When Everything Means Nothing

You know there's something wrong when your mother asks if you're alright.
You know there's something wrong when you don't even know what is wrong.
Or maybe you do and you're just shutting it out, just like how you've shut everything else out.

Stop asking if I'm okay. I am not okay. There, I've admit it. Happy? Now scram.

"Like a glass elevator"

Say Ooh La La

*sniffs around blog. Woohoo. Haven't blogged for what? Almost 2 weeks. Record breaking. Firstly, there's nothing to blog about anymore. Secondly, I have no life, okay I do but there's nothing exciting enough to blog about. Thirdly, internet connection at home is down. Bah.

So let's see, Eski bar last Saturday. It was hell COLD but I had fun shivering or rather attempting to not shiver at -o.5 degrees with Janice. Hurhur.

Thursday was Butch Hunt Finals, Cre was the 1st Runner Up. *sob. Ohoh, so paiseh. Was puking in the toilet (no I wasn't drunk, I was not feeling well and down with a temperature that day) and I didn't close the door properly then Cre opened the door and asked if I was okay. I wanted to shove my head into the toilet bowl please. *mumbles.

Okay, that was so random. So anyway, I haven't been going to work the past couple of working days. Down with bloody fever and flu. But I went ahead with all the clubbing and weekend plans. Nothing is going to ruin my weekend.

So apparently my attendance has finally become a HUGE issue with the company. Honestly, I fucking hate my internship. I regret rejecting Ritz Carlton like hell. I regret choosing this company. I REGRET. *drama. I don't fucking give a damned anymore. Really. I just want to get over and done with it. Fuck the commendation grade. I just want to go back to school.

Elective selection's a huge pain in my ass cause I cannot decide between E-Business and Calculus. Calculus cause I want to further my studies but E-Business cause there is a huge chance I would fail Calculus. I shall just stick with what I'm confident of passing.

Wah lau. Everyone has been saying I put on weight. Knn. I've got to stop eating so much. Trust me. I've been eating A LOT.

I just realised I've been blabbering. Bahh. Nonsense. I've become all nonsensical hanging out with the nonsensical one. *giggles.

"Fallen"

Something About You

Its been exactly 4 months of singlehood. The past 4 months have been crazy. People walked in and out of my life. Friendships formed and friendships lost. Dates, flings and eyecandies.

First and foremost, I would like to wish you an advance Happy 21st Birthday. Thank you for the 2 years of memories, good and bad likewise. The decision made was never regretted, not once. But of course I do wonder how would things be like now if I never made that decision. Whatever it is, I hope you are happy with your girl now.

Then came along a group of friends who kept me insanely sane during the "post-relationship" period. I still miss the laughter, the smiles and everything else shared between the group of us. Especially the few that listened to me, scolded me when I was crying while walking the streets of orchard. Thank you guys for everything. I miss each and everyone of you.

To you the boy. I have never met a nicer human of the opposite sex which I saw as a potential partner. I'm sorry for ending things the way it did, yes I was quite the bitch. But anyhow, I'm sure you will find someone worth your loving soon. The friendship is here to stay.

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Flings will be flings and eyecandies will be eyecandies. The excitement dies off after awhile.

Bottomline, I basically screwed up the past 4 months of my life. My stand on relationships went haywire. All I wanted was fun. Go figure. Now, its just the same old Andrea again. I'm tired of the inconsistency, the fickle mindset, the changes that take place in nano seconds.

I do not regret what I have done. Rather, I see it as a learning experience. Learning from mistakes and repenting.

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Now, you come sauntering into my life. *laughs. Its amazing how the chemistry fizzles, how you manage to make me feel all warm and fuzzy all over again despite the numbers. I hope this is here to stay. *flashes you a Drea smile.

How apt, I'm listening to Lovefool by The Cardigans now.

"Something in the way you move me"

Procrastination

I procrastinate too much.

Right now, I'm procrastinating if I should sleep or suffer the entire day later on without sleep.

If I should clear the mess in my room or shall I leave it till tomorrow.

If I should take another fag cause I feel like one but I've been smoking excessively and I'm almost broke and its only the first week of July.

So yes, the list can go on and on. What's wrong with us humans that we procrastinate almost every other minute of our lives?!

If I didn't procrastinate and do what's good for me, I'll be in bed now. My room will be cleared. I would be able to cut down on the sticks and save some moolah.

But hey, cut me some slack, don't you procrastinate too?

"Is this love real or just an illusion."

Back In Campus

For once I enjoyed traveling back to TP. Waiting for bus 69, climbing the stairs of the bridge and opening the doors of the lecture theatre greeted with familiar faces. The talk was totally redundant. I mean all of us were more eager to catch up with each other, give the well deserved hugs etc. Walking to the reservoir with Marilyn for smoke break. Pure bliss I tell you. I hate to say this but I fucking miss TP. Argh. Another 4 months.

So after lesson, towning with The Gang and Marilyn. So almost the whole bus 518 was filled with HTM students. Then, the bus broke down in the middle of PIE. How lucky. Everyone started calling the parentals to buy 4D. LOL. Number didn't open though. Tsk. Visual evidence of the breakdown here.

Creme Bistro for lunch, the Tori Katsu Don was damned good. *drools at thought of it. Then it was Mango sale at Shaw, Zara at Liat Towers. Thank god the clothes I wanted were out of my size. Left around 5 odd to meet Marilyn for more shopping after her pedicure session. Boy can my glam queen shop. I was aching after doing so much shopping with her.

At around 7, met jacy, litz, mac and her partner for dinner. Crystal Jade La Mian XLB. *double beam. Coffee Bean at Paragon after dinner and then jacy and I headed down to Club Momo. Momo was good. Goodbye Chinablack, Hello Club Momo. (:

Okay, I know I've been just reporting what I've been doing on Saturday. Life's monotonous and I have zero inspiration to blog about anything else.

"Do me a favour and fall in love with me."