I'm Bossy

Bugger my biological clock. I'm so physically drained but mentally awake. BAHH. The baby's already asleep and here I am typing in the dark.

This is big boo-boo because I have to be awake in like 3 hours to send the baby to school before heading for a 1100 hours interview. Argh. How to wake up like that?! Not to mention, I've been having a horrible headache since 2000 hours the day before. Knnbccb.

I'm finally headed home again later after the interview. Gotta clean my room up because of the damn toilet upgrading crap. Fucktards. The plan now is to stay at home for one night apart from the baby.

I have a bad feeling that this plan is doomed to fail and I'll end up back here. Which is stupid because I'll just sleep here, wake up, send her to school and go back home.

But if I don't, I won't be able to fall asleep at home and the idea of foreign workers walking in and out of my house means I cannot walk around in my boy shorts and go bra-less. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK LA.

It's like, I don't fucking care if you give me new toilet bowls or direct lifts. I'm very happy with the way my place is and plus, the noise and dust from it all is not worth it. Kns.

Life's a bitch. -screams and pulls hair-

Very randomly, sometimes, I hate my girlfriend. Like, seriously. Spencer Tan, ALL YOUR FAULT LA. I'm just being grouchy. HUR. Now, I'm going to hug you to sleep okay? Okay bee-bee? -big smile-

I'm starting to sound deranged.

"I'm the bitch y'all love to hate."

Yawn!

Zouk yesterday was a major boo-boo. It was boring and not to mention, packed with stupid JC students (Yes, I have something against JC students but I'll explain another time why).

The main reason we went down was because it was Baby's bro, Jordan's birthday. Happy Birthday! We love you! ((:

So because the birthday boy was already half knocked out by the time we got there, Elena, Baby and myself just ended up "touring" the entire Zouk for approximately 2 hours and we decided to leave for supper.

There were contemplations to head to MoS but decided against it since we all aren't ardent fans of the club, so back to home sweet home it was.

The Lil' Baby only managed to fall asleep at 0600 and woke up at 0730 for school. I being the "Superwoman" I always am, decided to stay up and head home to sleep after sending the Lil' Baby to school.

Finally reached home at 1000 when Lil' Baby texted saying that she didn't want to stay in school anymore. -wags finger- So I changed immediately and went to meet the naughty brat in town.

Ate and then walked around PS for awhile then Belly came along. Shopping at Daiso and Carrefour. KNN, we can still buy so much nonsense. Hah. Headed to Belly's place after that and helped to feed her 2 Malteses, 2 albino rats, hamster, 2 terrapins, star tortoise and uncountable kois. Haha.

After feeding her mini zoo, it was time to feed ourselves and instant noodles was the way to go. Hur.

Watched tv and played with Citrine and Tweety (the lovely doggies) while Belly did her work. Lil' Baby K.O-ed on the sofa, hugging a sleeping Citrine. She awoke awhile later and finally, "Superwoman" aka I, buey tahan already and fell asleep on her lap and she continued to fall back to sleep with me on her lap. AWWWWW. ((:

Now, we're back to home sweet home and heading to bed soon. -yawns- Interview tomorrow morning at 1000 hours. ARGH!

P.S. Belly, we'll miss you all 7 days and 7 nights when you're at Bali. Come back soon! Love!

"All day long, all night long."

Crave For Me

It's 0354 hours, both the lil' one and myself are still wide awake (or at least I am). I finally got tired of editing the new blogskin so I'm taking a break.

Lil' one's tv show has ended and soon she'll head to lala land without me, like how it's always been. Bah.

Anyway, everytime my period is here, I get weird cravings. Then again, according to the baby, I always have cravings, with or without my period. Haha. Previously I was craving for pasta and soya bean, which have been both satisfied. The recent craving would be pizza. -nudges baby-

Now, I AM CRAVING FOR THAT STUPID CP SHRIMP WANTON THING. THE ONE THAT HAS REPEATED ADVERTISEMENTS ON ALMOST EVERY STUPID CHANNEL. I WANT IT NOW LA! WHY 7-11 NEVER SELL! OR RATHER, WHY NTUC DOESN'T OPERATE 24 HOURS?!

Sigh, I'll have to dream of it.

"Dicky picky poo!"

Baby, It's Just Me & You

"You've been waiting so long
I'm here to answer your call
I know that I shouldn't have had you waiting at all
I've been so busy, but I've been thinking about what I wanna do with you

I know them other guys, they been talking bout the way I do what I do
They heard I was good, they wanna see if it's true
They know you're the one I wanna give it to
I can see you want me too
Now, it's me and you

It's me and you, now
I've been waiting (Waiting)
Think I wanna make that move, now
Baby, tell me if you like it (Tell me if you like it)
It's me and you, now
I've been waiting
Think I wanna make that move, now
Baby, tell me how you like it"

Groove Armada here I come! ((:

Yong Tau Foos and Korean Barbecue

Met all my Yong Tau Foo girlies on Saturday, like finally. Belly, Jo, Jie, Bessy and myself headed for dinner at Pasta Mania Scotts, then baby, Jay and Zen joined us later at Hard Rock Cafe.

I know, it's been eons since I stepped into HRC and like since when did they renovate their souvenir shop?! Yes, that's how long I haven't been to HRC. Hah. If my aggaration proves right, the last time I was at HRC was the "last" time I went home too. Shush.

Sunday was to Zouk's Flea and Easy with Jo, Ezra, Belly and the baby. I'd say this time round, it was pretty disappointing because I bought nothing! Jo and Ezra like me, went home empty handed. Baby bought this really pretty necklace for herself (which I am so tempted to steal), Belly bought one for herself in another colour and a retro inspired dress (which she regrets buying now).

Went to town after that to grab some food and headed back to my crib for dinner. ((: Surprisingly, lil brat was also home so mummy had both her daughters back for dinner with her! There was like black pepper crab and prawns, both in alarmingly huge portions, all because baby loves seafood and my sister has gone vegetarian.

Jay took us out after that to the airport and we were just roaming around, crapping. Monday, we just stayed home and in boredom, had four meals each. Hur. Tuesday, Thomson Prata with Jay and finally back to the Baby's.

Wednesday was to Funan to collect this darling that I'm typing on now and then to Marina South for Korean BBQ with Belly, Elena, Jay and Baby.

Let's just say, Baby and I have been eating so much and everyone keeps telling me I've lost weight! Which is not true because I still weigh the same as 4 years ago. Hah.

Oh by the way, my mummy gave Baby a new name. SLEEPING BABY. Because she's always sleeping at my place and she's my baby. ((:

"And I'd give up forever to touch you,
'Cause I know that you feel me some how.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now."

Driving Through Holiday Inn

It's been a LONG time, I know. Lil baby's laptop has gone to the hospital and I haven't been home for coming 3 weeks. x:

Am currently at Belly's place watching Into The Blue with Belly and J. Hur. Had dinner cum supper at Geylang. Tau huey, mee sua, yu tiao, xiao long bao, carrot cake, etc. Then supper again at Punggol Nasi Lemak. Knn, fattening please.

It feels damn good to be driven around, especially in a Evo 9 engined space wagon. *blows wolf whistle* Eh wait, we do appreciate J's lancer la, just that Evo 9's hMmmmm makes my baby happy. (:

2 nights ago, J, Belly, Baby and myself got so bored so we decided to go to Mount Faber to chill out but knn, we drove halfway up the hill and they were doing road works so we couldn't go all the way up. Backup plan was to KM8 @ Sentosa since it was around the corner.

Everything sounds pretty cool till this point right? The thing now is, we went into Sentosa at 0200 so erm, KM8 was closed and so was the rest of Sentosa?! Knnbccb. Then we decided to have supper at Maxwell market but IT WAS ALSO CLOSED. I know, wah lan eh, we damn bo liao. Belly was so bo liao that she was counting the number of 7-11's we passed by the whole journey. -.-

Anyway, we ended up at Mustafa for their damn shiok Chicken Burger. *slurps* Hurhur. We're fucking mad and bo liao please. Shush.

Last week was clubbing from Wednesday to Saturday for Lil baby and I. Zouk, MoS, Zouk and then MoS again. I miss Liquid Room though I just sit there and drink but it sure beats MoS. Plus, MoS's members bar is like so damn non exclusive.

Okay la, it's bedtime. Lil one's waiting for me. Till then, I miss blogger. HAH.

"Drift, drift, drift!"

7 Degrees of Separation

Ahhh. It's been awhile since I last typed in this lil empty text box but nothing much has really changed in my life though.

As I am typing now, the lil one is lying next to me in bed, falling into deep slumber. ((:

The reason for the lack of updates is because my internet connection at home is a goner and now, the lil one's laptop is a goner. Bloody buggers. Add on the fact that I've sort of lost my blogging mojos. Haha.

The lil one and I are literally stickwitu 24/7. Either I'm at her house or she's at my house, we're literally inseperable. Hur. It's like the keyboard and the mouse, always seen together. I know, what a metaphor to use right? Hah.

Today, she went off to school leaving me sleeping on her bed like a dead log. So happy. Haha. It's blissful because at least I don't have to bus all the way back to Bedok Reservoir.

So basically, the past weekend has been about the same like always.

Friday was at Zouk with Belly, Shawn, Jordan and Lian Jin. Had supper with Lian Jin and a very high lil one at Newton Circus who made us order BBQ Stingray and ate only a few mouths before "passing out" on the table. Haha.

Saturday was Liquid with Lian Jin, Jordan, Belly and Diva. This time around, it was my turn to get high. It is always the Moet's fault. Bah. At least I didn't pass out on my porridge during supper with Jordan at Chinatown. Hah.

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I spoke to an ex collegue online earlier. In some strange coincidence, he happens to be a mutual friend of my dad's and mine. In a stranger coincidence, he has been seeing my dad of late and told me that my dad has a Friendster account.

Curiosity killed the cat, it always kills the damn cat. When you haven't seen your biological father for last 10 years, obviously you'd check out his Friendster profile.

No offense to anyone but seriously which decent father has a Friendster profile?! So what if he's only 45. My mum's 42 and she acts like 42 year old and does not have a Friendster profile. Yes I am insulting my own father so stay out of it.

Anyway, I pretty much got a shock. At first, I couldn't recognise him. My memory of him was 10 years back and it's been stuck there ever since because I never saw him after that but after awhile, I did and unknowingly, tears just trickled.

I hate it that I look so much like him even up till this day. The first thing the lil one said when she laid eyes on his pictures were "You look like him". I hate it that he has a Friendster account. Fathers do not have Friendster accounts which just makes it clearer that he's no father.

But one thing struck me. He looks so old, like grandfather old. Which tells me, I am old! And I hope he dies soon. Knn, spoil my day only.

"Sing me a love song"

Boiling Point

Today after my interview, I called my mum to discuss the job details and unknowingly, tears started streaming down my face. Yes yes, the cry baby strikes back. Hah.

The frustration of sending resumes, going for interviews and the whole damn sick cycle has finally reached it's boiling point. I just feel so desperate, so frustrated and at such a loss that all I could do was cry.

I'm sick of getting disappointed with the jobs which most of the time don't appear to be what they are when you first apply for them. I'm sick of getting up so early just to travel all the way, dressed up in uncomfortable clothes and getting disappointed.

But so what if I've reached the boiling point, I still need a job. Sigh. So the back up plan now is, get a part time job while searching. My gallavanting days are over. Bah.

Visited Jie at work since I was in the vicinity and I was promptly rewarded with a scoop of the all raved about Hei ice cream. OH MY GOD OKAY! If I ever manage to hook up the part time job at Awfully Chocolate, I'm going to be Awfully Fat. HAHAHA.

I spent almost S$6 on my ez-link travelling around the whole of Singapore today. From the baby's to my place, my place to Tanjong Pagar, Tanjong Pagar to Raffles Place, Raffles Place to Tampines, Tampines back to my place, my place to Woodlands to pick the baby up then back to the baby's. -.-

I am so ready for bed after the long day that started at 0700 but it's Friday today so I'm off to Zouk now. Hee.

"Through everything goin on
We're right here holdin on
To one another."

Chasing Cars

Ikea yesterday was rather disappointing because Elena, Weed and myself came out empty handed but the food was so damn fulfilling. I finally satisfied my 6 months Swedish Meatballs craving. -double beam- After 10 meatballs, I continued to wolf down a hotdog at the Deli. I swear I was so damn full.

The Weed did not go to school today, again. -shakes head- I know, I'm a bad influence but hey, I can't force her to school if she doesn't want to go right?! Instead, we slept in all the way till 1500 and accompanied Weed's mummy to the doctor's at Yishun and went shopping at Northpoint. x:

Life's been a rollercoaster of late and it doesn't help that everyone's busy one way or another and I'm the only moron who's so damn free. Sigh.

Scored an interview tomorrow morning and if I do get the job, I'll start like almost immediately. Which isn't good because Weed's holidays are like in 2 weeks?! The timing can't be better but I really need something to do before I die from boredom and lack of moolah.

I hate the way I blog now. It's so damn sporadic and random. I want my internet connection back so I can blog whenever the insipiration kicks in not when I get to use the damn internet. Argh. Job, job, job, job.

"We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough"

Red & White

Happy National Day everyone! Although I'm sure to most people, it's just a well deserved public holiday in busy busy Singapore.

Last night was to Zouk for DMC Technics Championship. Well technically, we only arrived after the event, which was our main purpose anyway. HUR. And for the longest time ever, I had FULL Yong Tau Foo girlies attendance! I've missed clubbing with all of you!

So many others were there as well; Elena, Rena, Ashley, Queky and too many to name.

Then then DJ Cash Money actually played a couple of mambo songs please! Yes, of course I was the happiest, excluding a mad jumping Zen next to me on the podium. Haha. It's been a long time since I've had so much fun clubbing despite the thrice weekly clubbing routine. ((:

Okay, gotta run now. Headed to IKEA with the Weed and her buds. I'll update proper soon, promise.

"Promiscuous girl, you're all that I want."

Cos baby, I do.

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
I finally found this for you my love.
Hope you like it,
I know you will =))

invasion filled with love, Spencer.




Through everything goin on
We're right here holdin on
To one another.
The reason why I love you,
Your charm and personality
I love your sensitivity.
Let me take a second,
Cos I'll be your love & essence.
Only,Wanna hear your voice speak,
When I feel your body heat,
Love every minute of it.
You're like the fresh air,
when it feels like no one cares
That's why I say...


"I must stickwitu"

Infidelity

The events on Sunday morning just proves that timing and alibi means everything in the world when you're being accused.

To Bel, thank you for rushing down to accompany her. I'm sorry we made you cry because of us. I love you dearly. -hugs-

To Queky, thank you for being so readily available every single time I call you in tears. Thank you best friend. Love you too. -hugs-

To Jie, thank you for always believing in me. I miss the balcony talks, I wanna go to your place and drink from the PowerPuff Girls cup! Love you Jie. -hugs-

To you, I don't know why everyone in this world trusts me but you. The irony of stickwitu.

"Through these tears, I try to smile"

One Last Try

One last cry
One last try
Before I give it all up.

But I don't want to; Dilemma.

Let's Play Pretend

Okay okay, so I'm finally back from the hiatus I've taken. I've probably used this blog title before but what the fuck, I feel like using it again for it's perfect description of my life.

All I do now is club, sleep and go for interviews. Bahh. That's how boring my life has become and it's August already! -mumbles- Life's just been so damn mudane that there's nothing to blog about except emo shit because of the emotional rollercoaster ride I've taken.

When you come to a point of desperation, what are you to do? Honestly, I'm scared, I really am. I no longer know how to react, so brushing it off, avoiding the issue and running away from reality is what I do now. But truth be told, how far and how long more can I run? I don't know but I've lasted so long, what's holding on to see the light beyond that glimmer of hope. Sigh.

So last weekend was the usual. Friday was at Phuture with Ming, Lian Jin, Elena and Weed. Saturday was Zouk, Liquid Room, then Zouk again with Ming, Lian Jin and the Weed who was with me only 1/4 of the time while I sat on the sofa nursing my period cramps with Absolut Cranberry. Hah. To summarise, it's been a hell of an alcohol overloaded weekend. Hur.

Speaking of clubbing, I miss clubbing with my Yong Tau Foo girlies whom have all taken to the "I am sick of clubbing already" motto. Hah. Unbelievable but true. So you girls better club with me soon! I miss my Tau Gay Zen, Tau Pok Bessy, Tau Kee Jie, Titty Jojo and Ding Dong Bel! I really miss all of you!

Today, on my way to meet Weed, I was listening to Class 95, bobbing my head to all the mambo music, thinking bout the mambo days. I miss my Lil Ryl, Glam Queen Marilyn and Blur Chy. We really need to meet babes! Especially mambo together before Lil Ryl leaves for England. Please meet up soon alright?

Of course I miss my bestie, Queky. Yes yes, I know I owe you loads of dates. I'll make it up to you alright? Speaking of which, what do you want for your birthday huh? Haha.

I'm not missing in action, just busy spending all my time with Weed. ((:
Happy 6th monthsary my lil one. I just have one thing to say, *stickwitu. ((:

"I can make you nice or naughty, be the devil and angel too."

Splutter

I am sick. I am so damn sick and tired, both metaphorically and literally.

It started out with a horrible sore throat and flu, then carried on with a headache. Now it's down to a dry cough which gives me chest pains.

It started out right from the start and I don't even know when it's ever going to end, pathological liar.

"How could you?"

Monotony

So there's been a huge lack of updates on this blog, all because my internet connection at home has been cut. Bahh. So I can only blog when I'm at Baby's and yesterday when I was blogging, her laptop's batt died on me and I was too lazy to plug in the adaptor. :

The monotony in my life is getting more and more apparent and it's begining to bug me. All day long all I do is, sleep, eat, go out, club, sleep and the cycle just repeats itself all over again. Sigh. I need a job so desperately and it's not that I'm not looking but lady luck hasn't been on my side. ):

There's nothing much to update honestly. Life's the same. 3rd week I've been bumping at the Baby's and finally we're going back to my place for the weekend. ((: Baby's just as naughty and giving me equally as much of a headache as she always did. Speaking of which, we're going out to choose her cane soon.

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Spencer: Okay baby, we'll go get the cane at cash converters. LOL. Stop being such a piggy and sleep so much la. I know you love my bed and mostly importantly, LOVE ME! Love you too smelly pooty. =)

"I don't wanna know
If you're playing me - keep it on the low.
'Cause my heart can't take it anymore.
And if you're creepin please don't let it show.
Oh baby, I don't want to know.

I think about it when I hold you.
When lookin' in your eyes - I can't believe.
I don't need to know the truth.
Baby, keep it to yourself."

Just another girl, the girl I love.

Haircuts and midnight Mustafa till 0400 yesterday with Bel, Diva, Tiao-Kia and Baby. Back at Bel's place, random hair dyeing, pool and early morning breakfast. Baby and I knocked out finally at 1000 and snuggled all the way till 1700. Then it was lazing in front of the telly, playing with Citrine and Tweety then we decided to Zouk.

Know, I begining to hate clubbing. Note that I said hate, not 'getting sick of'. Yes, I still enjoy clubbing to a certain extent but sometimes, the idea of it really puts me off.

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*edited 1330

So my Drea baby left this entry incomplete cos my laptop battery went flat.
But anyway, here's something for you:

One summer night
We ran away for a while
Laughing, we hurried beneath the sky
To an obscure place to hide
That no-one could find
And we drifted to another state of mind
As we lay upon the grass
There in the dark
Underneath the stars

Weak in the knees
Wrapped in the warm gentle breeze, and I,
So shy, a bundle of butterflies
Flush with the heat of desire
On a natural high

As we drifted to another place in time
And the feeling was so heavy and sublime
As I lost my heart to you
There in the dark
Underneath the stars

Beautiful and bittersweetly
You were fading into me
And I was gently fading into you

I'm yours and you're my own
My one and only baby
As we lay underneath the stars


PS: Cheer up my baby. Don't be upset anymore please. I'll go choose my own cane okay? Hugs.

Blah Blah & More Blah

Zouk-ed the usual 3 days; Wednesday, Friday and Saturday. Weed and I figured that we Phuture too damn much because we always manage to predict what song comes on next and Andrew has been a good boy recently. (:

Supper with Bel and Weed last night was MADNESS. In total we ordered, 1 mushroom cheese prata, 1 egg, onion & cheese prata, 1 beehoon goreng, 1 maggi goreng ikan bilis pattaya, 3 chicken wings, 1 basket of onion rings, 2 iced limau and 2 barleys.

So KNN fattening! Especially at 4am in the morning. But it's okay, of late, everyone keeps telling me that I lost quite a fair bit of weight. So, YAY!

Weird part is, I'm not un-happy or stressed that's why I'm losing weight. I don't know what's wrong with me either but fuck it seriously. Just drop me to 43kgs and I'm one happy babe. 1 kg to go~!

So I haven't really been home for almost 2 weeks, obviously I've been camping out at the Weed's. Right now, I'm having a bad bout of home-sickness. Honestly, I think I just miss my bed and mummy. :

I'm camping out in her room, on her bed, with her lappy, hugging her chou-chou, blogging, listening to Chamillionaire and falling asleep at the same time while she's outside playing mahjong with her relatives.

I think I know what's wrong. I'm just bored-ed out of my wits. -SCREAMS-

Hershey's Chocolate Kisses

While everyone was busy watching the Femme Quest contestants strutting their stuff over at Zouk, Weed and myself were busy playing with her crib's newly arrived guest. No doubt he's just here for a mere 3 day stop over, he has already found a lil place in our hearts.

Note: I normally abhor Chihuahuas because they tend to look alien like and are extremely bimbotic. Okay, how about I don't like small dogs. But there are always exceptions. (:

Swing Left, Then Swing Right

So you ask, what's swinging over here. I'd reply, mood swing. Fuckingknnbccbmotherhell mood swings; PMS.

I swear I hate it because it makes me emo every once a hour. Fucking fuck fuck. Best part, I don't have anything to be emo about, or do I?

Now, what am I doing home on a Wednesday night? Actually, I'm going to shower right now. Hello Zouk. Sigh. I'm sick of clubbing.

"Let's do the swing dance."