From Your Daughter

*edited @ 0826 hours.

Friday
Was at Emerald 5 Hill, Ice Cold Beer, Harry's Bar, Dbl O & O Bar for work. Silly tagged along, Bessy, Jie and Denise came along after awhile.

Finally when work ended, we headed over to Zouk where I got disgustingly drunk on 2 Tequila Pops. Geh qiang la me! Just because everyone else was happily high and I was sober so I told Silly to buy me 2 Tequila Pops.

I can't even remember when was the last time I was so drunk. Got to Spize and I headed straight for the toilet to puke. Back to the table and continued puking like mad while everyone was happily having supper. -.-

Silly drove home with me puking in the passenger seat and parked downstairs, brought me up first before going back down to park her car proper. Then as usual, I got sober and started bugging her for food at 0800 hours. LOL. Thank you Silly for taking care of me that night. It meant a lot to me. ((:

Saturday
Picked Elena and Bessy up before going down to Vivo. Then it was work again at Arena. Was so hung over and tired, I barely worked because half the time I was visiting the toilet. God.

Had porridge at Chinatown then Silly and I headed to Marina South for a Daytona competition and to kill time. I LOST, by a bit! Knn. Never mind, we will play again okay? Haha.

Met Zenna and Casey at St James's Mono. Basically just sat there, talking nonsense, listening to people sing, drinking beer and having a great time. I know, I was still drinking. I swear I'm a mother fucking alcoholic now. All I think about is alcohol. LOL!

Headed down to Dragonfly for a bit before we left and I managed to convince Silly to go for Zouk Out! Or rather, Zenna did. YAY! The entire clan will be Zouk Out-ing. Hur.

Sunday
So much for Cafe Del Mar but Silly and I woke up at like 1800 hours. Lazed around for awhile before leaving to Bessy's for dinner. Picked Jo up and went to collect my stuff back. Thank you for returning them finally.

Went to Happy Daze and was very tempted to order a Heineken before everyone gave me the evil eye so I settled for a Double Chocolate Chip milkshake. Belly & Jordan came along awhile later and we all had a great time catching up. (:

Monday
Didn't plan to head out but I did anyway. Met up with Silly to meet Jac for awhile. Thanks for the bag dear! See you on Thursday!

Borders after that and I bought my 2008 organiser. Then I got hungry again so we went to Cuppage for supper. I swear other than being an alcoholic of late, I'm eating like some mad woman but sadly, I am still 40KG. )):

KTV-ed after supper and damn, it was good. I've missed KTV so much man, though 4 hours wasn't sufficient. LOL.

So yes, those were the highlights of my weekend. I feel so busy these days. Doesn't help that 3/4 of my pay is gone already. Omfg please. I AM SO BROKE and I haven't even shopped or even gone for my damn haircut. HOW HOW HOW?! -panics-

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I am going to be a good girl and stay home the next 2 days. As much as I want to avoid facing the problems, I guess sometimes, we just can't run away.

I'm just tired, tired of being the one that worries you. I'm not a little girl anymore you know? I'm sorry for going MIA for the last week, I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed me.

Sometimes, I really wish I could just tell you every single little thing that's happening to me in my life. Even though I am officially out of the closet to you, I still fear the objection or rejection.

I want to tell you that I'm really happy now, that I've never been so happy with anyone in the past 3 to 4 years but I am scared.

I just want to let you know, I love you mummy. You mean the world to me, you really do.

I know she doesn't read my blog but I just had to get it out of my system. I just had to. I guess, I'll do it the way I know. I'll write her a letter.

*I sent her a sms after she left for work instead. I feel so much better clearing things up. Problem now is, I am wide awake. Bugger.

`Spinning: Groove Armada - From The Rooftops

Your Royal Highness, Me

I had this urge to blog while on my way home from town after FEP's chicken rice with Silly. I know this topic is absolutely bo liao and retarded but it's my blog right?! LOL.

After staying with Silly since Sunday, I've gotten so bloody used to be driven around. I feel so damn spoilt and princess-y. BUT, I refuse to take advantage of it or get too used to it.

Ironically, it's not a good thing know?! I kinda miss the long bus rides where I can just either read my journey home or stone and do some "life reflection" and sing to myself along with whatever's on the radio.

Then Jac will be back this Sunday, which just means, more car rides! Haha! God, I'm getting way too spoiled. Oh well, I'm going to take a bus to town later anyway, so not that spoiled right? Haha.

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You make me feel like a princess. ((:

"It's amazing how you knock me off my feet, hmm
Every time you come around me
I get weak, oh yeah
Nobody ever made me feel this way, oh
You kiss my lips
and then you take my breath away
So I wanna know"

`Spinning: Deep Dish - Say Hello (Extended Mix)

Re-Discovering Eden

Apparently I cannot be subtle. So much for thinking I could be subtle when necessary. I reckon it's just me, too damn straight forward for my own good. Hur.

I've been very happy. It really is like re-discovering Eden all over again. Thank you, for bringing the smiles back to me. ((:

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The week's been extremely good, minus the fact that I haven't been home the past 5 days and won't be home for the next 3 days. Haha. I've got my ass parked at the other end of Singapore, Bukit Panjang. I know, so far right? That's why, every time Silly is supposed to drive me home, I end up not going because I feel bad for making her drive so far back and forth. It's really far okay! Ain't I sweet. LOL!

The past few days passed by so quickly I can barely remember what I have done except for clubbing last night because I can still feel the alcohol in my blood. Chivas Green Tea, Tequila Pop, Watermelon Martini, Lychee Martini, Heineken, Triple Jack. Just the mention of all the alcohol I had last night makes me wanna barf.

Anyhoos, when Silly leaves for work every morning, I'm either online the entire day chatting with her and Zen or rolling around in her "supposedly famous" bed. Lol. Poor Silly has been so busy entertaining me that she's barely had proper rest. I'm guilty as charged.

This weekend is going to be one long weekend but I'm excited. Haha. Zouk tomorrow, chill out on Saturday and Cafe Del Mar on Sunday! God, I'm a fucking alcoholic.

"I've looked for love in stranger places
but never found someone like
you
someone whose smile
makes me feel i've been holding back
and now
there's nothing I can do

Cause this is real, and this is good
it warms the inside just like
it should
but most of all
most of all, it's built to last
it's built to
last

All of our friends
saw from the start
so why didn't we believe it
too?
now look, where we are
you're in my heart now
and there's no
escaping it for you

Cause this is real, and this is good
it warms the inside just like
it should
but most of all
most of all, it's built to last

Walking on the hills at night
with those fireworks and
candlelight
you and i were made to get love right

Cause this is real, and this is good
it warms the inside just like
it should
but most of all
most of all, it's built to last

Cause you are the sun in my universe
consider the best when we felt
the worst
and most of all, most of all
most of all, most of all,
most
of all, most of all
it's built to last"

`Spinning: Melee - Built To Last

Too Little, Too Late

Since I am too awake to fall asleep on my wet hair, here I am again, blogging to kill time. Hur.

First things first. As much as I felt your apology was probably the first one you ever meant deep down, it was just too little too late. Just return me my things, don't make me turn things ugly. Things are already as ugly as they can get already, so please, don't push me over the edge.

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Friday, was so exhilarated from getting my pay after 2 fucking broke months, I was literally delirious. On my way out, I was such a happy bunny listening to the radio play clubbing music and smiling to myself like an absolute crazy moron. LOL.

Elena and I celebrated pay day by drinking a flaming lambo each on empty stomachs. Haha. Sadly, like Bessy said, the alcohol was wasted on us because we barely got high. Then I got to meet Denise darling after almost 7 weeks! I've missed you so much darling. Let me know when you're not on flight and we'll do coffee okay? Loves!

After Phuture and Zouk both closed, we continued our clubbing escapade to Dragonfly, which closed 5 minutes upon our arrival. Hahaha. I feel like a fucking alcoholic these days man. -sayangs liver- LOL!

Saturday, cabbed home from Silly's place to shower and change before heading out again to meet the "current" usual suspects. Had dinner while watching my very first R21 movie (Yes, I'm slow can), Saw 4.

I know, how can I have dinner while watching such a gory movie right? But honestly, I found Saw 4 boring, I was happily enjoying my fish and chips while watching them rip body parts like no body's business.

After the movie, chilled at NYDC for awhile before heading back to the cinema for Beowulf. It was yet but another boring movie. Bessy actually fell asleep 1/4 into the movie. Haha. The only conclusion I could get from Beowulf was that, the dick and the brain are unable to function together.

See, the plan was to NOT club because we were all too exhausted but I got a phone call and a text from 2 different people asking why my ass wasn't parked at Zouk. Haha.

While smoking after the movie, I bumped into Adah! Omfg, 5 fucking years never see her and she hasn't changed one tiny bit. Still the same old silly ah lian. (: If you do read this babe, it was really nice catching up with you over cigarettes. To think I used to nag at you bout smoking back during KC days. Hurhur.

Got 4 our asses to Zouk and met dear OLD Tox there with my long deserved alcoholic treat. Hahaha. It was nice seeing you too. Glad we managed to catch up. Remember, want to find girlfriend, please be patient okay? Haha.

Not forgetting my dearest glam podium queen Marilyn. It's so good that I've been seeing you at least once a week the past 2 weeks. You have no idea how much I missed you.

So anyway, I still have yet to do any shopping while Elena spent 200 bucks within 15 minutes at Guess. Haha. Monday's my day! I am going shopping alone! YAY! (Note to self, book respective appointments with Suzanne & Browhaus)

And and and, I still want to watch Stardust. -nudges silly- ((:

"I loved you with a firein red, now it's turning blue
And you say "Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late"

`Spinning: Timbaland Feat. One Republic - Apologize

Happy Happy Me!

Omg. I just had to blog and spread my happiness please! MY FUCKING PAY IS IN! Omg omg omg! SO HAPPY LA! Words cannot describe how happy I am can?! LOL.

I have a whole list of things to buy which I've been mentally making up while waiting for my pay to come in the past 2 months. It's been months since I've shopped so tomorrow, I am going shopping! Wheee~

I need to buy my 2008 organiser, Christmas cards, slippers and underwear (again). At least these are the stuff I'm definitely going to buy. So exciting!

Then tonight, it's Zouk with all my darlings. The plan is for everyone to get high. Then Zen and I have another evil plan. Hahaha. If we do execute the plan, I will blog about it here. LOL.

Okay, as you can tell, I'm extremely happy, happy mad kind. So yes, I'm going to sign off here before more nonsense comes blabbering out.

`Spinning: Gwen Stefani - Wind It Up

Because Of You

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

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And I really hate it.

`Spinning: ATB & Paul Van Dyk - Rave Me

Facebook Me

I finally joined Facebook. Okay I know, I'm super slow like a mountain tortoise but so what? Haha.

I was adamant to not join Facebook because, I just didn't want to. Just like when how Friendster first came out and I didn't want to join until I remember Ryna and Quek psycho-ed me into it. This time, every other person who talks to me on MSN asks me if I have a Facebook account. Every time I say no, they start the "Join Facebook" campaign. -.-

Until Zen kept on badgering me this afternoon, telling me the benefits, this and that and I cannot remember what else. Haha. Then she continued with telling me bout (fluff)Friends because she remembers that I have a secret obsession with Neopets. LOL. (I haven't logged into Neopets after I discovered the wonders of World of Warcraft)

So I gave in, because I was tired of everyone asking why I don't do Facebook. God. This is called PEER PRESSURE! Now that I'm in, people are telling me I'm going to get addicted. Lol. Honestly? I doubt so. Facebook is definitely not as addictive as WoW but it is true that it's good to kill time when one's bored.

So yes, just add me and stop badgering me already. Haha. The name's Drea Lim, too many bloody Andrea Lim's already.

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Strangely, I actually do miss you but it's a good thing I think? I hope it's a good thing. Not you but you, yes you.

`Spinning: Groove Armada - Song 4 Mutya (Out of Control)

Emo Is Contagious

I texted Bessy earlier and told her that I may have just caught her emo nemo disease. Haha. Last night I was emo bout something. Tonight, it's about an entirely different thing.

Sometimes, I think I stress myself way too much. Relax Andrea, relax! I need to be serious about the right things and I never seem to be able to do that.

But Bessy is right. What the hell am I emo-ing about. Seriously, I have no idea please. Don't know why emo also. Knn, slap me la please someone. I should be enjoying what's going on in my life now, not emo-ing over it. But I can't help thinking bout the what if's.

I guess, it all boils down to, I'm scared. Know what, the previous paragraphs don't even make sense to me.

"If I wrote you a symphony,
Just to say how much you mean to me
(what would you do?)
If I told you you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regular
(tell me, would you?)"

`Spinning: Justin Timberlake - My Love (Paul Oakenfold Remix)

Closure

Know, love is seriously unfathomable. To one, it may mean something, to another, it's an entire different story.

I had a long chat session with Silly today and we both agreed that love is seriously overrated. My conclusion? So much for I love you.

So I camped out on MSN for a long long time and spoke to loads of people whom I haven't been talking to for eons and I'm really glad I did. It just made me realise, how much I miss all my friends, how much I love them and hopefully how much they love me. Haha.

Then there are those, whom I'm still disappointed with. That's why love is overrated. Be it love between friends, family or lovers.

Friendships do actually fall apart, even after going through hell together in Sec 4, watching each other grow up from the adolescent teen years. I miss my best friend, and I hate it that I always feel like I come in last. Know, I doubt you even read my blog anymore so what the hell.

But of course, there are those who always make me smile no matter what.

The conversation I had with Maye darling made me laugh like crazy and I truly wish I could just put it here but I can't because, well, after so much drama, I'd much rather a quiet life now.

After the countless conversations with various people, I realised something. I was never truly happy with you, never. I'm glad it ended the way it ended because, it just proves, that's the person you want everyone to perceive you to be. And as sad as it may sound, I never did realise I already fell out of love with you, until now, a month later, all I can feel is stupid because I actually put up with the insults and pain you inflicted on me.

You, are one person that I regret so much. That's saying something when I do not even regret my one night stands. Watch your back won't you? Karma will come for you.

As Aly & AJ sings in Potential Break Up Song,

Now all I want is just my stuff back
Do you get that? Let me repeat that
I want my stuff back
You can send it in a box
I don't care just drop it off
I won't be home
Cuz without me, you know you're lost
Minus you I'm better off
Soon you will know

Just return my stuff back won't you? I'm more than ready to move along.

`Spinning: Rihanna - Shut Up & Drive

Alcohol Induced Euphoria

Well well well, I'm back. ((:

Everything has been going fantastically well. Had the craziest long weekend ever and I can't even remember when was the last time I had so much fun like that.

Wednesday, Silly and Bessy came to pick me up before heading down to Toca for a beer then to Zouk where Jie and Zen came to join us shortly after. After Phuture closed, Jo came down and we mambo-ed till closing. LOL.

Thursday, with 3 hours of sleep, headed to JB with Mummy, Lil' Brat, Simon & Mage in Shining Armour. Bought loads of "stuff" but I shan't say what. x: Then it was the fucktastic dinner. Yummy. Got back to Singapore, took a bus to Newton then Mage in Shining armour dropped me at Play. Was there think for an hour then I got really high because Xiao Xin bought me a Tequila Pop. LOL

Friday, armed with yet again only 3 hours of sleep, went out with Mummy and Lil Brat the entire afternoon before meeting Silly and Bessy at Bugis. Then it was to Jo's chalet. All I can say about the chalet is, LOL. Words cannot describe all the madness that went on. Hope you had fun Jo. ((:

Saturday, after contemplating and some bugging from Jo, I ended up at Zouk, high for the 3rd night in the row. LOL.

Okay la, I'm lazy to go into details also. All I know is, Denise is coming back in 3 days, Jac in 12 days. I can't wait to see you guys.

Silly. ((:

`Spinning: Mario - Just A Friend