Sunday, December 31, 2006

Goodbye, So Long

Goodbye 2006, Hello 2007 (in 2 hours).

I hated and loved 2006. Hopefully 2007 will be a better year. New Year resolutions? Hmmm. Why bother when I can't keep to them anyway. Hah.

Happy 4th year anniversary 'abnegation.blogspot.com'. To another year of my whining. ((:

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

My Grown Up Chrismas List

Hello all! I am currently at work and there's absolutely nothing to do plus IT (aka the bitch boss) is at meeting so here I am! Whee~

Bloody renovations at the 2nd floor are so damn bloody noisy that it's driving me nuts nuts nuts. Bugger. Adds on to the headache that is throbbing so badly. Bah.

Anyhow, the change of job scope is rather fine. Much more relaxing in fact. Hah! Which I don't know if it's a good or bad thing. If I knew today was going to be so damn slack, I would have brought my Christmas cards to write.

See, today's the 20th already and I still have yet to write them! Much less send them out. So this year, my cards are going to arrive late especially to the one in Guilford, United Kingdom. -sheepish grin-

So let's see. Last week, MINE and I went to Ikea thrice! First time to the one at Queensway, 2nd and 3rd time to the Tampines one. And each time, we went home with something. Haha.

Last Saturday MINE and myself met up with Mummy and Belly. Did some substantial shopping and for the first time, I was the one who bought the most things! Yayy! Haha. Finally got my beautiful 4 inch shoes and a bag from Aldo, a baby doll top from Topshop, a long sleeved tee and a pair of black tights from Mango.

Basically, every weekend MINE and I are shopping, like non-stop hits please. Haha. So much so that I'm so damn broke now. Like seriously running dry. Barely surviving. But it's okay, 8 more days to pay day! Whee!

Can't wait for Christmas to be here! Like major! Though all the presents have yet to be bought. Can't wait for MINE to lay her eyes on her Christmas present. I will make sure she posts a picture of her beautiful present here. So I guess this Saturday, my 2 best girls and I will make a dash for the malls for whatever presents we have yet to buy.

Here's wishing every one a very MERRY CHRISTMAS. Have a good one, go get sloshed, laid or station yourself under the mistletoe. Hehe. Last of all, WORLD PEACE. -miss congeniality smile-

Okay, back to my Marks & Spencer Dark Chocolate Digestives and work (an email just came in). Toodles.

"No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, ooh
This is my grown up christmas list"

Friday, December 15, 2006

The Sweet Escape

This is an invasion by the MINE.
I wanted to post this entry while
you were sleeping last night
but I couldn't remember your password and user id.
So I decide to join you to sleep.
And now, I'm here typing away.

We've been good babies the past few weeks.
No fights, no quarrels, no arguements.
Maybe because I'm too sick to do so la huh?
Anyhow, thumbs up for you and me.
Lets keep it up! =))

So you've been taking care of the weak baby;
bring her to the doctor, feed her medicines,
buy her food, take her temperature,
enduring the nights without air-con,
taking care of the lil monster, blahs.
And all I want to say is THANK YOU
for being around and being such a sweetie.

Also not forgetting,
thanks for the stuff you bought me.
Don't we want more pay day?
I'm counting down to the next one.
I know you love me right baby? Haha.

Before I end this entry,
I just wanna let you know that
you're my pillar of strength that never falls,
thank you for everything.



"If I could escape
And re-create a place in my own world
And I could be your favorite girl
Forever, perfectly together
Now tell me girl, wouldn't that be sweet?"



PS: Lets plan for a sweet escape this Christmas?

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Smack That

Hello all. It's been a VERY long time. Seems like I am only able to update fortnitghly now. Bloody bugger. All because I'm usually so damn tired and busy before and after work.

Work has been crap and more crap. 2nd colleague just resigned and she's even "newer" than me please! That's how horrible my boss is okay?! So now I have to take over both their work and it sucks because it's a total change of job scope and I'm already so familiar with what I am doing. Argh!

I am also thinking of resigning but not until I find another job. My boss is just a total bitch. Major! Those who did their internship at this hotel would know how her reputation is like. For example, if I were to leave, I would be the 10th person in this year alone.

Anyway, MINE has been very sick. Fever for one whole week already and despite seeing 2 different doctors, the fever and all is still there. So I reckon, no Zouk Out this year AGAIN. )):

I'm getting very worried. It's never a good thing to have prolonged fever. Sigh. Hope it comes down real soon.

HUGS MINE REAL TIGHT. I'll be there for you, even if it means going to the hospital and staying over with you. Get well soon sweetheart.

"I feel you creepin, I can see it from my shadow
Wanna jump up in my lamborghini gallardo
Maybe go to my place and just kick it like taebo
Then possibly bend you over
Look back and watch me"

Thursday, November 30, 2006

My Love

-coughspluttercough- Yes, am finally back again! Like everyone else, I "moved" over to Blogger Beta the last time I blogged and this time when I wanted to log in, I almost couldn't remember my user name and password. I see so many damn new features but I have absolutely no time to blog, much less explore Blogger Beta. ):

Anyway, today's the 30th, which marks the end of November! 25 more days to (my favourite holiday of the year) Christmas! And 31 more days to 2007! Whoopee!

Since Christmas is coming, I've been thinking long and hard on my "What I Want For Christmas" list. Haha. Got a couple thought up already but I still need more to at least hit a 10 items on my list. HUR. Will definitely blog 'bout the 10 "most wanted" items when I round them up. (:

Work's getting a lil too political for my liking but it's all because my boss is just a bitch. Honestly, she's fine but I really despise the tone she uses on people when she's talking to them. Like hello, none of us are 4 years old toddlers toddling around. Another colleague has just tendered her resignation letter because of her and this is the 2nd person in my 1 and a half month stint. Bahh.

So the weather has been a total bitch as well. Damn rain all day long. Bloody hell makes me want to sleep in the office, especially after lunch. -grumble- Monday, ended up on MC again (Yes I know, don't nag) but I was really sick since last week. Damn weather and flu bug, which sadly, I have passed to MINE and she was burning up to 39 degrees last night. ):

28th has passed and boy has my bank not seen 4 digits for a VERY long time, 3 years in fact. Hahaha. This Saturday's shopping with my 2 best girls, Belly & MINE. There goes the 4 digits, damn.

Before I go, here's a teeny treat for everyone. The lil chocolate piggy smelly kangaroo monster, Hershey. ((:

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"I can see us holding hands, walking on the beach, our toes in the
sand"

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Little Ms Busy

Yes I know, it's been a LONG LONG time since I've updated. See, I'm a very busy woman now, right. Heh.

Anyway, I've been totally bogged down by damn work. Going home at an average of 1930 daily, which is like 2 hours after official time. Bloody bugger. My boss is still as per normal, being an bitch of an ass. So yes, life's pretty fine and dandy in the office.

Besides "unwillingly" becoming a workaholic, my social calendar is still active like it used to be before I started working.

About 2 weeks back, Vivo-ed with Mummy, Lil Brat and MINE. Honestly, I don't find the place all that fantastic and plus it was packed like hell cause it was Sunday. Belly and Fish came to pick us up after that and we all headed to Mount Faber for a drink before heading back home.

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Last Thursday, met up with my Yong Tau Foo girlies for Jo's surprise birthday dinner at Village at Heerens. Yes, finally had a full attendance YTF gathering for once and not at Zouk. Hur.

Then on Friday, it was Mummy's birthday. Had curry fish head with Mummy, Lil Brat, Simon, MINE and a friend of Lil Brat's at Apollo Banana Leaf. We headed on to Liquid Kitchen, Havelock Road to chill. Belly and Fish also came down for awhile. As per every Friday, Zouk it was after Mummy's celebration but this time Jie came along too!

Sunday was dinner at my place. Mummy cooked a total of 7 dishes for 4 of us (Namely: Baby, Mummy, Belly and myself) and we wiped out everything! Hurhur. Yes, my mummy's cooking is good okay!

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Aside from my daily activities and what other nonsense. Life's not that all bad. Sure there are days where I feel like the biggest moron in the entire universe and what have you.

But let's just make something clear. Don't take my amiable attitude towards people for granted. If I'm nice to you, I expect you to be nice to me. Which in more direct terms, I won't show face if you try to be funny with MINE. When I say I won't show face, I mean it, so don't cross that line.

Someone tell me, how do you measure love? I'd really like to know.

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Edited by MINE on her phone. ((:


"You're nothing but a damn facade"

Thursday, November 02, 2006

So I may be annoying, a pain in the ass, a bitch, fucked up, crazy, emotional, possesive, anal, a cry baby. And you may be a total asshole at times.

I just want to say, Happy 9th monthsary. I still love you, just the way you are.

Don't be mad at me anymore. I'm sorry okay?

Everyone, I'm the biggest moron to make MINE upset. The biggest fool in the entire universe. )):

Saturday, October 28, 2006

To All My Ladies

Shout out time!

Jie - Jie, we need to have a proper talk soon. There are some things that I would like to speak with you about. Besides all that serious shit, I really miss hanging out with you. Meet soon please. Loves.

Queky - Quekypooooo. I miss you, you idiot. Where have you disappeared to? And when are we ever going to meet!! Text me when you see this. Misses.

Ryl - My lil' Ryl. Things may not be going as well as we both hope it would but remember, we have faith in you. You gotta have some faith in yourself. Missing you badly. Call or msn me anytime you need someone to talk to kay? I miss you, even more so a thousand miles away. HUGS.

Bel - Smelly Belly. In 2 days time, you'll join me in the 2- club. Welcome to the club honey. To many more crazy nights out and tattoos. LOL. Love you la you bitch. Happy Birthday!! You're 20! I just have to stress that. Hur.

MINE - Hello sweetheart. Where is my entry and damn testimonial huh huh huh?! ((:

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I am so tired, sleepy, exhausted and what have you but I cannot go to bed because if I do go to bed, I wouldn't be able to wake up for work. -screams- Thank God today's just half day or I'd drop dead and die ten times over.

Anyway, finished work on Friday around 1915, I know, late huh? I've unwillingly become some sort of workaholic. Bahh. On average I end work 1 hour later than the supposed time daily. Argh. There's nothing I can do about it because there's just so much work every single damn day.

Reached back to MINE's around 2030, headed straight for the shower then straight to the bed. Knocked out till 2330 then got up, changed and headed for dinner/supper. By the time we finished dinner/supper and got to Zouk, it was already 0130. Hah.

Stayed till closing then Belly kao pei-ed for Geylang Tau Huey and we ended up there. By the time we got back to MINE's, it was 0530. Tell me, how to sleep?! If I went to bed, I seriously can forget about going to work. NB.

I want to sleep with my baby on the bed now. Argh. Time to get ready for work. -whines- )):

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*edited: 0916 hours.

I am in the office. -grumbles- Alone at that because I'm the only one on shift today. NBCB. Sigh. So as you can tell, I'm doing anything and everything but work.

Oh oh oh! Today's the 28th! Which means, PAY DAY! Cha-ching. Just checked my bank balance online. For once I see money inside le! Though it's just half a month's pay but it's still money. -beams-

MINE has already planned to go Vivo City later in the afternoon to shop. Yay! But I need to nap first when I get back. Now, I'm going for a toilet break. Hehehe.

"Her need for me; And mine for she."

Monday, October 23, 2006

With Or Without You

Bahh. 2nd week into work and I am already sick. Bloody bugger. I don't know is it because of the lack or rest or what but I am down with a really leaky nose and sore throat plus I have some difficulties breathing.

Took MC last Wednesday because I overslept like major. x: But it was a blessing in disguise because now I have medication with me. /:

So far, work is mighty fine minus my boss. Seriously, am I lucky or what? The 2nd largest hotel in Singapore and I have to get the boss that the WHOLE hotel hates. Let's just say I have the urge to bitch slap her once daily. Hah.

I love my colleagues and hopefully the feeling is mutual. Here they call me "Lil girl" (Because I'm the baby of the department) or On-dre-ya (Correct proununciation of my name).

It's lunch break now and I just settled for a sandwich from 7-11 because I have zero appetite. Smart la, last night still had Popeyes for dinner/supper, asking for trouble.

Life's pretty much the same with work. I still have my late night suppers and regular clubbing at Zouk. Still meet up with the usual suspects to do silly things like cruising around in the Evo 9. Wheee.

Thank God for the PH tomorrow or I'll prolly drop dead and die. Arghh. Okay, I've got loads of work to do. Another time.

P.S. Baby, I love you. (:

"Through the storm, we reach the shore
You gave it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you.
I can't live with or without you."

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

the ups and downs

Today, or rather yesterday was a day of equity. It contained of both good and bad news alike. The good news, I'll share with everyone but the bad news I'll keep it private because it concerns others.

The good news would be, I GOT A JOB! Like finally, I know. It's a job that I somewhat look forward to because it meets my expectations in most areas.

Firstly, the remuneration package exceeds my standards. I'll be getting more than $1,500 (I refuse to disclose the exact figure) and once after confirmation (3 months probation), there will be a pay increment of $200. CHA-CHING! :D

Secondly, it is a 80% desk bound job, lovely job scope and typical office hours but that means I have to get up mother fucking early, which is everyone's worry. YES I WILL WAKE UP FOR WORK! I PROMISE! ):

Lastly, it is a 5 star corporate hotel chain in City Hall area, which would look pretty good on my resume in future. (: But that also means I'll be around that area a lot, Hello Marina Square.

The bad news just basically made me cry. I cried because I felt stressed and more importantly bad. I admit I have been insensitive and selfish and I can only blame myself for what happened. I'm sorry, it's my fault.

I wish I could just lie down and forget everything in the world. Pretend I'm invisible to all. Keeping everything to yourself is hard to do. I hate being a burden so keeping everything bottled up is the best way to run from reality. But how far can I run? How long will take before I lose it all over again.

But maybe, that's how everything just goes away, maybe, just maybe.

"Hold me and tell me everything's going to be alright
Wipe my tears away and tell me everything's going to be alright"

Monday, October 09, 2006

hope my foot

I am so sick of Marina Square.

Went for another interview there today. Tomorrow, I'm headed back to the same area for another interview, 3 working days in a row. I'm so sick of Marina Square! Especially of the Macdonalds there.

But by the looks of it, I might end up working in that area. Bahh.

Anyhoo, the first thing I heard on the radio early in the morning was Eddie Grant crooning "Gimme hope, Jo'anna. Hope, Jo'anna". Like WTF.

Seriously Joanna did not give me any hope but made me very dulan and even grouchier. -.-

P.S. No offense to any Joanna out there, my friends named Joanna included.

Sunday, October 08, 2006

I'm Bringing Sexy Back

Firstly, HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY LIL' BRAT. I'll see you at Zouk soon. ((: Love you!

Good Morning Singapore. It's 0700 and I am still awake, as usual. (:

Friday, I went for the interview after sending MINE to school without sleep. Waited for an hour before they told me they weren't able to interview me cause the interviewer was stuck in an urgent meeting. Fucking fuck.

Back to grandma's to sleep but she was complaining bout a family member for an hour, then my baby cousin came along and disturbed me while I was asleep. So I pretty much only slept 2 hours. Grrr.

Walked mummy home after dinner and accompanied her for awhile before cabbing back to MINE's. I was too tired to endure an 1 hour's bus ride, I'd die.

Zouk it was with Belly, Elena and MINE. It wasn't really fantastic but okay I reckon. Supper at Zouk's prata shop and by the time MINE and I got home, it was 0500. We knocked out pretty much immediately after our showers.

Saturday, slept in till 1800 and MINE slept in till pretty much that time as well. That was how tired we both were. -mumble-

Headed out to town for dinner, just the two of us. Emerald Green's foodcourt for Korean food, so fucking filling till we both almost puked. Walked around aimlessly, window shopping till we bumped into Tau Pok (Bessy) and Tau Gay (Zen).

Chilled at Spinellis with the couple before heading off to Butter Factory with Belly. Okay, so Butter's not our kind of club (all our virgin trips). The R&B was kinda old school, Rouge style. MINE and I just spent time there yawning and stoning away.

Thank God for Belly's guest list or I'd faint if I had to pay (since when did I pay to club anyway). Left for Zouk around 0100 plus.

Phuture was good because it was rather empty. No pushing, no staring, no scolding of "Your mother never teach you manners ar. Fucker. Chee Bye." to anyone. (The above 3 actions apply to me)

Okay, I'm finally tired. Goodnight everyone. Till then.

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"Dirty babe
You see these shackles baby I'm your slave
I'll let you whip me if I misbehave
It's just that no one makes me feel this way"

Friday, October 06, 2006

I'm emo, very emo.

P to the M to the S

Everybody please clap your hands. It is officially 0530 and I am still wide awake.

I have to get up in an hour's time to get ready and send MINE to school and then "do nothing" till 1115 for my interview and then continue to "do nothing" till MINE's done with school.

FANTASTIC! Considering that we're Zouk-ing later at night, I think I'll just drop dead and die twice over.

I would very much like to go back home and sleep but I cannot! Went back home on Tuesday and OMFG, I couldn't recognise my house. Not because I haven't been home in like ten thousand years but because, IT'S MOTHER FUCKING MESSY.

The floors are covered with card boxes and the make shift toilet is disgusting. The house is just plain disgusting la okay. The only decent area left in my house is my room (where my mummy has "moved" into for the time being).

Fucking upgrading. Upgrade my ass. The stupid bangalah workers will finally stop walking in and out of my house by the end of next week which means I can finally go home and sleep but not in peace BECAUSE MY NEIGHBOURS NEXT DOOR STARTS THEIR UPGRADING. I will fucking ban all drilling and hacking. -pulls hair-

I've been having this crazy bout of mood swings/PMS for a day or two already. Yesterday, I was talking to MINE bout my mummy till I cried and then, I couldn't stop crying and MINE was tired from the lack of sleep and tolerating my mood swings for 1 whole day already and so we fought, and I CRIED EVEN MORE.

Nahbeh. I think I cried for a full 1 hour. No matter how hard I tried to stop crying, I couldn't. So much so I fell asleep crying but at least with MINE hugging me to sleep.

Woke up with swollen eyes and even Belly noticed when she came over to MINE's to chill. BAHH.

So I'm emotional and a huge cry baby. Sometimes, crying is just a form of stress relieving for me and it's also a sign that, I need to talk to someone. But everyone's too busy to notice. Especially when you're the one with all the free time in the world, everyone just passes you and go, because they have better things to do than listen to your nonsensical insecurities and worries.

"Take me to somewhere,
Somewhere where we belong."

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

It is 0500 hours and I am wide awake and craving for pizza or rather, food in general. I can't stop eating! ):

Know what? I shall go and sleep since there's nothing to do anyway.

Oh oh wait! Guess who's back in the house? MINE has adopted Hershey! He's been here since Monday.

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The lil' one when it stayed over in July. ((:


Yesterday, MINE and Hershey both fell asleep on the couch, together. So cute. Will take pictures soon. ((:

Time to hug MINE. Byebye.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Glock-Glock Shots To The Block

So the plan to go home really failed, utterly. Bahh. Oh well. Headed to Belly's place after the damn interview. Waited for Belly to finish her school work before heading out to run some errands with her.

Basically on Thursday, I travelled from MINE's place to Woodlands then to City Hall, then to Serangoon Gardens, then to Geylang Lorong 23, then to Bras Brasah, then to Sunshine Plaza, then to Dhoby Ghaut, then to Skate Park, then to Taka, then to Selegie Tau Huey, then to Mount Emily's playground and finally back to MINE's. Mad huh? Hur.

Friday, MINE did not go to school, AGAIN. -shakes head- We were both too knackered from the lack of sleep and the previous day's activities so we slept till like 5 odd in the evening. Heh.

Went out with the in-laws to the central. Had like, hokkien mee, prawn noodles, oyster omelette and fish & chips. So KNN filling please! Then to NTUC for grocery shopping and back home to change before heading to Zouk to meet Buds.

By the time MINE and I got to Zouk, MINE's dearest Buds was already half way to 'Land of Drunkards'. HAHAHA. At Zouk there was Vodka with Cranberry, Red Wine, White Wine and our ever favourite Sour Apple 7up! (: Zen, Bessy, Jo and Jie then came along and it was so damn funny with Jie high and Buds gone. ROFL.

Supper after which with Lian Jin, his look alike, Buds and MINE at River Valley's 5 Star Chicken Rice. DAMN SHIOK LA. -drools- Home sweet home to MINE's it was then. ((:

Oh oh, forgot to mention. I lost my Project Shop Brothers card holder on my way to Zouk and it contained my I/C, Zouk card and EZ Link ($17 value!). I was so distressed that my mood was totally ruined till SMRT called at around 0200 telling me they found it! I reported it lost at Orchard control station cause I lost it on the train.

So today, headed down to City Hall to collect my dear I/C and Zouk card (Honestly, I didn't give a damn about my EZ Link) and to meet mummy dearest. MINE, Mummy and I then walked around City Link, Suntec and Marina Square before settling down at Carl's Jr for dinner.

Knnbccb. We ordered 2 meals amongst ourselves and shared and we couldn't even finish the damn food please. Bahh. But the salsa sauce is damn shiok! Then we walked mummy to bus stop and accompanied her to wait for her bus.

MINE and I finally did a lil' shopping. -beams- Mummy bought me a striped spag top from Zara and MINE bought a polo from Topman. Wheee! :D I LOVE MY MUMMY!

Dilly dallied our way to MoS and Buds arrived shortly after we did. In we went and started drinking games with Ming and Lian Jin. After which, we joined Sam, Suhan, Diva. KNN, wrong move.

Sam asked if I liked Champagne and like of course I said yes cause I do but I know it's my weakness when it comes to alcohol. So just because I said yes, he opened a bottle of Moet! -beams-

In total I drank like 3 glasses of Moet, 2 shots of JW, 3 glasses of JW with water, 1 glass of Absolut with water and 1 glass of Absolut with Cranberry but I still remained sober. Which proves that my alcohol tolerance level is still doing might fine. ((:

BUT, MINE is dead knocked out. I am very sure she drank more than me. After all Sam and Suhan shoved so many JW shots down her throat. My poor baby. I tried to help her drink as much as I could but they insisted on getting her drunk, which they did. ):

Thank god for Jay and Buds or I wouldn't know what to do. Thank you both for sending us back and helping me with MINE. Love you both dearly!

Okay, time for me to sleep. I have a slight headache, which I think is caused by the alcohol from both days. -.-

MINE, remember the promise you made to me in the toilet. I'll keep mine if you keep yours. I love you. MY BEE BEE, MINE. ((:

"Catch me ridin' dirty"

Thursday, September 28, 2006

I'm Bossy

Bugger my biological clock. I'm so physically drained but mentally awake. BAHH. The baby's already asleep and here I am typing in the dark.

This is big boo-boo because I have to be awake in like 3 hours to send the baby to school before heading for a 1100 hours interview. Argh. How to wake up like that?! Not to mention, I've been having a horrible headache since 2000 hours the day before. Knnbccb.

I'm finally headed home again later after the interview. Gotta clean my room up because of the damn toilet upgrading crap. Fucktards. The plan now is to stay at home for one night apart from the baby.

I have a bad feeling that this plan is doomed to fail and I'll end up back here. Which is stupid because I'll just sleep here, wake up, send her to school and go back home.

But if I don't, I won't be able to fall asleep at home and the idea of foreign workers walking in and out of my house means I cannot walk around in my boy shorts and go bra-less. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK LA.

It's like, I don't fucking care if you give me new toilet bowls or direct lifts. I'm very happy with the way my place is and plus, the noise and dust from it all is not worth it. Kns.

Life's a bitch. -screams and pulls hair-

Very randomly, sometimes, I hate my girlfriend. Like, seriously. Spencer Tan, ALL YOUR FAULT LA. I'm just being grouchy. HUR. Now, I'm going to hug you to sleep okay? Okay bee-bee? -big smile-

I'm starting to sound deranged.

"I'm the bitch y'all love to hate."

Friday, September 22, 2006

Yawn!

Zouk yesterday was a major boo-boo. It was boring and not to mention, packed with stupid JC students (Yes, I have something against JC students but I'll explain another time why).

The main reason we went down was because it was Baby's bro, Jordan's birthday. Happy Birthday! We love you! ((:

So because the birthday boy was already half knocked out by the time we got there, Elena, Baby and myself just ended up "touring" the entire Zouk for approximately 2 hours and we decided to leave for supper.

There were contemplations to head to MoS but decided against it since we all aren't ardent fans of the club, so back to home sweet home it was.

The Lil' Baby only managed to fall asleep at 0600 and woke up at 0730 for school. I being the "Superwoman" I always am, decided to stay up and head home to sleep after sending the Lil' Baby to school.

Finally reached home at 1000 when Lil' Baby texted saying that she didn't want to stay in school anymore. -wags finger- So I changed immediately and went to meet the naughty brat in town.

Ate and then walked around PS for awhile then Belly came along. Shopping at Daiso and Carrefour. KNN, we can still buy so much nonsense. Hah. Headed to Belly's place after that and helped to feed her 2 Malteses, 2 albino rats, hamster, 2 terrapins, star tortoise and uncountable kois. Haha.

After feeding her mini zoo, it was time to feed ourselves and instant noodles was the way to go. Hur.

Watched tv and played with Citrine and Tweety (the lovely doggies) while Belly did her work. Lil' Baby K.O-ed on the sofa, hugging a sleeping Citrine. She awoke awhile later and finally, "Superwoman" aka I, buey tahan already and fell asleep on her lap and she continued to fall back to sleep with me on her lap. AWWWWW. ((:

Now, we're back to home sweet home and heading to bed soon. -yawns- Interview tomorrow morning at 1000 hours. ARGH!

P.S. Belly, we'll miss you all 7 days and 7 nights when you're at Bali. Come back soon! Love!

"All day long, all night long."

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Crave For Me

It's 0354 hours, both the lil' one and myself are still wide awake (or at least I am). I finally got tired of editing the new blogskin so I'm taking a break.

Lil' one's tv show has ended and soon she'll head to lala land without me, like how it's always been. Bah.

Anyway, everytime my period is here, I get weird cravings. Then again, according to the baby, I always have cravings, with or without my period. Haha. Previously I was craving for pasta and soya bean, which have been both satisfied. The recent craving would be pizza. -nudges baby-

Now, I AM CRAVING FOR THAT STUPID CP SHRIMP WANTON THING. THE ONE THAT HAS REPEATED ADVERTISEMENTS ON ALMOST EVERY STUPID CHANNEL. I WANT IT NOW LA! WHY 7-11 NEVER SELL! OR RATHER, WHY NTUC DOESN'T OPERATE 24 HOURS?!

Sigh, I'll have to dream of it.

"Dicky picky poo!"

Friday, September 15, 2006

Baby, It's Just Me & You

"You've been waiting so long
I'm here to answer your call
I know that I shouldn't have had you waiting at all
I've been so busy, but I've been thinking about what I wanna do with you

I know them other guys, they been talking bout the way I do what I do
They heard I was good, they wanna see if it's true
They know you're the one I wanna give it to
I can see you want me too
Now, it's me and you

It's me and you, now
I've been waiting (Waiting)
Think I wanna make that move, now
Baby, tell me if you like it (Tell me if you like it)
It's me and you, now
I've been waiting
Think I wanna make that move, now
Baby, tell me how you like it"


Groove Armada here I come! ((:

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Yong Tau Foos and Korean Barbecue

Met all my Yong Tau Foo girlies on Saturday, like finally. Belly, Jo, Jie, Bessy and myself headed for dinner at Pasta Mania Scotts, then baby, Jay and Zen joined us later at Hard Rock Cafe.

I know, it's been eons since I stepped into HRC and like since when did they renovate their souvenir shop?! Yes, that's how long I haven't been to HRC. Hah. If my aggaration proves right, the last time I was at HRC was the "last" time I went home too. Shush.

Sunday was to Zouk's Flea and Easy with Jo, Ezra, Belly and the baby. I'd say this time round, it was pretty disappointing because I bought nothing! Jo and Ezra like me, went home empty handed. Baby bought this really pretty necklace for herself (which I am so tempted to steal), Belly bought one for herself in another colour and a retro inspired dress (which she regrets buying now).

Went to town after that to grab some food and headed back to my crib for dinner. ((: Surprisingly, lil brat was also home so mummy had both her daughters back for dinner with her! There was like black pepper crab and prawns, both in alarmingly huge portions, all because baby loves seafood and my sister has gone vegetarian.

Jay took us out after that to the airport and we were just roaming around, crapping. Monday, we just stayed home and in boredom, had four meals each. Hur. Tuesday, Thomson Prata with Jay and finally back to the Baby's.

Wednesday was to Funan to collect this darling that I'm typing on now and then to Marina South for Korean BBQ with Belly, Elena, Jay and Baby.

Let's just say, Baby and I have been eating so much and everyone keeps telling me I've lost weight! Which is not true because I still weigh the same as 4 years ago. Hah.

Oh by the way, my mummy gave Baby a new name. SLEEPING BABY. Because she's always sleeping at my place and she's my baby. ((:

"And I'd give up forever to touch you,
'Cause I know that you feel me some how.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now."

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Driving Through Holiday Inn

It's been a LONG time, I know. Lil baby's laptop has gone to the hospital and I haven't been home for coming 3 weeks. x:

Am currently at Belly's place watching Into The Blue with Belly and J. Hur. Had dinner cum supper at Geylang. Tau huey, mee sua, yu tiao, xiao long bao, carrot cake, etc. Then supper again at Punggol Nasi Lemak. Knn, fattening please.

It feels damn good to be driven around, especially in a Evo 9 engined space wagon. *blows wolf whistle* Eh wait, we do appreciate J's lancer la, just that Evo 9's hMmmmm makes my baby happy. (:

2 nights ago, J, Belly, Baby and myself got so bored so we decided to go to Mount Faber to chill out but knn, we drove halfway up the hill and they were doing road works so we couldn't go all the way up. Backup plan was to KM8 @ Sentosa since it was around the corner.

Everything sounds pretty cool till this point right? The thing now is, we went into Sentosa at 0200 so erm, KM8 was closed and so was the rest of Sentosa?! Knnbccb. Then we decided to have supper at Maxwell market but IT WAS ALSO CLOSED. I know, wah lan eh, we damn bo liao. Belly was so bo liao that she was counting the number of 7-11's we passed by the whole journey. -.-

Anyway, we ended up at Mustafa for their damn shiok Chicken Burger. *slurps* Hurhur. We're fucking mad and bo liao please. Shush.

Last week was clubbing from Wednesday to Saturday for Lil baby and I. Zouk, MoS, Zouk and then MoS again. I miss Liquid Room though I just sit there and drink but it sure beats MoS. Plus, MoS's members bar is like so damn non exclusive.

Okay la, it's bedtime. Lil one's waiting for me. Till then, I miss blogger. HAH.

"Drift, drift, drift!"

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

7 Degrees of Separation

Ahhh. It's been awhile since I last typed in this lil empty text box but nothing much has really changed in my life though.

As I am typing now, the lil one is lying next to me in bed, falling into deep slumber. ((:

The reason for the lack of updates is because my internet connection at home is a goner and now, the lil one's laptop is a goner. Bloody buggers. Add on the fact that I've sort of lost my blogging mojos. Haha.

The lil one and I are literally stickwitu 24/7. Either I'm at her house or she's at my house, we're literally inseperable. Hur. It's like the keyboard and the mouse, always seen together. I know, what a metaphor to use right? Hah.

Today, she went off to school leaving me sleeping on her bed like a dead log. So happy. Haha. It's blissful because at least I don't have to bus all the way back to Bedok Reservoir.

So basically, the past weekend has been about the same like always.

Friday was at Zouk with Belly, Shawn, Jordan and Lian Jin. Had supper with Lian Jin and a very high lil one at Newton Circus who made us order BBQ Stingray and ate only a few mouths before "passing out" on the table. Haha.

Saturday was Liquid with Lian Jin, Jordan, Belly and Diva. This time around, it was my turn to get high. It is always the Moet's fault. Bah. At least I didn't pass out on my porridge during supper with Jordan at Chinatown. Hah.

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I spoke to an ex collegue online earlier. In some strange coincidence, he happens to be a mutual friend of my dad's and mine. In a stranger coincidence, he has been seeing my dad of late and told me that my dad has a Friendster account.

Curiosity killed the cat, it always kills the damn cat. When you haven't seen your biological father for last 10 years, obviously you'd check out his Friendster profile.

No offense to anyone but seriously which decent father has a Friendster profile?! So what if he's only 45. My mum's 42 and she acts like 42 year old and does not have a Friendster profile. Yes I am insulting my own father so stay out of it.

Anyway, I pretty much got a shock. At first, I couldn't recognise him. My memory of him was 10 years back and it's been stuck there ever since because I never saw him after that but after awhile, I did and unknowingly, tears just trickled.

I hate it that I look so much like him even up till this day. The first thing the lil one said when she laid eyes on his pictures were "You look like him". I hate it that he has a Friendster account. Fathers do not have Friendster accounts which just makes it clearer that he's no father.

But one thing struck me. He looks so old, like grandfather old. Which tells me, I am old! And I hope he dies soon. Knn, spoil my day only.

"Sing me a love song"

Friday, August 11, 2006

Boiling Point

Today after my interview, I called my mum to discuss the job details and unknowingly, tears started streaming down my face. Yes yes, the cry baby strikes back. Hah.

The frustration of sending resumes, going for interviews and the whole damn sick cycle has finally reached it's boiling point. I just feel so desperate, so frustrated and at such a loss that all I could do was cry.

I'm sick of getting disappointed with the jobs which most of the time don't appear to be what they are when you first apply for them. I'm sick of getting up so early just to travel all the way, dressed up in uncomfortable clothes and getting disappointed.

But so what if I've reached the boiling point, I still need a job. Sigh. So the back up plan now is, get a part time job while searching. My gallavanting days are over. Bah.

Visited Jie at work since I was in the vicinity and I was promptly rewarded with a scoop of the all raved about Hei ice cream. OH MY GOD OKAY! If I ever manage to hook up the part time job at Awfully Chocolate, I'm going to be Awfully Fat. HAHAHA.

I spent almost S$6 on my ez-link travelling around the whole of Singapore today. From the baby's to my place, my place to Tanjong Pagar, Tanjong Pagar to Raffles Place, Raffles Place to Tampines, Tampines back to my place, my place to Woodlands to pick the baby up then back to the baby's. -.-

I am so ready for bed after the long day that started at 0700 but it's Friday today so I'm off to Zouk now. Hee.

"Through everything goin on
We're right here holdin on
To one another."

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Chasing Cars

Ikea yesterday was rather disappointing because Elena, Weed and myself came out empty handed but the food was so damn fulfilling. I finally satisfied my 6 months Swedish Meatballs craving. -double beam- After 10 meatballs, I continued to wolf down a hotdog at the Deli. I swear I was so damn full.

The Weed did not go to school today, again. -shakes head- I know, I'm a bad influence but hey, I can't force her to school if she doesn't want to go right?! Instead, we slept in all the way till 1500 and accompanied Weed's mummy to the doctor's at Yishun and went shopping at Northpoint. x:

Life's been a rollercoaster of late and it doesn't help that everyone's busy one way or another and I'm the only moron who's so damn free. Sigh.

Scored an interview tomorrow morning and if I do get the job, I'll start like almost immediately. Which isn't good because Weed's holidays are like in 2 weeks?! The timing can't be better but I really need something to do before I die from boredom and lack of moolah.

I hate the way I blog now. It's so damn sporadic and random. I want my internet connection back so I can blog whenever the insipiration kicks in not when I get to use the damn internet. Argh. Job, job, job, job.

"We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough"

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Red & White

Happy National Day everyone! Although I'm sure to most people, it's just a well deserved public holiday in busy busy Singapore.

Last night was to Zouk for DMC Technics Championship. Well technically, we only arrived after the event, which was our main purpose anyway. HUR. And for the longest time ever, I had FULL Yong Tau Foo girlies attendance! I've missed clubbing with all of you!

So many others were there as well; Elena, Rena, Ashley, Queky and too many to name.

Then then DJ Cash Money actually played a couple of mambo songs please! Yes, of course I was the happiest, excluding a mad jumping Zen next to me on the podium. Haha. It's been a long time since I've had so much fun clubbing despite the thrice weekly clubbing routine. ((:

Okay, gotta run now. Headed to IKEA with the Weed and her buds. I'll update proper soon, promise.

"Promiscuous girl, you're all that I want."

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Cos baby, I do.

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
I finally found this for you my love.
Hope you like it,
I know you will =))

invasion filled with love, Spencer.




Through everything goin on
We're right here holdin on
To one another.
The reason why I love you,
Your charm and personality
I love your sensitivity.
Let me take a second,
Cos I'll be your love & essence.
Only,Wanna hear your voice speak,
When I feel your body heat,
Love every minute of it.
You're like the fresh air,
when it feels like no one cares
That's why I say...


"I must stickwitu"

Sunday, August 06, 2006

Infidelity

The events on Sunday morning just proves that timing and alibi means everything in the world when you're being accused.

To Bel, thank you for rushing down to accompany her. I'm sorry we made you cry because of us. I love you dearly. -hugs-

To Queky, thank you for being so readily available every single time I call you in tears. Thank you best friend. Love you too. -hugs-

To Jie, thank you for always believing in me. I miss the balcony talks, I wanna go to your place and drink from the PowerPuff Girls cup! Love you Jie. -hugs-

To you, I don't know why everyone in this world trusts me but you. The irony of stickwitu.

"Through these tears, I try to smile"

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

One Last Try

One last cry
One last try
Before I give it all up.

But I don't want to; Dilemma.

Let's Play Pretend

Okay okay, so I'm finally back from the hiatus I've taken. I've probably used this blog title before but what the fuck, I feel like using it again for it's perfect description of my life.

All I do now is club, sleep and go for interviews. Bahh. That's how boring my life has become and it's August already! -mumbles- Life's just been so damn mudane that there's nothing to blog about except emo shit because of the emotional rollercoaster ride I've taken.

When you come to a point of desperation, what are you to do? Honestly, I'm scared, I really am. I no longer know how to react, so brushing it off, avoiding the issue and running away from reality is what I do now. But truth be told, how far and how long more can I run? I don't know but I've lasted so long, what's holding on to see the light beyond that glimmer of hope. Sigh.

So last weekend was the usual. Friday was at Phuture with Ming, Lian Jin, Elena and Weed. Saturday was Zouk, Liquid Room, then Zouk again with Ming, Lian Jin and the Weed who was with me only 1/4 of the time while I sat on the sofa nursing my period cramps with Absolut Cranberry. Hah. To summarise, it's been a hell of an alcohol overloaded weekend. Hur.

Speaking of clubbing, I miss clubbing with my Yong Tau Foo girlies whom have all taken to the "I am sick of clubbing already" motto. Hah. Unbelievable but true. So you girls better club with me soon! I miss my Tau Gay Zen, Tau Pok Bessy, Tau Kee Jie, Titty Jojo and Ding Dong Bel! I really miss all of you!

Today, on my way to meet Weed, I was listening to Class 95, bobbing my head to all the mambo music, thinking bout the mambo days. I miss my Lil Ryl, Glam Queen Marilyn and Blur Chy. We really need to meet babes! Especially mambo together before Lil Ryl leaves for England. Please meet up soon alright?

Of course I miss my bestie, Queky. Yes yes, I know I owe you loads of dates. I'll make it up to you alright? Speaking of which, what do you want for your birthday huh? Haha.

I'm not missing in action, just busy spending all my time with Weed. ((:
Happy 6th monthsary my lil one. I just have one thing to say, *stickwitu. ((:

"I can make you nice or naughty, be the devil and angel too."

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Splutter

I am sick. I am so damn sick and tired, both metaphorically and literally.

It started out with a horrible sore throat and flu, then carried on with a headache. Now it's down to a dry cough which gives me chest pains.

It started out right from the start and I don't even know when it's ever going to end, pathological liar.

"How could you?"

Friday, July 21, 2006

Monotony

So there's been a huge lack of updates on this blog, all because my internet connection at home has been cut. Bahh. So I can only blog when I'm at Baby's and yesterday when I was blogging, her laptop's batt died on me and I was too lazy to plug in the adaptor. :

The monotony in my life is getting more and more apparent and it's begining to bug me. All day long all I do is, sleep, eat, go out, club, sleep and the cycle just repeats itself all over again. Sigh. I need a job so desperately and it's not that I'm not looking but lady luck hasn't been on my side. ):

There's nothing much to update honestly. Life's the same. 3rd week I've been bumping at the Baby's and finally we're going back to my place for the weekend. ((: Baby's just as naughty and giving me equally as much of a headache as she always did. Speaking of which, we're going out to choose her cane soon.

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Spencer: Okay baby, we'll go get the cane at cash converters. LOL. Stop being such a piggy and sleep so much la. I know you love my bed and mostly importantly, LOVE ME! Love you too smelly pooty. =)

"I don't wanna know
If you're playing me - keep it on the low.
'Cause my heart can't take it anymore.
And if you're creepin please don't let it show.
Oh baby, I don't want to know.

I think about it when I hold you.
When lookin' in your eyes - I can't believe.
I don't need to know the truth.
Baby, keep it to yourself."

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Just another girl, the girl I love.

Haircuts and midnight Mustafa till 0400 yesterday with Bel, Diva, Tiao-Kia and Baby. Back at Bel's place, random hair dyeing, pool and early morning breakfast. Baby and I knocked out finally at 1000 and snuggled all the way till 1700. Then it was lazing in front of the telly, playing with Citrine and Tweety then we decided to Zouk.

Know, I begining to hate clubbing. Note that I said hate, not 'getting sick of'. Yes, I still enjoy clubbing to a certain extent but sometimes, the idea of it really puts me off.

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*edited 1330

So my Drea baby left this entry incomplete cos my laptop battery went flat.
But anyway, here's something for you:

One summer night
We ran away for a while
Laughing, we hurried beneath the sky
To an obscure place to hide
That no-one could find
And we drifted to another state of mind
As we lay upon the grass
There in the dark
Underneath the stars

Weak in the knees
Wrapped in the warm gentle breeze, and I,
So shy, a bundle of butterflies
Flush with the heat of desire
On a natural high

As we drifted to another place in time
And the feeling was so heavy and sublime
As I lost my heart to you
There in the dark
Underneath the stars

Beautiful and bittersweetly
You were fading into me
And I was gently fading into you

I'm yours and you're my own
My one and only baby
As we lay underneath the stars


PS: Cheer up my baby. Don't be upset anymore please. I'll go choose my own cane okay? Hugs.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Blah Blah & More Blah

Zouk-ed the usual 3 days; Wednesday, Friday and Saturday. Weed and I figured that we Phuture too damn much because we always manage to predict what song comes on next and Andrew has been a good boy recently. (:

Supper with Bel and Weed last night was MADNESS. In total we ordered, 1 mushroom cheese prata, 1 egg, onion & cheese prata, 1 beehoon goreng, 1 maggi goreng ikan bilis pattaya, 3 chicken wings, 1 basket of onion rings, 2 iced limau and 2 barleys.

So KNN fattening! Especially at 4am in the morning. But it's okay, of late, everyone keeps telling me that I lost quite a fair bit of weight. So, YAY!

Weird part is, I'm not un-happy or stressed that's why I'm losing weight. I don't know what's wrong with me either but fuck it seriously. Just drop me to 43kgs and I'm one happy babe. 1 kg to go~!

So I haven't really been home for almost 2 weeks, obviously I've been camping out at the Weed's. Right now, I'm having a bad bout of home-sickness. Honestly, I think I just miss my bed and mummy. :

I'm camping out in her room, on her bed, with her lappy, hugging her chou-chou, blogging, listening to Chamillionaire and falling asleep at the same time while she's outside playing mahjong with her relatives.

I think I know what's wrong. I'm just bored-ed out of my wits. -SCREAMS-

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Hershey's Chocolate Kisses

While everyone was busy watching the Femme Quest contestants strutting their stuff over at Zouk, Weed and myself were busy playing with her crib's newly arrived guest. No doubt he's just here for a mere 3 day stop over, he has already found a lil place in our hearts.

Note: I normally abhor Chihuahuas because they tend to look alien like and are extremely bimbotic. Okay, how about I don't like small dogs. But there are always exceptions. (:

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Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Swing Left, Then Swing Right

So you ask, what's swinging over here. I'd reply, mood swing. Fuckingknnbccbmotherhell mood swings; PMS.

I swear I hate it because it makes me emo every once a hour. Fucking fuck fuck. Best part, I don't have anything to be emo about, or do I?

Now, what am I doing home on a Wednesday night? Actually, I'm going to shower right now. Hello Zouk. Sigh. I'm sick of clubbing.

"Let's do the swing dance."

I Write Sins, Not Tragedies

I wish, you could see what's going on inside of me.
Maybe that way, crying alone would be the last to be.
But sometimes, some things are better left unspoken.
The truth hurts, like it leaves my heart broken.

Signs you never read, hints you never see.
Maybe one day, you'll feel my pain, understand the hurt.
But till then, I'll keep them bottled up.
Waiting for you to open me up.

"I wanna pour out my secrets to you but leave you unburdened;
Impossibility"

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Eu amo Portugal

*edited: 0750 hours

World Cup 2006 was crap, crap and more crap. 3rd/4th placing match between Germany and Portugal was disappointing. My poor Portugal, poor Cristiano Ronaldo and Figo. Stupid Germany, stupid Ballack.

Then the finals between France and Italy. Poor Zidane, poor France. Why you like that huh? What the hell was the head butt for?! Stupid Italy, stupid Buffon (Sorry Zen). I actually teared when Italy scored the final penalty kick against France. -wails- )):

Oh well, another 4 years for my Portugal to come back. Another 4 more years for Babyboo's Brazil to even get to Semi-Finals. x:

Believe it or not, I actually watched the finals ALL ALONE at home. It was so sad I tell you. I couldn't kao-pei to anyone when Zidane lost his mind or when the Italians fouled the French or when either side scored. (I am very nosiy when I watch soccer) So I called Babyboo everytime something "major" happened to kao-pei. Hur.

Last week was a whole week of clubbing.

Wed, Zouk where I finally heard Square Rooms and podium-ed my way through that song feeling all so high, high, high. Whee~ Friday was Zouk once again with loads of beer and Smirnoff Red Bull.

On Saturday, Babyboo and I clubbed hopped like mad. First was to Devils where Ryl, Chy, my mummy and her colleagues (Yes, my real mother) joined us. I know, my mum's so damn cool, she was so sweet and even bought me a pack of ciggarettes much to Babyboo's distaste. ((:

Hopped over to HRC to meet Jie and Jo for drinks and after that we headed to Zouk to meet Bel for the Germany and Portugal match. Randomly, Andrew was hell good on Saturday. (:

Anyhow, HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY TO TAU POK BESSY TAN. I love you, you stupid moron. Hope you and Zen have a blast at Bintan. -hugs-

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And up till this moment, I am unable to understand why.
Why you do so, time after time.
Tell me I'm over reacting, like I always am.
But deep down, I know, I ain't.
These lies, they eat me up.
And I just don't know what to do anymore.

But afterall, you're my wonder wall and I love you just the same.


"And I'd give up forever to touch you,
'Cause I know that you feel me some how.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now."

Saturday, July 08, 2006

The Crowning

The King has been crowned. I'm proud of you, my brave lil one.

Stickwitu 24/7, literally, complete with bickering sleep-overs. Old memories surfacing, evolved mixed feelings. Promises left unkept, like always. You never see how much they mean, as miniscule the magnitude. It's eating me up, bit by bit. But beneath it all, I still love you, just the same.

I'm sorry for the lack of updates, I've been busy with my love.

"The collision of your kiss that made it so hard."

Monday, July 03, 2006

Vintage Flavour

I'm totally pooped despite the 12 hour marathon sleeping session I had earlier. I could have slept even longer but Weed was already awake for awhile and kept bugging me to get up. |:

My body is aching from the shopping we did the day before (where I didn't sleep) and my tonsils are so damn huge and sore from the "excessive" smoking. Bah. I seriously need to quit smoking because I don't want to go for the damn operation. Bummer.

Bel, Weed and myself went on a vintage shopping trail on Saturday. First stop was to 'Army Market' at Beach Road where we pigged out at the hawker on kway chap, char kway teow, fried wantons and fruits. Then we walked around the place looking for cheap deals.

Second stop was Arab Street & Haji Lane, the streets of goodies. House of Japan was rewarding with it's hidden jewels if you rummage through carefully. Bel's friend's vintage record store was dope with all the vinyls and sorts.

We chanced upon this pretty lil vintage store called Hoity Toity which stocked the most beautiful vintage bags and dresses. Best part, everything in the store has only 1 piece. I fell in love with this vintage see through dress. I swear it's so pretty. Tried it on and contemplated buying it but it was a tad bit too big for me. I really like the dress a lot. ):

Walked on to Bugis and rested our tired feet, feeding ourselves with diet Coke, the dopest drink on earth when you're thirsty. Hur. Then Jon came along with his Land Rover and we headed over to Mustafa for more shopping!

After conquering Mustafa, we drove over to Zouk to drop our shopping bags at baggage while blasting Power 98's Red Hot Mix and smoking in the jeep. Whee! Dinner finally at 2200 at some "Seafood Restaurant" a short distance from Zouk. You tiaos, hotplate tofu, broccoli, fried rice and hor fun and a pot of chrysanthemum tea. Shiokness.

Headed back to Zouk just in time for the England - Portugal match. YAY! Portugal won! The babyboo calls me a traitor just because I wasn't rooting for England like she and Bel were. I would support England if they played against any country but Spain and Portugal. Next round, they're up against France who surprisingly won the previous champions, Brazil. It's going to be one interesting match.

Our shopping stash at the end of the day:
Bel - A beautiful vintage bag, a t-shirt, a ethnic looking top, a Japanese robe, an anklet, a watch and a book.
Weed - A pair of denims, a t-shirt and suspenders.
Yours truly - A striped halter and a crocodile singlet.

Bel obviously won hands down with the things she bought but Weed and I were equally satisfied with our stash of goodies. ((: Next stop, handicraft shopping at Arab Street and Spotlight!

"Quaint shophouses and secret rendevous"

Friday, June 30, 2006

Chained Affinity

Tracing the silhouette of your tender kisses, lying upon the fluffy pillow we both laid upon the night before. Memories still fresh, as if you were there, right next to me. As your breathing grew steady, bringing you into deep slumber, I kept vigil, thoughts running through my mind.

Choices to make, often intricate. Take a right turn, it leads to perfection. Take a wrong turn, disaster waits ahead. Material wants versus reality, head versus heart, which path shall I follow?

Breaking away from the norm, praying, hoping and wishing. Keep this affinity, chained together with the steel from our hearts; unbreakable.

Then there were promises. Promises made but never kept. I question myself but the answer remains the same. I'm in love. A fool in love, that's what I am.

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*edit: 0410 hours

I have a WHOLE list of people to meet and since I have nothing better to do, I shall type it here just in case y'all think that I have forgotten!

I owe dates to Maye, Mel Anne, Denise, Ryl, Chy, Marilyn, Jac.
I've been trying to date Queky and Sel.

I will meet every single one of you before I land myself a job. Now note, I have yet to land myself a job. So please please pray that I've been waking up early for a good reason. Or I will just kaopei all day long.

Saturday, 0900. KNNBCCB why must so early can?! Pui. Now, to club later or not to club. I kinda miss Zouk and I need to "punch card". Hrmmm. Set, at most don't sleep and go straight. Okay, ready, get set, go.

GOOD LUCK! (to myself). PS. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME HOR. TOLONG TOLONG. PLEASE. I REALLY NEED IT THIS TIME.

"Then there were two; two in love."

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Butterflies & Creepy Crawlies

I am suffering from a delayed bout of Monday blues since it's already officially Tuesday.

It's not good since tomorrow's a big and long day for me. The anxiety and stress is just building up inside me, waiting to explode.

On a lighter note, this picture calms me a little. I just need the real person. I miss my babyboo. I really miss her. Now I feel like crying. ): Sigh. I need my happy pill, NOW.

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Wish me luck. I'll need it.

"If only everything was as easy as ABC"

Monday, June 26, 2006

Bite Me

It doesn't pay being civil in society these days. If you keep your mouth shut and attempt to be nice, people take you for a wuss and trample all over you. I've been very generous, in fact too generous, so now I've had it, two can play the game.

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This blog URL belongs to the ex's sister. Not my ex mind you, my ex-es and their family members have better things to do.

Note the entries on June 23rd and 24th. It was specially written in honour of Spencer and myself. Awww, we're flattered.
  • A can be for many things, didn't your kindergarten teacher teach you? Yes, I'm a bitch and I'm proud of it, no need to emphasize on that fact. But like what you said, it's your blog and so this is my blog as well.
  • I have something that your sister would do anything to have. That's how far the status would get me.
  • I can't wait to see what will become of me either. I could ditch her instead maybe? You never know girl.
  • Oh no. I've planned my next suicide. Next time around, I'll jump off the overhead bridge across PIE and make sure I die. Then I'll come back to haunt those who deserve haunting, so I can totally understand your excitement.
  • You're spot on about the cheating. Congratulations on spotting the fact. But come on, someone always has to get hurt in a relationship, don't you know that? Oh, I forgot, how would you know, you've never been in a BGR.
  • This time, you've got your facts wrong. Your mum is the one who's contacting Spencer, not the other way around. Maybe you should learn your status in the family and let your mum do as she deems fit.
  • You're one ironic child. First you say a girl can never be addressed as Mister, so how can SHE be an actor? Shouldn't it be actress? Ah damn, your entries are full of grammatical errors anyway.
  • Congratulations on being wanted as well. I hope it wasn't something you conjured in your dreams though.
  • Hmmm. Spencer may have kissed other girls when she was with your sister but as of when she's been with me, she's only been kissing me.

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This blog URL belongs to the ex. Just in case you KPOs are dying to know who's who and what's going on. I know, but please don't laugh at the URL, it's a very mean thing to do. -stifles a giggle-

A gentle warning to all, I am not liable for making you guys read bad grammar.

"I am everything; everything you're not"

Friday, June 23, 2006

Love & War

I planted seedless grapes, I wonder what seeds you spat out.
All's fair in love and war. Now you've lost the battle, it's time to retreat. Leave us alone.


Status Quo: In a relationship.

I know. Like finally after almost 5 months of shit I had to put up with. Now, I just signed a contract to put up with more shit till 'death do us part'.

I love my girlfriend. (:


"When will you get the picture
You're the past, I'm the future
Get away, it's my time to shine
If you didn't know, the boy is mine"

Thursday, June 22, 2006

SORE

Made an appointment with Suzanne on Tuesday so that Weed would finally get off my back about her hair being too long, too heavy and what nonsense.

Bel joined us shortly after for some mad cab chasing from Specialist Centre to Heerens just so that we could catch soccer on time at Serangoon Gardens.

In between the 2 matches, we headed to Bel's and played pool, played with her animals (2 dogs, 1 tortoise, 2 terrapins, 1 hamster, 1 rabbit and a lot of kois) and ransacked her food supply. Hurhur. Weed and I are absolutely smitten with her dogs, especially the fatty one. Awww.

While watching the 2nd match, my eye started playing tricks on me. My poor right eye was oozing out pus, it felt like some rotten waterfall. Bah. It never got better till Weed bought eye drops from a nearby petrol kiosk.

Zouk-ed with Bel, Jo and Weed earlier. I finally deviated from my weekly Wednesday routine. Instead of spending all my time at Phuture, I camped out at Zouk's members instead. I'm happily mambo-ed and Chivas-ed. Met my long lost Glam Queen who just came back from a flight. I've missed you so much you stupid Mei Nu! We need to meet with the rest. Hugs.

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Until now, my eyes are still SORE but I think it's cause of the lack of sleep. ): My throat is so SORE that I'm close to losing my voice. I think it's gotta do with the annoyingly increasing number of SORE people. -clears throat-

Very randomly, grapes are one of the loveliest fruits. They're the best when you sit on one side of the fence and watch Miss J eat the sour ones on the other side. J'adore des raisins. (:

Okay, my fever has just gone up a notch. I need to sleep. :|

"Sometimes the last thing you want comes in first
Sometimes the first thing you want never comes
But I know that waiting is all you can do
Sometimes

I'll put a spell on you
You'll fall asleep
When I put a spell on you
And when I wake you I'll be the first thing you see
And you'll realise that you love me"

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edited by the baby:

I don't know what to blog cos my brain can't think.

So I shall just post part of the conversation I had with Bel.


stab you says:
you also love andrea a lot wat
stab you says:
i thougth it was sweet yesterday the min you wake up you ask about her eye
stab you says:
if it were me i will forgert one lor..ill just kaobei i hungry
stab you says:
then still go toilet wet the tissue bring back clean her eye
stab you says:
SIGHHHHH

---> So is this good enough to show you that I care?

Get well soon my baby. Hugs.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Love Me

One complains that I don't blog as often anymore so here I am, blogging. Another complains that I don't blog about her anymore so here I am, blogging about her. You two know who you are. I love you both very dearly. I don't know what I'd do without either one of you.

Yes I may be demanding, melodramatic, possessive and un-trusting. I whine and cry too much for my own good. I lose my temper and do rash things. But that's who I am and that's who you fell for no?

And with all honesty, you're equally or even more demanding, possessive and un-trusting.
Love me for who I am won't you? Because I love you just the way you are.

My stupid bastard sexay Spencer. MINE MINE MINE. -silly grin-

"I'd love to hate you but I'd rather love you"

Monday, June 19, 2006

Finally Back From The Hiatus

I haven't updated in like 2 weeks, like OMG. So anyway, breakdown of my exciting life.

2nd June, Friday - Zouk-ed with Bel, Jo and Weed.

3rd June, Saturday - Town-ed then Zouk and HRC with Clair, Bel, Jo, Bess and Weed.

4th June, Sunday - Zouk Flea & Easy. I'd have to say the previous Flea & Easy was better but anyhow, we had fun. Weed finally bought her Vintage Clock and she bought me a new Lego Ring!
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So pretty aye.

5th June, Monday - I was cooking dinner/lunch in my PJs when I heard someone scream "BABY!" at my front door. Awww, Weed popped over to surprise me.

6th June, Tuesday - You guys know by now that I have an non existent sense of humour so cartoons are usually a definite boo boo for me but I promised the baby that I'd catch 'Over the Hedge' with her so we booked the tickets online and trotted over to TM. It was so fucking CUTE and funny please. Like I WANT A BABY PORCUPINE LIKE RIGHT NOW. Thankyouverymuch. Lol.

7th June, Wednesday - Lunch-ed with the Mummy, mummy's bf and the Weed. Weed headed home to change while I headed for Graduation Ceremony with mummy and the bf. It was so damn mother fucking boring that mummy and I were texting each other complaining about the state of boredom we were in. Lol.

Then, the emcee pronounced my cheena name wrongly! So fucking paiseh. But I totally expected it and cringed my way to shake hands with the Guest of Honour to take the damn Diploma.

THEN, I tripped while walking back to my seat and my fucking worn for less than 2 hours heels broke. WAH FUCK, literally. I just wanted to dig a hole and bury myself. Thank God I was around people who have seen me in my most un-glam manner in the past 3 years or I would have cried bloody murder.

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The Girls(L-R): Drea, Chy, Ryl and Kerrie.
The Boys (L-R): Brian, Joseph, Jem, Stewart, Ron and Shaun.
I'll miss you all. ):

Phuture was like full house but thank God for the Privilege card. Everyone was there! I was a rather happy girl with my darling girls at Mambo and the YTF girlies at Phuture. Stayed till closing (haven't stayed till closing for the longest time) and headed for prata shop but it was totally packed so we headed over to Spize.

8th June, Thursday - Weed and I were just so tired so we stayed in and lazed around the whole day.

9th June, Friday - Weed finally headed back home then it was Party Up! @ DXO.

10th June, Saturday - Met Jo in town and basically slacked around till 0400.

11th June, Sunday - Met Jie and Ash and headed to Coffee Club for World Cup till 0500.

12th June, Monday - Weed's crib then headed to Jie's for more WC.

13th June, Tuesday - Still stuck at Jie's after MORE WC.

14th June, Wednesday - Zouk. Do I have to say more?

15th June, Thursday - WC with Weed at the coffeeshop downstairs my place.

16th June, Friday - Cried, Zouk-ed, 65M-ed home alone.

17th June, Saturday - HRC-ed with Bel, Jo, Jie, Bessy, Clair and Weed.

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I spend 3 days a week clubbing, the remaining days I entertain myself with WC. I am a Spain and Portugal fan, not that you'd want to know. I need to do something with my life.

And it's already almost July. Oh my freaking God la. It's all World Cup's fault, it's a huge distraction.

Then when I finally set myself to start on something, I fall sick. The timing's perfect. -scowls-

I have this horrendous sore throat, perpetual leaking nose/teary eyes, horrible bodyache. I don't like. -sulks, pouts and grumbles-

This post is extremely brainless and boring but that's all I can generate with the stupid sickness. I promise, the next will be something more substantial.

"Don't keep me waiting."

Sunday, June 11, 2006

I Won't Be Second To None

I WILL NOT be second to none. I REFUSE to be second to none.

I'm starting to feel the pressure. In fact, I'm begining to crumble under it. You'll never understand because it's all just but a game to you.

But I'll get over this. I always do. At least that's everyone's expectations.

So, fuck you, you, you and you. Thankyouverymuch.

"Without you i was broken
But I'd rather be broke down with you by my side."

Friday, June 09, 2006

Chopsticks and Spoons

"Down for Maintenance
Blogger is temporarily unavailable due to an unexpected problem.
We will be back up as soon as possible."
HAHA.

So, I'll have to do this entry on the notepad.

MRS Andrea TAN wants me to confess that,
Spencer has been a very naughty daughter
BUT a very good baby.
Because,
I've been staying over at the baby's crib since Saturday.

We wanted to stay in so that we can save money
and be part of GSS.
But I guess we've failed to do so cos we've spent quite a bit on FOOD!

Till date,
we've eaten 9 packets of golden mushrooms,
a whole cabbage,
a packet of snow peas,
luncheon meat,
alot of otahs,
many cups of bubble tea,
rice, maggi mee, instant porridge,
and too many other things to be mentioned.

We have concluded that we cannot live together
because all we do is COOK, EAT, WATCH TV AND SLEEP!

These are days which are simple yet filled with so much love.
I wanna wash those vegetables,
prepare the food
and cook for you everyday.
Though those are just simple food
but that's how we build a simple life together yes?

Its how time passes which makes you, me.
You'll see what you've given all worthwhile.
I'll put them down
and take you to where we belong.


I promise.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

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I am very busy with Weed at the moment. Be back to blog soon. Do not disturb baby and I. BYEBYE. ((((((:

Friday, June 02, 2006

Upgrade The Noise Level

I've had it with the upgrading in my neighbourhood, seriously. Everyday at 0900, they start the mother fucking drilling, sawing, blah blah and it doesn't stop till like 1800 in the evening. I feel like I am working full time to be annoyed by the noise level.

Sure, at the end of it all, I'll get a beautiful neighbourhood, lifts at every level and a brand new toilet bowl to shit in but fuck, it's mother fucking fuck fuck noisy. The noise is so deafening that I can't listen to my FM unless I blast it, I get interrupted in my sleep periodically and it results in a threatening to burst my brains headache.

It used to be worst when I was still in the nightlife because day time is sleeping time not working time and now that I'm trying to fix my body clock back to normal, it ain't really helping because after all I'm a chronic insomniac. KNNBFUCKCCB.

The best part of it all? I have to bear with the fucking noise till 2009. OMFG LA PLEASE. 3 very fucking long years to go. Wake me up when 2009 ends please. -continues cursing and swearing-

PFFFTTTT.

Yesterday, met mummy in town after she ended work and headed straight to buy my shoes. I have a gleaming new pair of black 2.5 inches patent pumps. Though I was searching for 3 or 3.5 inches because I like my heels at that height though I do not need the boost in my height. But anyhow, I'm a happy girl, yay! -double beam- Had dinner at Sakae Sushi and mummy commented that my appetite has decreased enormously. I'd have to agree with her but I'm not losing any weight?! -.-

Usher is screaming "Yeah yeah" on the FM now. Bloody noise. I'm off to meet Ding Dong Belly Bel and Titty Jojo now. Byebye noisy neighbourhood.

"Suspicion sneaks around like a snake."

Thursday, June 01, 2006

When You're Mad

Vaunt! @ MoS after an impromptu decision with the Weed. I will NEVER go to another "underage" party in my life. The horrors of no smoking, no alcohol, getting picked up by hormonal teenage boys and absurdly fucked up management of MoS.

I'll stick to my too smoky till you tear, drunkards and lao cheekopehs lurking in Zouk, that's more my cup of alcohol. Hah. Nevertheless, the company though strange was nothing but interestingly fun.

Yong Tau Foo girlies are at Zouk happily mambo-ing away except the 3 youngest, namely, Bel, Weed and myself.

Jie texted, "Woah~ Square rooms!"around midnight. KNNBCCB. Everytime I want to mambo, no one wants to mambo with me and when I don't go, y'all mambo and send me this kind of text message. Slap you girls ten times. Hahaha. Full Yong Tau Foo girlies attendance next Wed or this Fri at Zouk okay? It's about time Weed and I "punch cards" anyway. Lol.

Anyway, Yong Tau Foo outing this Sunday okay? Either the Zoo or Pulau Ubin or whatever suggestions y'all have. Tanning at Sentosa is out though cause Bel just got inked. Will text all of you soon to confirm details. Miss you girls loads.

Everyone's getting inked or pierced these days, at least for the YTF girlies. I'm itching so badly to get the surface chest piercing that Bel has and another weirdly positioned piercing on the ear but Weed's making noise about my multiple piercings. -grumbles- I'm going to get inked once I get confirmation from something. Though I'm still weighing between an ambigram of my name and something else. Hrmmm.

Very randomly, I'd like to say that humans are indecisive creatures, myself included and some like to express their indecisiveness by "hanging themselves up for sale"(literal translation of a Chinese phrase). Girl, it's not going to work this way you know? I pity you.

I'm feeling sleepy from the beer I shared with mummy. -yawns-

"It's just the cutest thing
When you get to fussing (cussing)
Yelling and throwing things
I just wanna eat you up
I don't mean no disrespect
When I start staring
Knowing that it makes you mad
I'm sorry that seeing you mad is so sexy

Could it be the little wrinkle over your nose
When you make your angry face
That makes me wanna just take off all your clothes
And sex you all over the place
Could it be the lil' way that you storm around
That makes me wanna tear you down
Baby, I ain't sure, but one thing that I do know is

Every time you scream at me
I wanna kiss you
When you put your hands on me
I wanna touch you
When we get to arguing
Just gotta kiss you
Baby, I don't know why it's like that
But you're so damn sexy
When you're mad

Baby, don't think I don't take you seriously
But I just can't help the fact that your attitude excites me (so exciting)
And you know ain't nothing better
Then when we get
Mad together and have angry sex (I'll blow you out)
Then we forget what we were mad about"

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Right Back In My Arms

Baby is back! Complete with lots of alcohol, dreadlocks, a sexaye voice and loads of presents for me. -skips around the room and grins like a complete mofo-

With my nose pressed to the glass at Terminal 1's arrival hall, I waited like an eager beaver. Then after what felt like ETERNITY, she finally appeared!

It was like falling in love with her all over again complete with butterflies in my stomach. -triple beam-

I'm the happiest girl alive. Now to stay alive, I need to sleep, it's been almost 30 hours.

Goodnight beautiful world.

((:

"Everyday, I thank God that I found you."

Monday, May 29, 2006

Hurry Back To Me

I have officially morphed my body clock to suit American hours and I swear I feel like I'm suffering from perpetual jet lag.

So I didn't sleep until around 1530 hours yesterday (from the day before) and I got up today at 0020 hours when the Weed called from BKK. As of now, 0655 hours, I am wide awake. Like omfg, somebody kill me please.

So I've been tweaking resumes, contemplating on sending them out, procrastinating, you know the usual nonsense to why I still haven't gotten a damn job up till now. At least this time around I got something substantial done as promised to the Weed.

Graduation ceremony is just 9 days away and I am so dreading it because I just abhor ceremonial procedures but the dearest mummy insists on it so what choice do I have right? Bloody bugger. The only motivating factor to attend the ceremony would be seeing my girls and all HTM people, for what might be the last time, gathered together. |:

Anyway, I mentioned earlier that Weed woke me up with her phone call from BKK. My heart broke when I heard her voice because I almost couldn't recognize her! Not because that I'm becoming senile but because she's suffering from a very bad sorethroat.

I miss the Weed but I'm not going to whine today because she'll be back in approximately 12 hours. Hugs, kisses, baby and presents here I come!

"Baby, baby, won't you hurry back home."

Sunday, May 28, 2006

Eat Carebears

I'm wide awake. -slaps self ten times- I just couldn't sleep no matter how hard I tried. I'm feeling very miserable. It's the damn cramps, PMS and 897 miles.

So I'm tried to get myself to sleep with a glass of REALLY strong Chivas Green Tea at 0700, reading an absolutely boring book and even closing my eyes for as long as I could and fucking nothing worked.

So I came back online and decided to look through my chat log to find a particular conversation with Weed cause she told me her flight details and I forgot to note them down. Apparently it was a 4 way conversation between Bel the Belly, Bessy the Eagle, Weed and myself. This damn conversation made me miss her even more. Like 10000000000000000 times more.

Weed: Eagle, no need to work ar?
Eagle: im at work la!
Weed: work can online ar?
Eagle: nthing do mah
Me: Work can go online what. I used to be online also. Bel's at work now too. All eat snake!


So the conversation sounds extremely boringly normal until ...

Weed: why cannot eat carebears?
Belly: cos they care, it's mean to eat them
Me: Eat carebears?!
Weed: i wanna have carebears inside my stomach


And you thought it was bad until ...

Me: Which carebear do you have in mind?
Weed: ALL


I'm just not used to it. She's always with me every Saturday and Sunday. Fuck, I need to quit whining. Okay I'm done here.

"It's just tomorrow. TOMORROW FASTER COME PLEASE."

2 days 1 night

Hi baby,
I just came back from some night market.
I feel like i'm being paid to shop for people
and I swear BKK is sex-ist
cos MOST of the stuffs are for FEMALES!!
of which, results in me buying
MANY things for the baby.
I can predict there's more to come thou.
good thing huh? Hah.

Alright,
I'm heading back to the room now
gotta wake up early to attend mass.


Till then,
I'm counting down.


"Though miles apart, my heart's next to yours."

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*edit: 0622 hours.

Before I start harping on how much I miss my baby (which by the way, if you find incessantly annoying, very good because that means I've gotten my point across to show how much I miss her), Herstory's Femme Quest contestant profiles are out.

And I'm utterly perturbed. Click and go figure. -mock horror-

Okay, I'm a bitch and I know it. A couple are not THAT bad but for the rest, I shall just shut my bloody trap. Thank you very much.

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Hi Baby! I miss you. -dramatic wailing in typical Drea style- I can't wait for my presents to come back! Haha. Kidding, I can't wait for you to come back and you know I mean it.

The same thing happened. Mr. Bear bear called me and I was promptly informed by Mr. Bear bear that my baby was online and had only 30 minutes. I WAS ELATED! -triple beam- Thank you Mr. Bear bear. I will still call you Mr. Bear bear because I like it and you can't stop me! -sticks tongue out- Haha.

Met Queky on bus 65 and headed to town for dinner. Queky the best friend finally gave me my very belated birthday dinner treat at Cartel and two tank tops that she bought for me when she was in BKK. Thank you Queky! We'll meet up real soon again kay? -hugs- The rest namely, Jon, Bel, Jo and Jie joined us shortly after that and packed into Jon's Land Rover to HRC.

HRC was boring with a capital B. Spent half my time there sulking or making a face which meant "This song reminds me of Spencer". -big sulk-

We've spent every single weekend together since February and this is the first time we're spending it apart, 897 miles apart at that. I feel so empty and lost honestly. The Yong Tau Foo girlies know how bad I'm taking it. ):

My insomnia's gotten from bad to worst after she left, I barely sleep 4 hours a day now. I eat 1 meal a day and spend my days watching tv in bed, acting like a total sloth. I'm like a live walking zombie, major, like totally.

Yes, come June, it'll be 4 months of bickering, crying, screaming, ubber mushy-ness, mad cap trips and sweet love. I know many never thought we'd last so long and with no official "break up" of any sorts and honestly, neither did I. But we're here now and we'll go further. So bite me.

I love you baby and I really miss you. You're going to make up for making me such a miserable bitch for 5 fucking days and no, the presents won't suffice. I want loads of sweet love, tight hugs and baby time when you get back, no bargaining.

2 days; 48 hours; 2, 880 minutes; 172, 800 seconds more to go.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

3 days 2 nights

Its o117 in Bangkok now,
and I'm paying 200 baht for half an hr
of access to the internet
which according to my baby drea,
is daylight robbery.HA
but I willing to be robbed cos
I miss my baby so MUCH
that I have to come online and talk to her
cos my hp bill is exploding. =/

Anyway,
I have to do some whining here
cos the weather's fucking HOT!
And I have to walk thousands of streets and shops
I'm having a hard time thinking
what to buy for people on my list
People who recieves gifts from me please APPRECIATE ah.
As for the baby, I bought a few stuffs already.
so DON'T WORRY! Haha.

My dear baby,
you be good and take care of yourself
when i'm not around k?

I have to go now.
Thank you for the letters and gurdian angel
I'll be looking forward to opening the last letter
cos that's when I'll be back in your arms.


PS: I'm sorry to make you miss me so damn mother fucking much

"I miss and I'm missing you as much too."

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*edit: 0536 hours.

That was the baby from 897 miles away above. ((((((((((:

My cell rang at around 0220 when I was comforting myself with Channel 5's Desperate Housewives's Slumber Party and it was an unknown number. I picked up and the girl at the other end asked if I was Andrea. So I said yes and asked who it was. Her reply was "Spencer asked me to call you and tell you to go online because she's online now.". I was in such shock and ectasy that I don't even remember saying Thank You to that dear girl. Bay, please thank her for me.

So I turned on my desktop and modem in like record time and logged right straight into MSN, clicked on her right away and said:

// `right back in your arms *drea says:
BABY!

// `right back in your arms *drea says:
WHAT ARE YOU DOING ONLINE?

// `right back in your arms *drea says:
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I'VE MISSED YOU?!

// `right back in your arms *drea says:
OMG.

// `right back in your arms *drea says:
BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

Okay, I reckon you guys get the gist already. Haha.

Anyway, life hasn't been good because I am bloody sick. Been down with a bad flu which includes a full blown fever. Bahh. But I'm much better now and I seriously think it's love sickness. Lol.

So I spent Friday night at home, watching the telly, tweaking my resume and taking cat naps. Later I will go out, I need to get out of this house and I need a proper job.

Anyway bay, Jo said:

i am a gajah hear my rarwr.. says:
fuck la her post in ur blog is so sweet lor

And I was telling her:

// `right back in your arms *drea says:
Don't know whether to hug her and tell her she's so damn cute or scream at her for being a moron.

Right now, I wish I could really do either because I can't. I want to sprout wings like Angel in X-Men III or strike lottery right now. )):

I MISS MY BABY LIKE MANY MANY!

*Many many equates to a lot. I'm just trying to act cute so I assure you that I do not speak or write like that. I can see Jie cringing at the sight of many many. LOL.

Friday, May 26, 2006

Strike Five; Cry Baby

Sometimes even when you know the truth, you pretend that you don't because that way, life's a little easier to go through. Let's just say, I'm not stupid but stupid enough to lie to myself. Conclusion, I am stupid.

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It's been a long day.

Stayed up all night doing something for the bay then headed for her place late morning for some sweet cuddling and love. Sneaking forty winks (literally less than an hour's of sleep) in between. (:

Had a small tiff because she didn't want me to send her to the airport but we both had our good intentions, so all was fine. She didn't want me to go cause she knew that I'd break down and I was going to be alone. I wanted to go because I wouldn't get to see her for five fucking days and every single second with her counted. The cry baby surfaced in me, strike one.

In an attempt to cheer me up, she treated me to Popeye's once we got to the airport. Walked around with my hand in hers, pushing the trolley, engulfed in the make believe we made up (read: packing me in her luggage, going for a holiday together etc.).

Then the cold hard truth had to hit me, it was time to say goodbye. I mustered all my strength and told myself to not cry but the cry baby surfaced once again, strike two. After watching her go through customs and waving the last goodbye, it was time to leave, or so I thought.

I walked outside for a breather of fresh air cause I felt like I was suffocating. I think I was close to suffering an anxiety attack. Then I broke down like she predicted. Cry baby, strike three.

Finally got a grip of myself and walked to the bus interchange and took a bus home. Then she called and said that she was boarding the plane. Cry baby, strike four.

She just texted saying that she's safely in Bangkok now. Cry baby, strike five.

Oh my mother fucking fuck. I need to stop crying. It's not like she's gone for good. She'll be right back in 4 damn days. Why can't I stop crying please. -slaps self ten times- I just told Zen that I've concluded that I'm mad. Zen says that I'm madly in love with her. |:

Oh God, Santana feat Joss Stone's Cry Baby Cry is on Power 98 right now. I NEED TO BUY LOTTERY!

It's just been a long day with the lack of sleep and emotional rollercoaster rides I reckon.

I miss her despite seeing her less than 5 hours ago. )': It's the miles apart thing doing this to me. Damn.

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On a random and lame note, GSS (Great Singapore Sale) is here! I concluded proudly to Queky on MSN that it means that it's time to Go Siao Shopping.

Am I funny or what? Hah. Okay, another failed attempt to cheer myself up. Bahh.

"I hate you for making me miss you so damn mother fucking much."

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Story Of A Girl

The bay's leaving in approximately 12 hours.

Upside:
She's all hyped up about the trip.
She'll get to shop till she drops.
She'll have all so much fun.
I'll be getting presents.

Downside:
She's down with the flu.
I won't get to hear, see or feel her for 5 full days.

But I'm good. I'll be good. -smiles-

She once mentioned that 3 Doors Down's Story of a Girl is just so apt for me.
"This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles"

Go figure. I'll be that girl when she leaves. It's just 5 days, and it'll pass real fast. Right?

Till then,


Radio City Oneletter M U