e-business paper is in approximately 13 hours and truthfully, only half my notes are filled so what's there to study in the first place.
I've never been a diligent student but I've always made sure that I made use of the study week given to us and made a point to at least ensure that my notes are all intact and read through them once.
Obviously, this semester is another story. I just don't care anymore I guess. When you try your best, people say you don't. So might as well just give it up altogether. I know I sound like I am giving everything up again. I guess its just one of those "emo rocks my socks" days.
You know the feeling where you are dying to ask someone a question but hold it back time and time again because you're afraid of the answer? I feel like I'm experiencing repeated cases of Deja Vu.
Am I really afraid because of the last? Have I truly been jaded? Or is my stupid principle of "If she can do this to her, she can do the exact to you" just haunting me like a poltergeist? Tell me now if my gut feeling is playing tricks on me. Am I really being over sensitive or you're just hiding something from me?
Every part of my life is just hanging no where. Financially bad because I blowed my entire pay on the damn phone so I'm struggling right now. I'm waiting for April to come along because that's when there's a little more stability in this area.
Love life's basically status-less. Leong Jie used to say that I had "short spasms of bliss". The short spasms have been rather constant of late. See the word's constant not permanent.
Future is bleak because I don't even know if I can graduate. I have a interview this weekend though. Please cross your heart, fingers, toes and hair for me please.
I shall say a prayer before I sleep later. I'm really feeling helpless
"Tell me again that we'll be lovers and friends"
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