I Don't Know

As I stood by my window, smoking and watching the stars (or rather, the lack of them), unknowingly, I look down, looking for your car.

This is as hard for me as it is for you. You've left traces all over my life and everywhere I look, you're there, smiling back at me.

This is going to haunt me, for awhile.

I don't even know how to go about picking up the pieces. It hurts so bad. So damn fucking bad.

Everytime I think about it, tears just fall.

We were lovers and best friends for the past 13 months. I will miss you. The good and the bad, I'll miss both.

I wish it never had to turn out this way, but it did.

I don't know if what I did was the right decision, honestly, I don't. Time will tell.

"It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I will be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna let
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice well you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is Imma be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
yes I do
It'll all get better in time"

`Spinning: Leona Lewis - Better In Time