Fatigue

The previous entry I was whining about how bad work was. Well, today work was beyond bad. ):

She woke me up at 1530, knowing that I'd still be asleep even though work's at 1700. So I rushed through lunch and getting ready but I was still late for an hour. God I seriously need to stop being late for work for an hour. Yes I've always been late for an hour. -mumbles-

First few hours were so boring that I couldn't stop yawning. After my lonely dinner (she's been meeting me during my dinner breaks), it was so busy that the bill folders couldn't stop piling. Add on the fact that I was really tired, I just couldn't concentrate.

I was so busy and tired that I forgot to do my closing stuff before hand. See, Alley's famous (in Peranakan Place) for their "chop chop" closing. So EVERYONE waited for ME for about 20 minutes.

Gave my manager about $200 extra float, 1 credit card bill went missing and found, Sue (my colleague who came down to help me with closing since it's the first time I'm doing closing for Alley) had to help me tabulate my discounts and voids.

I was this close to tears because I felt so bad for screwing up. I'm a cry baby what. Cry cry cry.

But cut me some slack. First time I'm working at Alley and full shift at that. They just don't get it that different managers have their own way of doing things. They think I know everything because everything's supposed to be the same. -continues rambling to self-

I don't like working at Alley. Business is too good there. I can't catch up with the momentum, for now at least, because I don't get to choose where I want to work at. -chants Acid Acid Acid-

I'm seriously knackered. Monday did closing shift at Acid, Tuesday full shift at Acid, Wednesday was Zouk, earlier full shift at Alley. I'm really tired and I'm falling sick. Sore throat's back. Bah.

Enough about work.

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So on Wednesday, went down to her place with no sleep at all. Bought lunch and Goreng Pisang for her since she was craving for it. Then I finally fell asleep at her place. I think I can only sleep proper with her by my side. |:

Woke up, showered and changed then headed down to Md Sultan for dinner and to meet The Yong Tau Foo girlies.

It was nice meeting you girls for clubbing again. It's been a long time since all of us had so much fun together. ((:

Jo aka Tits insisted that we play the Idiot game again after Jamie, Michele and Jo (another Jo) joined us. Bloody bugger. Then she left for MoS.

Left Phunk around midnight after camera whoring. It's been a long long time since Zen's camera has seen my face man. LOL. Pictures at Zen's blog.

Jo, Jamie and Michele left for Home Club, Bessy went back home, Zen, Leong, Tits and myself headed to Zouk.

Ms. Leong Cui Shan Cheryl was SO DRUNK. Its been a LONG time since I saw you this drunk girl. She was this close to puking in the cab. Then I called RickyLee to get her ass down to look after her gf.

So my dear sister puked and puked and puked and PUKED. -screws nose in disgust- We were outside Zouk till 0100 looking after her. RickyLee then drove her back. SHEESH.

Woman, this is like the 726139128391623 time you never made it into Zouk because you were too drunk!

Then I got a surprise! She came down from MoS to look for me! ((:

Met my girls, Chy, Ryl and Marilyn at Zouk Main Room. Podium with the Glam Queen and the Slumber Princess! Its been a LONG LONG time since we mambo-ed on the podium together.

Headed back to Phuture because I knew she was getting bored with mambo. I promise I will mambo proper soon. Mambo deprived.

Thank God I had her with me because Zen disappeared to don't know where and Jo was like SUPER high. Good grieve. Why the hell am I always the only sober one.

Okay, Zen and I were a teeny bit high. Sometimes I wish I was like Bessy, knock out after a couple of glasses. It takes so damn long to get me really blissfully high. Oh, she was damn high after she left Phunk and at MoS. -coughlousycough-

Supper at the prata shop opposite with her, Zen, Zen's 2 guy friends, Jo, Jo's cousin and Jo's Zouk PR friend (I always cannot remember his name). We just sat there, ate and talked till 0600.

Seaweed and I then waited for a cab for like fucking 30 minutes. Then the most hilarious thing happened.

I was waiting at one side and she at the other. Then we both managed to get a cab at the same time. The problem was, the cab I got was going to Boon Lay. So I screamed across the road "Baby! This cab's going to Boon Lay" and we both ran towards each other the correct cab.

Okay, it may not seem funny now but it was hilarious. I think we looked damn stupid.

So now you know why I was so tired at work!? Because I only got home around 0700!

It's like 0600 now. I'm gonna conk out dead on my bed and wake up prolly to meet her and then to my Glam Queen's "GLAMOUROUS" themed birthday party. What to wear?! -panics-

Oh oh. Did I mention that I wore a dress? A flower printed baby doll. It's been 4 years since I wore a dress. The last time was KC Graduation.

Well, no one said anything so I reckon I looked fine. Only Leong and Bessy gave me a "Are you seriously wearing a dress because this is our first time seeing you in a dress" look. Smack you both.

P.S. I just spoke to Miss San Fransico aka Clair on MSN. She is coming back for summer. Omg omg omg. We all miss your Electric Blue Peugeot Convertible. AHEM. I meant, we all miss you! You know I was kidding! Come back quick! I want more late night Fong Seng Suppers!!

*I'll go any distance for you, for as long as you want.
(Pun intended)

"Never been here before
I'm intrigued and I'm sure
I'm searching for more
I've got something that's all mine"

Take Me Beyond The Rainbow With You

BAH. Work today was bad. I repeat, work was BAD.

I've been warned that Acid gets real busy on the nights where Charlene (1 of the talents) sings. I just never expected it to be so busy. -mumbles-

Everything was fine before I went for my break to talk to her. Then everything went downhill. Operations was so screwed up.

I was so busy that I didn't even managed to finish my closing proper. Short cut my way through, with permission of cause. Didn't tabulate my Visa, Masters & Amex, didn't count my cigarettes and only managed to count my cash at 0200 (Normally do it at 0130).

The floor staff had to wait for me to finish closing before we could go off. The routine is, the cashier is usually the first to finish closing, then helps the floor staff with closing. Today was an exception of course and plus, floor staff can't help the cashier with closing. |:

Thank God sales was good.

Besides the crazy hustle and bustle, drama was the word to describe the night. All 3 full time floor staff, 1 bartender, 1 cashier (yours truly) and manager were snapping at each other.

2 floor staff ended up crying because of customers and the bouncers had to step in. The customer was so agitated and was making a scene. Imagine the drama.

1 floor staff was this close to losing his temper, bartender was in a crabby mood because the orders could not stop coming in even at 0150 and he had to do his month end stock take, I was just too busy and everyone kept bugging me, manager was stressed.

I shall learn to do a perfect pour (Heineken All Stars standards) and help the bartenders when I'm free. HUR.

Shan't go into details but I was this close to crying as well. |:

Those in the service industry would know that the motto goes "Customers are ALWAYS right". But come on, with all honesty, customers are only right to a certain extent. We service staff are also humans, there's no need to hurl vulgarities at us.

On a lighter note, a conversation between my manager and I, that really cracked me up.

Manager: "Shit la, I just got word that Acid's been labelled as a 'Butch' hang out."

Me: "Why shit? I don't see that many butches what. Even so, "People Like Me" are a minority at Acid. Plus if they were a significant majority, I'd have a field day already and ask Kak Na (Asst Head Cashier) to put me permanently here."

Manager: "Its bad for the business girl. Regulars will run if it really comes to that state. So if you hear word about this, please tell me."

Me: "If I actually ever hear word that Acid's the new Mad Monks, you're in serious trouble." -gave her the cheeky grin-

Manager: "Die die die. Remember to tell me."

HAHAHA.

Don't get us wrong that my manager is implying that PLU (People like us) have no spending power. It's just that Acid has a strong group of regulars whom we depend on and we don't want them to run away if word gets out that Acid is a "lesbo" hang out.

Irony of the night? I saw 4 PLU friends of mine at work. LOL.

Tommmie and Noelle (IRC friends) who were such sweeties. They bought me fries and a Natsumi burger from MOS Burger. Like I'm not fat enough already. Psst. Diet. Marissa (KC school mate and ex butch hunt contestant) who ordered so many drinks from me and if I don't remember her name wrongly, Zac.

So you heard it first from me. Do not go to Acid if you're lesbian. Haha. Kidding! Come come and make me crabby from pilling bill folders.

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My period's like almost a week late which only means prolonged PMS. Banana shit fuck.

Coupled with insomnia and drifting in and out of sleep when I actually do fall asleep, I'm one crabby bitch. |:

Only she cheers me up. (:

It's 3 months since we went out on our first "date". New year's spent at LJS and Coffee Bean.

Everyone says we're in our honeymoon period that's why we're so blissfully happy. Note to all, the honeymoon period has been going on for a month now and it's going to last even longer because I say so.

Against all odds, I'll stickwitu. ((:

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*update: 0941 hours.

Drifted in and out of sleep for 2 hours. Got fed up and got up.

I have this headache that is threatening to burst my tiny head like one of those grosteque scenes in Final Destination 3.

So now I'm crabby, cranky and whiny.

-BIGPOUT-

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*update: 1006 hours.

Someone's going to "zhao" school now.

So I'm going to embark on my hour plus long journey to the west. (Pun not intended)

Tau Huey, Duck Rice, Chicken Rice and Goreng Pisang from Bedok Interchange later. Though it's going to be cold by the time I reach the west. Bah. Did I mention diet earlier? Whoops.

She'll un-pout me in about 2 hours. ((:

Out.

"When I first saw you, I saw love.
And the first time you touched me, I felt love.
And after all this time, you're still the one I love.

Looks like we made it,
look how far we've come my baby.
We might've took the long way,
we knew we'd get there some day.

They said "I'll bet they'll never make it".
But look at us holding on,
we're still together, still going strong.

You're still the one I run to,
the one I belong to.
You're still the one I want for life.
You're still the one I love,
the only one I dream of.
You're still the one I kiss goodnight."

All The Buzz

Acid Bar was good today. Started getting a lil busy around 2230 and with only 1 floor staff and Olivia (Asst Manager) upstairs doing paper work, I headed out of the bar and helped around. Getting used to working at Acid's pace (which is pretty slow) now, full shift tomorrow. -snores-

Thursday full shift at Alley Bar. I hate learning and adapting to the new environment. As of now, I already keep getting the discounts of Rouge and Acid all confused. Add on Alley's complicated promotions, I think I'm going to go bonkers.

I miss Rouge. I miss panicking when my bill folders start to stack up like a hill. Bah. I just like to be kept busy during work. A cashier's job is only stressful when doing closing. If not, I'm just standing around either doing nothing or chit chatting with someone.

Next two weeks is going to be mayhem for me. She hooked me up for some temp day job (Tues - Thurs) as some event helper at the Science Centre. Think Jurong West and think Bedok Reservoir. I'm going to die from the travelling. -mumbles- Think getting to spend more than 10 hours a day with her and the moolah and the travelling's worth it all. (:

So I'll be busy working my ass for the next 3 weeks starting from today. BAH. Think happy thoughts, MONEY. Okay, I'm happy. Just hope that I don't fall sick from juggling both gigs.

Herstory next Thursday at Zouk. Should be going if Maxine puts me (and hopefully her) on guest list. Shall see how energetic I am on that day after working for 4 straight days. Enough about work already.

Headed over to her place for lunch cause school ended early for her. Ate lunch, lazed around, napped (I slept at 0800 in the morning and got awoken by her AGAIN at noon), showered while she cooked dinner for me and I headed to work. |:

I have this strange intuition that tells me that people think I'm attached after the previous entry. Please note that I am still single but not available. In layman's terms (for the benefit of the less intellectual), I'm not with anyone but I'm not taking any other options into consideration. I'm happy with the way things are for now.

Anyhoos, here's the picture that Mumtazz took of us at Fresh 2006! last Friday.

Zouk or MoS this Wednesday? -headache- Friday will be spent at Marilyn's Birthday Party. Queen, can you tell me what you want for your birthday? -headache- I wonder what's up this weekend. Hrmmm.

"I believe in memories, they look so, so pretty when I sleep.
And when I wake up, you look so pretty sleeping next to me.
But there is not enough time,
and there is no, no song I could sing,
and there is no combination of words I could say.
But I will still tell you one thing,
we're better together."

Mollycoddling

Friday

• Work ended at 2100 sharp but she was late from picking me up from work despite the fact that she has a car. LOL.
• Bumped into Bessy and Loraine at the bus stop.
• All 4 of us attempted to open this bottle of herbal tea she bought for me, for my never ending cough.
  
• All ended up with swollen palms and whining to one another.
• Zouk.
• Ran around the place like a mad woman the moment I got there distributing the invites. (I really hate giving invites sometimes.)
• I didn't get the damn gold bling at first.
• Whined about it for almost an hour and got her pissed.
  
• You know how much I love gold. Real or fake, gold can already. Lol.
  
• Found one at the fountain tap at Zouk. It was just lying on the floor looking back at me. -double beams-
• Phuture for drinks.
• Watched Ping and Diamond down I think 2 (kinda lost count eventually) Flaming Lambos.
• Watched Leong and Bessy down 1 Flaming Lambo each.
• What the hell was with everyone and Flaming Lambos that night?!
• She ordered Midori Mango. Sweet! As in, the drink is really sweet. Love.
• Jac bought me a Bacardi Breezer Orange. Thanks dear! (:
• Podium Hogging.
• I totally miss the podiums at Zouk after Phuture-ing so often.
• Drama.
• One of the speakers caught fire and was sparking. Someone had to climb up to extinguish the fire. The people at members were busy taking pictures. LOL.
• Rick had to send some of them down to Cantonment down because of something. Shall not go into details.
• No, sorry but I didn't go to Cantonment. Hah.
  
• Home.
• Showered and went in search for food.
• We skipped dinner because she said she needed to buy a top to change.
• Which she did not buy in the end. Bleah.
• And she calls me a Glutton because of that. Hmph.
  

Saturday

• She woke me up early as usual. -grunts- 1300 is early considering we slept at like 0600 in the morning.
• Lazed about the house.
  
• Lil Brat cooked us Mac & Cheese for lunch but she doesn't like cheese (Stupid. Lol) so I had her share.
• Towning.
  
• Dinner at Wisma Foodcourt. Ba Chor Mee. I'm addicted.
• HRC.
  
• With Jo, Bessy, Leong, Rick & Cole. Yeah, it's been eons since I clubbed there.
• Her virgin trip.
  
• Played this game called "Idiot" I think. Freaking hilarious. A test of your vocabulary on Countries, Animals and Flowers.
• She was "Idiot idiot". Awww. -sayang-
• Leong was close to "Idiot idiot" as well. Told you NUS, Arts & Soci sucks my dear. LOL.
• She downed 2 glasses of Vodka Sprite and ended up getting a lil high. LOL *coughlousycough*
• Home.
• Bugged her to cook me food at 0500 in the morning. Ya, glutton what.
  

Sunday

• She woke me up early again. -grumbles-
• Lazed around the house for a very long time.
• Dinner at Lau Pa Sat.
  
• Stingray, Sambal Kangkong, La la, Satay, Sotong (Obviously I didn't eat this) and You Tiao. -burps- Thank you baby! (:
• Suntec Starbucks.
• Home.
• I read my archives for the past 3 months earlier. I was too bored. Bah.
  

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Missy Bliss is back in the house. Need I say more? Okay, don't barf on me now. ((:

"I will never find another lover, sweeter than you, sweeter than you.
And I will never find another lover, more precious than you, more precious than you."

This I Promise You

(((((((:

The previous entry was obviously not by me. This is Andrea by the way. Yes I'm the glutton mentioned. Heh.

Fresh was freaking good. Woohoo. Saw many many people there. Even the ex-bf from hell was there. Asked me to meet him at members for old times sake (it's been 6 years since we broke up). Some monkey replied him for me through text, "I'm with my girlfriend". LOL. As far as I know, I'm still quite single.

Thanks to everyone who was there early to collect their invites from me. Sorry that I was erm, late. Heh. Excuse me cause I was at work and plus the arse was a lil late from picking me up from work.

Did I mention that I love the gold bling they gave away. Didn't get it at first cause we were too late but I found one later. Saved the arse from hearing me whine about the damn bling.

Okay, back to my beautiful weekend.

"Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling and everytime we kiss,
I swear I could fly."

Invasion

Its 5.20AM now. . .
and some PIG is still eating fries
after finishing one bowl of instant noodle w/ egg!
ohhh, she's craving for onion rings now.
*Glutton, I know.

Anyway,
I have to finish this post before I can head to bed.
and babe wants a sweet sweet entry
but i'm brain freeze now. =/

aahhhh.
the radio's playing stickwitu now! =))

okay babe, here's something for you ;

I will kiss you like an angel,
Cradled in my wings,
I will take you up to heaven,
Show you precious things.

If you promise that you love me,
If you promise that you care,
I will be here for you always,
And forever this I swear.


alright, I think i'm done with this.
hope it *does the hand sign* you. HAH

till then,
hugs and kisses here i comeeee!!

There Ain't Nobody Better Than You & I

Almost everyone in my MSN group, "HTM Peeps", nick has something to do with the end of exams or graduation. Everytime I see such a nick, I feel like slapping myself. I'm the only one left who is no where near graduating.

So while all the final year tourism students were mugging for TDP on a Wednesday night, yours truly continued on with clubbing. I didn't see a need to even go collect the damn question paper and feel even more fucked up when everyone goes "Ya-hoo, graduation" once we step out of the exam hall.

Surprisingly with it being exam week or study week for most polys, Zouk was pretty packed. At least Phuture made me feel like I was in a sauna. It resulted in a very cranky Andrea because of the heat and the damn assholes who don't know how to say excuse me and just shove you in your ribs with their damn elbows. Was this close to getting myself another session at Cantonment again but I gave myself a mental verbal thrashing.

Add on the fact that it was so damn packed I couldn't shuffle. ): I think I kinda lost the mojo to do so. Practice makes perfect. -whines to the arse-

Work earlier was basically just stoning around and learning things from Edwin. That's the thing I love about Acid Bar, I get to learn bar skills whereas Rouge bartenders are always too busy to teach me anything. The spare time they get, they make use of it irritating the crap outta me. I think I have this "Please piss me off" face.

Anyway, call me sua-ku or whatever but I never knew that there was a cocktail called Snowball. I'm going down to Acid one day after pay day to have a Snowball, Mojito, Lychee Martini, Boston Beach Party, Sour Apple 7up (Quek's recommendation from a long time ago), Apricot Brandy (Marilyn's recommendation from a long time ago as well) and many many Heineken's. Plus their Cantonese Wings. -drools-

Pssst. I haven't even gotten high this 2006. Nbcb.

Invites to Fresh, Zouk's Annual Hip Hop Party tonight. 1 invite admits 2 before 2230. Let me know if you want them, I have extras. Drop me a text message or a call.

Pssst. I love my cousin please because I get to Zouk twice a week without paying cover. Hur.

My colleagues insists that I'm mad about Zouk and I'm a major Zouk-ette/Cheong-ster. Honestly, I've tamed down the clubbing quite a lot as compared to last year no? Put it this way, I get invites all the time, wouldn't it be a waste if I don't use them? -giving excuses-

Work at 1700 - 2100 later. Half shift. Hur. Purposely requested for half shift because of Fresh. -scheming grin- Prolly stone and talk cock the 4 hours away then the arse is going to pick me up with her car. -ahem-

I'm looking forward to the beautiful weekend. ((:

Minus my interview of course. I think I better head to church on Sunday to pray -hints to Quekypoo- after my interview tomorrow. -crosses everything I can cross-

I know I sound happy and upset at the same time. The time of the month is coming. Pms-ing therefore mood swings, add on things you told me today, stress from school and interview. Don't say I didn't warn you, back off.

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*update: 1533 hours.

I'm feeling really fucked up at this moment. Hormones working its magic on my emotions because there's nothing much to feel fucked up about actually. Aiya, I don't know. -crabby-

I get sarcarstic and shoot my mouth off when I'm crabby.
The stubborness just gets worst.
I'm possesive and totally love vinegar (pun intended).
I don't like to share what's mine.
If I set my mind on achieving something, I'll do everything it takes to get it. If I don't get it, no one else is going to get it either.
People whom I don't like get it even worst.

Now I gotta rush off for work. -even crabbier- I NEED A SMOKE. Not smoking makes me super crabby. -grumbles-

"Just your presence and I second guess my sanity,
yes it's a lesson, it's unfair, you stole my vanity.
My tummy's up in knots, and when I see ya, it gets so hot.
My common sense is out the door, can't seem to find the lock.
Take on me, you know inside you feel it right.
Take on me, I could die up in your arms tonight!
I melt with you, ya got me head over heels,
boy girl you keep me hanging on the way you make me feel."

In Limbo

Awoke groggily at 1500 yesterday after only falling asleep at 0800 earlier in the day. Made study plans and headed west Singapore at about 1645. Conclusion, brought my notes out for fun because I ended up doing everything but studying. My notes did not even come out of my bag to see the world.

e-business paper is in approximately 13 hours and truthfully, only half my notes are filled so what's there to study in the first place.

I've never been a diligent student but I've always made sure that I made use of the study week given to us and made a point to at least ensure that my notes are all intact and read through them once.

Obviously, this semester is another story. I just don't care anymore I guess. When you try your best, people say you don't. So might as well just give it up altogether. I know I sound like I am giving everything up again. I guess its just one of those "emo rocks my socks" days.

You know the feeling where you are dying to ask someone a question but hold it back time and time again because you're afraid of the answer? I feel like I'm experiencing repeated cases of Deja Vu.

Am I really afraid because of the last? Have I truly been jaded? Or is my stupid principle of "If she can do this to her, she can do the exact to you" just haunting me like a poltergeist? Tell me now if my gut feeling is playing tricks on me. Am I really being over sensitive or you're just hiding something from me?

Every part of my life is just hanging no where. Financially bad because I blowed my entire pay on the damn phone so I'm struggling right now. I'm waiting for April to come along because that's when there's a little more stability in this area.

Love life's basically status-less. Leong Jie used to say that I had "short spasms of bliss". The short spasms have been rather constant of late. See the word's constant not permanent.

Future is bleak because I don't even know if I can graduate. I have a interview this weekend though. Please cross your heart, fingers, toes and hair for me please.

I shall say a prayer before I sleep later. I'm really feeling helpless

"Tell me again that we'll be lovers and friends"

Pure Perfection

I'm back! Okay. Com's still not fixed but I'm using it through Safe Mode (Which means I can't access Ares and download music ):), beats not having any access to it. At least I get to MSN and blog! (Almost dead from the lack of access to the wonderful World Wide Web)

Before I start this long entry (I predict it will be a long one since I haven't blogged in such a long time) here are some long overdue photos from CNY.

Mummy dearest and Ashley.

Granny and Baby Anabelle (Ashley's younger sister, by the way, I named both of them)


Baby Belle and I.

So for the past two weeks I've been like hell busy. Busy with what I have no idea either seriously. Barely clubbed, I swear. 2 Wednesdays at Phuture (I miss Mambo. ): Ryl, Chy and Marilyn, when are we going to Mambo together?!), 1 Friday at Rouge (I seriously love staff benefits; Guest list) and 1 Saturday at Zouk. Okay, maybe not so barely after all.

Zouk last Saturday was fantastic! Firstly because I had invites. (Had invites to We Love House on Friday as well but I freaking forgot about We Love House and scheduled myself to work. Bah. Gave the invites away.) Secondly because I haven't clubbed to good old house music for the longest time. Totally refreshing change from all the R&B and Hip Hop. Thirdly because I have finally learnt to shuffle! Whee. Weird huh? Learning to shuffle with house music and in heels(I have very bad blisters now). Lastly, my dearest cousin (who works in Phuture, which explains my constant supply of invites) bought me Bacardi Breezer Orange. (:

Procrastinating on whether I should head to Zouk or MoS this Friday. Zouk's having Fresh (Annual Hip Hop Bash) and Kosheen will be performing live at MoS for the first time in Singapore! How how how?! Can I like go to both?! -headache-

Work's been okay I guess. This whole week I'm at Acid Bar. Did my first full shift at Acid today and guess what?! After working at Peranakan Place for 3 months and never getting any variance, I had a negative variance of $20 today. Fucking hell. I'm still puzzled about where the fucking money went to because I have to freaking pay for it when I didn't even take it! KNN. Plus, its weird when it's such an "exact" amount, if you get my gist. Argh.

Ex-classmate from KC, Serene Cheong, came to Acid today. Last time I saw her was in Sec 4, which was 4 years ago. I feel so old. Doubt anyone reading my blog knows her unless you were from 1/5 and 2/5 (1999, 2000) or took 55 from Hougang to KC back then with me. We used to take 55 together and it was through her that I knew that Ryan Rodrigues (ex-bf from hell) was interested in me. HAHAHA. That was fucking eons ago. When I was 14 please! 6 years ago.

She's still the same. Physical looks the same, still as smart (NTU, Mass Comm. In Sec 3, she went on to Pure Science while I went to Arts) and still as boy crazy (She and her group of friends were yakking loudly about guys).

It made me wonder (I was too bored at work), have I changed a lot? Physically I know many say that I lost quite a significant amount of weight. I beg to differ because I still weigh the same from 4 years ago and I think I look fatter now. Mentally I know I've changed a lot. The Andrea back then just shoots her mouth off without thinking ALL THE TIME. (Note I said all the time cause I still do it now, just not ALL THE TIME. Had enough of my mouth/blog getting me into trouble.)

Sigh. I miss my blue and white uniform days.

Anyway speaking of school, school now is fuck shit. Apparently, I've created quite an uproar among the lecturers for being the Final Year student who just cannot be bothered. Fantastic Andrea. I've been debarred for 2 modules, HT Seminars (which I got B+ for every assignment, no fucking use now anyway cause it's going to be a P grade.) and Tourism Development Policies. I know, slap me. I have never ever been debarred and I just have to screw my final semester up.

Whether I will graduate with everyone else remains unknown because even though I've been debarred, I get to do supplementary papers, which I have confidence in passing. It boils down to my National Education Forums. I lack 1 NE Forum to graduate and it depends on the Board of Examiners on whether they would allow me to graduate. I'd do ANYTHING to make up for that 1 NE Forum I lack. I need to get out of TP.

e-Business paper's on Wednesday and half my notes are still empty. Duh, I haven't started studying. Shall just pia on Tuesday night and Wednesday morning. Still wondering if I should head to Zouk on Wednesday because TDP's on Thursday but since I've been debarred, I don't need to even go for the paper, will prolly just go to collect the question paper and leave after 30 minutes of feeling like shit because everyone else can do the paper and even if I do it, it won't be graded.

Oh oh. I finally bought a new phone! Like FINALLY. Nokia 6111. -double beam- It's so pretty. Lalala. Downside? I spent my entire pay on it. Which means I'm zero till the next pay day (16 days to go). BAH. At least I've stopped smoking somehow. Okay, I didn't entirely go cold turkey, I just stopped buying them and am able to go without smoking. The craving only comes when I'm tired, stressed or depressed then I steal a stick or two from people. At least the quitting is going somewhere! Give me some credit please, I used to be a 20 sticks a day person.

Jie Leong and I planned early this year that we'd spend Valentine's day together but we ended up spending it separately. Which was obviously a good thing. Plus, we both ended up with 3 dates (had to reject 2). HAHAHA.

Valentine's day was perfection. I just have to show off my Valentine's Day present.

Gold Guess Wallet.

So pretty right?! My favourite colour! Love love! ((:

Anyway, walked passed Salvatore Ferragamo that day and I saw this really pretty Gold Handbag. Omg please. -salivates- Got another 2 pair of earrings at Bugis. A dangly gold one and a pair of bronze studs. I really need to stop getting gold earrings. Oh, collected my Lego Ring as well on Saturday. So pretty. ((:

Sorry I digressed into shopping. Heh. No more shopping for myself for a very long time. I have a whole list of promised presents for someone. -ahem- Plus, I don't have anything in particular I want right now besides a Lexus Sports in Black, DBS Black Card, Tiffany's Mesh Ring and Atlas Ring, a Condo downtown would be nice, my Gucci Wallet and Gucci Belt. -continues day dreaming-

The steamboat gathering at my place was really good. Thanks to everyone who came. I hope each and everyone of you had a good time eating and playing ban luck. I was too busy the whole night entertaining the different cliques till I barely ate and I forgot to take pictures. ):

The steamboat was split into 3 rounds. Table too small for everyone to eat together. I'm glad you guys wiped out most of the food and spared me from eating Tom Yam for the following days.

Gambling started even before the steamboat started. Lil Brat "zhng" the first round and my dear lucky sister won like don't know how much. Kns. I was such an angel that day, I didn't even gamble. Firstly I was broke and I know my own gambling luck too well already. Might as well stay away from it. Why dig my own grave right?

Queky stayed behind after everyone left (excluding Laura) and basically just continued gambling. LOL. We then walked her to the bus stop so she could catch the last bus home. Quekypoo, I don't know why we just can't seem to find a day to meet up. Hello, I seriously miss my buddy. Can you like bloody meet up with me before I slap you. Sorry I couldn't We Love House on Friday cause I was working~! Haha. I want a bestie day out soon!

I've been in a fairly good mood. Minus the part where I am broke. Otherwise, I'm quite a happy girl. (:

I'm sorry about the lie. White lie, black lie, purple lie, pink lie, yellow lie, green lie, whatever the colour of the lie, it's a God damn lie. I really am sorry and you know I didn't mean it. Thank you for all the smiles and love. -bigtighthug- Sweet jelly love!

Thursday and Friday I'll be at Acid Bar till 2100. Someone drop by and entertain me please. Happy Hour till 2100; Housepours going at 1 for 1.

I know the entry's a lil incoherent and all over the place but there's just too much to blog about. Feeling hungry now. Shall go make something to eat.

`Spinning: Nothing. (I can't even open Winamp or Windows Media Player. KNNBCCB)

"I can't believe it,
You're a dream comin' true.
I can't believe how,
I have fallen for you."

stickwitu*

Oohooh ooh oohooh ooh...
C'mon!

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here 
That's why I say (Hey) 

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u 

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between 
I want you to know that, you're the only one for me (one for me)
(What I'm sayin')

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

And now, ain't nothing else I can need 
And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me 
I got you, we'll be making love endlessly 
I'm with you (baby I'm with you)
Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)

So don't cha worry about 
People hanging around 
They ain't bringing us down 
I know you, and you know me 
And that's all that counts 
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's, that's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u (come on)
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

Hiatus

In school. Busy printing notes. No time to elaborate.

Com crashed on me. Think its got a virus. BAH. I miss blogging and msn-ing. Feels so good typing on the keyboard. Maybe I can just go type type on my keyboard for kicks. Cheap thrill.

All I have to say about the past week is, sweetness. Sweetness like never before. ((:

Okay, gotta run now. Its like 1600 and work is at 1700. Knn. 1 minute late deduct $1 okay. BAH.

Btw, I've gone cold turkey on ciggs. Offer me a cigg and I swear I will kill you.

Byebye.

If I Can't Have You, Baby I Would Rather Be By Myself

I'm finally done with my TDP Reflections. It was interesting to see how everyone said that TDP lectures were interesting when I know for a fact that only 1/4 of the cohort actually goes for the lectures and I've been to only 1 myself and I swear it was mother fucking hell boring. But of course to pass, like everyone else I said "Lectures have been a truly enriching and interesting experience." -coughLIARcough-

Done with e-Business Peer Appraisal as well which means I'm just left with the waste.of.bloody.time.as.if.i.have.no.morals APEL Reflections to do and I am officially done with all projects and what nonsense to graduate. -beams- If you can't tell by now that I'm dying to get out of school, you're a moron.

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Headed out to meet Tofu in town in the end because I was just too bored at home. Staying at home with nothing to do is the most torturing thing on earth especially when the mummy is at home nagging non-stop. |:

We were at Far East wondering why in the world was the place swamped with PLUs and our question was answered when I bumped into Maye darling, Thumpers Night. I cannot believe it freaking slipped my mind. Bahh. Nvm, next Thumpers Night.

Maye darling, it was nice seeing you again. I've missed you so much! We can never seem to meet up because either one of us would be busy with something. Sigh. Hopefully you'll make it this Sunday at my place kay? We need some good old catching up. Loves and misses.

I'm blogging because Tofu asked me to blog and since I'm kinda bored and can't sleep. Bahh. Where are my lil yellow pills for my insomnia! -grumbles-

If you guys realise at most times, I blog about everything but I ensure that details remain general and vague because I know I get unwanted visitors. I enjoy knowing that these people read my blog and not get the exact information they want. That's the reason why my blog is not password protected even though I spill all the beans about my life. I enjoy the satisfaction gained from such no lifers. -evil-

Time to hit the sack. Gotta meet the glam queen for brunch tomorrow before my project meeting. I better not fly her kite again or I'll get slaughtered alive and I won't get to MAMBO. -skips around-

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*update: 0541 hours.

Fucking cheebye shit head neh neh. I am still bloody awake. Damn insomnia really working up again. I'm physically so tired, eyes kinda hurting all and I've been lying on the bed for the past 3 hours and I still can't bloody get to sleep. I swear I'm going to my family doctor for sleeping pills soon. At most I'll make my mum keep them so that people who are afraid that I'll do a over dosage again, will have a peace of mind okay?

Warning to all who are meeting me later. Be it in school, for dinner or for Mambo or whatever fuck. Andrea's one cranky, grumpy and grouchy bitch. Talk only when necessary, if not stay away. Yong Tau Foo people, please make sure I don't get into fights at Zouk, I don't need another visit to Cantonment.

Note to self: Check in with your own temper. You know you have a damn short fuse.

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*update: 1047 hours.

I slept for about 1 and a half hours. So cranky. Going to meet the glam queen for brunch now. BAHH. Out.

`Spinning: Jennifer Lopez - Love Don't Cost A Thing

"Baby you're a star, I just wanna show you, you are"

Time To Hit The Clubs

Thank God I overslept this morning because apparently there's no more HT Seminars tutorial or let's just say there is no more tutorial for me (unless I retain). If not I'd be a moron wondering why am I the only one in school at 1000 hours when there is no tutorial.

Checked my grade for HT Seminars' Semester Paper. Yippeee! I got a B+! I was expecting a C- or something. But then again, there were 2As in my class and quite a number of B+s, so I reckon B+ is nothing fantastic but still! Last minute work and B+, I'm over the moon.

Technically there's no more school (tutorials, fuck the lectures) for me already but I have to go to school tomorrow for CPM meeting and also to see Mr. Fung and Ms. Choi about my NE Forum and late MC submission. Argh.

Remember I went to the temple with my mum on Sunday? So while we were walking around Simpang, I casually mentioned that I missed the Soon Kuey at Simpang's market. Guess what? Being the sweetie my mother is, she went to buy it today! I love the mummy. ((:

I just recalled that my room is in a mess and I usually am too lazy to clean it because I am just too lazy lah but, people are coming over on Sunday. WAH LAU. Can I just leave it the way it is? -LAZY-

Managed to convince Jie Jie Leong that Mambo-ing with me is more important than her essay that is due on Friday. Someone is going to kill me after she read this (not Jie Jie Leong). -ahem- But anyway, hello, its like my first Mambo in 2006 okay?! I've been such an angel for not mambo-ing considering I used to Mambo every single week without fail. I'm listening to Mambo now if you have to know.

Totally not working this week because I am well, LAZY and too excited about everything this week.

• Tomorrow; Mambo! (Hello, its my turn to get drunk or high okay? Don't everytime I have to stay sober because I know you guys will get drunk. Hello Chivas. -beams-)
• Thursday; I don't know what yet.
• Friday; I also don't know what yet.
• Saturday; Hair cut, maybe Players & Swingers Party (Yong Tau Foo people, anyone interested in going? If you guys are going to HRC then I guess I'll just not club), PAY DAY.
• Sunday; Steamboat! Hello people, can y'all R.S.V.P please. Smack all of you.
  

I'm so totally in holiday mode already. So what if I might not graduate, I'll leave the worrying for later I reckon. Sigh.

ANYWAY, Tau Pok wants to head to Japan with me. Problem now is, she's ready to book the tickets and take leave immediately but I HAVE NO MONEY. Tau Pok, want to lend me 2K? Haha. Yes I remember I still owe you $70 la. Knn. Tau Pok, I think I'll have to pass on Japan please. How to raise 2K in such a short time?! You're working full time I'm like hardly even working part time (haha). Plus my pay is my allowance. I wish I still took money from the mummy even though its been what? 4 years this year since I stopped taking money from her. Sian.

So I was thinking. BKK! I wanna shop shop shop till I drop. Plus if its BKK, more people will be able to afford to go with me. Jie jie Leong, Tau Pok, Tofu, do the 3 of you want to go BKK with me? -excited-

Did I ever mention that my sister is going to HKG in early May. Tickets and everything else all confirmed already. KNN. I'm going to hide myself in her luggage if not give her a whole list of things to buy back including some authentic HKG CHOU TOFU! I miss my chou tofu in HKG.

Okay. Ran out of nonsense to blog about. Reckon I shall go watch A Walk To Remember and cry my eyes out. I'm super bored at home so excuse the random blogging.

`Spinning: Belinda Carlisle - Summer Rain (Mambo Remix)

"Girl, it's been a long, long time comin'
But I, I know that it's been worth the wait
It feels like Springtime in Winter
It feels like Christmas in June
It feels like heaven has opened up it's gates for me and you."

I'm Counting From 17 To 0

Missed school today. Overslept. Heh. Which meant I missed the class photo taking session. Screw it, I haven't been much of a classmate to anyone this semester anyway.

Which also meant that I missed the CPM "compulsory" lecture which I heard was a crap shit waste of time anyway. Fuck the attendance.

Which also also meant that I missed e-Business revision lecture, which I was really planning to go for because I swear I have zilch knowledge on e-Business. How to take my exams like that?! -smacks self-

Then the last NE Forum for the semester has been cancelled. Fantastic. Thought I could plead my case saying I only lack 1 more NE Forum to graduate. Now? I can just go fuck spider and die. I am going to retain one more semester just because of NE Forum. -claps hand and pops a bottle of Moet-

My CPM group mates are complaining about getting B+ or only getting 2 As this semester. -stabs self- I don't even know my results because I've been on MC. Honestly, I don't even want to know please. Give me a D and I'm happy.

Just when I thought all projects were finally over, I was reminded that my CPM group has yet to edit the CPM report for UWS. -prepares rope and stool- Fuck shit chicken neh neh please. It's supposed to be over already and we still got to fucking edit it. When is it ever going to be over.

Note to Self:
Tomorrow, I shall go see Ms. Choi and Mr. Fung to figure something out for my NE Forums and appeal for my late MC submission.

I must remember to complete TDP Online Reflections, e-Business Peer Appraisal, APEL Reflections (If not also cannot graduate) before Friday, tomorrow and 17th February respectively.

CPM group meeting on Wednesday at Noon. The projects nonsense better end by Wednesday. Hello Mambo on Wednesday. I will Mambo till I drop dead and die. Hahaha.

17 more days till I get out of this hell hole. I'm going to make sure I graduate.

`Spinning: DJ Tiesto - Beautiful Things

"I'm missing you"

Bizarre Love Quadilateral

Have you ever just felt like switching off your handphone because you fear the text messages or phone calls you know that are coming in? I've switched off my phone once for almost 24 hours. It was pretty much mayhem after that.

I felt like that just awhile ago but I didn't switch it off of course. I don't want to pay for the consequences. I've done enough paying back for reckless things I've done.

After following my head for so many years, I'm finally going to follow my heart. I'm silently praying it takes me to where I want to be. I'm tired of being a perceived cynical cold hard bitch when deep down, I'm probably the most fragile of all. Can't anyone see that its just a facade to protect myself?

All I know now is, I'll wait. I've waited for so long now, what more is a lil while more especially when you asked me to. Its rainy nights like these where I miss the tight hugs the most.

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The weekend though tiring, it was pure bliss.

Friday:

• School; e-Business oral assessment. Managed to answer 3 questions out of 4 considering I didn't study because I don't have my 3/4 of my tutorial notes.
• went to see Jackie Ong to submit my CPM portfolio where I got a long lecture about smoking and tosillitis. I wanted to die please.
  
• Chingay; I swear I hate Chingay. Made my bus detour. Made us walk long distances just to get across the roads.
• Dinner; Cine Food Court.
• Dessert; Mango pudding with Coconut Ice Cream at International Building I think.
• Movie; Fearless.
• This cannot be in point form. Came home all tired with only 3 hours of sleep in the afternoon (refer to previous entry). Changed into my PJs and then my phone rang. Accompanied Ricky Lee to Simpang Bedok for supper where on the journey, I swear I almost died in a car crash. Remember Ricky Lee, you owe me TWO (02) now. I want to move far far away from you. Haha.
  

Saturday:

• Decided to not go to work. AGAIN. No regrets not going though. Fuck the $70 bucks.
  
• Suzanne's for a hair cut (Not me).
• Dinner; Far East Chicken Rice.
  
• Shopping; Topshop's vintage gold hoops. ((:
  
• ONE; with the Yong Tau Foo Gang and my 2 other girls (Chy & Ryl) who happened to be there as well.
  
• Lil Ryl, I want photos!
  
• Tau Kee and Tau Pok, you guys have to stop getting either drunk or almost drunk. I was taking care of 3 very high people that night. Goodness.
  
• Supper; Lau Pa Sat.
  
• After supper; walked back to ONE and slacked around outside.
  
• procrastinated for 45 minutes and finally headed back to my crib, slept around 0800 Sunday morning.
  

Sunday:

• Early afternoon; some monkey woke me up from my beauty sleep. The monkey got an Ang Bao from my mum and I was very shocked cause my mum doesn't give Ang Baos anymore since she's not married. Monkey, you lucky.
  
• Temple; accompanied my mum to a Thai temple at Simpang Bedok.
• Lottery; bought my million dollar ticket -crosses fingers and toes- The monkey bought 4D but I checked just now, never strike. -mutters-
• Lunch; where my mum revealed where she got drunk (read previous entry). MoS. Yes, freaking Ministry of Sound. Fucking go clubbing bo jio own daughter then come home drunk all.
  
• She continued to take out her cigarettes and offered me one. I almost died of a heart attack. Of course I didn't take even though I was tempted to. Heh.
  
• Zouk Flea Market; expected more things to buy but I reckon it was cause we were there late.
  
• Got myself a pair of vintage white and gold studs, ordered a Lego ring and Lego pin.
• Tau Kee bought a pretty rainbow belt (which I wanted if they had it in a thicker width).
  
• Tau Pok bought a necklace, pendant and bracelet.
  
• Tofu got a pair of brand new Converse for 12 bucks and a vintage Mickey Mouse Tee for 8 bucks.
  
• Tofu, you're going to Bangkok with me, I need your bargaining skills.
• (Note to self: Stop buying earrings, anything gold and basically stop shopping)
• Tiong Bahru Market; Tau Kee and Tau Pok were pigging out. Then they all freaked out when a injured dragonfly fell into Tau Kee's plate. Andrea saved the day. ROFL.
• 21; played ban luck at Tau Kee's neighbourhood playground after convincing Tau Kee that gambling is better than studying (bad influence. Haha).
  
• I swear I cannot gamble. Everytime I gamble with money, I fucking lose. Been like that for years. Total damage this CNY, $30 (Eh, I play 50 cents each time okay).
  

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Invitation to the following for Tom Yam steamboat at Block 709 Bedok Reservoir Road on 12th February 2006, Sunday (Lunar 15th) in the evening:

• Yong Tau Foo Gang
  
• Tau Kee and if you want your -ahem-
  
• Tau Pok and if you want your -ahem-
• Joanne (I don't know your surname and I haven't given you a Yong Tau Foo name)
• Bel (Someone please tell pretty Bel)
  
• Zen Imperial Law Tau Gay (HAHA!)
  
• Tofu Beng Beng (LOL!)
  
• Fishcake Queky Poo Poo (You better fucking come or I will fucking kill you. You hear me?!)
• School Darlings
  
• Lil Princess Ryl Chan Mali Chan and Ah Heng
  
• Miss Blur Chynna Woon and Mr Jeremy who looks like my ex bf from hell. (HAHA)
  
• My Glam Queen, Marilyn Quek
• Jo and Taz
• Kerrie Ho
• Shaun Chong
• Brian
• Joseph
  
• Others
• Sotong Princess Sel (Whom already R.S.V.P-ed and won't be coming. ): )
  
• The above invited, please let me know if I missed out on anyone.
• Amanda Lim (Though you might not see this you lil brat sister who's such a workaholic and part time slacker at Kembagan, you can invite Clare and whoever also)
  
• Laura Tham (I know you're surprised to see this but my mummy specially requested your presence so get your arse to my place and make my sister take leave from work on that day to accompany you. I want you there ar!)
• Note to all: My house can't fit so many people but I'm expecting every single one of you. We'll just stand and steamboat our lives away. Then then then, I want to gamble okay! (Cover my bloody losses, I don't believe my luck is really THAT BAD and I strictly only gamble during CNY)
  
• Please R.S.V.P by Wednesday.

`Spinning: Fabulous feat. Lil Mo - Can't Let You Go

"I'm want my simple life with you"

Breakfast At Tiffany's

Right. Breakfast from the Koptiam, in front of my computer more like it. Haha. Yes, insomnia kept me up all night again. It always happens when I have a shit load on my mind. Physically and mentally worn out but my pea sized brain just refuses to register that.

Decided to go for a little walk since I was bored at home and I needed some "fresh" air. Had to buy cigarettes (cause I ran out) and breakfast, since my stomach demanded food.

I love walking around my neighbourhood at 0600 hours. Everything's so quiet and serene, birds chirping, smell of grass and school kids on their way to school. The sights and sounds are just so calming compared to the hustle and bustle of the rest of the day.

So anyway, as usual bought oily Vegetarian Beehoon with extra Zai Er (I don't know what you call it in the Queen's language.) and Kopi Peng Gao, Sui Dai (Ice coffee, strong, less sweeteners. Excuse the literal translation and bad Hanyu Pinyin.). Shiok-a-ding-dong please. -burps loudly-

Cigarette prices have risen once AGAIN. -mutters- How many times do they have to increase it. I have already downgraded from Dunhill to Pall Mall and now to Viceroy. Am I supposed to start smoking grass?! Smokers, another sign to quit smoking.

An alternative would be to buy cartons and cartons from the shop opposite TP (Viceroy going at $8, unless they increased the price as well) and save $1 from every pack. But hor, I'm usually very lazy to walk to far alone leh. So I usually only go there to buy when I'm stuck in school and I'm totally out of cigarettes or when Marilyn or Fan or whoever else is going to buy as well.

Anyway again, I've finally gotten down to organising the Tom Yam Steamboat that I've promised Queky and Sel since we were 16, the girls from TP since we were 17 and whoever else. Wah lau, all old already. Better have the steamboat before everyone graduates from TP and goes overseas, start working or go MIA.

Yes I am going to cook, don't worry, I have yet to get food poisoning. Haha. Okay, sidetracked there again. So it will be held at my Aunt's, (my house is too small to fit so many people) which is at Jalan Meragi on 12th February, Sunday. Details to be confirmed with all invitees.

To people who are afraid of my mum, for example, coughQuekycough, I don't think she's going to be there.

And since its still CNY (I think), we can gamble! Muahahahaha. I cannot wait man.

Anyway again again, I am planning to head to Nagoya, Japan in late April, early May. Spoke to my mum about it already. I'm looking for a kaki to accompany me, if not I'll just head there alone. Accommodation and most meals provided at my Godma's. She lives in Nagoya and we can take the bullet train to Tokyo for shopping (about 3 hours I think).

She'll be back in Singapore with my Godpa and God Bro and Sis (I cannot wait to show off my half Japanese and half Singaporean cute god siblings) somewhere during my birthday so I might just head back with them. Now, what should I ask my Godma to get for my birthday from Japan. Hmmm.

Problem now is I have to raise around 2K (1K for a return SQ ticket(My mum insists on SQ because its a "long" flight and my Godma only flies SQ), other 1K for shopping) in what? 3 months?! Any sponsors? I'll see what I can do to convince my mum or Godma to pay for my air ticket. Teeheehee.

I'm half contemplating on going there and never returning. I just might do that. I'm not kidding here. I'm so sick of everything in Singapore. Maybe I'll find a cute gf in Japan. Want to how funky right?

Okay, I'm a lil or maybe more than a lil insane but I'm quite serious about not returning. I just want to leave everything behind.

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*update: 0729 hours

I forgot to mention this. My mum came home around 0100 earlier while I was on the phone with Tofu. She came into my room looking for her alarm clock. It was right on my dressing table and she just couldn't see it.

Why? Because she was drunk. LOL. I had to get up from my bed to pass her the alarm clock which she couldn't see. HAHAHA.

I didn't even realise she was drunk until my sister went giggling "Mummy, you ma-bo". I heard someone puking while I was having breakfast by the way. -AHEM-

I love my silly mummy la. Forever so cute.

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*update: 1203 hours

Still bloody wide awake. ARGH. Going to try to nap before I head to school to submit my stuff and what nots if not I will die tonight. ARGH. Fucking hate this when it happens.

Anyway, mummy didn't go to work. HANG OVER. HAHAHAHAHAHA. -rolls around laughing- So much for nagging at me when I come home drunk! KARMA at it's best.

Okay, I shan't be mean and laugh at my own mother. Oh oh, she threatened to go to MoS with me on Monday and demands that she wants to club with me and my cousins soon. Why must my mother be so happening please. Kns. You should have seen my face when she told me and my cousin. My cousin couldn't stop giggling at my expression. Smack them.

`Spinning: Tanya Stephens - Its A Pity

"Self destruction at it's best"

I Don't Wanna Know

Yes yes, I'm still alive and I'm blogging due to popular demand. No, I was not admitted to the hospital again neither did I get locked up at Cantonment. Sorry to disappoint those who were hoping either was the cause of my disappearance.

Let's summarised what happened the past week.

Friday:

• NAPFA Test
• Failed 2.4KM by 30 seconds
• Failed standing board jump by a lot, inclined arm flex (I couldn't even do 1. HAHA), shuttle run by 0.2 seconds
  
• 27 sit ups = B grade = almost died
• 55cm for sit and reach = A grade = only thing I can do with ease for NAPFA
• Conclusion
• I failed NAPFA
• Never wear your Secondary School tee because my name for the day was Katong Convent
• Though tiring, it was really fun laughing at one another. -hugs my girls-
  
• Reunion dinner with Mummy, Lil Brat and Mum's BF
  
• PIMP Factory feat. Back To School Party
• Reached there at 0000 hours with a fever
• Bottom line it was shit. Thanks to Ricky, Tau Kee and Tau Pok for trying to cheer me up
• Ricky Lee, please remember our pinky swear or else ... (insert punishment of choice)
  

Saturday:

• Mummy woke me up at 1300 hours and dragged me to Tampines Mall to do more shopping.
• Bought my Chuck Taylors
• My aunt bought my mum pants from Esprit and some heels from Charles & Keith
• My aunt spoils all of us
• Reunion dinner at Granny's
• So full till I almost died
• Had 14 invites to Zouk but passed on it because everyone was busy
• Spring cleaned till 4am then Mummy bugged me to decorate the house (She's so cute right?)

Sunday:

• Awaken by a phone call at noon from my cousin demanding that Mummy, Lil Brat and I get out of bed and go over to my grandma's
• Went back to sleep until almost 1330 and mummy dragged me outta bed
• Had Tom Yam steamboat for the 3rd day in a row
• Gambling session at Nick's till 0700 the next morning. Lost 21 bucks in total.
  

Monday:

• Slept for 2 hours and got dragged out of bed to go pay respect to my ancestors
• I was so tired that I was snoozing at the temple bench while waiting for my entire family to be done with whatever they were doing. My family consists about 40 odd people so imagine how long I waited
• Visiting
• Grandpa's sister in law. Don't ask me what that makes her to me. I just go, eat and collect Ang Baos
• Smoking cousins all buey tahan already, sneaked out and had a very much needed smoking session
• Grandma's sister. Who is adopted and supposedly Lim Bo Seng's niece. Listened to my god brother's MP3 and was this close to falling asleep.
• Cousin drove mummy and I home where I fell asleep in the car
• Reached home, mummy and I both knocked out on the bed
• Mummy woke up at 1845 when she was supposed to meet my aunts and cousins for a movie at 1900
• Ministry of Sound
• Miss Sua Ku aka Me, finally visited MoS for the first time
• Music was good but the mood wasn't there
• Spent the entire night quarrelling on SMS
• Bottom line, I still love Zouk
• Gambling at Nick's AGAIN. I won 4 bucks. How fantastic.

Tuesday:

• I really cannot remember what happened on Tuesday -slaps forehead-

Wednesday:

• I can't really remember what happened either but I do remember falling sick again.
• Doctor gave me 2 days MC again, as usual, "Please do go for your Tonsillitis operation soon"
• I'm so sick of swallowing pills

Thursday:

• Slept in the whole day due to the medication that made me so damn drowsy
  
• Missed the biggest presentation of my life
• Missed work and I didn't even call them

I've been hell busy. I should have just listened to the doctor and not go anywhere this CNY because I'm paying back major now.

My plans for the remaining weekend is just crazy. I don't think I'll be getting better anytime soon.

Friday:

• School. Clear what nonsense I have yet to submit and blah blah.
• Dinner with Tofu
• Probably clubbing with the Yong Tau Foo Gang. I've missed you girls

Saturday:

• Full shift at Alley Bar
• 1700 - 0300 hours

Sunday:

• No plans as of yet. Thank God for that.

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Life has gotten even more dramatic for me. All I ask for is a simple life. Why do people only realise the importance of something when they lose it? Then go all out to salvage it?

The events the past few days has made me realise the importance of timing. If the timing is not right, then no amount of sacrifices made will amount to anything.

I know I'm speaking in riddles but fuck it. I can't think straight anymore and I don't really want to. I don't want to know what's going on. I'll just take things as they come. If it happens, it happens. If it doesn't, then I'm sorry.

`Spinning: Shabba Ranks - Murder She Wrote

"Tell me now, who is she to you?"

A Mother's Love

I'm a happy girl. -double beam- I have new pretty clothes to wear for CNY. -skips around-

As most would know, I rarely shop. I shop only during CNY and when I have the spare cash to (which is like never). That explains my happiness.

Now, let's see what I bought and how much I spent.

• Esprit Tee - $49.90
• Guess Tee - $49.90
• Zara Tee - $19.90
  
• Mango Halter - $16.90
• Levis Hangout - $139.90
• Undies - $10.00
  
• Total = $286.50

Somehow I'm glad that the Converse at Taka didn't have the Chuck Taylors I wanted because that would add another $59.90 to the total. I'll just buy it myself when I get my pay next month.

My sister fell for this pair of 3/4 denims at Guess that costs $179.90. She was planning on buying it with her own money but my mum dragged us both in and made my sister try it and she bought it without blinking. The power of a mother's love.

Mummy spent $500 in 2 hours. I'm starting to feel the pinch. Sigh. I swear I have the best mother on earth. She only bought 1 top from Zara for herself that costs a mere $20 and a shirt from Timberland for her boyfriend. All in all, she has spent $700 on her daughters' CNY clothes.

If you've realised, everything's branded. My mum's pretty brand conscious herself and that was how I was brought up. So brand conscious that when I was young, the sales girl at Guess Kids Forum knew my mum and would call her when new stock came in. My paternal side is wealthy which explains the money when I was younger but now no more paternal side but we're still happy.

Yes I am a spoilt brat. Believe me, my mum spoils me rotten.

I've been the worst daughter the past 1 year. I smoke like there's no tomorrow, I club like there's no tomorrow, I almost got myself kicked out in school (She had never needed to see my teachers until last year), I attempted suicide, I treated the house like a hotel when I was previously attached, I got myself a police case, I might be retaining another semester and the list goes on.

$700 can do a lot for my family. I'm not well to do, much less rich, this family's barely surviving with only her being the sole breadwinner. I know the money's been spent already so why am I still going on about regretting. I just want the world to know what a beautiful person my mother is. I owe her a lot. I'm even more determined than ever to achieve my dream career.

I LOVE YOU MUMMY!

`Spinning: Blackstreet - Don't Leave Me Girl

"Her blood runs in my veins"

Doctors Are Nonsense

Went to the doctor earlier. I've got 2 days of MC. No yay because there's no tutorial tomorrow and I don't go for TDP's lecture anyway. There's NAPFA though. I'm contemplating if I should go since I'm like so weak but I guess I'll just get the damn 2.4km done once and for all.

Note to self: Bring sweets everywhere I go in case I feel like fainting.

Speaking of fainting. I was walking to the doctor's just now and suddenly felt dizzy. Panic can! Cause I was alone. I don't want to faint in the streets man. Sheesh. But I didn't of course. Just stopped walking and squat-ed down.

Dr David Ong gave me a hell lots of medicine. I have a course of anti-biotics to complete, fever and muscle relaxant tablets, lozenges and some gargle for my sore throat. Anyway, I've been asked by SO MANY doctors to do an operation.

Don't worry. This op won't die one, I think. Haha. Its for my tonsils. I've been having tonsillitis for about 6 months already. I shall go inform my mother that another doctor has suggested that. I'm sick of hearing the same thing over and over when I go to the doctors. Though I really don't want to stay in the hospital again. Trust me, it's a torture. Especially when Tau Pok commented that I looked damn "cool" in the hospital clothes when she visited me last October. -.-

But but but. After tonsillitis op I get to eat ice cream. Haha. My soft spot. I love ice cream. I shall eat some later. :x

So doctor's orders are, EAT PORRIDGE, avoid heaty fried and spicy food, no alcohol, no smoking. He's mad la. Seriously nonsense. CNY reunion dinner is like what?! The day after tomorrow! No way I'm going to avoid those stuff. How can I miss out on pineapple tarts, tom yam steamboat, beer blah blah. Plus EAT PORRIDGE?! Hello? I swear he went off his rockers. Don't even think about asking me to stop smoking or drinking. You should have seen my face when he told me all those nonsense.

Oh oh. My kitchen is filled with cartons and cartons of beer and coke. -double beam- Yes I love beer. It's a wonder I do not have a beer belly now and that I'm not fat with all the coke.

I'm feeling really weak but I have to go meet my mum in town to do CNY shopping. I'm not done with that yet and plus, I hardly get to go out with my mum. Can't the shops come to me instead?

Okay la, I'm feeling a lil happier cause I'm going shopping later. Add on the fact that the money's not coming from my pockets. -skips around-

I hope I don't faint in town. Fuck, means I got to carry my medicine with me wherever I go. Fucking nonsense.

Yes Tofu, I will not eat ALL my medicine at one go. Haha. So silly.

p.s: e-Business is finished! I am so happy. I'm done with my CPM slides as well! Left with CPM presentation and CPM portfolio.

`Spinning: Ricky Martin feat. Daddy Yankee - Drop It On Me

"Take away the bitterness of medicine with your sweet smile"

Breaking Down Is Easy To Do

My body's lost it. One night of not sleeping and a day of high stress got to me. I'm hot at 40 degrees while I'm wearing a sweater because I'm freezing.

I feel like a bird flu stricken chicken. They produce bird flu stricken eggs leading to the recent hike in egg prices. In my case, I'm producing a F grade for TDP because I'm supposed to be in school presenting my project right now.

Say hello to TP for another semester for me.

You're wondering why am I not sleeping and blogging here instead. I still have to edit e-Business report and do my Powerpoint slides for CPM. I wish I could be sleeping the fever away. CNY is already going to be spent doing my Portfolio while visiting. I seriously don't have the time to do it now.

I'm this close to giving up. I think I've already failed HT Seminars and now TDP. Might as well fail everything and retain one semester. Maybe I should have deferred my studies like previously planned.

Stop telling me that I can do it because I have failed to do anything good the whole semester. I'm not giving up la fuck. I promised one million people in the hospital. Now I hate promises.

I so want to cry and release all the stress out but I just can't seem to. My tear glands seem to have died on me. Everything in my body's dying on me. I'm a walking corpse.

I hate school. I hate work. I hate promises I can't seem to fulfill.

This feels like October 2005 all over again.

Don't worry, my mum cleared all pills in the house. Fantastic right? Now I can't even take Panadol to keep the fever away. Maybe I should try the knife this time. Or maybe the window.

To the new readers:

• Don't try to be funny with me because I already have someone filing a civil claim against me for causing grievous hurt. I'm capable of anything when I lose my temper. Don't even think about trying.
• Yes I'm suicidal because I suffer from Insomnia and everyone refuses to give me sleeping pills because I overdosed on pills 3 months back. I do not suffer from depression but I suffer from anxiety. Ditto, they refuse to give me pills. (Which I think now is a good thing anyway)

Fuck la. I'm not going to die. Not because of the promises but because I still have a million and one things to do. Die also cannot die in peace. Fucking hell.

`Spinning: Jon B - Pretty Girl

"Never more alone"