For The Sunshine In My Life

In approximately 11 hours, the Silly girlfriend turn 23. -coughOLDcough- Hurhur.

To celebrate her birthday, I have graciously and generously (AHEM!) decided to be the chef for today and tomorrow. Those who know, know that I CAN actually cook but I just rarely do because I am too damn lazy. -ego speaking for itself-

Anyhoos, on the menu for today would be a simple Pasta Salad which we both adore like crazy but I hope she adores the one I'm gonna cook.

Tomorrow, steamboat at her place which I will attempt to cook Tom Yam soup for the first time in my life. Those who have tried my mum's Tom Yam would know that it's pretty solid so I hope I can't screw up much following her receipe word for word. -prays-

I swear cooking is a total pain in the ass. I hate washing up! -screams silently- But for my Silly, I will do it with no complains. -clears throat-

So because I will have no time to blog after this and until her birthday is over;

Dearest Girlfriend,

Next year, I will make up for the 22 birthdays I've missed out with you (Because this year I am too broke), and I am absolutely looking forward to the future birthday celebrations to come.

I hope you really like the present I gave you 3 weeks ago and I'm sorry I gave it to you so early but I was too damn excited after getting it. Haha.

May your plans for the future flow out smoothly as smoothly as I waltzed into your life. Hehe!

I am totally looking forward to having my own personal chef, my black Lexus Sports, black BMW M6, black Toyota Rav4, black Evo 10, black SLK and black Maserati to drive around in (Excluding the 10 or 20 other cars you want to own in the future).

Playing Mahjong and shopping with Carmen and Su-Lynn all day long (While you, Dexter and Su-Lynn's future husband slog your lives away for our Jimmy Choos, Bottega Venetta, Tods, Prada, Chanel etc purchases). Oh, remember my roomful of 2.55s okay? Haha. God it sounds like I'm writing a wish list for my birthday.

But anyway, I LOVE YOU, you old fart. I know (And am pretty sure) you love me too and I hope I stay LOVEABLE enough for you for the rest of my (Turn so old till breast are saggy) life.

Happy 23rd Birthday my Silly Sunshine Hero.

`Spinning: Muse - Starlight

Foodie

Saturday - Corduroy & Finch

The Chocolate Fudge Milkshake rocked my socks!


Open kitchen concept.


I love chandeliers.


The Anitpasti & Tapas.


Yes, the one of the few cooked fish I take, Codfish.

So Silly blew $80 on all that all because she promised me a good brunch the night before. -beams- & Maybe, because I said so. ((:

Sunday - Golden Mile Market

I know, you're expecting a whole slew of pictures once again BUT, the girlfriend and I were too hungry so when the food came, we just ate and completely forgot about the poor camera. Haha. I promise pictures the next round.

Basically we had Char Kway Teow, Hokkien Mee, Char Siew & Roast Duck, Ah Baling (aka Tang Yuan), Chin Chow and Sugarcane.

I miss the Char Kway Teow already! Next round at Golden Mile, the all so famous Claypot Rice. -beams-

Anyway, after that mountain of food, 2 hours later, I continued to have the famous AMK Crab Bee Hoon, 1 You Tiao with my favourite Selegie Tau Huey with Tau Huey Jui.

With such an appalling amount of intake within 5 hours, I had indigestion. Yes I deserved it. But everything was so damn irresistible. At this rate, I'm gonna be fat, yes, FAT. -grumble mumble-

`Spinning: Missy Elliot - Get Your Freak On

Deviation

Deviating from our regular plan to stay home, we met up with Bel in town for dinner. So we parked ourselves at NYDC Heerens from 1900 to 2230 hours, catching up, talking about cars for the longest time I remember and God knows what other nonsense the 3 of us spoke about.

And once again, deviating from our regular plan to not club on weekdays or rather, cut down on clubbing, we some how ended up at Zouk. LOL. Yours truly was disgustingly in shorts and slippers, it was really un-planned. Hur.

Despite all the absurd amount of deviation going on the entire day, it just went on.

Silly and I left at 0100 because she had to work today but after getting on the car, I was so spectacularly high that I went on and on and on and on. Which meant to say, I couldn't stop talking or rambling would be a better term. Which is pretty rare, cause I usually only talk when necessary or I am usually very sober.

I woke up this morning and the first thing I remembered was, "What the fucking hell did I say last night?!". Apparently, I said a truckload of stuff ranging from "saggy breasts" to "the death sentence". Go figure. Haha.

Even though it was all to my very own girlfriend, it is bloody embarrassing. I would say even more embarrassing than passing out dead drunk because that way, I wouldn't be able to rattle off like I did last night.

Oh, Silly just informed me that I did not only spew totally "throw my own face" nonsense, that I did things that I would very much like to bury myself right now because I cannot believe it and am laughing my ass off at myself. Classically, she re-enacted the entire scene to her brother. -buries self-

Next time I am high, someone just duct tape my mouth please.

`Spinning: Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Your Guardian Angel

Remember

Lil' Brat left for Narita, Tokyo yesterday morning for 6 weeks of training, shopping and freezing her ass off. Strangely, I think I might just miss her. Hah.

But its all for a good cause. Hello to Head Porter, Burberry Blue Label, Goyard, CDG, BAPE, Victoria Secrets, American Apparel, F21, GAP, Abercrombie & Fitch, Urban Outfitters, American Eagle and the list goes on. (:

That aside, I finally got my haircut after a million years. I finally have tangle free hair. Haha. Now I'm left with my CNY shopping and threading. ASOS corset and opaque stockings on the way to me. -beams- I hope they arrive before CNY.

Enough bout wanting to shop. With the untimely arrival of the bleeding monthly, I've been on a hell of roller coaster ride with my emotions.

And no, it's not all that emo. Just that the emo bits tend to end up here. The happy ones, well, are best kept private. -grins-

The bitter sweet emotion has decided to park itself in my emo bank. As it is, I am already a very bitter person. The bleeding hormones are just making my life completely miserable when it actually isn't.

I realised, I forgot how it was like to speak my mind. I completely forgot.

I just need to shop and someone to help me remember how it was like to be me.

`Spinning: Corinne Bailey Rae - Like A Star

Grapevine

Comparison, how much does it affect your life? Mine? I try not to let it get to me but sometimes, it does get the better of me.

I really hate to compare, especially one relationship with another because every single relationship we have is unique to us in a certain way but it just happens I guess. I'll see how long I can hold out before jealousy gets the best of me. I hate to say this, but jealousy ALWAYS gets the best of me. Bugger.

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All that nonsense aside, no no, I haven't moved. Just been sick like a dog.

So yes, sick. Yes still sick since Christmas Eve last year. Bugger. It worst on Sunday night, I was coughing my lungs out and basically just sleeping day in, day out, but thankfully, My Hero nursed me back to health.

I think if I were at home (Yes I am at Bukit Panjang), without no one to take care of me half the time, I'd probably still be dead in bed. I just hope I didn't lose weight from this coughing episode. |:

Still coughing here and there, occasional headaches and all but I suppose I'm much better. Sigh. I don't know what to do if I fall sick during CNY again! I can't afford to fall sick this year. I want to collect all the extra money to make up for what I missed out last year. Hur.

MJ tomorrow with my best friend (Quek), my old friend (Jac) and my girlfriend (Su). I am so going to play princess and make you guys let me win. Haha!

`Spinning: Gavin DeGraw - I Don't Want To Be

The Strangest Things

I had a crazy idea of moving permanently over to LJ a couple of days back. Strangely, it's still hanging at the back of my head.

Yes I have so many years on abnegation.blogspot but I have this strange urge of wanting to having a "fresh start".

Not that my LJ account is exactly new nor is the address very different from this, but I just can't explain it. Maybe I'm just sick of my layout and I have no idea how to fix the layout I wanted to change it to. Argh.

Headache from hell killing me. God knows why I'm having a headache out of the blue. Even stranger, I actually got irritated with WoW because the server was lagging so bad I was running at 1.5K latency.

Doesn't help that I've been PMS-ing major. Bloody monthlies (Pun intended). One minute I'm all fine and dandy, the next minute, the smallest matter can just piss me off earth.

Someone stuff me with Coke and Chocolates or make me smile please. I'm in dire need.

`Spinning: Mika - Happy Ending

Better Together

And it's all because of you,

I feel like a hero and you are my heroine.
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?

It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving.
I'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
But most of all it's built to last.

Hello Girlfriend. (:

`Spinning: Enter Sandman - Metallica

Ready Or Not, 2008 Here I Come!

After years of overdosing on alcohol on NYE, finally I had a quiet NYE. Steamboat and KTV with Silly's friends. Surprisingly, it was rather refreshing.

Happy 2008 everyone, I hope you had a happy one.

And it was nice, to wake up right next to Silly on the first day of the year. (:

"It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I always know
You make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go"

`Spinning: Colbie Cailat - Bubbly

Goodbye 2007, Hello 2008

So this is it, the last entry for 2007.

It's been a crazy year. When I say crazy, I mean it in all degrees. There were high and low points but that's just life ain't it? That's what makes life "interesting" at least.

To my Yong Tau Foo Girlies, Jie, Zen, Jo and Bessy, you girls will always be my YTF girlies for life. To more alcohol induced madness, bitching and being as fucked up as we are. Because I love you girls just the way you are.

To my KC girls, Quek and Jac, here's to growing old together. Jac, to 8 years and counting of friendship, chilling and emo nights together. Quek, to still being my best friend, I will still call you crying at 0300 if I have to. I love you both.

To my darlings from TP, Denise and Ryl, the both of you hold a special place in my heart. I am always here, any time, any place and any day. Ready to mambo when you girls are. Haha.

To Silly, "You caught me off guard, now I'm running and screaming. I feel like a hero and you are my heroine. Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin?". ((:

I'm glad this year has come to an end. I'm all ready for a fresh start.

`Spinning: Zac Efron & Vanessa Hudgens - Breaking Free

My Lucky Charm

I am so excited! I struck lottery! -hops around- Yes I really really did win 4D yesterday. Bwahahahaha!

This is all thanks to Silly. ((: She was mentioning the numbers the entire of yesterday so I told her, let's go buy for fun. So in the name of fun, I bought $1 Big $1 Small, iBet. I know, where got people buy iBet buy so little right? I really was just buying for fun can?!

HOW I KNOW WILL KNN OPEN 3RD PRIZE RIGHT!? NBCCB.

Sigh. It's okay. I am very contented with what I won. First time strike lottery, 3rd prize some more can?!

And if you think I won a lot and hoping for a treat or something, dream on mate. It's only 2 pathetic digits.

Silly is my lucky charm. ((:

Anyway, for Christmas, Silly bought me the "la maison nu l'ean" leather pouch in black and gold. from Agnes B. -beams- It is offically my new wallet. Hur.

That aside, check out the wrapping. I totally dig it.

"Me and you babe - We'll make the whole world jealous"

`Spinning: Sade - Smooth Operator

Love Actually

Love actually is over-rated.
Love actually is self inflicted pain.
Love actually is happiness.
Love actually is feeling warm and fuzzy.
Love actually is wanting to do the craziest things.
Love actually is bitter-sweet.

Love actually is Silly. Pun intended.

Actually, I think I am in love. ((:

`Spinning: Diana Krall - The Christmas Song

Not So Merry Christmas

I am sick. Like "running a temperature" complete with a totally sexay voice interrupted by coughing and a "leaking" nose.

Merry Christmas folks. Enjoy this one for me.

"All I want for Christmas is you, only you."

`Spinning: Corrinne May - Shelter

Fortune Cookie

My mood has been fluctuating like a damn roller coaster ride. One minute I am so disgustingly bursting with bliss, the next minute, I am emo like nemo.

As of now, it definitely ain't Missy Bliss in the house. Hello Emo-Nemo. -screams-

Couple of days back, I headed to the fortune teller. Apparently she's rather accurate and I wouldn't deny there was some truth in the things she told me.

First thing I remember her telling me was that I worry too much. That I worry about every single thing and I must learn to relax. God. For a moment she sounded like the psychiatrist at the hospital I saw the other time. I actually wondered if I had 'Suffers from Anxiety" tattooed across my forehead.

Then she told me I had a bad temper. God. So I guess you guys can really buy me an Anger Management course for Christmas since everyone keeps telling me I need to go for one before I eventually murder myself or someone.

She also mentioned that people born in the year of Rat and Pig are my "Gui Ren". Seriously, can it be more of a coincidence that Silly, Jie & Bessy are born in the year of Rat, while Zen and Jo are born in the year of Pig. My Yong Tau Foo girlies, you girls are stuck with this Fire Tiger for good!

That aside, I think she forgot to mention that I am too much of a nosy parker. Sometimes, I can't help it. I stumble into things that I don't want to stumble into. It's bloody deja vu because it has happened before.

I don't go around blog hopping, I never do but it always happens. Why do I always click on the damn wrong link?! Curiosity killed the cat. It obviously killed this Fire Tiger.

`Spinning: Something Corporate - Ruthless

The Holiday

The family princess aka Lolly has gotten into yet another fight. This time around, she's badly injured with mutiple serious wounds. Sigh. I'm gonna bring her to the vet first thing in the morning later.

And because of her sudden injury, the 5 week "holiday" at Silly's has some what come to an (abrupt) end. The plan was to stay until Saturday evening but obviously it is impossible now because I have to stay home to take care of Lolly. ):

I will not complain because I love Lolly and for one, Silly is so damn understanding, it makes me feel terrible.

That aside, I am definitely going to miss...

... the crazy things we have done in her darling, 369...

... the random and impromptu tanning session at Cafe Del Mar...

... the grocery shopping where I was "cheated" into buying this $4.05 Campbell's Chicken & Stars soup...

... her attempts at artistic photography...

... her "se lang" ways...

... the pillow talks...

... most of all, the physical presence of her. ((:

"There's something 'bout you that makes me want to step up
Step up and be with you
If that's okay with you"

`Spinning: Jamie Scott & The Town - When Will I See Your Face Again

Stitching Up

I had a seriously disturbing dream recently. I dreamt that I got into a freak accident and ended up with stitches running from my wrist to my shoulders and along my inner thighs on both legs. When I woke up from the dream, I was aching all over and immediately checked my arms and legs for the damn stitches.

I decided to check up on what stitches in dreams actually interpret and this is what I got.

"To dream that you have stitches, represents your responsibility in keeping/holding a situation or relationship together. You may fear that this situation/relationship is falling apart and needs to be mended. Consider also the symbolism of where the stitches are on the body for additional clues."

Know, it figures because I've been worrying about my relationships with various people of late. If you know me well enough, you'd know that I worry about a lot of things, including unnecessary stuff. Doesn't help that I'm super sensitive which means that half the time, I interpret a lot of things differently from a normal person.

I'm having a bad day. Just one of those emo over every single tiny fur ball days. The weather isn't helping much either, bloody dark clouds making me feel gloomier. Worst part, I have to work tonight. Sigh.

`Spinning: Jay-Z - Roc Boys (And The Winner Is...)

Sing With Me

As the end of the year and the festive season approaches, everyone seems to be thrown into some kind of reflective or emo mode. Here I am with my own, despite the obvious happiness and cheeriness I have been exhibiting in the past few entries.

2007 has been an eventful yet monotonous year for me. Opportunites came and went, just like how some people walked in and out of my life.

The opportunities, I know will come again but the people, some, have walked out permanently. For one, I am glad that she is out of my life for good because all she brought was unhappiness and misery but for some, I miss with a tinge of regret.

I suppose I did give it my best shot when it came to friendship but like a relationship, it takes two hands to clap. I did all I can to save the 2 friendships that I've some what lost this year but to no avail. I'd like to say, I really really miss the both of you.

Relationship wise, I always believe, we all learn something from each and every relationship we go through. This time, I've learnt that sometimes, being too independent doesn't work. That I have to love and respect myself before expecting someone to do the same.

I lost myself right from the start of the relationship. Lost all dignity and pride. I just hung on, for the sake of hanging on. I am just glad that now, I found myself back again, for my own sake.

Likewise, I thank those who never once gave up on me and I thank those who love me for who I am and I thank those who were there for me when I needed them.

To my friends, who have loved and lost, smile my darlings, love will always find it's way.

For now, sing with me,

"Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive as long as i know how to love
I know I'll stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give and
I'll survive
I will survive"

`Spinning: Electrico - Runaway

Sausages & Mushrooms

See at first I was just too lazy to blog but I couldn't resist. This has to go down abnegation.blogspot because the entire (eating) experience was just so damn satisfying.

Silly has been going on about cooking portabello mushrooms with mozzarella cheese for me for awhile and today, she finally did! ((:

My very own personal chef. Lol.

I swear I can still smell the sausages, butter, cheese and mushrooms from just looking at this picture.

Cheese heaven.

-drool-

-continues drooling-

All I can say is, the pictures cannot justify how good the food was. After 3 sausages and 4 mushrooms each, we couldn't resist and made another 5 mushrooms each. The thought of it, is still rather mouth watering. x: Next round, I'm thinking of adding bacon. -drools-

I am the happiest girl alive. Thank you Silly. ((:

Know sometimes, when you say something and it just comes out all so right and you know, you're really right. ((:

// `affinity *drea says:
You and I, we're good. That's what's good.

Grant My Christmas Wish!

Warning, this entry is going to be entirely self absorbed in the sense where I think everyone is going to buy something from the list from me, so please bear with me. I think I deserve to be self absorbed once in awhile.

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Okay, I know I promised pictures but I am just lazy okay?! Go check my Facebook if you want and if you're that in love with me, then get me to send you all my pictures okay? LOL.

It is the time of the year again, where I put up my dream list and wish list. This year, I am too lazy to put pictures of the items and I am also too lazy to separate them out. Well, I'm pretty sure you'd be able to tell which belongs to my dream list and which belongs to my wish list.

• Channel's 2.55 Bag in black please.
• Prada/Gucci/Marc Jacobs Wallet. You can ask me to specify the model and colour for you.
• Driving License. Meaning, you pay for my lessons.
• A Car. I have no idea what now but you can ask me again when I get my license.
• A house. So I can have my own bloody room for once in my life.
• A fully sponsored shopping spree. Sighh.
• April 77 Jeans.
• Another Tiffany & Co ring which I have my eyes on. Again, ask yours truly.
• N81 or if possible, I don't mind the iPhone.
• Jay Chou concert tickets. I swear I will love you for the rest of my life.
• New computer or laptop so I can finally get my own World Of Warcraft account.
• Sleeping pills. I really think I need some but no one will ever give them to me anyway.
• My darlings to be less busy so they can have coffee with me and bitch about life.
• My darlings to even remember that poor little, Andrea actually exists and misses the shit hell hole out of them.
• Strike lottery. I am satisfied with 100k, okay, maybe a million would be better.
• A trip to Hong Kong to shop and eat till I drop. I really miss it there.
• My family and friends to be safe, sound and happy.
• Books and more books.
• Put on some fucking weight for once.
• Santa to grant my wishes. Yes, I still believe in Santa okay? Too bad for you if you don't.
• Lingerie. You can get vouchers from Blush or Fling. If not, I'm a 34B for most bras and a 6/8 or Small for most undies. And oh, I like lace.
• iPod Nano 8GB in black. This has been on my list for years but it's not really a want want. Just greedy. But if you have too much spare cash, I'm cool with it.

Know, the list can just go on and on and on. So I shall just leave it here. Once again, I know there is nothing that anyone can actually afford so what the heck la. I just like putting up the same list every single year. At least I know one day, I will fulfil the entire list, by myself. (:

`Spinning: Nelly Furtado - Do It

I Could Be A Vampire

First things first, I have a note to myself and everyone who hangs out with me often enough or talks to me on MSN. Please clean my fucking room!

I swear, I have the messiest room on earth. All I did just now was, dump everything on my bed on the floor. Hahahaha. I'm tired and I don't know where to start can?! Plus I have a long day tomorrow. I know, excuses but ya, I won't do it today.

I vaguely remember not long ago, I swore on my blog that I'd clean my room out before the week ends. See thing is, I never got to it. -slaps self- So everyone, please bug me to clean my room especially my entire 3 years worth of TP notes that I keep for God knows what reasons.

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I just finished a 2 hour session of online sensation with my ever dearest Aandra the Warlock & Mezzthang the Void Walker. GOD I'VE MISSED WORLD OF WARCRAFT! Lol! I promise to rendezvous with the both of you soon. Yes, I'm speaking to them as if they can walk, talk, read and use the Internet. I like can!

Anyhoos, had dinner earlier at Ashton's with Silly, Mummy, Lil Brat and Simon today. For the first time (I think) in my life, I did not complain that my steak wasn't "rare" enough for me. The sight and taste of the blood oozing out was, orgasmic. Haha.

For the orgasm, we queued for almost an hour before getting a seriously dim witted service staff to ask us if it was okay if we spilt up and sat at 2 separate tables. Like wtf?! What kind of seriously no logic, stupid question is that? Goodness.

Now, I digress. Sometimes, I think I secretly am a vampire. Hahahahaha.

I love my steaks medium rare or rare if I can bargain with the people I'm having it with to tolerate the blood. Then I love pig's blood, (I know, go ahead and barf) which you can't get in Singapore anymore. I also enjoy watching the nurse when they draw my blood. That's my not so secret anymore reason for wanting to donate blood but I can't do it anyway because I have to be 45KG and above.

I also enjoy biting people, a couple have suffered from this but I am not as extreme as some people I know of. Then I absolutely hate tomato juice, which from those B grade flims, you see vampires feeding on tomato juice as subsitute for blood and absolutely hating it cause they much rather have blood. Lastly, most of the time, I sleep in the day and am awake at night.

I know, I watch too much TV and I just think too much. But maybe, just maybe, I could be a vampire. Hahahahahahahahahahaha.

Okay, bed time now, enough nonsense. So fucking tired. Pictures from the week in the next entry.

`Spinning: Corrinne May - If I Kissed You