From Your Daughter

*edited @ 0826 hours.

Friday
Was at Emerald 5 Hill, Ice Cold Beer, Harry's Bar, Dbl O & O Bar for work. Silly tagged along, Bessy, Jie and Denise came along after awhile.

Finally when work ended, we headed over to Zouk where I got disgustingly drunk on 2 Tequila Pops. Geh qiang la me! Just because everyone else was happily high and I was sober so I told Silly to buy me 2 Tequila Pops.

I can't even remember when was the last time I was so drunk. Got to Spize and I headed straight for the toilet to puke. Back to the table and continued puking like mad while everyone was happily having supper. -.-

Silly drove home with me puking in the passenger seat and parked downstairs, brought me up first before going back down to park her car proper. Then as usual, I got sober and started bugging her for food at 0800 hours. LOL. Thank you Silly for taking care of me that night. It meant a lot to me. ((:

Saturday
Picked Elena and Bessy up before going down to Vivo. Then it was work again at Arena. Was so hung over and tired, I barely worked because half the time I was visiting the toilet. God.

Had porridge at Chinatown then Silly and I headed to Marina South for a Daytona competition and to kill time. I LOST, by a bit! Knn. Never mind, we will play again okay? Haha.

Met Zenna and Casey at St James's Mono. Basically just sat there, talking nonsense, listening to people sing, drinking beer and having a great time. I know, I was still drinking. I swear I'm a mother fucking alcoholic now. All I think about is alcohol. LOL!

Headed down to Dragonfly for a bit before we left and I managed to convince Silly to go for Zouk Out! Or rather, Zenna did. YAY! The entire clan will be Zouk Out-ing. Hur.

Sunday
So much for Cafe Del Mar but Silly and I woke up at like 1800 hours. Lazed around for awhile before leaving to Bessy's for dinner. Picked Jo up and went to collect my stuff back. Thank you for returning them finally.

Went to Happy Daze and was very tempted to order a Heineken before everyone gave me the evil eye so I settled for a Double Chocolate Chip milkshake. Belly & Jordan came along awhile later and we all had a great time catching up. (:

Monday
Didn't plan to head out but I did anyway. Met up with Silly to meet Jac for awhile. Thanks for the bag dear! See you on Thursday!

Borders after that and I bought my 2008 organiser. Then I got hungry again so we went to Cuppage for supper. I swear other than being an alcoholic of late, I'm eating like some mad woman but sadly, I am still 40KG. )):

KTV-ed after supper and damn, it was good. I've missed KTV so much man, though 4 hours wasn't sufficient. LOL.

So yes, those were the highlights of my weekend. I feel so busy these days. Doesn't help that 3/4 of my pay is gone already. Omfg please. I AM SO BROKE and I haven't even shopped or even gone for my damn haircut. HOW HOW HOW?! -panics-

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I am going to be a good girl and stay home the next 2 days. As much as I want to avoid facing the problems, I guess sometimes, we just can't run away.

I'm just tired, tired of being the one that worries you. I'm not a little girl anymore you know? I'm sorry for going MIA for the last week, I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed me.

Sometimes, I really wish I could just tell you every single little thing that's happening to me in my life. Even though I am officially out of the closet to you, I still fear the objection or rejection.

I want to tell you that I'm really happy now, that I've never been so happy with anyone in the past 3 to 4 years but I am scared.

I just want to let you know, I love you mummy. You mean the world to me, you really do.

I know she doesn't read my blog but I just had to get it out of my system. I just had to. I guess, I'll do it the way I know. I'll write her a letter.

*I sent her a sms after she left for work instead. I feel so much better clearing things up. Problem now is, I am wide awake. Bugger.

`Spinning: Groove Armada - From The Rooftops

Your Royal Highness, Me

I had this urge to blog while on my way home from town after FEP's chicken rice with Silly. I know this topic is absolutely bo liao and retarded but it's my blog right?! LOL.

After staying with Silly since Sunday, I've gotten so bloody used to be driven around. I feel so damn spoilt and princess-y. BUT, I refuse to take advantage of it or get too used to it.

Ironically, it's not a good thing know?! I kinda miss the long bus rides where I can just either read my journey home or stone and do some "life reflection" and sing to myself along with whatever's on the radio.

Then Jac will be back this Sunday, which just means, more car rides! Haha! God, I'm getting way too spoiled. Oh well, I'm going to take a bus to town later anyway, so not that spoiled right? Haha.

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You make me feel like a princess. ((:

"It's amazing how you knock me off my feet, hmm
Every time you come around me
I get weak, oh yeah
Nobody ever made me feel this way, oh
You kiss my lips
and then you take my breath away
So I wanna know"

`Spinning: Deep Dish - Say Hello (Extended Mix)

Re-Discovering Eden

Apparently I cannot be subtle. So much for thinking I could be subtle when necessary. I reckon it's just me, too damn straight forward for my own good. Hur.

I've been very happy. It really is like re-discovering Eden all over again. Thank you, for bringing the smiles back to me. ((:

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The week's been extremely good, minus the fact that I haven't been home the past 5 days and won't be home for the next 3 days. Haha. I've got my ass parked at the other end of Singapore, Bukit Panjang. I know, so far right? That's why, every time Silly is supposed to drive me home, I end up not going because I feel bad for making her drive so far back and forth. It's really far okay! Ain't I sweet. LOL!

The past few days passed by so quickly I can barely remember what I have done except for clubbing last night because I can still feel the alcohol in my blood. Chivas Green Tea, Tequila Pop, Watermelon Martini, Lychee Martini, Heineken, Triple Jack. Just the mention of all the alcohol I had last night makes me wanna barf.

Anyhoos, when Silly leaves for work every morning, I'm either online the entire day chatting with her and Zen or rolling around in her "supposedly famous" bed. Lol. Poor Silly has been so busy entertaining me that she's barely had proper rest. I'm guilty as charged.

This weekend is going to be one long weekend but I'm excited. Haha. Zouk tomorrow, chill out on Saturday and Cafe Del Mar on Sunday! God, I'm a fucking alcoholic.

"I've looked for love in stranger places
but never found someone like
you
someone whose smile
makes me feel i've been holding back
and now
there's nothing I can do

Cause this is real, and this is good
it warms the inside just like
it should
but most of all
most of all, it's built to last
it's built to
last

All of our friends
saw from the start
so why didn't we believe it
too?
now look, where we are
you're in my heart now
and there's no
escaping it for you

Cause this is real, and this is good
it warms the inside just like
it should
but most of all
most of all, it's built to last

Walking on the hills at night
with those fireworks and
candlelight
you and i were made to get love right

Cause this is real, and this is good
it warms the inside just like
it should
but most of all
most of all, it's built to last

Cause you are the sun in my universe
consider the best when we felt
the worst
and most of all, most of all
most of all, most of all,
most
of all, most of all
it's built to last"

`Spinning: Melee - Built To Last

Too Little, Too Late

Since I am too awake to fall asleep on my wet hair, here I am again, blogging to kill time. Hur.

First things first. As much as I felt your apology was probably the first one you ever meant deep down, it was just too little too late. Just return me my things, don't make me turn things ugly. Things are already as ugly as they can get already, so please, don't push me over the edge.

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Friday, was so exhilarated from getting my pay after 2 fucking broke months, I was literally delirious. On my way out, I was such a happy bunny listening to the radio play clubbing music and smiling to myself like an absolute crazy moron. LOL.

Elena and I celebrated pay day by drinking a flaming lambo each on empty stomachs. Haha. Sadly, like Bessy said, the alcohol was wasted on us because we barely got high. Then I got to meet Denise darling after almost 7 weeks! I've missed you so much darling. Let me know when you're not on flight and we'll do coffee okay? Loves!

After Phuture and Zouk both closed, we continued our clubbing escapade to Dragonfly, which closed 5 minutes upon our arrival. Hahaha. I feel like a fucking alcoholic these days man. -sayangs liver- LOL!

Saturday, cabbed home from Silly's place to shower and change before heading out again to meet the "current" usual suspects. Had dinner while watching my very first R21 movie (Yes, I'm slow can), Saw 4.

I know, how can I have dinner while watching such a gory movie right? But honestly, I found Saw 4 boring, I was happily enjoying my fish and chips while watching them rip body parts like no body's business.

After the movie, chilled at NYDC for awhile before heading back to the cinema for Beowulf. It was yet but another boring movie. Bessy actually fell asleep 1/4 into the movie. Haha. The only conclusion I could get from Beowulf was that, the dick and the brain are unable to function together.

See, the plan was to NOT club because we were all too exhausted but I got a phone call and a text from 2 different people asking why my ass wasn't parked at Zouk. Haha.

While smoking after the movie, I bumped into Adah! Omfg, 5 fucking years never see her and she hasn't changed one tiny bit. Still the same old silly ah lian. (: If you do read this babe, it was really nice catching up with you over cigarettes. To think I used to nag at you bout smoking back during KC days. Hurhur.

Got 4 our asses to Zouk and met dear OLD Tox there with my long deserved alcoholic treat. Hahaha. It was nice seeing you too. Glad we managed to catch up. Remember, want to find girlfriend, please be patient okay? Haha.

Not forgetting my dearest glam podium queen Marilyn. It's so good that I've been seeing you at least once a week the past 2 weeks. You have no idea how much I missed you.

So anyway, I still have yet to do any shopping while Elena spent 200 bucks within 15 minutes at Guess. Haha. Monday's my day! I am going shopping alone! YAY! (Note to self, book respective appointments with Suzanne & Browhaus)

And and and, I still want to watch Stardust. -nudges silly- ((:

"I loved you with a firein red, now it's turning blue
And you say "Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late"

`Spinning: Timbaland Feat. One Republic - Apologize

Happy Happy Me!

Omg. I just had to blog and spread my happiness please! MY FUCKING PAY IS IN! Omg omg omg! SO HAPPY LA! Words cannot describe how happy I am can?! LOL.

I have a whole list of things to buy which I've been mentally making up while waiting for my pay to come in the past 2 months. It's been months since I've shopped so tomorrow, I am going shopping! Wheee~

I need to buy my 2008 organiser, Christmas cards, slippers and underwear (again). At least these are the stuff I'm definitely going to buy. So exciting!

Then tonight, it's Zouk with all my darlings. The plan is for everyone to get high. Then Zen and I have another evil plan. Hahaha. If we do execute the plan, I will blog about it here. LOL.

Okay, as you can tell, I'm extremely happy, happy mad kind. So yes, I'm going to sign off here before more nonsense comes blabbering out.

`Spinning: Gwen Stefani - Wind It Up

Because Of You

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

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And I really hate it.

`Spinning: ATB & Paul Van Dyk - Rave Me

Facebook Me

I finally joined Facebook. Okay I know, I'm super slow like a mountain tortoise but so what? Haha.

I was adamant to not join Facebook because, I just didn't want to. Just like when how Friendster first came out and I didn't want to join until I remember Ryna and Quek psycho-ed me into it. This time, every other person who talks to me on MSN asks me if I have a Facebook account. Every time I say no, they start the "Join Facebook" campaign. -.-

Until Zen kept on badgering me this afternoon, telling me the benefits, this and that and I cannot remember what else. Haha. Then she continued with telling me bout (fluff)Friends because she remembers that I have a secret obsession with Neopets. LOL. (I haven't logged into Neopets after I discovered the wonders of World of Warcraft)

So I gave in, because I was tired of everyone asking why I don't do Facebook. God. This is called PEER PRESSURE! Now that I'm in, people are telling me I'm going to get addicted. Lol. Honestly? I doubt so. Facebook is definitely not as addictive as WoW but it is true that it's good to kill time when one's bored.

So yes, just add me and stop badgering me already. Haha. The name's Drea Lim, too many bloody Andrea Lim's already.

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Strangely, I actually do miss you but it's a good thing I think? I hope it's a good thing. Not you but you, yes you.

`Spinning: Groove Armada - Song 4 Mutya (Out of Control)

Emo Is Contagious

I texted Bessy earlier and told her that I may have just caught her emo nemo disease. Haha. Last night I was emo bout something. Tonight, it's about an entirely different thing.

Sometimes, I think I stress myself way too much. Relax Andrea, relax! I need to be serious about the right things and I never seem to be able to do that.

But Bessy is right. What the hell am I emo-ing about. Seriously, I have no idea please. Don't know why emo also. Knn, slap me la please someone. I should be enjoying what's going on in my life now, not emo-ing over it. But I can't help thinking bout the what if's.

I guess, it all boils down to, I'm scared. Know what, the previous paragraphs don't even make sense to me.

"If I wrote you a symphony,
Just to say how much you mean to me
(what would you do?)
If I told you you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regular
(tell me, would you?)"

`Spinning: Justin Timberlake - My Love (Paul Oakenfold Remix)

Closure

Know, love is seriously unfathomable. To one, it may mean something, to another, it's an entire different story.

I had a long chat session with Silly today and we both agreed that love is seriously overrated. My conclusion? So much for I love you.

So I camped out on MSN for a long long time and spoke to loads of people whom I haven't been talking to for eons and I'm really glad I did. It just made me realise, how much I miss all my friends, how much I love them and hopefully how much they love me. Haha.

Then there are those, whom I'm still disappointed with. That's why love is overrated. Be it love between friends, family or lovers.

Friendships do actually fall apart, even after going through hell together in Sec 4, watching each other grow up from the adolescent teen years. I miss my best friend, and I hate it that I always feel like I come in last. Know, I doubt you even read my blog anymore so what the hell.

But of course, there are those who always make me smile no matter what.

The conversation I had with Maye darling made me laugh like crazy and I truly wish I could just put it here but I can't because, well, after so much drama, I'd much rather a quiet life now.

After the countless conversations with various people, I realised something. I was never truly happy with you, never. I'm glad it ended the way it ended because, it just proves, that's the person you want everyone to perceive you to be. And as sad as it may sound, I never did realise I already fell out of love with you, until now, a month later, all I can feel is stupid because I actually put up with the insults and pain you inflicted on me.

You, are one person that I regret so much. That's saying something when I do not even regret my one night stands. Watch your back won't you? Karma will come for you.

As Aly & AJ sings in Potential Break Up Song,

Now all I want is just my stuff back
Do you get that? Let me repeat that
I want my stuff back
You can send it in a box
I don't care just drop it off
I won't be home
Cuz without me, you know you're lost
Minus you I'm better off
Soon you will know

Just return my stuff back won't you? I'm more than ready to move along.

`Spinning: Rihanna - Shut Up & Drive

Alcohol Induced Euphoria

Well well well, I'm back. ((:

Everything has been going fantastically well. Had the craziest long weekend ever and I can't even remember when was the last time I had so much fun like that.

Wednesday, Silly and Bessy came to pick me up before heading down to Toca for a beer then to Zouk where Jie and Zen came to join us shortly after. After Phuture closed, Jo came down and we mambo-ed till closing. LOL.

Thursday, with 3 hours of sleep, headed to JB with Mummy, Lil' Brat, Simon & Mage in Shining Armour. Bought loads of "stuff" but I shan't say what. x: Then it was the fucktastic dinner. Yummy. Got back to Singapore, took a bus to Newton then Mage in Shining armour dropped me at Play. Was there think for an hour then I got really high because Xiao Xin bought me a Tequila Pop. LOL

Friday, armed with yet again only 3 hours of sleep, went out with Mummy and Lil Brat the entire afternoon before meeting Silly and Bessy at Bugis. Then it was to Jo's chalet. All I can say about the chalet is, LOL. Words cannot describe all the madness that went on. Hope you had fun Jo. ((:

Saturday, after contemplating and some bugging from Jo, I ended up at Zouk, high for the 3rd night in the row. LOL.

Okay la, I'm lazy to go into details also. All I know is, Denise is coming back in 3 days, Jac in 12 days. I can't wait to see you guys.

Silly. ((:

`Spinning: Mario - Just A Friend

I am here to announce that yes, I am still alive and kicking. Haha. I have avoided coming online, because, I just don't feel like it, I guess. E-mail hasn't been checked for a million years and I'm not intending to check it anyway.

Every time someone asks if I'm okay, my only reply would be "I'm not okay, but not not okay either, I guess the best answer would be that I'm alive and kicking." (:

It's been a week and yet, the memories of you walking away are still so fresh in my head. In a sense, I've been expecting this but I guess it came too sudden. I actually woke mummy up at 0700 hours on a Sunday morning and cried to her for 2 entire hours non stop.

In other words, I'm also out of the closet to mummy. LOL. Which is also obvious enough just that I never said it out loud. But it sucks I guess, she's treating me so fragile like I'm a time bomb going to explode anytime. I don't even dare to cry in front of her, because I know she's worried.

It's been hard, pretending I'm okay so as to not make her worry but I guess I've been doing well enough, at least, I think so.

Besides all that, I've just been staying home, first couple of days, I killed time by reading Harry Potter AGAIN for the 1000th time. LOL.

From last Thursday till Sunday, I killed time by spending time with my lock and void walker because Mike finally was done with his laptop, 1 and a half more bars before I ding to 43 (If you do not understand this sentence, it's because it's bout WoW.)

Yesterday and today, I killed time by finishing up this Hong Kong drama serial that mummy's been watching. Yeah, I cried like a baby during the emo parts just like how I cried while watching the last episode of the 2100 hours show yesterday. Hur.

But that's just me I guess, I'm a cry baby and that will never change. BUT BUT, I've been good, the entire week I only cried on Sunday, Thursday morning and last night. Which in my terms, is already very fantastic.

I would like to thank quite a few people who've been so sweet to listen to me cry, go on and on etc.

Firstly of course to mummy, who though has been treating me like a time bomb, I know you're just as simple as concerned. And for secretly putting money into my wallet though I told you I had money when I didn't. I love you.

To Simon, thanks for listening to me and offering me tissues. Hur. To Ah Bay aka Lil Brat, by acting like yourself and making me laugh even when I was crying like mad. I love you both. Be good to one another yes?

To my mage in shining armour (LOL), Mike. Thank you for always being there for the warlock in distress. Stop calling me noob though. LOL. I'm giving you enough time to level Shucks to catch up with Aandra okay?! AND, STOP IRRITATING ME HOR!

To Jie, thanks for emo-ing with me while I had a stolen conversation with you in my toilet last night (to avoid mummy seeing me cry which she did figure out after that anyway). And yes, I remember our Thursday balcony date though someone said, either KTV or Play ends up saying don't KTV, we go Play. LOL. Smack you. Love you la Jie.

To Lian Jin, thank you for bringing me out on Thursday morning at 0400 hours to play arcade and in your words, to beat the crap out of "monsters" so I will feel better though I made it clear to you I'd rather beat the crap out of humans and you weren't man enough to let me beat you. LOL. One more thing, I hope you remember to bring Daniel Henny back for me so I can marry him. LOL.

To Elena, for letting me "see the light". Thank you for being so brutally honest, I really appreciate it.

To Bessy, for being another brutally honest person and made me hide in the toilet to cry to Jie. I know you care and I really appreciate it, we can emo together this weekend when you're out of camp and when Jie & Jo are busy pak tor-ing. LOL.

To Jac, for promising to take me out as often as you can when you come back at the end of next month. And for giving me hope that you'll have money to buy me an air ticket to Perth tomorrow. LOL. Can't wait for you to be back to drive me around Singapore. Hur.

To Denise, Miss Tee Su-An. Get your ass back from Tokyo. I need a coffee session with you. Haha. Hope you're doing fine there. Misses. And and, I WANT VOGUE!!

Lastly, to everyone else who cares.

WHO WANTS TO BRING ME OUT TO KTV?! AND LISTEN TO ME GO OFF TUNE AND SING JIE KOU TEN THOUSAND TIMES? I know Jie will be the first to run. LOL

`Spinning: Jay Chou - Jie Kou

The Online Sensation

I've totally gone off MSN, those who have me on their list would know that I haven't been online for like eons. Besides work on the occasional weekend, all I do is stay home, read, glue myself to the telly, eat like a pig but don't put on weight -grumbles-, continue being a pig by sleeping too much and, World of Warcraft. Yes you heard me right, WoW. -mock horror-

I've always been a gamer of some sort. I've downloaded all the trial games from Yahoo Games and played them all before so to people who know about that, it's nothing surprising.

Besides all that, met up with Denise darling yesterday for dinner. It was a short but a good meeting at Bedok interchange's LJS. Caught up quite a lot and I'm glad we did because she's leaving for Tokyo on Sunday for 6 weeks! I'll miss you babe. ):

And speaking of missing, I do miss MINE. I haven't been staying over at her place on Saturday for 3/4 weeks already. Always because I either have to work the next day, or we end up at places like Geylang for supper which is so near my place I could hear my chou chous and Lolly calling out to me. LOL.

I miss the Hershey baby and the new addition, Hercules the smelly cute boy. I MISS MY TAN FAMILY! Do y'all miss me? ):

Work tomorrow and Saturday. I want to complain I'm tired but I can't, because I last worked 9 days ago. x:

`Spinning: Dr Dre feat. Snoop Dogg - The Next Episode

Come Money Money Come!

Just had my shower and I'm feeling so damn relaxed. Jack Daniels' event earlier from 2300 - 0200 hours at Shaw Plaza, Asoka.

Well, Asoka is an Indian club so yeah, 99% of the crowd there were Indians. Surprisingly, they were mostly locals and people my age or slightly older. So during the live band intervals, they played pretty cool clubbing music that resembled HRC a lot, loads of reggae like Tamale and Mirame of course. Hur.

The biggest surprise of all, they actually played a trance track which was Destination Calabria. Like the least expected please! Haha. I was stunned for a moment while stoning.

Work was pretty slack but I'm really knacked cause I've been sleeping around 0100 and waking up around noon. Had supper at Lavender Square with Elena, her friend and his friends. Ba Chor Mee rocks my socks! LOL. Cabbed home myself despite her friend offering to send me back cause he'll still have to send her back to Bukit Merah before sending me back to Bedok Reservoir and I was just too tired to save the cab fare.

Will still be working for JD at Big Bike's Fest tomorrow from 1500 - 1900, then 2100 - 0000 at CHIJMES. Tired! Plus, Sunday there's still Big Bike Fest, so that's another 4 hours. I feel like dying of exhaustion already.

Then Tuesday there's a golf event at Sentosa whereby I have to report at Harbour Front at 0930! Want to how early please. It means I gotta get outta bed before 0700. Then the event ends around 2100 hours at night, fucking almost 12 hours of work! -cries-

All for the sake of, money. For now, it's bed time. Goodnight world. ((:

`Spinning: Fergie Ft. Sean Kingston - Big Girls Don't Cry

Oh Bother!

Wah. It's been almost an entire month since I've blogged man. Shush. Okay, even if I do come online, I'm too lazy to blog. Truth is, I haven't been coming online at all. I just don't feel like coming online okay?

Back to bumming around but there's a JD event tomorrow and hopefully on Saturday. Then come Tuesday, some golf event at Sentosa. Reporting time at 0900 at Harbour Front which means I gotta get up before 0700, want to how early please!

Been hanging out with the Yong Tau Foo girlies. Last last Saturday, met them for HRC & MoS. Last Thursday, headed to Play with them. It felt so Mad Monks can! LOL. Saturday met them for awhile before heading off to MoS. Where's that Mahjong session? I suppose it's not going to materialise since MINE is starting school next week.

MINE has been Zouk-ing with them every Wednesday but come Wednesday, I always feel too exhausted to fight the madness of the crowd. I suppose it's a sign of early ageing plus the fact I don't like Wednesday clubbing anymore.

So yes, according to everyone, including MINE, I've been MIA. Sigh. Sometimes, you just don't feel like talking to anyone anymore and all you want to do is to draw yourself into seclusion and become a hermit. Maybe it only applies to me, I don't know.

`Spinning: Sneaker Pimps - Six Underground

"Some days I feel broken inside but I won't admit"

Funky Aunties

First week of work didn't go so well. Monday, turned up with bad sore throat and non stop leaking nose. Bleeding mother fucking irritating can. By the time I was on my way home, I started to feel feverish and once it was 10pm, I had a full blown fever.

It got worst throughout the night and woke up with a high fever the next day so had no choice but to call in sick cause I was feeling so weak and faint. Every time I got up to make myself to go to the clinic downstairs, I just could not get myself to do it because I was so afraid I'd faint somewhere on the 10 minutes journey. At the end, I waited for mummy to finish work then met her at the bus stop before she took me to the clinic.

Although I had 2 days worth of MC to allow me to recuperate, I had to go back the work the next day. -cries- And till today, only my fever and leaky nose have bade me farewell. Cough and sore throat still sticking to me like a couple of warts.

So yes, I'm tired, exhausted physically and mentally but I do enjoy working there. Being the youngest always has it's benefits, especially when all your colleagues are aunties (Aged late 30s and above) who listen to Justin Timberlake and know the latest R&B/Hip Hop hits from the Radio. :D

*Exclusive: Hershey the Chocolate Monster looking BEE-Z.

`Spinning: Eve Featuring Swizz Beatz - Tambourine

First & Last's

Been wanting to change my blog layout for awhile now but after an aimless 2 hours of surfing or procrastination of creating my own, I'm just too darn lazy to do any HTML/CSS or to upgrade it to XML. Shall wait for another time when I'm too damn bloody bored and when the mojo kicks in.

Today's my last day at NAFA and I'm just here to do nothing the entire day, which sucks because it makes me so damn sleepy especially after having 2 meals in a day already. Plus, I came in at 0815 so I can leave earlier and because I didn't sleep at all. -grumbles-

It's kinda sad to leave here cause I get along with my colleagues and boss rather well. Then Monday will come along and I'll have to get used to a new environment again. I hate this routine.

Well at least my new manager seems pretty nice but then, so did the bitch that I worked for previously. Though I'm a lil wary of my new boss (who is my manager's boss but my boss as well) but I have learnt that, sometimes, first impressions are very deceiving. For all I know, my boss may be the nice one and my manager's from hell to torture me.

I hope I find a smoking kaki at the new place because currently at NAFA, I'm the only one who smokes in the entire department and it doesn't help that it's an educational institute so it makes smoking very lonely and a chore to smoke "outside" the building.

Then there's the dreaded 5.5 working days. I want to complain non-stop but I will not harp on it and just live with it. One more thing, MSN had better be for "legal" usage at the new place because I'd really harbour "I want to quit right away" thoughts once I realise MSN is STRICTLY not allowed.

Sigh. I really pray that it'll turn out good and if it doesn't I will do my best to live with it because I want to buy a couple of things and go for another holiday soon.

"There's never a perfect job
Not even when you're self employed."

The Forked Path

It is now August, 8th month into 2007 and what have I accomplished in this year? Nothing. Absolutely nothing.

I'm disappointed, I really am. Now, I'm given a choice to prove myself once again, but will I fail like I have the past few times? Will I be able to leave this path behind and embark on a brand new one? I don't know. I do know that I am the only one who can answer these questions and ultimately, it's all up to me.

I'm scared. Even presently, I'm failing, again. So should I take this chance with determination? But what if I fail once again. I don't know how many times I can take failing. How many times before it totally wears me down.

I will not make excuses for myself anymore. What I am today, is no one's fault but mine. Can I take this challenge and prove everyone, including myself wrong? All I know, there's this hesitation, because I don't want to fail again.

`Spinning: Alex Gaudino Ft. Crystal Wa - Destination Calabria

"Sometimes it seems no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul"

Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows

*Warning, spoilers ahead.

Well well, it's been awhile since I have blogged. Been busy with work in general and trying to catch up on beauty sleep.

So last Saturday, finally collected the book and by Sunday night, I finished it. Hurhur. Didn't go to work on Monday and ended up reading it for the second time. Now the book's with my boss. Hur.

Love love loved the ending. The reason behind why Snape is actually good was rather touching too. Sigh. All in all, I thought it was a good closure for Harry Potter & friends.

Deaths included Hedwig, Mad Eye Moody, Peter Pettigrew, Fred Weasley, Nymphadora Tonks and Remus Lupin (who already had a baby boy). Speaking of Hedwig, I was given a TY Beanie of Hedwig when I collected my book. Who'd think she'd die as well. Sigh. Least, amidst all the speculation that one or two of the main characters would die, none came true and I'm glad.

The only disappointing part was the lack of details about the 19 years later. We know Hermione and Ron got married and had 2 kids, one named Rose, the other Hugo. Ginny and Harry got married and had 3 kids, James, Lily and Albus Severus (after Dumbledore and Snape). That Neville Longbottom became a professor at Hogwarts and Draco Malfoy became "good" of sorts and had 1 kid too. Haha.

But I was wondering bout Luna Lovegood, George Weasley (Fred died), Bill Weasley and his part Veela wife, Fleur, etc. Guess the book was already thick enough and details bout the main characters sufficed.

Now, the Potter mania is finally over. Just left with Half Blood Prince and The Deathly Hallows movies to come out. Then, that will really mark the end of the Potter mania.

Harry Potter & The Order of The Phoenix

*Warning, spoilers ahead.

Met MINE after work and after school respectively at PS to catch Harry Potter & The Order of The Phoenix. Booked the tickets a couple of weeks back so you can guess how excited I was to catch the movie. But well, the movie turned out rather disappointing for me.

For those like MINE who has never went near the book, would probably not really comprehend with what exactly was going on in the movie. Everything moved so fast, putting as much details as they can in each and every scene.

Then as usual, the minor changes in the plot that only the avid HP readers would notice and this, was right from the start of the movie.

Dudley was not sent to the hospital; They only left just before TOTP(The Order of The Phoenix) turned up because Tonks sent them a muggle mail saying they won a best garden award thingy. TOTP did not just turn up at Harry's room door; Harry went down to the kitchen when he heard a crash made by Tonks.

I will just stop at the first two differences cause it'll take forever to list everything I spotted. I guess I'm just being super anal but yeah, I couldn't help going through the book while the movie played on.

But can someone just please tell me why Cho became the one who told on DA's meetings?! It was supposed to be Cho's best friend, Marietta and I was waiting to see the word SNEAK etched across her face!

And can someone else please tell me why, Sirus Black's mother's potrait did not scream the entire 1 minute of screen time it was given?! It was screaming in the entire book. I was looking forward to hearing her screech like a banshee.

Sigh. So yes, I was rather disappointed. I agreed with Jie that the previous directors were better but a valid point is that this book is way longer than the previous ones.

There were good things I reckon (typing this a lil reluctantly). Umbridge was as irritating and disgusting as depicted in the book. I personally loved Luna Lovegood, she was just so Looney. Haha.

Emma Watson is growing into a very pretty lady. The rest, I'm not too sure. X: Jie reckons that Daniel Radcliff is hot but I think otherwise. Still like his look better in Harry Potter & The Philosopher's Stone, way cuter there.

So yes. Sigh. Saturday, is the release of Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows. Rumours are that 2 of the main characters would die. I'm keeping my fingers crossed cause personally I don't want anyone to die.

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On another note, I've been updating so frequently because I have absolutely nothing to do at work. In fact, I'm so damn sick of it cause I am bored and cold in the office. Plus, I'm so sleepy. Haven't been getting enough rest man. Sigh.

So yeah, if you see me on MSN and I'm not on Busy mode, come and disturb me or something. Dying of boredom here.

Smellin' Good

So this morning, I headed to the airport for something (you don't have to know what unless I choose to tell you). After I ran my errand, I proceeded to take the MRT to work.

Next to me sat 2 really cute Australian guys BUT, knn, body odour please. Yes, I have a real sensitive nose so I get extremely irate with all kinds of smells, pleasant or unpleasant.

I try not to walk into perfume stores or stores selling potpourri and sorts because it drives my nose crazy and gives me a bleeding headache. So yes, that's how sensitive my nose is.

Saturday at Phuture, there was a guy who stood in front of me who smelt so bad I wanted to barf my Heineken out. Seriously, can't people who smell bad, smell that they smell bad?!

And the spark that ignited this blog post is, ONE OF MY COLLEAGUE HAS BODY ODOUR. Wah fuck, I swear I'm so glad I'm not in the same room as her. Every time I walk into her room, I hold my breath so I won't faint from the smell. I wonder how the rest in her room can handle the smell 9 hours a day without dying from lack of oxygen.

Since I am so anal about smells. I get really paranoid if I forget my deodorant or perfume. I will keep pestering MINE with "Baby, do I smell?" Lol.

Today I smell of Elizabeth Arden's Green Tea. Yesterday I smelt of Givenchy's My Givenchy. Tomorrow, I think it'll be DKNY. I have yet to use my Estee Lauder one that I bought from DFS. Hmmmm. Sometimes, I smell of MINE's perfume. Hur.

Yeah, am blogging all these nonsense because, I have nothing to do at work once again. Harry Potter & The Order of Phoenix later with MINE. YAY!