Okayy yes you see a new template. Why? Refer to the previous post. Don't want to explain. This template is much simpler although you can see the banner above its fine. Someone teach me how to get rid of the banner. Simple, clean and neat. Tired of complications.I realised that its been a long time since i did shout outs. So here goes.

Seline darling* Sel darling~ Was so suprised to see you in biz park today. Or rather suprised to hear you scream drea. Haha. I've miss you loads and loads and loads. You have no idea how much. Too bad you were rushing for lesson and I was rushing to eat. Hee. :p Really hope to catch up with you real soon. Immediately after exams okay? To celebrate my birthday. I still owe you half your present. Hahaha. Really really miss you loads. Don't worry I'm fine. Thanks for asking. I'll fill you in asap. Take care and study hard for your exams okay girlfriend? Or my PL Partner. Hehe. Tell Zhenhui to shoo. Bleahh. *muacks babe.

Ah Quek* Donut, thanks for being here for me when i need you the most. Although things have come to the point where you don't even know what to say to console me. Thanks. Please cheer up. You used to be the only one who could cheer me up. But now, I see a different ducky. A rather "happy" one that is. Happiness that doesn't come from within but rather smiling for the sake of it. It hurts me to see you this way. No matter what I'm here for you okay? After my exams, we'll meet up with Sel okay? Miss spending time with two of my closest pals together. Love ya duck.

Ah Ryl* Auntayy Ryl~ Its been a long time since we called you aunty huh? Anyhow, just want to wish you good luck for exams although you don't need any!! Bring the distinctions back baby! Last sem 2 distinctions right? I want you to get 3 this sem!! Haha joking. Just do your best and don't stress yourself out too much okay? I know things haven't been going very well and its affecting you. I guess you and I don't feel comfortable with the group anymore. The reason? I'm not sure either. Just want you to know, whatever happens I'll always be here. I love you and you know that. *hugs*

Chy Chy*My everdearest Chy, please study hard for your exams. Don't laze around at home or basically get your eyes off that tv!! No more Arsenal and Man U quarrels with the boys anymore please! Haha. Down to serious things. Somehow, things between us have been rather awkward. I don't know. But I guess its because of the Shaun and Jem thing. There seems to be a barrier between the both of us somehow. I just hope, our friendship doesn't get too affected. Cause I love you. Its been a great 2 semesters with you and I want things to remain as they are. *hugs*

Keke* Kerrriieeeee~ *hugs* Haven't been seeing you recently cause I've been heading home after school. I miss you loads. Always remember you as the one who made me laugh so hard at Simpang. I honestly miss those days. Babe, study hard for exams yeah? Don't just laugh laugh laugh and I'm here if you need me okay? Going to give you a beeggg hug when I see you tmr or something. *smile girl.

Jem* Yishun~ Suprised to see this? Haha. Wait wait. Hello hello hello! Okay, enough of crap. Yishun, study hard for your exams and after that, you can go shake that bootie of yours already!! Love yew! Hahaha. Bye bye bye!

Shaunie Shaun Shaun* Brother bear xiu xiu~ Haha. Things haven't been going well one bit. I can't promise that things will be the same again but just don't isolate yourself please. With you missing from the group, everything seems so wrong. Everything. Study hard for exams and I'm here if you need me. You know I'll be here. Love you. *hugs*

Quek, Ryl, Chy, Jem, Keke & Shaun*I'm going to be a lil blunt here. But I know yall understand. The 7 of us used to be so close. I'm sure memories of 85, Simpang, Shaun's place, Ryl's birthday are still fresh in your heads. I don't know about yall but i miss the times together as a group and i miss the group alot. I want to make my stand first. I know what i say may not help but I'll give it a shot anyhow. I'm not upset with Shaun anymore. So I hope you guys forget about the matter. I had a part to play and though I was hurt. I'm fine. Everyone makes mistakes, for noone is perfect. I'll pick up my life where it stopped and continue. The issue between Shaun and I are the least of my worries. My opinion? Basically, its between the two guys. Yeah i know, face and all what not rubbish shit. I don't know. I personally think yall should talk things out. Be civil and open minded. We are friends after all. Honesty is important. All i want is for the group to be the same. Everyone to laugh together. Not one isolating himself, the other not happy, the rest getting affected and all sorts of funny situations. Don't start assuring me that things will be the same. I'm bloody sick and tired of hearing that crap. Honestly I am. I don't want empty promises. I love yall so much and you guys know, its pretty much everything I have. The 7 made me pull through the stress with school and the problem with her at that point of time. And yall have yet to go to sentosa with me! I just hope this will help. That the whole group will take some time to think about everything. There isn't much time left, exams are coming so are the holidays. And trust me, the holidays might just make things harder. I'm tired of being the middle person to tell Shaun not to drift away. Please tell each other what yall feel. I've tried my best to put the group back together, if all else fails. Then, I'm Sorry. But as long as we believe and try, and noone gives up. There will always be a glimmer of hope. I love each and everyone of you. God bless and good luck. *hugs all tight*

WHY AM I USING BACK MY PREVIOUS SKIN?! CAUSE EITHER I ACCIDENTALLY SCREWED MY BLOG UP WHICH IS HIGHLY IMPOSSIBLE CAUSED I BLOGGED EARLIER DURING MBS OR SOME FUCK SHIT HACKED INTO MY ACCOUNT AND SCREWED EVERYTHING UP. LIKE MY LIFE ISN'T SCREWED ENOUGH!!!!SO THE SKIN WAS HALF DESTROYED AND IM SO FUCKING GOD DAMNED PISSED. EVERYTHING IS IN A MAJOR MESS. I HAVE TO REDO THE WHOLE DARN THING FUCK!! AND I'M NOT GOING TO DO SO, CAUSE EXAMS ARE COMING FUCK IT. I'LL THIS FUCKED UP BLOG WHEN I WANT TO. IM GOING TO SLEEP EVERYTHING AWAY. I HATE EVERYONEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IRRITATING!!!

*ps: ignore the profanities. god damned it im being fucking sacarstic. just let me be or click that lil X on your top right hand corner dammit.

I'm depressed. But I can handle it. Handling it better than i did 2 years ago. I won't die. I'll do just fine. I guess.

Ice cream more ice cream please. I've eaten about 1.5 litres of ice cream in 36 hours and i want more more more! Been eating and eating. Loads of ice cream and chocolates. I guess that's the only two things that can cheer me up now.

Tuition was horrible.
1. My student is half a head taller than me when she is only 12 for gods sake.
2. She is a EM1 Student.
3. The weather was so darn hot!!

Bahhh. I'm going to stop sulking about tuition and be a proper tutor. Went towning with my cousin after tuition and finally for once i managed to window shop proper. Saw so many things that i want. And to make matters worst, i fell in love with another pair of Levis. I know i know. I own too many Levis. But come on, I can only wear 2 outta 6 now!! Be fair people!! So its 3 pairs on the waiting list.
1. New type ones
2. Saddle stitch.
3. Red loop.
Now for the worst part. 2/3 costs $160+. I'm going to faint. Plus with my iPod mini, someone get me a suga daddy/mummy please. I need one!!

to that special someone*you

Ninety miles outside Chicago
can't stop driving I don't know why
So many questions, That need an answer
Two years later, you're still on my mind

Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart
Who holds the stars up in the sky
Was true love is just once in a lifetime
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
What the wind says when she crys?
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninty-seventh time, tonight

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that I was the one for you

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watch the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me, tonight?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that I was the one for you

I want Ice Cream. More Ice Cream. More more more!

I have no life. All i do is eat and sleep, then eat and sleep again. My handphone seems to have gone wrong somehow cause its so fucking quiet! Someone call me, ask me out. Or something!!!! God, i'm pathetic. Bahhhhh.

A girl has got to dream doesn't she?

My Birthday Wish List!

-- iPod
-- Canon ixus i
-- Nike Dunk Highs
-- Neon Orange Mango Tank Top
-- Black Voodoos Doll Top
-- Pink Roxy Denimn Skirt
-- Addidas Jacket
-- V.C Andrews - Falling Stars or Sarah Waters - Affinity
-- Rook Piercing
-- Striped Note Book from Paperchase @ Borders

"to love and be loved, is to hurt and be hurt" quoted from Leong Love is supposed to a many splendour thing ain't it?

The "walks" home have been quite calming in fact. Minus the fact that its 30 something degrees out there. I guess being alone made me realise a number of things. Like for one, I have been holding back. Holding back what some may ask. Holding back my freedom of speech. I know, i've been through it on one of my previous entries. No i'm not going to rant and rave like a Mad woman again. Just I don't know. Would you rather be someone who speaks her mind without any friends or someone who keeps everything to herself and is the most popular person around? I'm definately not the latter as most would know.

Now, i'm getting comfortable with being Me. Me being alone. I admire those who are truely independent. People who watch movies alone, goes shopping alone, have a meal alone. Am I not independent or is it just insecurity? I'm learning, and one day I will do just fine, just fine Alone.

Cause I want it all or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you've reached the bottom
It's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing...

Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No room inside
For me in your life

Okayy so this is my new blogskin! Tada~~ Honestly i think the colour combi doesn't really go but dammit. Give me some opinions okayy? Got a chatterbox for the chatterboxers. Hahaha. Ryl's birthday celebrations pics are up too! Let me know how this blog looks now okayy? *winks*

So now i'm going to speak my mind. Or lets say, speak without using my brain. Something i have been holding back for such a long time. Last time i did that was probably in KC days. Fuck everyone. I can only depend on myself. Me, Myself and I.

Independence would be the perfect word. Or isolation/anti-social or something like that. I need time alone. Or maybe everyone just piss off. Go somewhere else with your problems. I happen to be human too. And i have my own set of problems. I'm only 17 for gods sake. I'm not supposed to be worrying about so much shit. I'm supposed to be studying hard. Which i obviously can't.

Friends? Seems like such a distant word now. After all the KC fuck. Now it seems like Some TP fuck is brewing waiting to explode somehow. Maybe its just me after all. Maybe i'm just hard to get along and picky and stubborn and what have you. As simple as, its either humans can't face reality and take real shit. Or I am just TOO blunt. I choose to believe in the latter.

Love? Fuck that shit.

Money? Guys, i don't even know if i can continue studying. So i hope yall get the flow.

I'm fine. What haven't i gone through. Just that this time, i rather go through everything ALONE. Tired of being dependent on people. Fucking Sick and tired.

This world is just so fucking full of shit. Or maybe again. Its just you ANDREA LIM.

So-What am i not s'pposed to have an opinion?
Should i be quiet because i'm a woman?
Call me a bitch (bitch) cause i speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if i sat and smiled

When a female fires back
suddenly big talker don't know how to act
So he does what any little boy would do
Makin' up a few false rumors or two
That for sure is not a man to me
Slanderin' names for popularity
It's sad you only get your fame through controversy
But now it's time for me to come and give you more to say

This is for my girls all around the world
Who have come across a man that don't respect your worth
Thinkin' all women should be seen, not heard
So what do we do girls?
Shout louder,
Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground (our ground)
So lift your hands high and wave'em proud (wohoh)
Take a deep breath and say now,
Never can,never will
Can't hold us down

Nobody can hold us down(us down)...Nobody can hold us down(us down)...Nobody can hold us down(hold us down)
Never can never will...

So what am i not supposed to say what i'm saying
Are you offened with the message i'm bringin'
Call me whatever 'cause your words don't mean a thing
Coz you ain't even a man enough to handle what i sing
If you look back in history it's a common double standard of society
The guy gets all the glory, the more he can score
While the girl can do the same and yet you call her a whore
I don't understand why its OK,
The guy can get away with it while any girl gets named
All my ladies come together and make a change
And start a new beginning for us,everybody sing

Lil' Kim:
Here's something I just can't understand
If the guy have three girls then he's a man
He can either give her some head, or sex her raw
If the girl do the same, then she's a whore
But the table's about to turn
I'll bet my fame on it
Cats take my ideas and put their name on it
It's aight though, you can't hold me down
I got to keep on movin'
To all my girls with a man who be tryin to mack
Do it right back to him and let that be that
You need to let him know that his game is whack
And Lil' Kim and Christina Aguilera got your back

You're just a little boy,
Think you're so cute,so coy
You must talk so big, to make up for smaller things
You're just a little boy
All you'll do is annoy
You must talk so big, to make up for smaller things,
This is for my girls...

Ahh Wahoo ahh
Spread the word
Can't hold us down
Yeh we here
We Back again
Yeh Lil Kim and Christina Aguilera
Yeh
Can't hold us down!

Happy 18th Birthday Ryl!!!

Friday
Before heading for Ryl's birthday dinner. I accompanied Quek to TM to buy her present for Ryl and also a sunflower for the special birthday girl. People, yall should have seen the smile on Ryl's face after she got the sunflower. Non-Stop Smiling please. :D

After which we headed to Cafe Cartel (change of plans) at Suntec for dinner. Food was pretty okayy. Nothing fantastic but we sure did have loads of fun talking crap. Talked about loads of stuff while eating. Keke said she's buying Jem a ferrari for his birthday. Hahaha. Took some pictures and irritating clumsy plus blur ME accidentally deleted ALL the pictures in my camera. I almost cried please. My chicken picture is gone!! -sulks- Then we gave Ryl her Mango Dress. The silly girl was almost in tears. So glad you loved your present girl. Then Quek presented her birthday present to Ryl. Our silly Birthday girl put her head in the paper bag cause she was in tears!! (I have visual proof) So cute!! Quek gave her a pink Swatch Skin watch by the way. Headed to Esplanade after that to take more pictures. Ryl changed into her Mango Dress and boy she looks ravishing. Hahaha. So jealous. But i got Ice Cream from Shaunie Shaun Shaun! So so so nice pleasee. Thanks sweets!! :D All headed home after that. We were all pretty tired. Photos will be posted up later after Ryl send me the rest of the pictures in her Camera.

Today
Was supposed to crash the Macroeconomics Remedial but i was too tired to get outta bed so didn't go. In the end, i still headed down to school to accompany Shaun while he was doing his project. Apparently my grandma's place is across the road from Shaun's grandpa's place. We each headed to our grandparent's place. So nice of us right? Haha. Currently i'm like watching Miss Singapore Universe. Hmmm. No complains so far although i think the girls can afford to tone some parts of their bodies. Some abit flabby. Doesn't look that good on national TV. I'm not saying I have a perfect figure or anything but yeah. Miss Universe please. The opening act was pretty good. Loved the Retro looking short dress they were wearing. Nice please. Will be going down to the airport later to send my godma off.

Nothing much to blog about. Just updating my life. I'm getting so boring. Bahhh.

I am currently in school. Bored to tears. But staying here till Shaun and Jem are done with their project. Accompany Shaunie Shaun Shaun. Ain't i nice? Hahaha. Macroeconomics is finally over. 2nd last project down. Only left with Arts Appreciation and its pretty much done with too. Feeling much more relaxed and less stressed. Just need sleep. Need sleep badly. Then there is Charlie's Corner tmr to celebrate Ryl's Birthday. I know she's going to love her present. So excited please!!

This song has been stuck in this lil brain of mine. Perfect Song to club to.*winks at sweets* 3 weeks more before i can club on my birthday. Legally that is! Ha!

Beyonce Knowles - Naughty Girl

I'm feelin sexy
I wanna hear you say my name boy
If you can reach me

You can feel my burning flame

I'm feelin kind of n-a-s-t-y
I might just take you home with me
Baby the minute i feel your energy
Your vibe's just taken over me
Start feelin so crazy babe
I feel the funk coming over me
I don't know what's gotten into me
The rhythm's got me feelin so crazy babe

Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
We're gonna turn this party out
I know you want my body
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
I see you look me up and down
And I came to party

You're so sexy, tonight i am all yours boy
The way your body moves across the floor
You got me feelin n-a-s-t-y
I might just take you home with me

Baby the minute i feel your energy
The vibe's just taken over me
Start feelin so crazy babe
I feel the funk coming over me
I don't know what's gotten into me
The rhythm's got me feelin so crazy babe

Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
We're gonna turn this party out
I know you want my body
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
I see you look me up and down
And I came to party

I love to love you baby
I love to love you baby
I love to love you baby

Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
We're gonna turn this party out
I know you want my body
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
I see you look me up and down
And I came to party

3 hours of sleep + financial and academic stress = A very sleepy and stressed cum pms-ing Andrea. Lucky are those who stayed away.
Quek sorry for throwing my temper at you. Sorry~

After 7 fags and 2 coffees felt a teeny weeny itsy bitsy better. Bahh.

2 things managed to put a smile on my face though.
1. Shaunie Shaun Shaun's sms.
2. My godsister told my godmum that I was very pretty until she cannot tahan. In Japanese of course. So cute right?! *beams*

One thing for sure. I may be deprived from sleep, money and what have you. I'm not deprived of love. Love from my darlings. Thank you all. :)

Email i got from Sel Darling.

TAURUS WOMAN

A slim moderately tall woman. Taurus woman is funny and a jolly person. Square facial bone structure, high cheek bone. Her round big eyes sparkle with wit and curiosity. You will not see many round faces Taurus women, and mainly she will have a strong jaw line.

She is a constantly change person. If she up sets, she will not show it and will keep it to herself for a long time, and will remember them so well. If she gets really mad at you, you will suddenly become a totally and completely stranger to her.

She is a patient person, but always need new excitement. She hates long talk meeting, long and endless conversation. She can be in love with you today, and one day she could act as if she has never loved you before. She has patient with what she wants to do and will never give up until she gets there. She will be very persistent in what she is doing till she has reasons for stopping her project, then she will quit.

Money for Taurus woman is not the most important factor in life. She thinks of money as an instrument for assuring of a good living. She has more satisfaction in achieving her goals more than satisfaction in fine cloths and luxuries. If you like a woman who always thinks of love and romance ,then you are dating the wrong girl. You can not tell her to stay at home, she likes to work and preferred not work at home.

She loves animals and likes to surround by animals. Love is in her head, but Freedom is in her soul. She has her own idea about love and afraid to show her true feeling for fear of rejection. She is not the type to talk about love, but she sure has a strange way to show it. She is not good in showing when she is in love, but if she loves you she will be honest to you than any other women.

She will be honest to her love one, but at the same time seems distant. You will have a good relationship with her, if you allow her freedom. Do not force her to be with you in a poker game which she hates, but let she goes out swinging with her friends if she wants to. She will be different than other girls, and she thinks different is one of her unique quality. She is a public figure but belongs to no one.She will not stay with you, if she thinks you are not sincere. She likes you to have personality, but better not to compete with her. Loves her, but not too much for she afraid it will limiting her freedom.

She always stand out of the crowd for something she dares to do. You could see her dress like a poor farmer dinning in the fancy restaurant, or dress like a nun in an a cocktail dress party. If you are a politician who are looking for a wife, she will make a good one because she is cleverly smart and she could get along socially with any type of crowds.

She is not a jealous type because she has to know you thoroughly before accepting you in her life. She has more curiosity in life than wondering if right now you are flirting with someone else. If you keep a distant from her, or go away for a few days, she will miss you more. Even when she is dating you, she also able to fond of someone else, if you do not have
something she is looking for. She will never disappoint you or hide behind your back to make you loose face, but she is the type who just going to tell you to your face that " We're better off breaking up".

She always remember her first love. Taurus woman holds the best record for divorce for she does not care about how people think of her, but every things should be done for "Happiness".

She has lots of friends and sure of herself, so you will hardly see she delays any of her thoughts before her action. If she think of something, she will go ahead and does it. She has many men wanting her for her constant changes is the challenge. She can be cute and funny, but suddenly cool and tough. She has her own style of dressing up, so you could see her dress like an old mate today, and tomorrow she may dress like she comes from Mars. She will have that interesting hair, dress and a look unique from anyone else.

She likes to learn about your dreams and your thought. She has fun teasing you and making jokes. If she did something wrong, she won't hide it from you, but do not ask when she is not in the mood to talk about it. She hates to owe people money and take promise seriously. If you promise to pay her back, you'd better paid up.

If you want to make it with Taurus woman, then do not be jealous or possessive, do not be narrow minded, do not criticize about nonsense or small and insignificant matters. Try to likes her friends and let she has her privacy, then she can be very sweet to you

3 full plates of Rice.

5 Fags and counting.

My ass is off to Script Writing and Macroeconomics.

// Falling Apart*

Its a God Damned Saturday night and i'm stuck at home. So fucking hell bored. Dammit. Been real moody since yesterday. Everything just doesn't seem right. Nothing to be precise. Nothing has been right ever since the start of this year. 2004just sucks for me. Okay i know. Its only March. Long way till the year ends. But fuck it. It still sucks and i don't think its going to get any better for me.

I'm bored bored bored bored. Omfg. Im so fucking bored that i'm even swearing at almost every other thing. I don't like to be bored. Cause, my mind runs wild. I start thinking about everything. Too many things have happened. Trying to be the strong one. The one who is there for everyone. I'm trying. Trying so hard. But i can't hold on for long. I'll just try my best. I'm human too.

I miss you. Here it goes. For the first time after a month or so. I miss you so terribly. Its finally getting to me. (But I am taking y stand still) Now i'm free to do anything i want. No restrictions what so ever. But as i do things i never got to do when i was with you. I thought about you.Thought about what you would say if you knew i was doing this or doing that. I thought i smelt you somewhere. I almost broke down. I'm sorry. Sorry that things didn't work out.You took too long to realise. Too long. I was hurting so bad and it was taking a toll on me. I wish the best for you. Hope you'll be happy. The next girl's going to be great. Just remember what i told you. Somethings youhave to change cause i won't be the only one pointing them out to you.I Love You.

Here Without You - 3 Doors Down

A hundred days have made me older, since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder and I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me

The miles just keep rolling as the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that this gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
it gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl, there's only you and me

My Godmum is back from Japan! Ooohh Wee~ So excited! Went to the airport to pick her up along with my Godsister and Godbrother. Omg. So cute please my Godsister. Those rosy cheeks of hers. So wanted to pinch them. But i didn't scare the lil girl of course.

Headed to town later with Shaunie Shaun Shaun. Hehe. We were supposed to go catch Dirty Dancing 2. But, its a pretty old show so the only available time slot was at 1145. Shaunie Shaun Shaun has Jap Test tommorrow morning so ya. Didn't catch it. So Argh! I have to watch the darn show dammit. Instead, walked around town, ate dinner then headed back home. Pretty tired honestly. Lately everything seems so monotonous. Its like School -> Home -> School. Boring?! But i'm glad i have the rest. :D

Omg this is so cool please. Hahahaha. I am truely a Convent Girl. And i'm so proud of it!


CHIJ
You scream for your school at any opportunity and
for some strange reason you love your school to
no end. You wear your belt so low that ACS
boys' pants would be considered high!


Wad girl's school should you be from?
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I feel like i'm Six Feet Under or actually worst than that. Cause when you are Six Feet Under i reckon you don't feel pain. Im going through fuckin horrible pain. Major fuck ass shit as i would say. But i'm better now. I mean i'm up in front of the com ain't I? Guess i'll visit my doctor tommorrow if i don't get any better that is. We shall see. Don't want to see the doc if possible. But if i do, i can get MC and not go for Econs! Hmmm.

No i didn't have school today. Or rather i already planned not to go for Arts Appreciation tutorial cum Drama Workshop. So yucks! Andrea, Drama. No no no. This two words do not go with each other as yall should know. Cannot make it lor as Ah Ryl would say. Haha. Just one day of not seeing Da Gang I miss yall so much!!!

// If Only*

Toxic - Britney Spears

// You*

Baby can't you see
I'm callin'
A guy like you
Should wear a warnin'
It's dangerous
I'm fallin'

There's no escape
I can't wait
I need a hit
Baby give me it
You're dangerous
I'm lovin' it

Too high
Can't come down
Losin' my head,
Spinin' round and round
Do you feel me now?

With a taste of your lips I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slippin' under
With a taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't ya know that your toxic?
And I love what ya do
Don't ya know that your toxic?

It's gettin' late
To give you up
I took a sip
From my devil's cup
Slowly
It's takin' over me

Too high
Can't come down
It's in the air,
and it's all around
Can you feel me now?

With a taste of your lips I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slippin' under
With a taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't ya know that your toxic?
And I love what ya do
Don't ya know that your toxic?

Don't ya know that you're toxic?

Taste of your lips, I'm on a ride...

You're toxic, I'm slippin' under
With the taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't ya know that you're toxic?

With a taste of your lips I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slippin' under
With the taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't ya know that you're toxic?

Intoxicate me now
With your lovin' now
I think I'm ready now
(I think I'm ready now)
Intoxicate me now
With your lovin' now
I think I'm ready now

I am done with Ryl's blog. Hope she likes it. I didn't do much. Just editted the template for her. Just want to see a smile on your face babe. Anything can ask for help okay? Check her blog out here

I'm so full. Ate so much today. Feel like a pig today. Haha. Ate so much food. Been a long long long time since i pigged out like that. Felt kinda good. On the way to Andrea days again. :p

Having a slight sore throat but i'm fine. Things have been going well i suppose. Back to normal. Not as hectic. But i still pull a long face now and then. Reason? Shall not mention. Refer to my previous entry.

So exams timetable is out. And my last paper is on the 23rd Apr!! I was so happy. Can celebrate my birthday in peace. Will blog the details when the time is closer. Now as i count down to my birthday, i seem to counting down to my birthday.

// If Only*

Don't Tell Me - Avril Lavigne

You held my hand and walked me home I know
While you gave me that kiss it was something like this it made me go ooh ohh
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears, why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love cause you're so hard to trust
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that?
You're the one who gives it all away

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that I was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

Don't think that your charmin the fact that your arm is now around my neck
I got you in my pants I'll have to kick your ass and make you never forget
I'm gonna ask you to stop, thought I liked you a lot, but I'm really upset
Get out of my head get off of my bed yeah thats what I said
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that, you're the one who, throws it all away

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that I was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

This guilt trip that you put me on won't, mess me up but you're no wrong
Any thoughts of you and me have gone away

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that I was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

Better off that way
I'm better off alone anyway

Didn't want to blog but decided to. My only outlet. One and only outlet. My heart aches for you both. Quek and Ryl I love you both so much. And it hurts to see you both this way. Somehow i wish i could do something for you two. To let you both to cheer up. Smile more like you both usually do. My heart ached as i passed those msgs. Tears were at the brim of my eyes. I really love you both. I'll be your eyes and hands for you both. And i'll promise to take care of both. Promise. Don't say thank you. I'll hear non of that. Its my duty as a friend.

I'm finally going to be the Andrea yall used to know. I fucking can't take it anymore. I will not mention names or anything. But if you are reading and you know who you are. Then good. Firstly, don't act like you care when you acutally don't really. Lesbians have their rights too. We are humans as well. Humans have feelings okay fuck shit. Noone can control their feelings. So what if we love the same sex? I don't see what is wrong. Morally and religiously some may say its wrong. That's your opinion. Just keep your fuck ass outta stuff that doesn't concern you fuck. I'm pissed so pissed. So pissed at how some can be so fake. So fucking shit fake. That's why precisely noone can take my shit. Just cause i'm honest. Just cause i don't lie and that i'm not fucking fake.I don't wear a mask to school and fucking act.

Then i realised my mood. My imood on the left. This year alone i have set the mood inferior god knows how many times. I really need to do something to boost that morale of mine. I need to learn that people love me for who i am. I need to. The two words of the week. "IF ONLY" Go think about it.

// If Only*

This is for you. You know who you are. :)
You're amazing, so amazing
Have I told you enough?
You're an angel, my guardian angel
God knows I, I've been blessed with love

Been pretty occupied. *smiles* Glad that i am occupied with you. Thanks for being there for me. Really. Thanks alot. Though many things are going on around us now. I'm sure everything will be fine soon. I'm so so broke. Literally zero now. -sighs- The trouble of being poor. Just everything doesn't seem right. Somehow. Future seems so bleak. So unsure.

School's been okay. Not very busy but okay. Just i think i'm a little worn-out with everything else. Thursday stayed back for the photoshoot. Chy and Jem's photoshoot. Two of them just look so great. Fantastic Chemistry. So happy for the both of them. Friday had NATAS travel fair. I honestly thought it was crap. Was already having some problems. The smell of pamphlets was over powering, there was so many people, thus resulting in a very headachy and grumpy Andrea. Went down to accompany Shaun during his work. Spend time talking about alot of stuff. Thanks. :) Today, headed to Quek's place and quek and Shaun cooked for me! Hehe. Yummy~ Felt like a princess, didn't need to lift my tiny fingers. Haha. Shaun sweets, your pasta was great! Can't wait for somemore food! Hehe. Tommorow i think i'm going to my aunt's new place.

Ryl* Babe i love you. You know i do. My shoulder and ears are here for you 24/7. Love you loads.

Quek* Same goes for you. I love you too. I'm here even at 0300 remember? Anytime ducky.

Chy* My pretty Chy. I love you too! Hang in there! And please drink more water. Remember its not your fault. Not one bit. *hugs*

Jem* I can't believe i'm saying this but i love you dude! Please take good care of Chy. :)

Keke* *hugs u titely* I'm always here for hugs. They are unlimited okay? U'll have my hugs for life. Love you too babe.

Shaun* Sweets, thanks for everything. Esp your Aglio Olio. Can't wait for you, Jem and Keke to enter Saffron. So exciting! Thanks for everything. The hugs and your ears. Please take good care of that sore throat or you will zhao xia like Chy. *hugs*

//Everything will be fine soon. I promise*

APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret.
Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong
mentality. Loves attention.Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves
people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous.
Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional.
Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates
oneself and others.Sickness usually of the head and chest.
Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

True about me? Let me know. Haha

After much reluctance i'm here to blog proper. Abit. Just feel like letting things out. My only place where i can type whatever i want. Pretty stressed up with school. It has been so busy. Like Major. Only have time to hang out with the rest during breaks and meet for dinner.

Honestly, i don't know what is going through my mind. I haven't been myself lately. And i'm going on a major weight loss. I'll be fine soon. Im trying to eat as much as i used to but my tummy is kinda rejecting food. But hey, i'm trying ain't i?

Keke, Chy, Ryl, Quek, Jem n Shaun especially. Thanks for everything. I really don't know what i would do without you guys. Love yall so much. *hugs all tite*

The Trouble With Love Is - Kelly Clarkson

Ooooohh
Oooohhhh ya
Mmmmm

Love can be a many splendored thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses
Diamond rings
Dreams for sale
And fairy tales
It'll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
It'll fool you every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See you've got no say at all

Now I was a once a fool it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
I'm sadder but I'm wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger then your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See you've got no say at all

Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin
And I keep on fallin
Over and over again
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pouring rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

The trouble with love is (the trouble with love)
It can tear you up inside (it can tear you up inside)
Make your heart believe a lie (Make your heart believe a lie)
It's stronger than your pride
(The trouble with love is) It's in your heart it's in your soul
(It doesn't care how fast you fall) You're losing all control
(And you can't refuse the call)
So you've got no say at all
The trouble with love is (Oooo ya)
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie (the trouble with love..)

Don't Tell Me You're Sorry - S Club 8

You took me up, drew me in
Like a moth into your flame
Put your jinx in a deadly kiss
Your body locked me down in chains.
Didn't read the danger signs
'Til you crept into my mind
Made me believe you were so in love
I was mesmerized.

Fell Down to earth now baby
I heard my wake up call
You're not a high I can't get off.

Too little too late girl
Didn't know what you had 'til it's gone
(Don't tell me you're sorry now)
Too little too late girl
Can't get back what's already lost
Now you're alone

I still see your reflection in
A corner of my head
You're the tainted mirror image
That my heart has to reject
So I've gotta keep my distance
When you tell me you can change
You can't burn me
With the heat of your love
Cos I've put it in the shade

Nothing you can do can phase me
Since I got my wake-up call
You can't do your damage like before

Can't turn back the clock
Can't make momentum stop
And every time I look at you
I hesitate
I get a trigger in my mind
That makes me rewind
And remember how you blew my heart away

// Nothing you do will change my mind. Nothing*

So here i am. Sitting in front of the com not knowing what to do. Irony, I have a zillion things to do. Firstly i'm not even supposed to be at home. I'm supposed to be out and about with the rest of the Cougars. Secondly, i'm supposed to be doing Mbs. If not i still have travel kit presentation to do. Or even change this blinking blog skin. But i'm not doing anything but blogging.

Was going to write a testimonial for Ryl, Chy, Quek, Shaun, Keke and Lor Mee. But then Friendster refuses to accept my testimonial for Chy and Ryl. So i gave up. So i'm deleting some friends on friendster. Like those i have no idea who the hell they are and what the hell they are doing on my friendster. Hahaha.

Finally i'm breaking down. Its finally gotten to me. One week has passed. Soon i hope, i won't be counting the days slowly. Being Single is good ain't it. Noone can make me do anything. I go where i want to. Do what i want to. Talk to who i want to. Freedom in exchange for love some may ask. *shrugs* I don't believe in regretting. What is done cannot be undone right. Just live with it. And be strong. And i know, i'm doing just fine. I am.

Then i realised i've been feeling inferior. To almost everyone. I was never like that. Never. Some of you know. What in the world happened i have no idea. I need to learn to love myself. Love myself for who i am.

In school till about 1600 hours again. Doing Mbs. Pretty much, my life has been Mbs Mbs Mbs. *sighs* And its still not completed. Gotta tie up loose ends. Chy was doing all the work today. Sorry my dear Chy. *hugs* In e end, Shaun cancelled work to accompany me to watch Honey with Chy, Jem, Ryl and Quek. If not i'll be a Major light bulb. Honey is still as good even after watching it the second time. Oh, Quek and Ryl thanks for paying for my ticket. Love ya guys! After the movie, headed to Coffee Bean and pigged out. Haha. Got home around 1200. Im so tired. Off to do my stuff now.

Got home not long ago. Stayed in school till about 2200 hours then headed to Shaun's place to watch Keke's Husband on Tv. Haha. Although half the time i was falling asleep on the couch. Then went down to 85 for a feast. My poor tummy had a hard time. All the not eating finally got to me. Then Shaun, sent Keke and i home. Thanks Shaun. As i speak, gastric pains are still going on. Going to continue with some of my work then head to bed. I'm sleepy. Gotta be up at 0730 hours tommorrow. :/

I'm so darn tired. My eyes are popping out. Mbs is killing me. Not only me actually. Everyone else too. Stayed in school till about 2200 hours. Was doing Mbs the whole day. Today is going to be a long day too. Mbs, Econs, Travel Kit presentation. These are the things that are due next week. I'm falling apart.

Will only be looking forward to Shaun's place later on at night to chill and watch William Hung together with da rest. We all need a break. We deserve one.

Chy* Babe, if it ain't for you i would probably die. Thanks for putting up with my nonsense etc. Tmr, mbs. We can do it!

Ryl* Ah ryl "quek's accent", you can do it too! Although your Jie Mei can just go and die. You can do it on your own! Jia you!

Keke* My dear Swa He, you'll do just fine. We are all here. Love ya too!

Shaun* Thanks for everything. Especially the chocolates. So much chocolates in one day. Trying to make me fat right? Haha. Can't wait to head to your place later. We will all make it through Mbs!

KC Cougars* I miss you babes SO much. Can't wait to see yall on Sunday! So glad we decided to meet up again. I miss yall so so much. Miss cheerleading so badly. C ya on Sun!

*hugs Ryl, Chy, Quek, Shaun, Jem, Becks, Ron, Keke*

// My poor little weak eyes.

Sarah McLachlan - Fallen

Heaven bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

We all begin out with good intent
When love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
I've held so dear.

I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

Heaven bend to take my hand
I've nowhere left to turn
I've lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
That it's one misstep one slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

America's Next Top Model is DARN Depressing. Now i feel even more shitty than ever. Im unwanted. Noone wants me.

I'm going to change a new blogskin soon. Tired of this one. When i'm finally done editing with it that is. Keep your eyes on a lookout.

I'm feeling sleepy. I guess i'll go take a short nap. Meeting the rest of my project group members online later at 2300 hours to do peer appraisal and reaction paper i reckon. *sighs* Mbs is due next week, Chy and i haven't even started doing a single thing. Must remind her again.

Stomach has been rejecting food. I feel so uncomfortable now. My eyes are closing. -_-And soon i'll be able to dental floss them like how i threaten Shaun. Haha. He's going to kill me if he sees this. :p

I was so high I did not recognize
The fire burning in her eyes
The chaos that controlled my mind
Whispered goodbye as she got on a plane
Never to return again
But always in my heart

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many time before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
And I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I tried my best to feed her appetite
Keep her coming every night
So hard to keep her satisfied
Kept playing love like it was just a game
Pretending to feel the same
Then turn around and leave again

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many time before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
And I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything's alright
My pressure on your hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that's what you want me to do

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many time before
Her heart is breaking in front of me
And I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many time before
And my heart is breaking in front of me
She said Goodbye too many times before

This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many time before
Her her her (Yeah) breaking in front of me
And I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore


This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many time before
Her heart is breaking in front of me
And I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore

Sel*Thanks for everything. I love you too my girlfriend. Hahaha. Meet up again ya? And remember if he bullies u, i'll castrate him arh. Love you baby!! *hugs and muacks* Oh oh oh, go check my review of the day in your guestbook. I was laughing like hell as i was typing it. LOL.

Mac, landlady, rusty, kaka, baa, anty, sissy n etc.*I miss yall. Been a long time since i spoke to some of u online

Chy, Ryl* Love you too. Thanks for the concern. Im fine. C yall in school tmr.

Quek* U don't ttm too. Tc ya. C ya ard. :)

Shaun* Ah shaun, thanks for the concern too! I'll be fine. Meet for ba chor mee and simpang milo dino soon!!

Sarah McLachlan - Angel

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memories seep from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless then maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you feel
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe
in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you feel
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

Whoever has this song, please send it to me. Thanks. I'll appreciate it very much.

Sarah McLachlan - Angel

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memories seep from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless then maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you feel
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe
in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you feel
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.

You are a Queen!
Beautiful, Wise, Strong
Righteous, Commanding, Humble


You are the beautiful and compassionate Queen. You are the epitomy of what every woman should be. You are confident, bold, aggressive, smart, womanly and feminine. You know the right thing to do and do it. You command respect and earn praise. You are moral and loving. In times of trouble, you draw strength from within, and are a source of strength for others.

I'm dreading the play today. Yeah, i'm going to watch Such Sweet Sorrow. Such irony huh. Such Sweet Sorrow. I'm prepared for the worst. What could happen? Nothing i hope. Nothing i hope. Talked online till late last night. Better then going off to bed not tired which will end up making me think about crap shit. Y am i even blogging? No idea. Noone ever leaves comments on my commenting board anymore. All dead huh?! I'm still sane okay.

Cruise Inspection today. Finally for once i decided to upload the pics onto imagestation. Yeah i know, must be a member to view. Just join dammit.

Bad mood today. Bad bad mood. Nothing to blog. Just. Nothing. Have fun viewing the pics then.

I'm going to blog proper this time. Been slacking around since yesterday. Today slacked in the library with Shaun, Jem, Kerrie, Chy, Ryl and blah blah blah. I had plenty of time to kill anyway. Tommorrow, i'll be crashing the morning econs lecture cause we have this star cruise trip in the afternoon. No i ain't going for a cruise. Just going for a cruise inspection. Formal wear please. Court shoes and blazer all. :/ I will be melting away. So darn hot.

Finally Travel Kit is over. So is my Arts Appreciation. Now its left with Mbs and Econs. But both ain't that tough as Travel Kit. So at least the main one is done with. All the lack of sleep is still getting to me. Still recovering. Am yawning as i speak. I'll go sleep after this. Need my beauty sleep. :p

Thing's haven't been going very well for me. But i'll be strong. I can do it. Yes i can. *smiles* Somehow i can't wait for my birthday to come. *beams* Anyway, i saw this tinkerbell snowglobe at wheelock earlier on. It costs 88 bucks i think. Its so PRETTY please. I think im in love. But i don't have da cash for it. *pouts* As i mentioned earlier, my birthday is coming! *hint hint* The tinkerbell in the snowglobe is crystal. So darn pretty! *winks at all*

I need to change my blogskin. Getting very sick of this one. When im free la huh. Taataa~

Should i stay, Should i go?

Im in school's lab blogging and chatting on miRc. Hahahaha. -evil laugh- Im so bored and hungry! Waiting for princess beautiful chy to come to school to have lunch with me cause Ryl and Ryn are busy doing their project now. Teeheehee. :p

Im dying of hunger~~~ X(

My presentation this morning was so screwed.. I never had a presentation worst than this. Was lost for words for the first time. Damned. There goes my A grade. Bloody fucked up tutor. Argh. Shall not think about it anymore. its over anyway. What can i do. :/

Honey! Watched Honey just now. I just had to de-stress. Really shagged out. It was a Fantastic show. Fabulous so to speak of. Wish i could talk the talk and walk the walk like Jessica Alba. Hahaha. But of course i can't. Just hoping. *crosses toes* Anyhow, a good movie to catch. Loads of smooth grooves. Funkay please. Made me so wanna go clubbing again.

Had a long day in school. And tommorrow's just going to be another long day. Tourism Destination & Travel & Tour Business, Arts Appreciation projects are due on Wednesday. So i'm pretty caught up with work. Good luck to all my fellow Tourism Students. Hang on~ The project's almost over.

Haven't been getting enough sleep and been facing the com doing my projects endlessy. That explains the mood swings cum depression i suppose. =/

Yeah
Uh
New Blaque
Darckchild, Darkchizzle
The jump off

I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good

Is it true that I'm the one making you nervous?
Trying real hard as if I'm for sure priss
By you and your crew, that's helpless
You saw that, that's me outside
I know you, kinda seem so confused
You can't understand how my diamonds seem blue
But its cool its true, its unusual
A girl so fly out shining a guy

We can talk about this, lets talk about it
We can talk about this, don't think about it
About me on the floor, that's what I came here for
So pump ya breaks it seem as if ya wantin' more

It ain't me, I’m sorry you got the wrong one
It ain't me; I just came out to have fun
It ain't me, go and find another one
I don't like what your kickin' son, now leave

Cause even if I leave alone, I'm good
And even if you come along, I'm good
Don't mean a thing to me cause, I'm good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, I'm good
Say what you do for me than, I'm good
You don't really mean a thing cause, I'm good
With or without you

I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good

Playas please, please stop frontin' and do you
I didn't know Benz started making Isuzu's
But its new, cause I do what I do
Which causes me not to be needin' you
When I leave, I got a crib to go to
That I got myself straight out of high school
So if you comin' at me, be ready
Cause there ain't no way I'm gonna let somebody play me

We can talk about this, lets talk about it
We can talk about this, don't think about it
About me on the floor, that's what I came here for
So pump ya breaks it seem as if ya wantin' more

It ain't me, I'm sorry you got the wrong one
It ain't me; I just came out to have fun
It ain't me, go and find another one
I don't like what your kickin' son, now leave

Cause even if I leave alone, I'm good
And even if you come along, I'm good
Don't mean a thing to me cause, I'm good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, I'm good
Say what you do for me than, I'm good
You don't really mean a thing cause, I'm good
With or without you

I'm good I'm good without you (said I'm so good)
I'm good I'm good (whoooaa)
I'm good I'm good without you (said I'm so good)
I'm good I'm good (whoooaa)

(Introducin' Natina yep!)

Yo, I'm only Clyde if you clip me
And I still got ice even if you ain't wit me
Candy paint and I still bump Biggie
Halter, throwback, ripped up dickies
She hate me cause I'm nice up on the mic
I'm twice the size of rice
My flow keepin em' right
Brain dead you need cents like 50
Cause you don't truly love me like Bobby love Whitney
No

Cause even if I leave alone, I'm good
And even if you come along, I'm good
It don't mean a thing to me cause, I'm good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, I'm good
Say what you do for me than, I'm good
don't mean a thing cause, I'm good
With or without you

I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good

I'm good!

Feeling some what of fucked up and upset. All the things are finally getting to me. School everything. Just realised we'll be getting back Mid Term results back. Fuck shit. Going to fail every single fucking paper. Fuck fuck fuck. Argh. I hate my life. N most of all. I hate myself. Fucking moron.

While she lays sleeping
I stay out late at night to play my songs
And sometimes all the nights can be so long
And it's good when I finally make it home, all alone
While she lays dreaming,
I touch her face across the silver light
I see her dreams that drift upto the sky
And she wakes up to my kiss and I say it's alright
And I hold her tight.

And she believes in me
I'll never know just what she sees in me,
I told her someday if she was my girl
I could change the world with my songs, but
I was wrong
But she has faith in me
And so I go on trying faithfully
Forever in my heart she will remain
And I hope and pray
I will find a way,find a way

While she lays waiting
I ask myself do I hurt her so
What called me on a long and this lonely road,
Why dont i turn around and head back home where I belong
While she lays crying
For she knows my heart is ripped in two
I'm torn between the things that I should do
She deserves it all and I'd give it if i could, god her love is true

While she lays sleeping
While she lays sleeping for me.

Currently tying up loose ends on travel kit and will start doing my arts appreciation. Baby's over at my place now. But i have to do my projects. =\ Anyhow, Congrats to all who recieved their O level's results. From what i know, there aren't any bad news. Looking forward to seeing yall in Tp then. *winks*

Met up with Lili and her new other half, Loh, Leong, Mich, Jamie. We headed down to Wheelock's Nooch. I had tom yam glass noodles~! Yummy~ They were debating if glass noodles was tang hoon. I kept telling them it was and Jamie didn't believe. Then my tom yam glass noodles came! Haha. Tang hoon~! I told ya so!! Bwahaha. After dinner we walked around town then headed down to Monks. Oh oh oh, Loh and Lili said i lost alot of weight. *beams* But they say it ain't a good thing. And asked me to becareful! Why is everyone telling me the same thing? Its supposed to be a good thing ain't it?

Monks was okay. It was pretty quiet though. Never seen the place so empty before. Loads of drama that night. First up, Jamie brought her own Bacardi with Coke. For gods sake, it was almost Pure Bacardi. Trying to kill all of us please. And before Midnight. We had one very high Leong and Jamie. Yes Jamie your fine. You just puked that's all. Haha. Then we bought our entry drinks and went in. No idea why, but all of us got pretty high. I fell three freaking times. Now i have two blue blacks!! =/ First, i fell off the bar top while dancing with Leong. Then fell of the top of the toilet cause of some drama. Then fell off the stage while searching for Leong. What a night please. Stayed till closing. Mad dancing that night please. Totally. And it seems like i was the only one dancing away. Hahaha. Headed for Cheese and Egg Prata for supper. Yummy~ Hehehe. Then went home to zZzzZz. Damned tired i tell you. Just now for dinner, Mummy brought baby and i for Blk 85 Ba Chor Mee~!! Whooppeee~! Fabulous i tell you!!

School starts on Monday. And its going to be packed with the JAE going on. =/ Have a new lecturer for Tourism Destination. Like wtf, change the lecturer after half the semester is gone? Madness. *yawns* Off to do my work. Its going to be a real busy week with so many datelines.

Finally kinda done with travel kit. Just trying to tie up some loose ends here and there. And also trying our very best to cut cost. The current whole package selling price is SGD 1400. About there or so. Which is very expensive in our context. Its a 8 days, 7 Nights, Chiang Rai, Chiang Mai and Bangkok tour with a hot air balloon flight in Chiang Mai. Cool rite? Haha. Im in charge of Chiang Mai. *grins* Pretty happy that we are almost done. So that there will be no need for last min rushing or panicking.

Econs project has been put aside for the time being. Still have Arts App to do. Did most of my research already. Left with the presentation to do. Sheesh~ Mbs, haha. Wasnt't fruitful today (thurs). Both blur cocks (chy n i) just sat there n stared at the thing. Then we figured we had no idea on what to do. Plus her heart was with travel kit so decided to meet later today at 1300 hours after my travel kit meeting. Okay, why am i going on about my project?!~

Im pretty tired from all the projects. Late nights, early mornings and facing the com all the time. My poor lil eyes. But, will be going for dinner with leong, lili, loh, mich etc for dinner. Just realised i'll be the youngest there. =/ Then some of us will head down ta monks! Haha. Been months since i've been to that place. Shall go de-stress!

Good luck to all who are taking O'levels results today! Remember msg Andrea arh! Esp those who i have reminded constantly. *hugs*

Sel Darling: My girlfriend. You are my girlfriend lor~! And i have your picture in my wallet ever since duno when. U so bo sim. =(

Baby: Can't wait to see you! Miss you loads suddenly. =p

Leong: Blog girl blog. Whoopee Monks here we go. *pinches yer ass*

Some Love Quiz
i did.
My results:

1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and
free. *Am i? Haha*

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is straight-forward, just tell you he/she
loves you. *Yes! Totally!*

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is stylish. * Wth. Really? I do not have the slightest idea*

4. What you hate most in your partner is that the person is
ruthless, cold-blooded, and/or ironic. *shrugs, maybe*

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is that both of you can talk about everything and
anything, no secret is kept.* Ya sia~! Totally!*

6. You are tolerant; you'll try very hard not to commit adultery. * Im loyal, and yall know that. Il never cheat. Haha*

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married,
you'll treasure it and your partner very much.* We shall see in e future ah*

8. At this moment, you are quite self-centered; you think of love as
something you can get and trash anytime you want. *Don't think so*

Some kind of ass luck today. Saw Janice Yap again. Like what fuck! Anyway, she was sneaking peaks at us (baby + i). I glared back of course. Enough about her. Not worth mentioning anymore.

Was in school doing project from 1300 hours - 1800 hours. Madness. As jermaine said in his rececnt blog entry. Everyone is so busy with the projects. Sheesh~ Tomorrow, i will be in school doing Mbs with Chy chy. Haha. Two blur shits doing Mbs. Going to need help again. =/ Got to start on my Cost sheet now. *mutters* Crap shit i tell you.

Been real busy lately. Like major. The holidays aren't so holidays after all. All the projects are driving me nuts. Datelins datelines and more datelines. And half of my week is already gone! I'm trying to blog a super speed cause my mum has been like get off the com at 12am Sharp!! Damn her. I'm so freaking busy, u don't give me enough allowance. And you want to control so much of my life. Fish it please.

Went down to Nyp to accompany baby while she does her Fyp and i do my work alongside. I guess that's going to be the case for the rest of the semester. Haven't even got the chance to sleep in yet. This ain't holidays! its pure torture. Argh~! Got to go continue with the Projects

*pats tummy* Heee. I really really really Full. *burps* Like major. Cooked pasta! Muahahaha. Yes Andrea cooked pasta! Heyy come on, i can cook if i want to okay! It may not be fantastic but it's edible afterall. Haha. Im blardyy full dammit. *beams proudly*

Saturday we headed to katong! My old hang out! To eat katong laksa of course! Yummy i tell you. Considering i haven't eaten it for a long long time. Then went to watch Somethings gotta give at Ps. Nice show please. Romantic and totally hilarious. Haha.

Its like suddenly i have no idea on what to blog. Tsk. So irritating. Shall go do my Travel Kit already then. Taa~

Seline darling* heyy babe.. Mid-term tests over already! Yay! Can go out shopping! Heehee. I miss you please! Promise that we'll meet up soon ya? Don't worry about everything. Everything will turn out fine ya? And most importantly, Andrea's here for you! Hahaha. Count yourslef lucky okay best friend! *muacks* Catch up with ya real soon. *hugs*

Mid term tests over. Finally over. I am going to fail all as expected. I mean, i have no idea what was going on at all. Hardly studied. But i'm glad its all over. But now comes the other part, project datelines. Heaven knows how much more i can take. Physically and mentally. But, i'll hold on. I will.

Worst week of my life so far. Everything just seems so wrong. Hardly even slept. 3 hours per day. I'm dozing off now as i type. *yawns* Today was the worst day. Worst.
I saw her. Yes her. Janice Yap. I was happily walking alone. About to get outta town and go pick baby up from work. When, i saw her. I just stood there and stared. (she was sitting down on a bench) I reckoned with my cap on, she couldn't recognise me or maybe she was just too engrossed with her ugly boyfriend. I think i stood there for about 5 mins or so. Just stood and stared at them. I don't know what got into me. I got so upset. Tears fell. Could feel my blood pressure rising. Hands turned cold. Was just about to walk up to her and act like a mad woman when Mahathir, Jess, Tracy, Zhi Fan popped outta no where. They saved me. Saved me from breaking down and acting like a fool.

Just saw her at the wrong time. When i felt the weakess. Physically and mentally. I just broke down. Everything just fell apart. Everything.

Skies are dark
It's time for rain
Final call
You board the train
Heading for tomorrow

I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears, you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow

How can I be smiling like before
When baby you don't love me anymore?

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Mmmmm....
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go,
So say isn't so

Ten to five at least we've tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the door behind you
Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I'd never found you, whoa...

How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be stong enough to carry on?

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go,
So say isn't so

Miles and miles to go,
Before I can say, before I can lay
My love for you to sleep
Oh darling oh
I've got miles and miles to go,
Before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again.

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say isn't so

Say you've changed your mind now,
That I am only dreaming,
That this is not goodbye,
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say isn't so

If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say isn't so

Staccie Orrico - I Promise

Will I always be there for you
When you need someone
Will I be that one you need
Will I do all my best to
To protect you
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night
Will i keep the rain from fallin down into your life
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender care of you
Take your darkest night
And make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong
And to lean on
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold


Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life
I promise, I promise
I promise, I promise
I promise I will, yeah

And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I'll promise I'll be there for you
There for you

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life
I promise, I promise
I promise I will, yeah

Trust me. Please trust me. Please.

Celebrated Valentine's Day over two days. *smiles* On Friday, we went walking around town as usual. Then watched Along Came Polly. Go watch it. Its a good show. Go catch it. Got my valentine's day present! Its a swatch watch! *smiles widely* I Love the watch! So Andrea. Haha. Stripes! Wheeee~ The only part that it ain't me is that the watch is baby blue. But e contrast in e stripes and e blue is so nice. Love the watch. Thanks baby! *muacks*

Might be Mia for a few days. Mid term test next week. *frowns*
Monday, 16th Feb ---> Tourism Destinations, 1100-1200 hours.
Wednesday, 18th Feb ---> Managing Business Systems, 1100-1200 hours.
Thursday, 19th Feb ---> Macroeconomics, 0900-1000 hours.

I'm going to die. Haven't started studying. *frowns hard* But then again like what Chy and Ryl says. Drea you won't study till the day before. So don't pretend to be hardworking. Bwahahahaha. *grins* I'm trying to be hardworking okay! Heehee. Worst case scenario, fail my tests lor. Choy!

Lil Cow: Baby! You are finishing your Sip soon so don't worry okay? The moment I finish my mid-term, you finish your Sip! So yay! Can go clubbing! Heehee. Love you baby and thanks for the watch! *winks and muacks*

Chy and Ryl: Mei nu's! I'm like the grass and you two the flowers. I know what a analogy. But so many people said that you two were pretty I'm jealous! *whines* Bwahahaha. Anyhow, both study hard ya. Then again Chy study hard. Ryl scores all A's so no need to ask her to study hard. *grins* Love ya both! *muacks*

Leong: Wheee~ I got my White Flash Havaianas already! Yay! I love it! So funky and comfortable! Show you another day k? Anyhow, take care and I'll see you soon! And maybe go clubbing ya babe? *winks*

Sel darling: Whey! Scare the hell outta me today. Saw you with your date! Heehee. Not bad not bad. If anything happens i must be the first to know okay. And i Miss clubbing with you can! Now i got no more clubbing khaki already! Tsk. I don't care. During the holidays must go club with me. Meanwhile study hard for your mid-term. Love ya loads. Miss ya too. *hugs*

Mac, Rusty, Kaka, Baa, Sissy and all Irc mates: Love yall! Heehee. You guys take care ya. Will talk to yall when my test are over or when i come online to destress for awhile. *muacks and hugs*

Okay, now must pretend to be studious already. Taataa~

Reality Check. You ain't one bit pretty. You ain't one bit smart. You ain't one bit attractive. You have a blinking bitchy look. You are dao at times. You are bitchy. You just ain't every other girl. You get judged by people all the time. But, You have someone who loves you. I guess that's all that matters. *hugs baby tightly*

I am who i am. And i'll let the world see that. Your loss not mine. I like the way i look. I like the way i speak. And i love me. No, i ain't a narcissist. Just happy with the way i am.

I've been really busy. Like really. School and everything else. Just really hectic. Big time. Pretty tired. Late nights and early mornings everyday. Its starting to get to me. But i'll be strong and hang on. I have to be.

// Don't look at me

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down oh no
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone left the puzzle undone
It that the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down oh no
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down oh no
So don't you bring me down today...

No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what we say
(no matter what we say)
We're the song inside the tune
Full of beautiful mistakes
And everywhere we go
( and everywhere we go)
The sun will always shine
(sun will always, always shine)
But tomorrow we might awake
On the other side

We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down oh no
So don't bring me down today...

Don't you bring me down...today...
Don't you bring me down...mmmmm...today...*

So depressed now. I need you dear. I swear. I really do.

Heaven bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

We all begin out with good intent
When love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
I've held so dear.

I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

Heaven bend to take my hand
I've nowhere left to turn
I've lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
That it's one misstep one slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I've messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

Third time i'm blogging. Fuck Bill Gates. One more time his bloody Explorer hangs on me. Grrrr. *growls* Bloody hell.

Blogged about unhappy stuff anyway. Shall not talk about it anyway. Janice Yap Yi Hui, i hope your doing fine out there. Just leave Bessy alone ya? Don't need to message her happy birthday this year. Thanks.

Okay i'm officially nuts. Talking to a person who doesn't even know my name. Only known to her as "my ex's gf. The mad one who want to beat me up." But hey, she might chance upon this right?

Okay Andrea. Im fine now. Needed to talk to myself in a third person. Hahahas.

Went to school for one lecture and skipped the rest! Lol.. Not my idea, Chy and Ryl wanted to go down town to get Valentine's Day presents so we just skipped lecuture. Plus nothing important this week so heck it. *grins* Bought your present already. Hope you like it. *smiles weakly*

Saw the Fcuk Skirt again. Falling in love with it even more. Totally. Its 99 bucks for heaven's sake. I can't afford it. *frowns* I like it so much! It so. Nice. Never mind. Somethings just aren't meant to be yours.

Presentation tommorrow. Got to go prepare. *frowns harder*

Brunch - Main Course: Maggi mee, Drink: Coke, Dessert: Chocolate from Chocolate Box.
Hahahaha. That was my brunch for today. I know. Im sick and i shouldn't be having all these when i'm coughing my lungs out. But i can't help it! I'm alone at home and noone is here to control me. I get all these cravings and i can't help it! Heehee. I've eaten them and noone can stop me. *chuckles* Okay, i'll take my medicine after this and drink loads of water and get more rest. I can already hear people nagging away in my head.

Didn't turn up for school again today, massive headache, slight fever blah.. No choice but to come online to continue my research and all. Sheesh. *whines*

Vday is coming! Haha. I shall put up a wish list in case anyone wants to get me anything. Haha. Chances are none of you are going to get anything from my list even. Heehee. Typical andrea.

1. Mango Skirt - $65
2. Fcuk Skirt - $99
3. Mango red leather bracelt - $20

Errr... Nothing else.. Hahaha.. That's all that caught my eyes while i was shopping. Hehehe..

Maye: Thanks for e *.. Hahaha.. I love ew.. U tc ya. And enough of those fags sissy. =)

Off to my work now. Love yall.. *muacks*

Retail theraphy today! Or to be precise these two days. Bought my Esprit blazer as i blogged yesterday. 50% discount. Then went to get my Topman belt. On sale too! Got it at 9 bucks! *grins* Then got this long sleeved top from Mango. You know, e usual semi see through type i wear. 29 bucks only~ *beams* I feel so accomplished. I mean. All so cheap! Hahaha. Cheered me up somehow. *smiles*

Lil cow found out what i was getting her for Valentine's Day. *whines* Not fair. This always happens! *sulks*

I'm broke already. All my ang bao money gone. *weeps* I still have a whole load of school work waiting for me. Guess i have no choice but to do them. *sighs*

I was searching for my econs article when i chanced upon this. Fourteen year old girls most vunerable. Its a full article on the straits time or something. Know what. I was fourteen when i went with that hell of a asshole ryan rodrigues!!! Bwahahahahaha.. Now we know why... hahahahaha... rofl....

Fourteen-year-olds are more vulnerable than other age groups because with hormonal changes in their bodies, they are more likely to 'throw caution to the wind and do anything they want,' said PAGi chairman Carmee Lim.

And they become easy prey because they are easily influenced,she said.

Cher: Hey babe. Nice seeing you yesterday too! Missed ya! *hugs* Though we didn't have a chance cause you were with your "ahem" Peiwen.*cheeky grin* Haha. Im fine girl. Still very stressed up though. But techinically i'm fine. I think. Hee. You take care of youself and i'll catch up with you real soon k? Love ya babe.

Where are you. What's going on. I need you. I miss you. I'm so tired. All so tired. Tell me you love me. Tell me that everything's going to be fine. Tell me. I'm more than anything. That finally, i mean more than she does/did before. That you love me the most. That you never felt this way. I guess, this is just Me: Blabbling away. I wish. How i wish. All these were the truth. I wish.

Stoning away now. Waiting for your message. But i think it ain't going to come. Off to my school work then. At least, i'm kept busy for awhile longer. At least.

Thanks for your concern everyone else. Im fine. No worries ya? If i need a listening ear. I'll talk to either one of you. Love all. *hugs and kisses*

Bought my blazer finally. Its so cool. Its different from your every other blazer. The collar is kinda satin. Its in tux style to be precise. Cool right? And it was on 50% discount! Though it cost 90bucks after discount but i LOVE it!

Cried on e bus again. Crying everyday. Just can't take it anymore. Falling apart.

I have a new piercing!Whoopee~ Hahaha. Don't ask me where i'll have a hard time describing. Its on e ear la. Don't think dirty! *grins*

I'm still feeling a little upset and all. With school. Stressed la. At least Review 1 of Mbs is over. But i still have Arts Appreciation and Econs due next week. And the on-going Tourism Destination/Travel & Tour Business Project. Busy me!

Got hit by a football on e face today. Freaking assholic guy. Hope his weenie turns in a banana! Hahahahahahaha. He made me cry okay. Cried twice today. Irritating. Thank god my mascara's water-proof!

Tommorrow i'm going to do my mask. With lil cow as my victim. Or put it in nicer terms. My model. Hahaha. Meeting Leong, Lili and Michele for dinner at night too.

So tempted to pick up a fag.

I guess i said i won't blog. But i have to. I need on outlet for all my stress and whatever not crapp shit. I'm so tired. Physically, mentally. Im breaking down.

Gave up on Mbs already. Fuck Bill Gates. He can go and die. I hate Microsoft Access as of now. Its fucking screwed. Big time. I don't know what the fuck to do for the fucking project. Thank god i still have Chynna. If it was a Solo project. I would have failed. Fuck TP for its lousy school system. Want me to volunteer during Open house? Then don't fucking put the mid-semester test the following week. We haven't even started on Macroeconomics Portfolio. Fuck it. Then there is Arts Appreciation. I fucking haven't done anything. And its fucking due next week! What the fucking hell is this! I haven't done Macroeconomics tutorial. I so don't want to do it. But i have to. I don't want to take supp again this semester.

Im breaking down. So much. I need you baby. So bad. But what is wrong with you. What is wrong? You're not saying a thing. Just telling me you're upset. With what fuck? Tell me! Stop keeping quiet. I can't take it. I don't know how long more I can bear with all the stress. Dear i need you. So badly.

The thought of my birthday conciding with Exams just makes things worst. I'll be mugging like fuck on my fucking birthday. My god damn it 18th birthday.

Fuck Fuck Fuck F u c k.

as i speak. tears fall.

STRESS~ Mbs, Econs, This, That, You, Me, Her, Him. Everything!

Won't be ircing these few days. Neither will i blog. Too busy way too busy. But i'm still on msn. *winks*

I'm coughing my lungs, stomach all internal organs out. Wana die~

Off to fooking Ms Access. Hate bill gates!

S t r e s S e d !

Somethings are just never meant to be. I hope some people get that. I'm happy the way i am. Happy somehow. Happy enough that i have a chance to even love her. Yes my lil baby. Even if it was one-sided. Im happy.

Its 7:55am in the morning. I have class later. Don't ask me why the hell i'm doing here so early in the morning. Some things just need to be cleared.

Hardly slept last night. Just couldn't sleep. Woke up before the alarm clock had a chance to ring.

I'm sorry if i said things i shouldn't have said. Just understand. Please.And leave me as i am.

Nothing happened. No nothing happened.

Has anyone even checked out the meaning of my url? I'm sure some of you know. For those who don't, go check. It's something most of us doing unknowingly. For me, I guess it happens. Most of the times.

Love you baby. *winks at lil cow* This one is for you

Oh
Yeah
Huh Oh

You complete me
Like air and water boy
I need thee
And when I'm in your arms I feel free
Fallen
My heads up in the clouds in love
I'm proud
To you say it loud
Like an accident it happend
Out of nowhere
It just happend
And I aint mad at all
Because I've

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love (Because of love)

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love

Baby
To let you get away is crazy (Let you get away)
so I'm doing what it takes
To make you pledge your love to me
You see cause I'm tryna be a lady
For ever and ever baby
The picture wouldn't be the same
If you weren't standing next to me
Can't you see I'm fallen

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen (I'm fallen)
In love with you
I've fallen (Oh)
And I can't get up
Don't wanna get up
Because of love (Because of love)

Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I can't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

You compliment me
Not an accesory
Your nesesary
You never could speak bad words against me
Your bare with me
Security
Are you here with me
Your my hapiness
My joy (Joy)
It's all because of you boy
I look forward to the time
I spend with you
Whatever it is we do

Cause I'm fallen for you boy
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Fallen
I've fallen for you
Fallen
Head over heels for you
So in love with you
Fallen
Love, oh
For you

Touch me (Touch me)
Hold me (Hold me)
Love me (Love me)
Kiss me
In love with you
Talk to me (Talk to me)
Caress me (Oh)
Play with me
Don't wanna get up
Explore me
Your my everything

Fallen
Head over heels (To let you get away is crazy)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (I won't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

Fallen (Touch me)
Head over heels (Hold me)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen (Whoa)
And I can't get up (With you)
Don't wanna get up
Because of love

Fallen (In love)
Head over heels
I've fallen (My joy)
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I can't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

Fallen (Head over heels for you)
Head over heels (So in love with you)
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up (And I cna't get up)
Don't wanna get up (Don't wanna get up)
Because of love

Ryna on msn: "hey girl are u ok? u seem to mia alot this sem leh"
*sighs*.. I know people.. I've been mia alot this semester. And no, not mia cause i've run off to spend time with lil cow. I've been falling sick so constantly. This has never happened to me!!! What the hell in the world is wrong with me?!?! *shrugs* I have no idea either.

So i missed school again! Okay, what's new now. Sheesh~ I'm feeling better somehow. I mean at least e Snot ain't dripping like a leaking tap anymore. I know.. Ewwww. Yes. Now my sister is lying in bed sniffling away. She's got the virus from me i reckon. Not my fault hor! Poor girl..

Alamak! *slaps forehead* Chy msgd to say MBS Review Due this fri!! And i thought hari raya haji saved me from it! *mumbles*

Stress stress stress. . .

Sel darling, Im here for you. No matter what happens all of us supports your decision yar? Anything give me a msg or call.. Love ya babe.. *hugs*

S t r e s S e d !

I'm sick. AGAIN. *whines and whines and whines*

I've been pretty busy. Pretty busy with my lil cow that is. *smiles* Somehow things are back to normal. For good i hope. Spend the last 3days 2 nights with her. Quality time. *smiles again*

Saturday
Went to auntie Ryl's place to bai nian! Haha. Tracy, Jessica, Zhi Fan, Mahathir, Aaron, Ashraf, Lil cow, Jermaine were all there too. They were karakoing away half the time. Ryl and Tracy were such good singers! Can go join competition! And no i ain't bull shitting. Both of them were fatastic singers. *applauds* Lil cow and i left ealier and went down to town for a movie (stuck on you) And thanks to Ryl's wonderful food, we only had one meal for that day! The food at Ryl's house was so yummy~ After the movie we headed back to my place.

Sunday
Got awaken by a sms. Lil cow had to go visting, so she left for awhile. Then my mum decided that she will bring the both of us out for dinner @ Sakae Sushi! Yay! had so much food. So yummy~ And my mum paid! Ate my FAV ice-cream after that too! Compliments of my mum. Like what lil cow asked "Your mum good mood arh?" Me *nods head* Then we walked around and my mum decided it was time for me to buy my blazer. Saw this Mango one 119 bucks! And she was like buy lor! *fainted on the floor* BUT guess what. No more UK size 10 in the WHOLE of Singapore. (fook Mango). They asked me to wait for the repeat shipment and i asked when will that be. Her answer was " I don't know. When you are free come and see." #*@$&)~@! I very free huh?! Dammit. Never mind. My mum gave me 120bucks for it anyhow. Shall go look look around the shops for a nice nice and cheaper one. So i can go buy other things. *chuckles*

Tomorrow, do homework day. *mutters and mumbles* I got a whole lotta them waiting for me.

Kaka ~ Yes i agree in this world you either back stab or get back stab. But this one. Is one of the worst i've ever seen?

Cheryl ~ Yeah. Its been a long time too. You take care. I'll catch up with you soon.*hugs*

Mac ~ Youcan msg me anytime you want to. Anything just msg me. I'm here for you. Dun worry. Things will be better. They always get better.*hugs*