Goodbye 2007, Hello 2008

So this is it, the last entry for 2007.

It's been a crazy year. When I say crazy, I mean it in all degrees. There were high and low points but that's just life ain't it? That's what makes life "interesting" at least.

To my Yong Tau Foo Girlies, Jie, Zen, Jo and Bessy, you girls will always be my YTF girlies for life. To more alcohol induced madness, bitching and being as fucked up as we are. Because I love you girls just the way you are.

To my KC girls, Quek and Jac, here's to growing old together. Jac, to 8 years and counting of friendship, chilling and emo nights together. Quek, to still being my best friend, I will still call you crying at 0300 if I have to. I love you both.

To my darlings from TP, Denise and Ryl, the both of you hold a special place in my heart. I am always here, any time, any place and any day. Ready to mambo when you girls are. Haha.

To Silly, "You caught me off guard, now I'm running and screaming. I feel like a hero and you are my heroine. Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?". ((:

I'm glad this year has come to an end. I'm all ready for a fresh start.

`Spinning: Zac Efron & Vanessa Hudgens - Breaking Free

My Lucky Charm

I am so excited! I struck lottery! -hops around- Yes I really really did win 4D yesterday. Bwahahahaha!

This is all thanks to Silly. ((: She was mentioning the numbers the entire of yesterday so I told her, let's go buy for fun. So in the name of fun, I bought $1 Big $1 Small, iBet. I know, where got people buy iBet buy so little right? I really was just buying for fun can?!

HOW I KNOW WILL KNN OPEN 3RD PRIZE RIGHT!? NBCCB.

Sigh. It's okay. I am very contented with what I won. First time strike lottery, 3rd prize some more can?!

And if you think I won a lot and hoping for a treat or something, dream on mate. It's only 2 pathetic digits.

Silly is my lucky charm. ((:

Anyway, for Christmas, Silly bought me the "la maison nu l'ean" leather pouch in black and gold. from Agnes B. -beams- It is offically my new wallet. Hur.

That aside, check out the wrapping. I totally dig it.

"Me and you babe - We'll make the whole world jealous"

`Spinning: Sade - Smooth Operator

Love Actually

Love actually is over-rated.
Love actually is self inflicted pain.
Love actually is happiness.
Love actually is feeling warm and fuzzy.
Love actually is wanting to do the craziest things.
Love actually is bitter-sweet.

Love actually is Silly. Pun intended.

Actually, I think I am in love. ((:

`Spinning: Diana Krall - The Christmas Song

Not So Merry Christmas

I am sick. Like "running a temperature" complete with a totally sexay voice interrupted by coughing and a "leaking" nose.

Merry Christmas folks. Enjoy this one for me.

"All I want for Christmas is you, only you."

`Spinning: Corrinne May - Shelter

Fortune Cookie

My mood has been fluctuating like a damn roller coaster ride. One minute I am so disgustingly bursting with bliss, the next minute, I am emo like nemo.

As of now, it definitely ain't Missy Bliss in the house. Hello Emo-Nemo. -screams-

Couple of days back, I headed to the fortune teller. Apparently she's rather accurate and I wouldn't deny there was some truth in the things she told me.

First thing I remember her telling me was that I worry too much. That I worry about every single thing and I must learn to relax. God. For a moment she sounded like the psychiatrist at the hospital I saw the other time. I actually wondered if I had 'Suffers from Anxiety" tattooed across my forehead.

Then she told me I had a bad temper. God. So I guess you guys can really buy me an Anger Management course for Christmas since everyone keeps telling me I need to go for one before I eventually murder myself or someone.

She also mentioned that people born in the year of Rat and Pig are my "Gui Ren". Seriously, can it be more of a coincidence that Silly, Jie & Bessy are born in the year of Rat, while Zen and Jo are born in the year of Pig. My Yong Tau Foo girlies, you girls are stuck with this Fire Tiger for good!

That aside, I think she forgot to mention that I am too much of a nosy parker. Sometimes, I can't help it. I stumble into things that I don't want to stumble into. It's bloody deja vu because it has happened before.

I don't go around blog hopping, I never do but it always happens. Why do I always click on the damn wrong link?! Curiosity killed the cat. It obviously killed this Fire Tiger.

`Spinning: Something Corporate - Ruthless

The Holiday

The family princess aka Lolly has gotten into yet another fight. This time around, she's badly injured with mutiple serious wounds. Sigh. I'm gonna bring her to the vet first thing in the morning later.

And because of her sudden injury, the 5 week "holiday" at Silly's has some what come to an (abrupt) end. The plan was to stay until Saturday evening but obviously it is impossible now because I have to stay home to take care of Lolly. ):

I will not complain because I love Lolly and for one, Silly is so damn understanding, it makes me feel terrible.

That aside, I am definitely going to miss...

... the crazy things we have done in her darling, 369...

... the random and impromptu tanning session at Cafe Del Mar...

... the grocery shopping where I was "cheated" into buying this $4.05 Campbell's Chicken & Stars soup...

... her attempts at artistic photography...

... her "se lang" ways...

... the pillow talks...

... most of all, the physical presence of her. ((:

"There's something 'bout you that makes me want to step up
Step up and be with you
If that's okay with you"

`Spinning: Jamie Scott & The Town - When Will I See Your Face Again

Stitching Up

I had a seriously disturbing dream recently. I dreamt that I got into a freak accident and ended up with stitches running from my wrist to my shoulders and along my inner thighs on both legs. When I woke up from the dream, I was aching all over and immediately checked my arms and legs for the damn stitches.

I decided to check up on what stitches in dreams actually interpret and this is what I got.

"To dream that you have stitches, represents your responsibility in keeping/holding a situation or relationship together. You may fear that this situation/relationship is falling apart and needs to be mended. Consider also the symbolism of where the stitches are on the body for additional clues."

Know, it figures because I've been worrying about my relationships with various people of late. If you know me well enough, you'd know that I worry about a lot of things, including unnecessary stuff. Doesn't help that I'm super sensitive which means that half the time, I interpret a lot of things differently from a normal person.

I'm having a bad day. Just one of those emo over every single tiny fur ball days. The weather isn't helping much either, bloody dark clouds making me feel gloomier. Worst part, I have to work tonight. Sigh.

`Spinning: Jay-Z - Roc Boys (And The Winner Is...)

Sing With Me

As the end of the year and the festive season approaches, everyone seems to be thrown into some kind of reflective or emo mode. Here I am with my own, despite the obvious happiness and cheeriness I have been exhibiting in the past few entries.

2007 has been an eventful yet monotonous year for me. Opportunites came and went, just like how some people walked in and out of my life.

The opportunities, I know will come again but the people, some, have walked out permanently. For one, I am glad that she is out of my life for good because all she brought was unhappiness and misery but for some, I miss with a tinge of regret.

I suppose I did give it my best shot when it came to friendship but like a relationship, it takes two hands to clap. I did all I can to save the 2 friendships that I've some what lost this year but to no avail. I'd like to say, I really really miss the both of you.

Relationship wise, I always believe, we all learn something from each and every relationship we go through. This time, I've learnt that sometimes, being too independent doesn't work. That I have to love and respect myself before expecting someone to do the same.

I lost myself right from the start of the relationship. Lost all dignity and pride. I just hung on, for the sake of hanging on. I am just glad that now, I found myself back again, for my own sake.

Likewise, I thank those who never once gave up on me and I thank those who love me for who I am and I thank those who were there for me when I needed them.

To my friends, who have loved and lost, smile my darlings, love will always find it's way.

For now, sing with me,

"Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive as long as i know how to love
I know I'll stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give and
I'll survive
I will survive"

`Spinning: Electrico - Runaway

Sausages & Mushrooms

See at first I was just too lazy to blog but I couldn't resist. This has to go down abnegation.blogspot because the entire (eating) experience was just so damn satisfying.

Silly has been going on about cooking portabello mushrooms with mozzarella cheese for me for awhile and today, she finally did! ((:

My very own personal chef. Lol.

I swear I can still smell the sausages, butter, cheese and mushrooms from just looking at this picture.

Cheese heaven.

-drool-

-continues drooling-

All I can say is, the pictures cannot justify how good the food was. After 3 sausages and 4 mushrooms each, we couldn't resist and made another 5 mushrooms each. The thought of it, is still rather mouth watering. x: Next round, I'm thinking of adding bacon. -drools-

I am the happiest girl alive. Thank you Silly. ((:

Know sometimes, when you say something and it just comes out all so right and you know, you're really right. ((:

// `affinity *drea says:
You and I, we're good. That's what's good.

Grant My Christmas Wish!

Warning, this entry is going to be entirely self absorbed in the sense where I think everyone is going to buy something from the list from me, so please bear with me. I think I deserve to be self absorbed once in awhile.

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Okay, I know I promised pictures but I am just lazy okay?! Go check my Facebook if you want and if you're that in love with me, then get me to send you all my pictures okay? LOL.

It is the time of the year again, where I put up my dream list and wish list. This year, I am too lazy to put pictures of the items and I am also too lazy to separate them out. Well, I'm pretty sure you'd be able to tell which belongs to my dream list and which belongs to my wish list.

• Channel's 2.55 Bag in black please.
• Prada/Gucci/Marc Jacobs Wallet. You can ask me to specify the model and colour for you.
• Driving License. Meaning, you pay for my lessons.
• A Car. I have no idea what now but you can ask me again when I get my license.
• A house. So I can have my own bloody room for once in my life.
• A fully sponsored shopping spree. Sighh.
• April 77 Jeans.
• Another Tiffany & Co ring which I have my eyes on. Again, ask yours truly.
• N81 or if possible, I don't mind the iPhone.
• Jay Chou concert tickets. I swear I will love you for the rest of my life.
• New computer or laptop so I can finally get my own World Of Warcraft account.
• Sleeping pills. I really think I need some but no one will ever give them to me anyway.
• My darlings to be less busy so they can have coffee with me and bitch about life.
• My darlings to even remember that poor little, Andrea actually exists and misses the shit hell hole out of them.
• Strike lottery. I am satisfied with 100k, okay, maybe a million would be better.
• A trip to Hong Kong to shop and eat till I drop. I really miss it there.
• My family and friends to be safe, sound and happy.
• Books and more books.
• Put on some fucking weight for once.
• Santa to grant my wishes. Yes, I still believe in Santa okay? Too bad for you if you don't.
• Lingerie. You can get vouchers from Blush or Fling. If not, I'm a 34B for most bras and a 6/8 or Small for most undies. And oh, I like lace.
• iPod Nano 8GB in black. This has been on my list for years but it's not really a want want. Just greedy. But if you have too much spare cash, I'm cool with it.

Know, the list can just go on and on and on. So I shall just leave it here. Once again, I know there is nothing that anyone can actually afford so what the heck la. I just like putting up the same list every single year. At least I know one day, I will fulfil the entire list, by myself. (:

`Spinning: Nelly Furtado - Do It

I Could Be A Vampire

First things first, I have a note to myself and everyone who hangs out with me often enough or talks to me on MSN. Please clean my fucking room!

I swear, I have the messiest room on earth. All I did just now was, dump everything on my bed on the floor. Hahahaha. I'm tired and I don't know where to start can?! Plus I have a long day tomorrow. I know, excuses but ya, I won't do it today.

I vaguely remember not long ago, I swore on my blog that I'd clean my room out before the week ends. See thing is, I never got to it. -slaps self- So everyone, please bug me to clean my room especially my entire 3 years worth of TP notes that I keep for God knows what reasons.

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I just finished a 2 hour session of online sensation with my ever dearest Aandra the Warlock & Mezzthang the Void Walker. GOD I'VE MISSED WORLD OF WARCRAFT! Lol! I promise to rendezvous with the both of you soon. Yes, I'm speaking to them as if they can walk, talk, read and use the Internet. I like can!

Anyhoos, had dinner earlier at Ashton's with Silly, Mummy, Lil Brat and Simon today. For the first time (I think) in my life, I did not complain that my steak wasn't "rare" enough for me. The sight and taste of the blood oozing out was, orgasmic. Haha.

For the orgasm, we queued for almost an hour before getting a seriously dim witted service staff to ask us if it was okay if we spilt up and sat at 2 separate tables. Like wtf?! What kind of seriously no logic, stupid question is that? Goodness.

Now, I digress. Sometimes, I think I secretly am a vampire. Hahahahaha.

I love my steaks medium rare or rare if I can bargain with the people I'm having it with to tolerate the blood. Then I love pig's blood, (I know, go ahead and barf) which you can't get in Singapore anymore. I also enjoy watching the nurse when they draw my blood. That's my not so secret anymore reason for wanting to donate blood but I can't do it anyway because I have to be 45KG and above.

I also enjoy biting people, a couple have suffered from this but I am not as extreme as some people I know of. Then I absolutely hate tomato juice, which from those B grade flims, you see vampires feeding on tomato juice as subsitute for blood and absolutely hating it cause they much rather have blood. Lastly, most of the time, I sleep in the day and am awake at night.

I know, I watch too much TV and I just think too much. But maybe, just maybe, I could be a vampire. Hahahahahahahahahahaha.

Okay, bed time now, enough nonsense. So fucking tired. Pictures from the week in the next entry.

`Spinning: Corrinne May - If I Kissed You

Alcohol & More Alcohol

Wednesday, Zouk with Silly & Zen.
Thursday, Play and Toca with Silly, Jac, Zenna and Casey.
Friday, Toca with Silly, Zenna, Casey, Elena and Bessy.
Later, Zouk with Silly, Jac, Jie, Zen, Bessy, Elena, Bel, Zenna and Casey.

Alcohol, more alcohol and here's to even more alcohol!

Sometimes, it scares me, it really does. I hope I'm scared, for a good reason. I guess, getting into the state of high does help.

`Spinning: Chingy Ft. Tyrese - Pulling Me Back