I Live In Fear

It's just 6 more lousy dreadful weather days to go till I turn 20.

I read someone's blog entry. It was so sad yet the sweetness was overwhelming. I can picture myself relating to that entry, spot on and I'm scared.

I don't want to go through 24042006 without you.

I live in fear every second, every minute and everyday. Jie said I'll explode one day like someone we know, if I let myself continue this way. Jie also said I'll die (literally) if she leaves because she's never seen me so, for the lack of a better word, obsessed.

All I can say is, don't tell me about it because I don't want to know what will be left of me.

"When I open my eyes,
I see you.
When I close them,
I still see you."