Chained Affinity

Tracing the silhouette of your tender kisses, lying upon the fluffy pillow we both laid upon the night before. Memories still fresh, as if you were there, right next to me. As your breathing grew steady, bringing you into deep slumber, I kept vigil, thoughts running through my mind.

Choices to make, often intricate. Take a right turn, it leads to perfection. Take a wrong turn, disaster waits ahead. Material wants versus reality, head versus heart, which path shall I follow?

Breaking away from the norm, praying, hoping and wishing. Keep this affinity, chained together with the steel from our hearts; unbreakable.

Then there were promises. Promises made but never kept. I question myself but the answer remains the same. I'm in love. A fool in love, that's what I am.

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*edit: 0410 hours

I have a WHOLE list of people to meet and since I have nothing better to do, I shall type it here just in case y'all think that I have forgotten!

I owe dates to Maye, Mel Anne, Denise, Ryl, Chy, Marilyn, Jac.
I've been trying to date Queky and Sel.

I will meet every single one of you before I land myself a job. Now note, I have yet to land myself a job. So please please pray that I've been waking up early for a good reason. Or I will just kaopei all day long.

Saturday, 0900. KNNBCCB why must so early can?! Pui. Now, to club later or not to club. I kinda miss Zouk and I need to "punch card". Hrmmm. Set, at most don't sleep and go straight. Okay, ready, get set, go.

GOOD LUCK! (to myself). PS. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME HOR. TOLONG TOLONG. PLEASE. I REALLY NEED IT THIS TIME.

"Then there were two; two in love."

Butterflies & Creepy Crawlies

I am suffering from a delayed bout of Monday blues since it's already officially Tuesday.

It's not good since tomorrow's a big and long day for me. The anxiety and stress is just building up inside me, waiting to explode.

On a lighter note, this picture calms me a little. I just need the real person. I miss my babyboo. I really miss her. Now I feel like crying. ): Sigh. I need my happy pill, NOW.

Wish me luck. I'll need it.

"If only everything was as easy as ABC"

Bite Me

It doesn't pay being civil in society these days. If you keep your mouth shut and attempt to be nice, people take you for a wuss and trample all over you. I've been very generous, in fact too generous, so now I've had it, two can play the game.

http://eternalbeautifulchild.blogspot.com

This blog URL belongs to the ex's sister. Not my ex mind you, my ex-es and their family members have better things to do.

Note the entries on June 23rd and 24th. It was specially written in honour of Spencer and myself. Awww, we're flattered.

• A can be for many things, didn't your kindergarten teacher teach you? Yes, I'm a bitch and I'm proud of it, no need to emphasize on that fact. But like what you said, it's your blog and so this is my blog as well.
• I have something that your sister would do anything to have. That's how far the status would get me.
• I can't wait to see what will become of me either. I could ditch her instead maybe? You never know girl.
• Oh no. I've planned my next suicide. Next time around, I'll jump off the overhead bridge across PIE and make sure I die. Then I'll come back to haunt those who deserve haunting, so I can totally understand your excitement.
• You're spot on about the cheating. Congratulations on spotting the fact. But come on, someone always has to get hurt in a relationship, don't you know that? Oh, I forgot, how would you know, you've never been in a BGR.
  
• This time, you've got your facts wrong. Your mum is the one who's contacting Spencer, not the other way around. Maybe you should learn your status in the family and let your mum do as she deems fit.
• You're one ironic child. First you say a girl can never be addressed as Mister, so how can SHE be an actor? Shouldn't it be actress? Ah damn, your entries are full of grammatical errors anyway.
• Congratulations on being wanted as well. I hope it wasn't something you conjured in your dreams though.
• Hmmm. Spencer may have kissed other girls when she was with your sister but as of when she's been with me, she's only been kissing me.
  

http://damoomoo.blogspot.com

This blog URL belongs to the ex. Just in case you KPOs are dying to know who's who and what's going on. I know, but please don't laugh at the URL, it's a very mean thing to do. -stifles a giggle-

A gentle warning to all, I am not liable for making you guys read bad grammar.

"I am everything; everything you're not"

Love & War

I planted seedless grapes, I wonder what seeds you spat out.
All's fair in love and war. Now you've lost the battle, it's time to retreat. Leave us alone.

Status Quo: In a relationship.

I know. Like finally after almost 5 months of shit I had to put up with. Now, I just signed a contract to put up with more shit till 'death do us part'.

I love my girlfriend. (:

"When will you get the picture
You're the past, I'm the future
Get away, it's my time to shine
If you didn't know, the boy is mine"

SORE

Made an appointment with Suzanne on Tuesday so that Weed would finally get off my back about her hair being too long, too heavy and what nonsense.

Bel joined us shortly after for some mad cab chasing from Specialist Centre to Heerens just so that we could catch soccer on time at Serangoon Gardens.

In between the 2 matches, we headed to Bel's and played pool, played with her animals (2 dogs, 1 tortoise, 2 terrapins, 1 hamster, 1 rabbit and a lot of kois) and ransacked her food supply. Hurhur. Weed and I are absolutely smitten with her dogs, especially the fatty one. Awww.

While watching the 2nd match, my eye started playing tricks on me. My poor right eye was oozing out pus, it felt like some rotten waterfall. Bah. It never got better till Weed bought eye drops from a nearby petrol kiosk.

Zouk-ed with Bel, Jo and Weed earlier. I finally deviated from my weekly Wednesday routine. Instead of spending all my time at Phuture, I camped out at Zouk's members instead. I'm happily mambo-ed and Chivas-ed. Met my long lost Glam Queen who just came back from a flight. I've missed you so much you stupid Mei Nu! We need to meet with the rest. Hugs.

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Until now, my eyes are still SORE but I think it's cause of the lack of sleep. ): My throat is so SORE that I'm close to losing my voice. I think it's gotta do with the annoyingly increasing number of SORE people. -clears throat-

Very randomly, grapes are one of the loveliest fruits. They're the best when you sit on one side of the fence and watch Miss J eat the sour ones on the other side. J'adore des raisins. (:

Okay, my fever has just gone up a notch. I need to sleep. :|

"Sometimes the last thing you want comes in first
Sometimes the first thing you want never comes
But I know that waiting is all you can do
Sometimes

I'll put a spell on you
You'll fall asleep
When I put a spell on you
And when I wake you I'll be the first thing you see
And you'll realise that you love me"

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edited by the baby:

I don't know what to blog cos my brain can't think.

So I shall just post part of the conversation I had with Bel.

stab you says:
you also love andrea a lot wat
stab you says:
i thougth it was sweet yesterday the min you wake up you ask about her eye
stab you says:
if it were me i will forgert one lor..ill just kaobei i hungry
stab you says:
then still go toilet wet the tissue bring back clean her eye
stab you says:
SIGHHHHH

---> So is this good enough to show you that I care?

Get well soon my baby. Hugs.

Love Me

One complains that I don't blog as often anymore so here I am, blogging. Another complains that I don't blog about her anymore so here I am, blogging about her. You two know who you are. I love you both very dearly. I don't know what I'd do without either one of you.

Yes I may be demanding, melodramatic, possessive and un-trusting. I whine and cry too much for my own good. I lose my temper and do rash things. But that's who I am and that's who you fell for no?

And with all honesty, you're equally or even more demanding, possessive and un-trusting.
Love me for who I am won't you? Because I love you just the way you are.

My stupid bastard sexay Spencer. MINE MINE MINE. -silly grin-

"I'd love to hate you but I'd rather love you"

Finally Back From The Hiatus

I haven't updated in like 2 weeks, like OMG. So anyway, breakdown of my exciting life.

2nd June, Friday - Zouk-ed with Bel, Jo and Weed.

3rd June, Saturday - Town-ed then Zouk and HRC with Clair, Bel, Jo, Bess and Weed.

4th June, Sunday - Zouk Flea & Easy. I'd have to say the previous Flea & Easy was better but anyhow, we had fun. Weed finally bought her Vintage Clock and she bought me a new Lego Ring!

So pretty aye.

5th June, Monday - I was cooking dinner/lunch in my PJs when I heard someone scream "BABY!" at my front door. Awww, Weed popped over to surprise me.

6th June, Tuesday - You guys know by now that I have an non existent sense of humour so cartoons are usually a definite boo boo for me but I promised the baby that I'd catch 'Over the Hedge' with her so we booked the tickets online and trotted over to TM. It was so fucking CUTE and funny please. Like I WANT A BABY PORCUPINE LIKE RIGHT NOW. Thankyouverymuch. Lol.

7th June, Wednesday - Lunch-ed with the Mummy, mummy's bf and the Weed. Weed headed home to change while I headed for Graduation Ceremony with mummy and the bf. It was so damn mother fucking boring that mummy and I were texting each other complaining about the state of boredom we were in. Lol.

Then, the emcee pronounced my cheena name wrongly! So fucking paiseh. But I totally expected it and cringed my way to shake hands with the Guest of Honour to take the damn Diploma.

THEN, I tripped while walking back to my seat and my fucking worn for less than 2 hours heels broke. WAH FUCK, literally. I just wanted to dig a hole and bury myself. Thank God I was around people who have seen me in my most un-glam manner in the past 3 years or I would have cried bloody murder.

The Girls(L-R): Drea, Chy, Ryl and Kerrie.
The Boys (L-R): Brian, Joseph, Jem, Stewart, Ron and Shaun.
I'll miss you all. ):

Phuture was like full house but thank God for the Privilege card. Everyone was there! I was a rather happy girl with my darling girls at Mambo and the YTF girlies at Phuture. Stayed till closing (haven't stayed till closing for the longest time) and headed for prata shop but it was totally packed so we headed over to Spize.

8th June, Thursday - Weed and I were just so tired so we stayed in and lazed around the whole day.

9th June, Friday - Weed finally headed back home then it was Party Up! @ DXO.

10th June, Saturday - Met Jo in town and basically slacked around till 0400.

11th June, Sunday - Met Jie and Ash and headed to Coffee Club for World Cup till 0500.

12th June, Monday - Weed's crib then headed to Jie's for more WC.

13th June, Tuesday - Still stuck at Jie's after MORE WC.

14th June, Wednesday - Zouk. Do I have to say more?

15th June, Thursday - WC with Weed at the coffeeshop downstairs my place.

16th June, Friday - Cried, Zouk-ed, 65M-ed home alone.

17th June, Saturday - HRC-ed with Bel, Jo, Jie, Bessy, Clair and Weed.

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I spend 3 days a week clubbing, the remaining days I entertain myself with WC. I am a Spain and Portugal fan, not that you'd want to know. I need to do something with my life.

And it's already almost July. Oh my freaking God la. It's all World Cup's fault, it's a huge distraction.

Then when I finally set myself to start on something, I fall sick. The timing's perfect. -scowls-

I have this horrendous sore throat, perpetual leaking nose/teary eyes, horrible bodyache. I don't like. -sulks, pouts and grumbles-

This post is extremely brainless and boring but that's all I can generate with the stupid sickness. I promise, the next will be something more substantial.

"Don't keep me waiting."

I Won't Be Second To None

I WILL NOT be second to none. I REFUSE to be second to none.

I'm starting to feel the pressure. In fact, I'm begining to crumble under it. You'll never understand because it's all just but a game to you.

But I'll get over this. I always do. At least that's everyone's expectations.

So, fuck you, you, you and you. Thankyouverymuch.

"Without you i was broken
But I'd rather be broke down with you by my side."

Chopsticks and Spoons

"Down for Maintenance
Blogger is temporarily unavailable due to an unexpected problem.
We will be back up as soon as possible."
HAHA.

So, I'll have to do this entry on the notepad.

MRS Andrea TAN wants me to confess that,
Spencer has been a very naughty daughter
BUT a very good baby.
Because,
I've been staying over at the baby's crib since Saturday.

We wanted to stay in so that we can save money
and be part of GSS.
But I guess we've failed to do so cos we've spent quite a bit on FOOD!

Till date,
we've eaten 9 packets of golden mushrooms,
a whole cabbage,
a packet of snow peas,
luncheon meat,
alot of otahs,
many cups of bubble tea,
rice, maggi mee, instant porridge,
and too many other things to be mentioned.

We have concluded that we cannot live together
because all we do is COOK, EAT, WATCH TV AND SLEEP!

These are days which are simple yet filled with so much love.
I wanna wash those vegetables,
prepare the food
and cook for you everyday.
Though those are just simple food
but that's how we build a simple life together yes?

Its how time passes which makes you, me.
You'll see what you've given all worthwhile.
I'll put them down
and take you to where we belong.


I promise.

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I am very busy with Weed at the moment. Be back to blog soon. Do not disturb baby and I. BYEBYE. ((((((:

Upgrade The Noise Level

I've had it with the upgrading in my neighbourhood, seriously. Everyday at 0900, they start the mother fucking drilling, sawing, blah blah and it doesn't stop till like 1800 in the evening. I feel like I am working full time to be annoyed by the noise level.

Sure, at the end of it all, I'll get a beautiful neighbourhood, lifts at every level and a brand new toilet bowl to shit in but fuck, it's mother fucking fuck fuck noisy. The noise is so deafening that I can't listen to my FM unless I blast it, I get interrupted in my sleep periodically and it results in a threatening to burst my brains headache.

It used to be worst when I was still in the nightlife because day time is sleeping time not working time and now that I'm trying to fix my body clock back to normal, it ain't really helping because after all I'm a chronic insomniac. KNNBFUCKCCB.

The best part of it all? I have to bear with the fucking noise till 2009. OMFG LA PLEASE. 3 very fucking long years to go. Wake me up when 2009 ends please. -continues cursing and swearing-

PFFFTTTT.

Yesterday, met mummy in town after she ended work and headed straight to buy my shoes. I have a gleaming new pair of black 2.5 inches patent pumps. Though I was searching for 3 or 3.5 inches because I like my heels at that height though I do not need the boost in my height. But anyhow, I'm a happy girl, yay! -double beam- Had dinner at Sakae Sushi and mummy commented that my appetite has decreased enormously. I'd have to agree with her but I'm not losing any weight?! -.-

Usher is screaming "Yeah yeah" on the FM now. Bloody noise. I'm off to meet Ding Dong Belly Bel and Titty Jojo now. Byebye noisy neighbourhood.

"Suspicion sneaks around like a snake."

When You're Mad

Vaunt! @ MoS after an impromptu decision with the Weed. I will NEVER go to another "underage" party in my life. The horrors of no smoking, no alcohol, getting picked up by hormonal teenage boys and absurdly fucked up management of MoS.

I'll stick to my too smoky till you tear, drunkards and lao cheekopehs lurking in Zouk, that's more my cup of alcohol. Hah. Nevertheless, the company though strange was nothing but interestingly fun.

Yong Tau Foo girlies are at Zouk happily mambo-ing away except the 3 youngest, namely, Bel, Weed and myself.

Jie texted, "Woah~ Square rooms!"around midnight. KNNBCCB. Everytime I want to mambo, no one wants to mambo with me and when I don't go, y'all mambo and send me this kind of text message. Slap you girls ten times. Hahaha. Full Yong Tau Foo girlies attendance next Wed or this Fri at Zouk okay? It's about time Weed and I "punch cards" anyway. Lol.

Anyway, Yong Tau Foo outing this Sunday okay? Either the Zoo or Pulau Ubin or whatever suggestions y'all have. Tanning at Sentosa is out though cause Bel just got inked. Will text all of you soon to confirm details. Miss you girls loads.

Everyone's getting inked or pierced these days, at least for the YTF girlies. I'm itching so badly to get the surface chest piercing that Bel has and another weirdly positioned piercing on the ear but Weed's making noise about my multiple piercings. -grumbles- I'm going to get inked once I get confirmation from something. Though I'm still weighing between an ambigram of my name and something else. Hrmmm.

Very randomly, I'd like to say that humans are indecisive creatures, myself included and some like to express their indecisiveness by "hanging themselves up for sale"(literal translation of a Chinese phrase). Girl, it's not going to work this way you know? I pity you.

I'm feeling sleepy from the beer I shared with mummy. -yawns-

"It's just the cutest thing
When you get to fussing (cussing)
Yelling and throwing things
I just wanna eat you up
I don't mean no disrespect
When I start staring
Knowing that it makes you mad
I'm sorry that seeing you mad is so sexy

Could it be the little wrinkle over your nose
When you make your angry face
That makes me wanna just take off all your clothes
And sex you all over the place
Could it be the lil' way that you storm around
That makes me wanna tear you down
Baby, I ain't sure, but one thing that I do know is

Every time you scream at me
I wanna kiss you
When you put your hands on me
I wanna touch you
When we get to arguing
Just gotta kiss you
Baby, I don't know why it's like that
But you're so damn sexy
When you're mad

Baby, don't think I don't take you seriously
But I just can't help the fact that your attitude excites me (so exciting)
And you know ain't nothing better
Then when we get
Mad together and have angry sex (I'll blow you out)
Then we forget what we were mad about"