. Sat around. Smoked around. Then headed home. Anyhow, I just want to say. I Love You and I'm Sorry.

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Oh bother. Online Scenario 1 for Comm Skills is due this Sunday. Nice. We hardly even got started on the draft. The online thing is too confusing. Nobody knew what to do till like what? This week. Goodness me. Tommorrow is going to be a boring Saturday. *mutters. NE Forum in the morning. Then after that, BESE, Applied Research and OB project meetings. There goes my Saturday. There goes my life. Cause after project meetings, I have to work. Great. I hope I get to meet Beef. If not I won't have time on Sunday to meet her. *sulks.

Today didn't turn up for Comm Skills Consultation. Couldn't get up. Then when I woke up to meet the rest for project and lecture. God, stomachache. Nice timing. Still headed to school anyhow. Marketing lecture was okay. Then dragged myself to Accounting tutorial. Didn't do my tutorial again. Like what's new right? Finshed school then went to meet Beef. Headed to town. Walked around and both of us were bored stiff. I guess its just always town town town. Boring~ Then, we remembered Eddy! Maha~! Called her and guess what. She had a car. Met her and she drove us around. Literally around. Sent her friend home to Bishan and we were supposed to go to Whampoa, her house. After half an hour, we were back at Bishan again. That blur cock does not know her way around Singapore. Like seriously. Beef and I were laughing so hard at the back seat. Godness me. I don't drive and I know my way around better. Slacked at her place for awhile then sent Beef home first then me. So, we headed for the PIE from Braddell. Everything was going fine as both of us knew the way. Then we started chatting and our blur Sharon Chia aka Eddy. Turned to CTE(Ang Mo Kio). God. But lucky she knew her way and I reached home in no time. Thanks for the ride anyway Uncle. *chuckles.

To my two best friends, please take care. Seems like the three of us aren't doing that well after all. *mumbles.

Sel* Hey darling, hope everything is getting better. Espcially for your dad. You take good care of yourself and let me know when he's doing better. Call me if you need me okay babe? Hope to see you again soon. Love you loads. -hugs.

Quek* Hey tooty. Okay, maybe I'm not supposed to call you that. I'll stick with the Ol' Quek. Anyhow, you silly thing please take good care of yourself too. As you know I'm very busy. Hardly even have time for Beef. So don't do silly things or I'll de-feather you alive. Take care and Love you loads too. -hugs.

God. Somehow I moved away from this page and my whole entry got deleted again. *mutters.

Moving on to something happier, I'm soo proud of myself. Okay, I had better not get too big headed before I jinx myself. Maha~ I managed to balance my trial balance for Accounting today! First time! Wheeee~ I do not expect a fantastic grade. As long as I pass, I'm satisfied. *beams. So after the test, my group met up for Business Etiquette and Applied Research. We got through Business etiquette quite fast but when it came to Applied Research, I swear I can kill Zhang Wei. We have no idea what she wants. Bahhh. That stupid biatch is biased against our group pleasee. Hate her. Always picking on me. There are 20 odd people in a class and she always picks me to answer her questions. What do I look very smart or what. Bugger.

Recently, I have no life. I hate being a Junior. Gosh. Second Year is madness. Hardly even have time to breathe. Its project after project. Thank God I have wonderful people in my project groups. Or I'll die from excessive blood loss like I almost did last semester with a particular group member of mine.

Watched Amazing Race just now. God, I want to go to the Chocolate Factory too. A bloody hell 11,000 pieces of Chocolates! Its almost life time supply! I don't mind pleaseeeeeee. *mumbles. I need my Sins now!

What ya hear this time
Go on and speak ya mind
I know somebody's lying
It's always somethin
Her auntie told your cousin
Then all your homies jumped in
And now the whole hoods buzzin
He said, she said
Don't let it get in ya head
Baby don't say
Something that you will regret
I'm on your team
It's us against them you'll see
Hey, we ain't gon stop
They just want what we got

The more they talk about our love
The more they make it obvious
The more they seem so envious
How can they talk about our love
When they don't know one thing about
Instead they just runnin they mouth
So all we do is tune them out

I swear they got some nerve
Spreadin what they heard
I cant give them no run
I can't be concerned with all that talk
I won't be involved
That's my word
See I'm not the one
They got me confused
They got me messed up
Don't you think I've had enough
When it comes to what we do
All that matters is us two
Don't pay them no mind
We just gon show and prove

The more they talk about our love
The more they make it obvious
The more they seem so envious
How can they talk about our love
When they don't know one thing about
Instead they just runnin they mouth
So all we do is tune them out

Heres a couple of things I can't honor man
How you listen to a girl who still wanna man
Tell me the truth is that a man or Juwanna Man
I'm wonderin why she red to go like Wanda Van
When we met you was a V like Madonna man
Now you went field runnin plays like Donovan
McNabb before you get in a cab
I trade in my cab
Just to take you back to last summer man
You don't remember when you was my sweetest
You don't remember I called you Reeces Pieces
Cause it's no wrong way to do you know what
She turned around giggle said you so nuts
But nowadays we actin way too grown up
But how ya ex girl get that new numba
The rumors was so numerous
For sticking by me I had to give you two thumbs up
And that's why

The more they talk about our love
The more they make it obvious
The more they seem so envious
How can they talk about our love
When they don't know one thing about
Instead they just runnin they mouth
So all we do is tune them out

The more they talk about our love
The more they make it obvious
The more they seem so envious
How can they talk about our love
When they don't know one thing about
Instead they just runnin they mouth
So all we do is tune them out

No school for me today. Technically there was lecture and tutorial, I just didn't turn up. Woke up feeling all wozzy and fluish. Looked to my left and saw my sick sister still in bed. Which only meant she's too sick to go to school and I unfortunately caught her virus. *mutters. Like I haven't had enough absences for the past 4 weeks already. No, I did not visit the doctor. Its nothing serious, don't need to let the doctor earn my money. Bleahh. So went straight back to sleep after that. No idea why just felt damned tired. Woke up around 1530 had brunch and went back to sleep at 1615? Lol~ Slept all the way till 2000. Woke up ate dinner and watched TV. Sleep sleep sleep e whole bloody day. God. Such a pig. Feel so much better now anyway.

Guess what!? I haven't studied for Accounting after all. God. I'm dead meat. Last position in class, here I come.

Okayy. So I'm a lil hyper today. Maybe not a lil hyper. Just seriously hyper. Lol~. Don't ask me why cause I have no idea why too. I've been rambling on for the whole day too. I think I'm going nuts. You know like coconut nuts. Okayy. I know, it isn't funny. Like everyone says, " Drea, can you stop trying to be funny cause you always fail. You're just plain sarcarstic and Bitchy. Yada yada yada." *sulks hard. Like talk to my hand right. *bimbotic giggle.

Enough of drama rama. I have irritated enough people with my crazy antics for today. :p Oh well, I was early for Zhang Wei's tutorial this morning at 9 am. To be precise, I was first to arrive at 8.45 am. *beams proudly. After she took attendance, she asked me. Do you have a MC for last week's absence? I was like no. She continued on by saying. What were you doing? Go play? (Her quite broken English) Go play? Crazy ah? I'm 18 for God's sake. I wouldn't wake up at 9am to play would I? Play with what fuck. Crazy woman. I shall forgive the under-privileged.

Okay so I'm bloody stressed. There's Tourism Marketing Submission on Friday and Accounts test on Wednesday. Next Monday there's Applied Research test and OB report due. Next Friday there's Comm Skills Journal and BESE report due. How bloody nice eh. I hope I stay alive.

Today, Beef came to meet me for lunch in school. She had Cheeken Chor. Then headed to Reservoir to smoke. Sent me for OB tut then she left for work. Met her after school and headed to town. Wanted to watch The Sisters. But (thank God) all seats were sold out. We walked all the way from PS to Cine then to Lido. No seats at all! *grins. Another day kayy? Slacked around at McCafe after that and headed home early cause I was supposed to come home to study for Accounting and do research for OB. But I have yet to start with either. Bahhh.

With reference to Quek's blog post. I think I'm a GREAT girl too. Not just GREAT but FANTASTICALLY GREAT. *chuckles. Just let me self indulge here okayy. Its my blog. Now piss off. I'm going to do what I'm supposed to do. Tete~

*yawnnss. I'm feeling kinda crappy now. My gastric has been torturing me the whole day. To be precise, its my fault. Didn't find time to grab breakfast nor lunch. So starved the whole day till 1130pm then I had the first proper meal of the day. I couldn't even finish half of my food. My stomach refused it. Now I feel nauseating. God.

So Comm Skills 2 is finally done. For now that is. Guys, remember there is still Scenario 2 and the Reflective Journal thingy. Its never ending. But at least one down. Alot more to go. Fuck suahh. Work today was rather amusing. Rendezvous people were rather nice. Friendlier than Millenia Walk staff. Ahh well, next week I'm working on Saturday. So at least I don't have to work after school. Not as tiring. Bahhh. I'm still trying to figure Accounts out. I don't want to be last in class like I did for stats. It ain't my fault I'm not good with numbers right?! Hello. Straight F9 math student here. Miracle I got C6 for O's. Enough about that already.

Anyway, I MISS MY LONG HAIR!!! God. One day and I'm missing it already. I've had 14 years of long hair. Suddenly, snip snip and there it goes. Half gone. Thank god e bottom is still long. But when I tie it up for work, I look like I have a painbrush instead of a ponytail. *mutters. Bahhh. Whatever. At least I don't look hideous.

Haven't done shout outs for a long time so here goes.

Beef* Beefy! Hmmmm. What shall I say to you. Must shout out to you too. If not you will complain. Oh. Hire me as what? Slave for life? Sorry. Read the Application again pal. I'm applying for internship at a tour agency. Not Slaveship at your demand. Love you baby. *muacksss. :p

Sel* Hey my girl. How are you? We have to meet up. And I mean We HAVE TO. No choice. Mahahaha! Missed you soo muchh. And I've still yet to get my birthday present from youuu! Muahaha. Anyhow, take care in the mean time and don't stress on school. Love you loads darling! *muacks n hugs.

Quek* Duckyyy~! Booya. I'm still pissed with you ok. You have yet to make it up to me! Hmph. Anyway, take care of yourself in the mean time. Meet up real soon too yeah? Haven't seen you and Sel in eons. Gosh. Stay tooty. Love ya too. *hugs n muacks.

Ryl* Lil Ryl Ryl~ Hehe. Take good care of yourself during the weekends okay? God I sound so stupid saying this but yeahh. Lol. And yeah, too bad being a bitch isn't a skill worth selling. We'll do pretty well in that deparment. Love you girl! *muacks n hugs.

Chy* Blur sotong~ I hardly get to see you anymore. I miss your blur antics in class. At least I have aunty Ryl to keep me occupied. I don't know what I would do without you two gong poot poots. Maha! Love you too! Take care yeahh. -muacks n hugs.

Marilyn* My Mei Nu! My darling girl. Thanks for being there when I need someone. Take care too ya? Don't smoke too much and watch yourself during your weekly clubbing sessions. Love you loads. -hugs n muacks.

Everyone else* Too many to go on. Take care and love yall loads too. Those who I haven't seen in a long while, meet up soon yeahh? -hugs.

Oh my fucking god. I'm so darn pissed. My Internet explorer hung on me again! I finished a whole bloody entry already! God. Now I have to start all over again. Thank god I'm using Netscape now. Argh.

This school week hasn't been a good one for me. Been feeling sick the whole bloody week and missed quite a couple of tutorials and lectures. I'm due to receive a warning letter for BESE. I know what yall are thinking. God Drea, its only the 4th week of school and you get a warning letter?! Bahhh. Typical of me. But I'll do just fine. I always do just fine. *smiles. Every semester, my stomach and gastric has to act up for a week. Then for a whole week, I wouldn't turn up for any lessons. I know I should see a doctor. I think everyone has given up on convincing me to see a doctor. Oh well, that's me for you. Anyway, this goes out to my project group members, Fan, Dele, Nel, Ryl, and Jess. Sorry for my lack of punctuality and absence. Really sorry. Love you guys anyhow.

So tomorrow is submission for Comm Skills 2. At least I didn't do last min work this time. So I'm kinda wrapping things up now. Giving my Resume and Cover letter a final polish and it will be ready for printing. Wheeee! Next week there's going to be Accounting class test. God I dread it. Bahh. We shall see how it goes. At least tomorrow school starts at 2pm for me. Which means I can sleep in a lil more. Wheee! :D But I'll have to rush to work after lesson. Bahh. The only thing that is keeping me to work is bling bling. You can never have enough of bling bling. *grins.

Enough about negative stuff. Guess what everyone? I've got a surprise. I've got a new haircut! Before you go, Aiya, Drea's hair is always the same. Nooooo. Its short on top and long layers below. Basically, a lil punky. My mum and sis says its too punky for me. But wth. As long I like it, that's what matters the most. Everyone will have their own opinions. I'm rather pleased with it. *smiles.

Time to finish up my work. Tete~

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Yeah
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Try so hard to say goodbye

So I'm in a cranky mood. Why? All thanks to all the viruses and what pop ups you have in today's "advance" technology. God. Its screwing my Internet Explorer up big time. So darn fucking pissed. Enough of complaining.

Comm Skills is due this Friday. Argh. Datelines. Screw them too.

So I actually came online with many great things to blog about. Suddenly, I'm in no mood. Bahhhh. Another day. Gotta do my project stuff anyway.

*ps: If I'm angry with anyone, you guys would know it personally. So don't worry, if I'm still talking to you, I'm okay! Don't worry yeah? Love all! -muacks!

Everyone tells me. Andrea belongs to the type where she speaks her mind. No holds barred. That's what some say is good whereas some say it isn't good. At a certain point in time, I would like to tell people who say its good to shut the fuck up. Because how many of you can handle the truth? I hardly can handle it myself.

When I am my true self, noone is able to accept me. Cause noone likes the truth. I'm beginning to wonder if its just me and my insecurities. Lets just talk about my TP friends. How many of you even know me well? None. How many people think I'm a bitch. I can tell you, many. Don't tell me "Don't judge a book by its cover" because it is only human nature to do so. I do that at times too.

I'm losing my best friend not because she cannot accept me. It is just plainly because of something that has nothing to do with me. Nothing at all. You. You know who you are. You know me the best. You know what I will do. I will not forgive you. Never. I haven't done anything. Not a single thing. But because of a reason that has nothing to do with me, I have to be sacrificed.

Andrea isn't the same person anymore. I hardly speak my mind anymore. I just rather keep everything to myself. I'm tired of broken promises and lies, fake friendships and friendships that don't last. Its not my fault that I'm hard to understand. Sometimes, I don't even understand myself.

I hate everyone. God I hate all of you. Its been a long time since I sat in front of the com and tears unknowingly roll down my cheecks. Fuck. Everyone is too busy for everyone. Noone bothers to stop and look around them. Best Friend screwed. Rest of Friends, equally screwed. FUCK. I hate lies. Its so fucking unfair. God. FUCK YOU ALL.

Happy Birthday Beef!

Happy 20th Birthday Beef. Now not a teen anymore so grow up! Don't be a big baby and I love you! -hugs n muacks!

Friday
Had a talk with Ryl about Friendship during lunch break at Mensa. Oh well. Whatever. Being independent is the best eh? But sometimes, its too much for one to take and eventually, you'll break down into pieces.Met up with Beef after school and we headed to town for some retail therapy. Whee! Bought a couple of stuff and got Beef another Birthday present. Around 9 plus we got pretty bored and started searching for people to go clubbing with. Then we remembered that Sha*** Chia. Oops I mean Eddy was going down to Monks so we went down to join her. Bumped into Ryan there and we started asking her about Xiao Ping. Xiao Ping, if you're reading this, please contact us. Everyone is truly worried about you. So in the end, spent the night at Monks with Eddy, Ryan n her gf. Not too bad just that Monks was the quietest ever.

Saturday
Met in town to celebrate Beef's Birthday! Walked around town doing some window shopping and went to Far East to collect some clothes she ordered. Lala~ Then headed to Big O for her Birthday Celebration. God so bloody full, both of us were bursting. The food was okay and I have say that Coffee Club's Mudpie is better! Way nicer! *drools. Met up with Lili before that and Beef got her 3rd Birthday present! *winks. Took some pictures which I will upload here soon. When I'm finally done with my work that would be.

School is still as stressful as it is. Loads of things going to be due soon. Well, at least my insomnia is cured. Or to be precise, I'm too tired to suffer from insomnia anymore. Work and school is draining me out totally. Enough said here, got loads of work and tutorials to do. Aiming to do well this year. (Yeah Right.) Bahhh.

Feeling a lil blah at the moment. I have no idea what "Feeling a lil blah" actually means. I reckon you get the vibe.

God, there's BusE&SE later at 0830. !@&*%$ Chee Neh Pok. Full Fledged formal wear at 0830. Mad please. Then after that, would be my favourite Zhang Wei's lecture. I swear I will kill her one day. Not to forget, she my god damn it fucking CP. Sweet eh. I almost killed her the last tutorial. She asked me a question. I didn't understand what she was asking. When I finally understood and answered her, she didn't understand what I was saying. Wtf. She needs to do something about her sentence construction man. Ah whatever. At least I know I'm not the only one who wants to kill her. I think half the Year 2 Tourism cohort agrees with me.

So today, no show at school for me. Crazy gastric, backache and headache. Apology goes out to Ryl too. You know what I'm talking about. *winks. So although I wasn't feeling very good, I still met up with Beef. Went to Sakae Sushi. Her birthday treat from me. Got her present already, so I'm safe. But, Bessy Tan Wei Mei, You still owe me a Birthday Present! Hello! Don't pretend! Went shoe hunting. Saw a pair of Nike's. Fuck suah. 199 bucks. My mum gave me 200 only! I don't want to spend all on a pair of shoes. Blah. Probably get the Nike Air Trainers, the one Beef wants but doesn't come in her size. Heh. Oh, Quek and Beef each have a blog now! Wheee. More blogs to read. Currently, Beef's blog is still under construction. The picky arse can't decide on a proper template.

My template is still a lil screwed up. If you actually take a closer look, there's a slight screw up with the font size. Shall fix that and the links real soon. When I feel like it that would be. Maha!

I don't want to go to school! *wails.

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated, I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye

And rendered me
So isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment fall for forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away

My hope
dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

I'M BACK! -Waves, jumps and hops around screaming like a mad bitch. I repeat. I'm BACK!!! Wheeeeeeeeeee. The freaking internet connection is finally back.

Update update. Hmmmm. Been really busy with work and school. But now work is cut down to once a week till the OFP outlet opens. Which probably will be mid August. Guess its good news that I'm not working so often anymore. Beginning to feel the stress and pressure as datelines approach. Plus, I can hear Ryl nagging at me to not work so much and neglect my studies. *winks at Ryl.

Bbq at Ecp last Saturday and following that we all went to Hard Rock. We as in Joanne, Gerri, Cheryl, Jamie, Beef and I. Fun fun fun. *beams.

Argh. I'm suffering from side effects of not blogging for such a long time. The side effect would be. I don't know what the fuck to say in the entry. Ah whatever. Another day. I'M BACKKKK. Just had to say that another time.

I'm busy. Too busy. Busy with school. Busy with work. Busy with everything. No time to update. Bahhhhh.