Its a God Damned Saturday night and i'm stuck at home. So fucking hell bored. Dammit. Been real moody since yesterday. Everything just doesn't seem right. Nothing to be precise. Nothing has been right ever since the start of this year. 2004just sucks for me. Okay i know. Its only March. Long way till the year ends. But fuck it. It still sucks and i don't think its going to get any better for me.

I'm bored bored bored bored. Omfg. Im so fucking bored that i'm even swearing at almost every other thing. I don't like to be bored. Cause, my mind runs wild. I start thinking about everything. Too many things have happened. Trying to be the strong one. The one who is there for everyone. I'm trying. Trying so hard. But i can't hold on for long. I'll just try my best. I'm human too.

I miss you. Here it goes. For the first time after a month or so. I miss you so terribly. Its finally getting to me. (But I am taking y stand still) Now i'm free to do anything i want. No restrictions what so ever. But as i do things i never got to do when i was with you. I thought about you.Thought about what you would say if you knew i was doing this or doing that. I thought i smelt you somewhere. I almost broke down. I'm sorry. Sorry that things didn't work out.You took too long to realise. Too long. I was hurting so bad and it was taking a toll on me. I wish the best for you. Hope you'll be happy. The next girl's going to be great. Just remember what i told you. Somethings youhave to change cause i won't be the only one pointing them out to you.I Love You.

Here Without You - 3 Doors Down

A hundred days have made me older, since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder and I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me

The miles just keep rolling as the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that this gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
it gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl, there's only you and me