Of Ear Sticks & Fast Food

Of late, I've been a teeny bit depressed. Reckon that it has a lot to do with what happened on the 8th plus the added agony of loneliness getting to me. MINE has been so busy with school and I have been busy turning my life upside down literally by getting my sleeping hours all wrong again when I finally had it normal for 2-3 weeks.

I realise that my sleeping hours go haywire every time I'm depressed and it sucks. All because I sleep in the day, wake up at dinner time, then stay awake till the morning around 0800 - 1000 hours and the vicious cycle repeats.

Then there's the extreme crazy eating binge I go on and still don't put on any bloody weight. Sigh. It's not normal to eat like every regular girl and weigh 41 KG on a good day and 39.5 KG on a bad day. Envy the weight all you want, I'd give it to anyone with a normal weight of 45-48KG for my height because I'm so underweight that it's disgusting and abnormal.

As usual, I haven't slept a wink since I woke up at 1800 hours yesterday. Played games online till bout 0600 hours this morning, read Herworld Mag, read Harry Potter & The Order of The Phoenix for the millionth time before getting ready to go out to run errands.

Headed to the library to return and borrow more books for my depression induced nights and boring life. Then to the bank to QCD (Quick Cheque Deposit) my pay check from the golf event. Will only get the money on Monday which sucks cause I need it to buy Mother's Day present for Mummy. I only have myself to blame because I was supposed to run these errands yesterday but sleep sounded better.

Then bought ear sticks and some nonsensical nail stickers for a total of S$1.90 only. Haha. Those who have been hanging out with me know that I've gone a lil mad with my nails of late. The ear sticks were to replace my tragus barbell which I officially lost because I took it out for the 8th. Bloody fuck make me lose it for nothing. With regards to the ear sticks, I think I last wore them in Secondary School which was officially 5 years ago. LOL.

Craved for Mac's Cheeseburger and decided that it would be my lunch accompanied by a medium Coke. Hurhur. Now, I'm officially having a stomach ache. This is what happens when you have fast food for brunch.

At Mac's, I saw a ton of school kids, I reckon it must be the exam period not because it was too early for school to have ended. Then continued to see more KC girls waiting for buses to KC. Brought me reminiscing the times where I could eat LJS almost on a daily basis or survive on a cup of bubble tea just for lunch. Haha.

God, ear sticks and fast food. Such memories.

"What we remember from childhood we remember forever; Permanent ghosts,
stamped, inked, imprinted, eternally seen. -Cynthia Ozick"

Failure

I didn't make it. After everything, I didn't make it.

After thinking about it the entire day, I figured maybe what went wrong but oh well, a little too late for that now.

Now, I'll have to pick up from where I left off. I can't continue going on this way. Something needs to be done about my life, something, anything.

See, luck is never on my side.

"My will shall shape the future. Whether I fail or succeed shall be no man's
doing but my own. I am the force; I can clear any obstacle before me or I can be
lost in the maze. My choice; my responsibility; win or lose, only I hold the key
to my destiny. - Elaine Maxwell."

Do or Die

This is my 600th blog post since abnegation started out in December 2003. ((: -pats self on back-

Yes, I'm not the kind of person who would change blog addresses every few months or so (looks pointedly at Jie and Ryl) and I've made it a point to stick to abnegation like it has stuck to me for the past couple of years. Despite the 2 blog wars I've had and a couple of rude anonymous taggers in the beginning, everything has been fine and dandy. ((:

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Met Denise dear on Wednesday to catch up and all and oh boy did we really talk a lot in 1 day's span. Hurhur.

First up was lunch at Pastamania, TM. Then headed to town to check out Kate Moss, Topshop's collection (which launches only on the 17th of this month). After which was to Prada, Paragon to leave my contact number so I wouldn't have to constantly go over and ask if my wallet is in stock already. The guy kindly told me that it probably won't come in till Autumn/Winter collection which is like October! Which is like half a year to go! -grumbles-

Headed over to Starbucks at California Fitness to rest our feet and talk some more. Hurhur. MINE joined us shortly and we decided to leave town for Bugis.

Bugis-ed awhile and had LJS for dinner. After dinner we had no idea what to do and we ended up at Mustafa! Hahaha.

Denise bought her gold watch, MINE bought yet another watch and some other nonsense. Finally, around 2230, we went home and Denise went to Zouk. (:

Babe, it was good catching up with you. Thanks for all the talking. Love you! See you on Friday at Zouk ar? Haha. -hugs-

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4 more days to the 8th. -shudders- The 8th is the day where I either do or die, literally. I don't know how I'll take to failing and I do know I'd be estatic if I pass. Everyone please pray for me. Luck is never on my side like how my mum pointedly said to my grandma earlier. So PRAY PLEASE PRAY!

"Either you make it, or break it"

21 Years & 6 Days Old

I realised I haven't been doing any substantial blogging, especially bout the over-rated big 21 so here I am now. Hur. (:

So on the Saturday before my birthday, which was the 21st of April, met MINE, Mummy, Lil' Brat and Simon in town and headed to buy my birthday present from mummy. IT'S FUCKING OUT OF STOCK. I saw the damn wallet 3 days before and 3 days later it's gone!

Singaporeans are so damn rich. I took 4 days considering whether to buy a $650 Prada wallet and when I finally decided on it, it was sold out. -cries- I'm still patiently waiting for my Prada wallet to come back in stock. -grumbles- To be precise, I'm waiting for that particular colour to come back in stock. I'm not going to make mummy spend $650 on a wallet with a colour I haven't fallen in love with.

Headed over to Heeren's Village for dinner and I was pleasantly surprised with the attendance of Ron, Jem and Chy. Thank you guys for coming and the cute lil' Topshop sling pouch! ((: Thank you Ah Bay for the Borders gift card and also the prepaid deposit of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (which is only available on the 21st of July).

Walked around town after dinner before heading down to MoS. Met Elena on our way to MoS. Thank you dear for the necklace! Thanks especially for going down despite being so tired. Loves!

MoS that night was good because despite the Champagne and Flaming Lambo, I was perfectly sober. -beams- The guys surprised me with an ice cream cake from Swensens with the Disney Princesses on top and a HUGE birthday card. Thanks to all who were there and thanks for the Topshop gift card though no one wants to tell me how much it holds and I haven't gotten to checking it either.

The Sunday and Monday before my birthday was like any other Sunday and Monday except that MINE didn't go to school on Monday. Hur.

On the day itself, had dinner with MINE, Mummy, Ah Bay and Simon at Charlie's Corner (located at Changi Village). Had my long time craving for Medium Rare steak fulfilled. Hehe. Bus 59-ed home after dinner and headed over to MINE's after packing my overnight stuff.

MINE presented me with my birthday card and birthday present when we got to her place. MINE bought this Tinkerbell birthday card that I saw on Yahoo Auctions and it's so damn pretty! Awwww.

Tiffany & Co's 1837 Ring. ALL MINE! ((:

MINE bought me my Tiffany & Co. Ring though I asked for one with a huge diamond on top but this will suffice for now. Hehe. Anyhow, I love it to bits! (((: Thank you baby. Love you deep deep! -smuacks- Thank you for arranging for the surprise dinner with Chy & gang and also the surprise with the guys at MoS. -hughug-

This 21st birthday has been a very good one and so far, I'm happy getting 1 year older. Haha. Thanks for all the wishes, presents and love showered on me. And for once in a very long time, I didn't cry on my birthday or on the day before or the day after. (:

P.S.: 26th was a success as well! Now, last round on the 8th. Pray for me!

"You are only young once, but you can be immature for a
lifetime.
-John P.Grier"

Leprechauns & Gold

25th's a total flop but there is still a tiny glimmer of hope but I ain't hanging on that.

Whereas, 21st was a success. -triple beam- Now for 26th, I'll need all the luck in the world.

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Will update my birthday happenings when I have the time to write more and take pictures of my beautiful presents. ((:

"Now for good luck, cast an old shoe after me"

Hello 21, Goodbye 20

8 minutes before I turn 21 and here I am feeling even more miserable than CNY.

Remember during CNY I was so sick I was in bed from the eve till the 3rd day. Fantastic, I think 2007 is the year where I fall sick during my most anticipated holidays.

Yes, I am sick once again. This time, my stomach is gurgling with the weirdest sensations, I feel like I'm having morning sickness 24/7, round the clock and my cough is threatening to remove my lungs from my chest.

Happy Birthday to me.

"I'll sing you a birthday song,
from the bottom of my heart"

Self Induced Stress

Prada?

21st & 25th.

One word to describe the above, STRESS!

Forget it, I'm going to bed.

"I dream of a place where
Visions breathe and thoughts are so free"

Run Nose Run!

*edited: 18th April, 0246 hours.

-mumble grumble- I'm having a case of leaky runny nose which I suspect I caught from MINE or caused by the ever thickening dust in my room. It is officially irritating the crap hell of me and I have a box of Kleenex with me wherever I go in the house.

1 more week and I'll be 21! Yay! Hurhur. I know I can't stop counting down but everyone only turns 21 once in a lifetime you know. -giggles-

Anyway, for information's sake, the DREAM list is really nothing but a DREAM list. No one in this world is ever going to buy me THE 2.55 Chanel Bag nor the Gucci Wallet nor the iPod Nano nor the cellphone except myself, which will prolly take about 3 years to buy them all. It's a DREAM list understand?! I hope I got myself loud and clear.

MINE, mummy and Lil' Brat are meeting later after mummy knocks off from work to go buy my birthday present. Of course I'm not invited, which sucks because that means I've gotta settle my own dinner ALONE.

They didn't meet in the end, I don't know why but I've a date with mummy and MINE (not sure bout Lil' Brat cause she has lessons) later in town!

Actually, I think I'm not supposed to know but MINE had to tell me where's she going and with whom or I'll prolly hit the roof and murder her. "BABY! CAN I HAVE THE CHANEL BAG?! HAHAHAHAHA!" Okay, I was kidding.

I will get a job, I WILL GET THE JOB! Sorry I'm trying to make myself feel better. Been rather stressed bout the 21st and 25th. Those who know, would know why and those who don't, happy guessing.

I think I've had enough rambling for now.

"Have faith in yourself; Or no one will."

The Dream List

So my big 21 is approaching in about 12 days. Bahh. Next year I'd be 22, then 23 and it never stops, until I'm six feet under of course. -grumbles-

As per norm, there's a wish list, except that this year, I'm realistic enough to call it the dream list. Arranged from the most ridiculous price to the least ridiculous price.

• THE Coco Chanel 2.55 Bag. (Black)

• Gucci Continental Wallet. (Platinum guccissima leather with white/gold/white web, platinum leather trim, and light gold hardware)

• iPod Nano. (Black or Red)

• Nokia 7390. (Black/Bronze)

Yeah I know, the above 4 are like, dream on (Maybe except for the phone), but a girl's gotta dream right? So indulge me please.

Of course besides these material wants, I have non material wants and needs. Hur. First is for Mummy to strike more lottery, not myself cause I rarely buy anyway. Second is for my life to get on track inside of bumming around doing absolutely nothing productive. Third is to be happy, filial, good, doting, sweet, angelic and whatever have you. -giggles-

"Dream a lil dream"

Good Friday Weekender

So so, the long weekend is finally over and tomorrow, it's back to our mudane lives.

Friday was Zouk. Supposedly for Groove Armada but I was too high so I got stuck at Phuture after a glass of red, 2 glasses of Tiger, a couple of glasses of Martell with Coke and the guilty as charged, Flaming Lambo. Thankfully, I was blissfully high, not crazy high so everything was fine and dandy. (:

Had supper with the usual suspects and I was feeling too puke-y to eat anything so only drank. After I got off the cab, I was literally Singapore's mascot, Merlion. Bleeding Flaming Lambo.

(L-R) Elena, "Long lost" Dowell & Myself. Was so high I didn't remember taking this picture.

(L-R) Elena, Don, PSL & Myself. Like Elena said on her blog, BABY WHERE ARE YOU HUH?!

Woke up early on Saturday around 1500 hours (Yes that is early in my context especially after clubbing the morning earlier) for my supposedly hair cut appointment that became OURS. Hur. MINE cut her hair behind really short and left the front long. See, I prefer her with "long" hair. Trimmed mine and God it feels so much better.

Headed to town after and headed straight for Dior at Taka to get the mother in-law's bracelet. Then to Heerens's Sakae Sushi to meet Elena for our brunchner (Breakfast/Lunch/Dinner). Took neoprints after that and honestly, the nicest looking neoprints I've taken in my entire life. Haha. 3 of us had mad fun though. (:

Before taking our neoprints.

Walked around supposedly window shopping but failed. MINE ended up with a top from Zara, Elena, a nice tube/shorts "jumpsuit" sorta thing (Have no idea what you call it) and a thong, and myself, another thong from Topshop. Then chilled out at NYDC for awhile before heading down to MoS.

All I could say about MoS that night would be "5 bottles of Sour Apple, 3 bottles of Martell and 2 bottles of Champagne", go figure. I was sober at the end of it anyway, Friday was enough for me. Supper at Liang Court Macs, hashbrown and half a Fillet O'Fish downed with Green Tea.

At this point, I was already bored to bits. (L-R) Elena, Myself, MINE & PSL.

Cabbed home to realise my entire carpark is closed so I have to walk for about 10 minutes to get to my block. Bloody fuck. I was so tired already please. Go home, came online, showered and by the time I got out of the shower, mummy was up.

By 0620 hours, we were on our way to Bright Hill Road for Qing Ming. Imagine how stoned I was but I like times like these. Though physically tired, I'm mentally awake and I actually get loads of my thoughts processed and straightened out.

After which, headed for Dim Sum breakfast at Upper Thomson. Damn shiok la OMG. Haha. Finally got home around 1000 ish and slept at 1100 ish. Woke up around 1830, got ready and went to TM for dinner with Mummy and Ah Bay.

VietThai Kitchen for duh, Viet/Thai food. Yummy. Shopped around for awhile before heading back home. Time for my supper now. Hehe.

"Summer's over for the both of us
But that doesn't mean we should give up on us
You're the one that I've been thinkin of
And I knew the day I met you you'd be the one"

Wednesday Night Out

Bus-ed 5 to Zouk yesterday, signed in and went off because Phuture was already full so PSL couldn't get in. Cabbed straight to MoS to join LJ and the rest of the boys.

MoS was okay, just a lil quiet compared to Saturday nights and Wednesday nights at Zouk. I reckon Zouk must be rather disappointed that they lost night spot of the year to MoS this year. Oh well, I still prefer Zouk to MoS. SO PLEASE RENEW MY MEMBERSHIP OR UPGRADE ME CAN?! -grins-

Headed to Geographer's Bar with Don, PSL and MINE around 0145 to check out the place and the supposed "Thai Babes". The place isn't that bad, strangely reminded me of Bangkok loads though but it just wasn't my cup of tea nor MINE's.

Back to Smoove around 0230, sat around, saw Suhan and crapped with him for awhile. Left around 0330 to Macs for supper with Shawn Bob, Kevin and MINE. After supper, cabbed back to MINE with PSL and Don. So yeah, that was about it, my Ladies Night after missing out on it for awhile.

Anyway, my corn rows got a lil too much attention for my liking and plus they were already rather "chui" so I took them off this afternoon with the help of MINE. The end result? I looked like a Lion-ess complete with a Lion's all mighty mane. Haha.

Appointment for my hair cut has been made on Saturday! Yay! Gonna keep my mane long so it'll just be a simple trim to keep the stray ends in place.

This weekend, being Good Friday weekend, is just another holiday for us all to club like mad but I'm a good girl, staying home today and recuperating for the weekend madness. Hur.

In another 24 hours, G-R-O-O-V-E A-R-M-A-D-A!!! (((:

"I see you baby, shakin' that ass."

Dream A Lil Dream

First things first.

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY MY LIL RYL! ((:

Wanted to give you a call in UK, I even got your UK number from Chy so I could call you to wish you a Happy Birthday BUT I couldn't find my spare international calling card and since you're not online, probably out celebrating the big 21, I know you'll see this.

First, Spencer wants to say:"Happy Hotdog's Day. Come back soon for hotdogs?".

Darling, it's been almost 5 years since the beginning of this friendship. From the days of us being freshies at TP to graduation day and now, us turning 21. You've seen me gone through loads, from my first ciggy, to the hospital stay and now, hanging between limbo. I've seen my lil slumber princess grown from a small princess to our strong princess today. No matter how hard it is on you in UK, please remember you have plenty of friends left here in Singapore who are awaiting your arrival on the 28th of May.

I love you aplenty and can't wait for you to come back. I promise I will mambo one full night with you and Spencer can just stay at Phuture for all I care. Haha. We will also make sure our glam stewardess, Marilyn comes with us to mambo with Chy and Kerrie okay?

Happy 21st Birthday my slumber princess. Miss you monkey loads.

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I had a very strange dream of an old KC friend, a very strange one indeed.

Friends come and go but some do stay. Even if all you have is a occasional short chat on MSN. (: I miss loads of people and sometimes, I know I'm at fault because I don't bother to keep in close contact. I miss Queky, I miss Sel, I miss Jac Tong, I miss Lil Ryl, I miss Marilyn and I miss Chy. God knows who else I miss but these are the few that I really miss the most. Sigh.

Ryl's birthday is here, which means mine is 3 weeks away. Somehow, I think it'll be a very lonely 21st birthday.

"Some day, when I'm awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you...
And the way you look tonight."

The Land of Smiles

Got back from the airport last night around 1900 hours, unpacked my luggage immediately. Had dinner with Mummy, Ah Bay and Simon after giving them their presents. Continued to laze around the house, came online for awhile but I was too tired to blog and finally hit the covers around 0300 hours and never woke up till 1830 hours earlier. And honestly, I'm still very tired so I'm prolly going back to my sack after I finish blogging. Hur.

So now, about the trip to Bangkok. Well, I'm going to let the pictures do the talking like Elena did on her blog because like her, I can only remember bits and pieces of it now. Hur. And be warned, it's the most amount of pictures you've ever seen on my blog in a singular entry.

I really hated the water there. It tasted really funny and I'm rather cranky about my water. So yes, SINGAPORE'S DRINKING WATER IS THE BEST EVER. And though I didn't get to eat as much street food as I could but I did fall in love with the meatball thingys there.

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28th March, Wednesday - Day 1

Arrived at the airport with mummy and headed to BK to have our dinner. Checked in and headed in to shop around DFS. Bought my Vogue Superslims, Estee Lauder's Pure Pops in Sugar Pie (lost my previous one) and mummy's Loreal mascara.

On board the plane.

Finally got off the 2 hour flight, got through customs and had to wait for our luggage on the belt and while we were waiting, we decided to cam whore a lil. (:

While waiting for our hotel transfer.

Finally we arrived at our hotel around 0030 plus SIN time.

The view from our hotel room. That's a classic traffic jam on the highway.

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29th March, Thursday - Day 2

On our way down for breakfast.

After breakfast, we headed to Pratunam Market, which in my opinion, is as good as Chatuchak Weekend Market and even cheaper. We went mad there and headed back to the hotel early afternoon because our hands were too full to continue. After some much needed rest in the hotel room, we headed out for lunch at Siam Square.

Our lunch. A&W! Awww. I still miss the curly fries.

On our way to MBK, we passed by Dunkin Donuts!

We decided to take a skytrain ride to MBK though it was just 1 stop away.

The old school fare card dispensing machine.

MINE and myself with a typical touristy pose.

Looking like a bloody idiot on the train. Haha.

The three of us on the BTS.

After MBK, we headed to Suan Lom Night Market. Where there's the huge ferris wheel.

At the pets section, we spotted this TINY chihuahua. It's really palm size.

Day 2's shopping. (:

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30th March, Friday - Day 3

Headed to Khao San and we were really early because the stalls were only setting up. Hur. Elena and I both did corn rolls. Pretty cool except for the fact that you have to sit under the hot sun for a bloody hour. So I was basically, dripping wet while the lady did my corn rolls.

And here's a very unglam picture of me while doing them.

After that, we walked to Bang Lam Phu, which is the street next to Khao San. After which, headed on a cab to Sukhumvit Market but we got lost there and decided to head back to Pratunam and discovered the wonders of Platinum Mall , the huge shopping centre opposite Pratunam Market and another whole sale shopping centre.

Went back to the hotel to rest and then it was Suan Lom again. Hur.

Day 3's shopping. (:

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31st March, Saturday -Day 4

Woke up late, and missed breakfast. By the time we had instant noodles and headed to Chatuchak it was almost noon. Spent almost 5 hours there and when our hands were all full, we headed back to the hotel.

Mini donut things which I fell in love with. I bought a box back home. (:

Day 4's shopping. Chatuchak buys.

After some rest, we headed to Chinatown for dinner. I almost finished an entire plate of Snow Fish all by myself. That dinner was our most expensive meal in Bangkok, amounting up to 1,390 Baht.

After Chinatown, we decided to check out Patpong and Silom Night Market, the infamous red light district. Well, all I can say is, they try to take your heads of with their prices.

So we left and ended up at Suan Lom again. Haha.

Day 4's shopping - Suan Lom buys.

Our last Tuk Tuk Ride.

I thought their post box was really cute. Hah.

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1st April, Sunday - Day 5

Woke up late again and missed breakfast for the second time. Rushed to get ready and rushed to the supermarket to buy instant noodles and chewing gums. Rushed back to the hotel to find that our airport transfer was already waiting for us.

On the way to the airport.

Waiting to check in. Bloody long queue.

On board the plane back to Singapore!

Arrived in Singapore at 1740 hours. Went to DFS, bought Martell Corden Bleu, Oyster Bay's white wine, 3 Heineken beers, 2 Clinique Super Double powder and Estee Lauder's Emerald Dream eau de parfum.

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In total I bought 12 tops, 5 dresses, 7 bottoms, 5 pairs of footwear, 1 boxers, 1 bikini, 3 bags, 4 pairs of earrings, 2 belts and a pair of shades.

In total damage, I spent all my 500SGD in Bangkok and another 400SGD in DFS alone. LOL.

This entry took me 2 entire hours. I'm out. Goodnight!

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*edited: 0445 hours.

I think I'm so funny sometimes. LOL.

fire in her eyes says (4:36 AM):
she so rich, no need to study la

// `let's get lost in lust *drea says (4:36 AM):
Haha
Rich thats why can go study ma
If I'm rich also long gone in Aussie already

fire in her eyes says (4:36 AM):
...
fire in her eyes says (4:36 AM):
very good

// `let's get lost in lust *drea says (4:37 AM):
But I'm not
So I'm stuck in Sunny Singapore with my irritating gf
And a smelly dog and a pig of a cat

Don't we all wish to be rich. I'm officially VERY BROKE after the trip. ):

Leaving On A Jetplane

Just recovered from a bout of phelgmy coughing fits plus a very sore, sore throat. Am I glad that I'm all feeling better just before the trip to BKK. ((: Credits go to my trusted family doctor whom has literally seen me grown from a squeamish baby to the "lady" I am today.

The first thing that he said to me when I saw him on Monday was, "You look so different, why are you so thin?!" After which he forced me on the weighing scale and took my height before proclaiming that my BMI is 16.5, which is 2 below the healthy range (18.5). Then tried to give me vitamins but I politely declined.

I know, I'm so thin now that my old bottoms barely fit and have to be held up with a belt or one tug will send the entire world a clear view of my skinny bum. I've been eating an average of 2 meals a day. Sometimes, 1 meal is enough to fill me but I swear I'm not anorexic neither am I bulimic or whatever eating disorders have you, MINE will vouch for me.

Anyhow, my luggage is packed and I'm all raring to leave for the airport now just that our flight isn't until about 18 hours later. Hur. 5 days and 4 nights of pure exhilaration; shopping.

BKK here we come!

Before I sign off, Lolly says goodnight to all!

"If we took a holiday
Took some time to celebrate
Just one day out of life
It would be, it would be so nice"

Homophobia Is Wrong

Here I am on the orders of Jie. I do agree that my life is much more exciting but I'm just too lazy to blog these days therefore it explains the lack of posts. This is going to be a very short post because I just don't have the mojo to blog.

On Tuesday, went over to Granny's for Grandpa's death anniversary. It's been 15 years since he passed on, yet it feels like it was yesterday. Which also means, I'm turning 21 in a month's time. ): Headed to Parkway with Mummy, Lil Brat and Granny to change currency for my trip after the prayers and all.

Watched Mr Bean's Holiday today with MINE and Elena after collecting our tickets. It was well, average only. Not exactly that funny but MINE was laughing like a mad woman, I have no idea why honestly, I have a lame and mad girlfriend.

Zouk later. MoS tomorrow. Sunday is family day. Monday is stay home and nua day. Tuesday is luggage packing day. WEDNESDAY, Bangkok, Thailand! Just 5 more days to go. ((:

Before I end this short and sweet post. Here's a video I want to share with everyone. Something that I truly believe in. And if like me, you believe in it, re post it on your blog.

Homophobia Is Wrong

"I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as
they realised I was transsexual."

Family Day Out

On Saturday, met Mummy and Lil Brat at IKEA Tampines with MINE in the afternoon for shopping. The day ended well with 2 new bed frames, 2 mattresses, a whole lot of new pillows, a new optical mouse (from Courts because my old mouse was half dead) and a toy for Hershey.

Thank God for Leslie (my cousin) who came to pick us up with the stuff or we had no idea how we 4 ladies would go back home. Headed for dinner at Block 201, Tampines then headed home. Simon and the rest of the boys were downstairs our place on standby to help carry the things up.

By the time we settled everything, it was already 2300 so MINE and I headed straight to MoS from my place. The moment we stepped into MoS, we headed over to Maggi's table to celebrate her birthday and I immediately was shoved with 2 glasses of Champagne (My ultimate favourite alcoholic drink) and a glass of 3/4 filled of Vodka and 1/4 of Coke, all in 30 minutes.

Left around 0300 cause it was getting boring and headed over to Liang Court's Macs to buy supper/breakfast and hopped into a cab back to MINE's. Showered, ate and fed Hershey his favourite Fillet O' Fish and headed to bed.

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Sunday, was family day again. Came home with MINE to meet Mummy, Simon, Lil Brat and Leslie to head to ECP for cycling and dinner because it was the last day of CNY. Yes, you guys read it right, cycling. I can't cycle for those who don't know and on Sunday, it was my first time on 2 wheels.

I swear I was so scared that I wanted to pee in my pants. Rented a twin with MINE and it started out pretty okay until she kept pedaling so fast that my feet went off the pedals and I was screaming my head off. It was pretty funny actually.

Then mummy took over halfway on our way back and MINE was more than happy to cycle alone instead of having to "drag" a burden (Me) behind. Mummy was more stable with her pedaling and I did not have to scream at her to slow down unlike MINE. -glares-

After returning our bicycles, we headed for dinner at Long Beach Restaurant. The food wasn't really good and the service was crap. Bloody 300 bucks for a dinner for 6 and the manager was actually sarcastic about us giving the exact amount and not tipping.

Dream on about tips when you don't even give good service, especially when you're in Singapore. I'm sure the 10% service charge is enough of tips, asshole.

So I have a brand new bed, with a brand new mattress and I cycled on 2 wheels! -very proud of myself- Hur.

"To us, family means putting your arms around each other and being
there. -Barbara Bush"

Of Cats & Dogs

We "adopted" a stray tabby cat and named her Lollipop or rather affectionately known as Lolly on Sunday.

As of today, she ran away. -wails- I think she must have been too bored at my place, with no fellow "Meow meow" friends to play with and no rats to chase after. Yes, my void deck is rampant with big dirty rats. -screws nose up-

To think I bought a small toy from our trip to IKEA for her today. Bahh. Oh well, like I told Lil Brat (who eyes were all swollen from all the crying cause she somewhat "allowed" Lolly to run away), we'll bring her back when one of us next sees her.

At least she was with us for 5 full days. Attacking me in the middle of my sleep, scaring the shit hell out of me, digging into her water bowl for god knows what, greeting me with a "Meow" when I get home, she was truly such an adorable darling. I miss her already. )):

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Yesterday when I stayed over at MINE's, we were lazing on the bed watching telly programmes when we smelt something funny. At first MINE thought it was the smell of the drains cause it has been raining the past few days. Then I looked at Hershey and suspected that he farted.

So I did the most stupid thing in the entire world by bending down and sniffing his butt. KNNBCCB, he farted again at that very moment. I SWORE I ALMOST DIED ON THE SPOT. So while I was cussing about how horrible the smell was, MINE was in uncontrollable fits of laughter and said "I forgot to tell you, I suspected it was him cause I smelt the smell of dogfood." Thanks arh.

Lil Hershey just sat there staring at me as if I was some mad idiot. If only dogs could admit to farting. LOL.

"Dogs come when they're called; cats take a message and get back to
you.
- Mary Bly"

My Worst Ever CNY

The title of my entry says it all. I've had the worst Lunar New Year in my ENTIRE 21 years of life span. All because, I've been so mother fucking sick.

It started out on the eve of CNY afternoon when I awoke at MINE's and whining to her about how I had this bad feeling I was going to fall real sick because I felt super weak, bad sore throat and body ache.

Sigh. If only striking lottery would be as simple. After I got home from Grandma's for reunion dinner, I immediately felt sick with a fever. Came home, did last minute spring cleaning and then rested for awhile.

Then there was another bad news, Mummy's Luo Han never made it pass the first day of CNY. She (the luo han) had been very sick for awhile already. Stomach all bloated and her colour changed from a nice red to total black. Just after midnight, the poor fish died. Mummy just sat in front of her tank and cried.

This is probably the 2nd or 3rd time in my life I've seen mummy cried. I felt her heartache so I ended up tearing as well. ): I guess that's why she never allowed us to keep pets because she can't withstand the mental trauma. Wrapped the fish in aluminum foil and we headed to bury the fish at Bedok Park, opposite my block.

First day of CNY, woke up at 1400 feeling even worst than ever. Headed to Grandma's to bai nian and came back home 3 hours later cause Lil' Brat's friends were coming over. By the time I got home, I was literally half dead.

Didn't even talk to any of her friends, all I did was lie in mummy's bed, dozing in and out of sleep while watching telly programmes. Eventually, I fell asleep.

Next morning, I was supposed to go to the temple to pay my respects to my ancestors but I was so weak and my fever was still running high so mummy gave me the go ahead to stay in and rest.

Slept in till way pass noon and mummy came back awhile after. She cooked my favourite scallop porridge with luncheon meat and eventually, only ate a tiny bowl cause I had no appetite. Mummy brought me to the doctor's after that and the total expenditure at the doctors' cost a bloody $63! Sigh. Who ask me to fall sick at this kind time. Argh.

According to the doctor, I've got a bad case of viral infection. It was so bad that my nose couldn't stop leaking, coughed so much till my stomach muscles still ache now, fever went on for 3 days and my eyes were so damn painful.

Today after a day's of medication, I feel slightly better but still a lil weak. Least my eyes don't hurt as much after using the eye drops prescribed by the doctor and my cough, flu and fever has disappeared for the time being.

What sucks is that I still have to work tomorrow. Sigh. I so still wanna stay in and rest cause the medicines are so drowsy, resulting in me sleeping every now and then. The other sucky thing is, I never got to wear my new clothes only wore 1 set for like 3 hours. -.-

The even "suckier" thing was that I never got to go visiting, so this year, my ang baos have gone down by ALOT. -whines- The even even "suckiest" thing is that I haven't seen MINE for like 4 full days already. )): -big sigh-

So while all of you were out visiting, collecting ang baos, eating the CNY goodies, clubbing at night and gambling your day away, yours truly has been in the bed all day because I was even too weak to get out of bed.

It's so bad that I've been sleeping with mummy so she can take care of me. I'm a major baby when I'm sick. A major one.

So that's how exciting my CNY has been. -grumbles-

"Gong Xi Fa Cai
my arse"

The Men Don't Get It

Singaporean men these days, are DISGUSTING. Of late, I've been having trouble with their bloody egos and manners. 1 WAS a friend, I wouldn't classify him under my list of friends anymore and I don't want to talk about what happened.

Last night, I had to scream at 2 BOYS at Phuture to ask them where they hell they lost their bloody balls. Bleeding pussies. 1 shoved Elena because she accidentally bumped into him, the other told me to fuck off when I told him to apologise for stomping on my foot. Bloody lost their balls while wanking and lost their manners when their mother gave birth to them. THIS IS WHY I AM LESBIAN. Singaporean men can all go fuck each other and die. Enough bout them.

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Woke up around 1500 today, ate maggi with MINE, went back to sleep and overslept. Woke up at 1900 when I was supposed to meet Mummy in town at 1945. Rushed like crazy then cabbed down.

Met Mummy at FEP, bought my shoes then headed to Shaw's NIKE by B.I.R.D and Mummy bought a pair of pants for herself and a polo jersey for her bf with 40% discount! Great deal man.

Headed over to Zara at Liat Towers after that and mummy bought herself a top, I bought a pair of light grey skinny jeans (I LOVE!) and her bf a pair of pants.

Then to Taka's Zara where mummy bought another top for herself and her boss a top. Headed over to Wisma's Aldo and mummy bought a pair of heels then Topshop to get my nippies then realised we forgot to check out Adidas at Taka.

Rushed back to Taka but Adidas was already closed. Went to Guardian to buy my mascara and hair dye then finally settled at Cine's Hong Kong Cafe before spotting another Adidas polo jersey at the Royal Sporting house there for her bf.

By the time we got home, it was 2345 already. Did all that shopping in 3 hours. Poor mummy still has to get up for work later at 0700.

Tomorrow, I'm a mother fucking busy woman. First to Raffles Place to sign a 3 day temp job contract for next Wednesday - Friday. Then to town to sign another contract, which is for AMEX. Got myself a permanent temp job with AMEX! YAY!

Then I have to collect my phone at Nokia Care at Wheelock, which I conveniently forgot to collect today. Then change mummy's bf's pants cause they're a size too big.

Then rush to Lucky Plaza to alter my Zara jeans and taper my Abercrombie & Fitch jeans. After which, head to Paragon to check out bedsheets for Mummy, Lil' Brat and myself. Then buy my bloody belt from Miss Sixty or AX if Miss Sixty doesn't have the one I want anymore.

Gotta go get Lil's Brat her hair dye as well and ALL these have to be done before 1900 so I can get home in time for Reunion dinner with Mummy, Mummy's bf and Lil Brat.

I am so mother fucking tired. Had to give tomorrow's JD event a pass cause of dinner but mummy said she'll pay me to stay home for dinner. HUR.

Time for me to shower and pack my mess of a room now. Loves!

"When God gave Men their dicks
He forgot to give them brains"

Happy Hallmark Day!

Well oh well. The annual day of where idiots spend a ton on a bouquet of flowers just to look like another idiot couple on the street carrying a big bouquet bloody flowers. Then you have other idiots who spend hundred of dollars buying GINORMOUS stuffed toys and look like bleeding idiots hugging them around the streets of Orchard.

Pardon me but I have nothing against Valentine's Day but the idiots who allow businessmen to capitalise on them. Seriously, a bouquet made up of small teddy bears (which to Elena thought were stuffed toy dogs) costs a freaking $709. Bleeding blasphemy. Might as well get your partner a Gucci wallet or something practical right?!

Valentine's Day is a day to celebrate love, with loved ones not to spend bleeding money on things that will wilt in 2 days or toys that eventually end up in Salvation Army. I will fucking smack anyone who buys me stuffed toys or flowers (which prices go up by 100%). Anyhow, this entry is not to blast those bleeding idiots because I trust my friends who read this do not do stupid things like that (at least not the stuffed toy part).

MINE and I will be celebrating Hallmark day with Elena over steamboat at Suntec instead of wasting God knows how much money and then heading over to Zouk later to club! There isn't a need to spend so much money on one heavily capitalised holiday which isn't even a blinking public holiday.

To MINE; I love you. That's all I have to say to you, for the rest of my life. ((:

To everyone else; Happy Valentine's Day. Love you all!

"Each little bird this tide
Doth choose her beloved peer
Which constantly abide
In wedlock all the year."

Stuck On You For 365 days

Good Saturday morning to all. The weather's mighty fine and I'm wide awake not because I didn't sleep.

Phuture it was last night after much contemplation. It was just a few of us this time, namely; MINE, Swee Liang, Terence, myself and LJ (who left 1 hour after we arrived). But as usual, there was a bottle of Hennessy.

Honestly, I am so fucking sick of Hennessy. Previously was Absolut for as long as I can remember, now LJ decides on Hennessy as his choice of poison. But because I was so bored, I just drank glass after glass after glass, about 10 glasses in total. Surprisingly, no fucking effect. Blahh.

Left after closing and shared a cab back with Terence, Swee Liang and MINE. Got back to MINE's crib, showered and ate maggi then headed straight for bed at 0500. Then I woke up at 0800 and couldn't get back to sleep.

Left MINE's at 0900 to come back to get my white tapered pants and will be going back soon. Nothing better to do right? That's exactly the case. Cause I wouldn't be able to sleep anymore because I'm stressed about the BKK trip that has officially fucked my mind up and plus I slept close to 12 straight hours yesterday. Bahh.

I hate it when things don't go my way as childish and stubborn as I sound but who does? Especially when it's so mother fucking last minute and stresses me out so much till I got a nightmare about it last night. I hate I hate I hate! Okay, enough bout that.

Yesterday, it was our 1st year anniversary. Although we did nothing, MINE was in school and I was sleeping the day away, it doesn't matter because everyday is a special day as long as it's with you. ((:

Baby, I would like to congratulate myself for being your longest love till date and you for loving me the longest in your record. Thank you for all the wonderful and horrible moments. You better remember our first date, first kiss and first movie because I can't remember the other firsts. Lol. May there be more anniversaries to come by. I love you, more than the stars times infinity! I win! Lol. (Private joke) Happy 1st year anniversary. Stickwith u till all the stars fall. -hughugkisskisslove-

"You're a shelter in the storm
Keeping me away from harm
You're a song with beautiful words
Something that I never heard"

The King's Big 2-0

I just lao sai-ed. Haha. I know, what a way to start an entry but honest, that was what I did just before this. I swear it's from over-eating yesterday. My headache has morphed into a ginormous migraine and I'm about to take my brains out and mash them up. Urghh.

Sidetracked a lil there but I just had to whine and complain. Hur. Yesterday was MINE's big 2-0. Muahaha. You lao cheebai (with compliments from Bel). Now you're the same age as Bel (Bel you're 20 not 19! Haha!) and myself! (:

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Had a pre-celebration on Saturday at MoS with the usual suspects at members. The army boys, Belly, Jordan, Raine, Drey, Tiang, Buds and Dada. 2 bottles of Hennesy, 1 bottle of Moet and 4, yes fucking 4 bottles of Sour Apple. By the end of the night, everyone just forgot the invention called shot glasses and just poured the Sour Apple directly into our throats. Haha.

How not to get drunk, especially the birthday girl. On top of all that, she had a sambuca shot and a flaming lambo (which was her last drink and the drink that killed her). Hah.

A fight occurred after that all because of some pussy mother fucker. I'll fucking whack him the next time I see him. Fucking hit a girl. What kind of a man are you. Fucking fuck asshole. A guy NEVER hits a girl, even if the girl hits him first. I don't fuck care if you're drunk. That's no fucking excuse. ARGH!

Anyway, everyone headed back home after, no supper, all too fucked and pissed off. By the time I settled MINE into bed it was almost 0600.

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Sunday, woke up 4 hours later after falling asleep with a slight hangover. Went straight to the kitchen and cooked Maggi mee because we were both so hungry and after eating, we went straight back to bed. Hah.

Woke up in the evening and went out with her parentals to dinner then to Chinatown. Walked around, nibbled on nonsense then went back home.

Bel and Jordan came over around 0100 with a Swensens Mango ice cream cake to surprise MINE when she came out of the shower. Hurhur. Then we got hungry and went to Shop n Save to buy Marmite, tofu and minced pork to cook porridge. It's been a million years since I had Marmite. Fuck shiok.

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Monday, woke up real early at 1300 hours. That is early okay, considering that MINE skipped school. Hur. Did some chores and fell back asleep then Belly arrived at MINE's. Showered, changed and all then Jordan came along with the Evo 9.

Sent MINE to run her errands before heading to Queensway to get Jordan's contacts then headed down town to get MINE's birthday present. I hope you liked the Emporio Armani ring and 3 mini sunflowers from Belly, Jordan and ME! (:

Rushed down to Harbour Front Centre for her surprise dinner. Dada, Mela, Raine, Drey, Buds and CY were all there waiting for us! MINE had a real surprise despite the number of times some of them called me on my cell when she was with me. Baby, SO BLUR! Haha.

All 10 of us had like over 20 courses. Let's see, we had cereal prawns, steamed sea bass, shark's fin soup, roasted duck, char siew, drunken chicken with jellyfish, prawn and fruit salad, deep fried soft shell crab, sambal sotong, giant garlic prawns, scallops with vegetables, paper wrapped chicken, sweet and sour pork, sambal sliced fish, chilli crab, pepper crab, deep fried mantous, ee-fu noodles, honeydew sago and I honestly cannot remember what else.

20 over courses all for 22+++ per person. Shiok only please. All of us were so mother fucking full and there was still her surprise birthday cake with compliments from the girls. (:

By the time we ended dinner, it was like 10 plus. Stood outside the restaurant and discussed the plans after that. Drey, Dada, Mela and CY had to go back so leaving Raine, Buds, Bel, Jordan, MINE and myself for KTV!

Drove over to Partyworld at Shenton Way and sang for 4 hours straight. Haha. KTV usually consists of emo songs and that's what we sang until the last 15 minutes. Bloody Jordan went to search for all the available clubbing songs and oh my god la, everyone was dancing and singing like madly deprived of clubbing fuckers who all were either fuck gone or half fuck on MINE's Saturday Pre-Birthday celebration at MoS. HAHAHA.

Jordan drove all of us home and in the car, we were still going mad on Pussycat Dolls CD. Blasting it, singing and dancing in our seats. Lol.

Got home, did some chores and we both ate maggi mee. LOL. Finally got to bed at like 0500. Woke up at 0930 for MINE's school and now, I'm totally drained out from the weekend. I need to rest NOW!

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Raine - Thank you for helping me organise the surprise birthday dinner with the rest of the ringers. Really appreciate it. Love you! I'll see you hopefully on Saturday at MoS for YOUR pre birthday celebration. Haha. Hugs.

Buds - Dear, thank you also for helping me to organise everything especially suggesting the venue. We shall go for the Dim Sum one soon! Lol. I'll see you to roll on Saturday as well! Love you deep deep! Hugs.

Belly & Jordan - Thank you my two lovelies for helping me with everything. From the midnight surprise to her present to driving us around. Love you both like mad, Mambo, Citrine and Tweety too. Chai Por Egg loves you two!! Haha.

Drey, Dada, Mela & CY - Girls, thank you for making time to attend the dinner. Hope you girls had fun. See y'all around soon! (:

MINE - Baby, I hope you had a great 20th birthday. I had a massive headache thinking of how to celebrate it with you. Though it wasn't as sweet and romantic as my 20th birthday, I hope you liked the surprises I planned with all the loves of your life. Hershey and I love you loads and our sunshine hopes you like the birthday song he sang for you though he was a lil sleepy. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU SMELLY CROWNED KING SEAWEED SPENCER BABY TAN!

"Happy birthday to you, my love."

Don't Speak

It's always better to be cautious. To walk on the safe side of the road. Because accidents do happen and it's better to be safe than sorry, including with the words that you say, to anyone, anyone at all.

"Old memories
They can be inviting
But some are all together
Mighty frightening"

It Ends Tonight

MINE, Belly, Jordan and MINE's Dad are currently mahjong-ing. So here I am left to my own devices. (:

Last night was MoS with Lian Jin and all. 2 and a half bottles of Hennesy, 1 bottle of Sour Apple, a sip of Illusion and Moet. Came home with a serious craving for Chicken flavoured maggi mee. And after eating and taking a shower, my cheeks were still rosy red. I could just imagine the amount of alcohol running in my system.

The thing that MINE and I have been craving for would honestly be Zouk! It seems like we haven't been to Zouk for a million years. Bahh. Next week please! Thank you.

Life's not so good now I'm too free with nothing to do. Got a couple of calls from agencies so hopefully will land myself a short term stint to ease the monetary woes.

The emo vibes have been getting to me and I absolutely hate it, totally. Sigh. I shall stop here before I get myself into it again.


And it's this little fella and his "daddy" that makes me smile through it all.

"The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow"

The Good & Not So Good of 2007

The 11th day into 2007 and honestly, it hasn't been all fine and dandy as I hope it would be. But honestly, 11 days ain't enough to judge the whole year to come.

At the moment I am at home (Bedok Reservoir), just bumping around. My lonely bed and chou chous are calling out to me but I have been given the strictest order to not nap because I might just end up not waking up. /:

So within 11 days, quite a significant amount of events has taken place. Firstly, I have once again joined the "I have no idea how many percent" unemployed rate. Well, I actually see it as a good thing because I'm finally out of the "mother fucking old virgin slut's" clutches. Muahaha. I swear she's the worst boss anyone could meet.

Another reason why it's a good thing is because, we (Belly, Jordan & MINE) have finally booked tickets for BANGKOK! Omg omg omg! Yayy! Will be leaving for BKK on 21st Febuary (3rd day of Chinese New Year) and just nice, 2 full days to collect as many Ang Baos as we can before leaving to shop till we drop for 5 days, 4 nights. -triple beam-

There's a downside to being jobless and going for a vacation in a month's time though. I need money! So I'm currently searching for a 1 month stint job to earn my shopping expenses.

I've already planned what I am going to do after I return from BKK. No, I am not going back to join the working force and pay Income Tax to the government. Instead, I have finally decided to go back to my studies, to do my degree. I am not ready to work full time, not just yet. Already sourced for a degree to understudy in and hopefully, everything will fall into place. As much as I hate doing off-shore studies but like the saying goes, "Beggars can't be choosers". So fuck it, plus, it's a Bachelor of Commerce with Double majors.

Anyhow, here are the pictures as promised. ((:


MINE's Gucci Handphone Strap.


MINE's Fred Perry Shoes, DHL-ed all the way from UK.


MINE's Agnes B bag (X'mas present from Jordan, Belly and myself) and Polo Black Perfume from my mummy.


My very own Kenneth Cole watch (X'ams present from MINE, Jordan and Belly).

Mummy also bought me my DKNY Be Delicious perfume for X'mas. Hur. We bought Belly her Prada handphone charm. Not to mention, I have fallen in love with Prada's new handphone charm. -drools- Jordan got an AX belt from us. As you can see, it was a very expensive Christmas. Hur.

"Some days I feel broken inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?"

Goodbye, So Long

Goodbye 2006, Hello 2007 (in 2 hours).

I hated and loved 2006. Hopefully 2007 will be a better year. New Year resolutions? Hmmm. Why bother when I can't keep to them anyway. Hah.

Happy 4th year anniversary 'abnegation.blogspot.com'. To another year of my whining. ((:

My Grown Up Chrismas List

Hello all! I am currently at work and there's absolutely nothing to do plus IT (aka the bitch boss) is at meeting so here I am! Whee~

Bloody renovations at the 2nd floor are so damn bloody noisy that it's driving me nuts nuts nuts. Bugger. Adds on to the headache that is throbbing so badly. Bah.

Anyhow, the change of job scope is rather fine. Much more relaxing in fact. Hah! Which I don't know if it's a good or bad thing. If I knew today was going to be so damn slack, I would have brought my Christmas cards to write.

See, today's the 20th already and I still have yet to write them! Much less send them out. So this year, my cards are going to arrive late especially to the one in Guilford, United Kingdom. -sheepish grin-

So let's see. Last week, MINE and I went to Ikea thrice! First time to the one at Queensway, 2nd and 3rd time to the Tampines one. And each time, we went home with something. Haha.

Last Saturday MINE and myself met up with Mummy and Belly. Did some substantial shopping and for the first time, I was the one who bought the most things! Yayy! Haha. Finally got my beautiful 4 inch shoes and a bag from Aldo, a baby doll top from Topshop, a long sleeved tee and a pair of black tights from Mango.

Basically, every weekend MINE and I are shopping, like non-stop hits please. Haha. So much so that I'm so damn broke now. Like seriously running dry. Barely surviving. But it's okay, 8 more days to pay day! Whee!

Can't wait for Christmas to be here! Like major! Though all the presents have yet to be bought. Can't wait for MINE to lay her eyes on her Christmas present. I will make sure she posts a picture of her beautiful present here. So I guess this Saturday, my 2 best girls and I will make a dash for the malls for whatever presents we have yet to buy.

Here's wishing every one a very MERRY CHRISTMAS. Have a good one, go get sloshed, laid or station yourself under the mistletoe. Hehe. Last of all, WORLD PEACE. -miss congeniality smile-

Okay, back to my Marks & Spencer Dark Chocolate Digestives and work (an email just came in). Toodles.

"No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, ooh
This is my grown up christmas list"

The Sweet Escape

This is an invasion by the MINE.
I wanted to post this entry while
you were sleeping last night
but I couldn't remember your password and user id.
So I decide to join you to sleep.
And now, I'm here typing away.

We've been good babies the past few weeks.
No fights, no quarrels, no arguements.
Maybe because I'm too sick to do so la huh?
Anyhow, thumbs up for you and me.
Lets keep it up! =))

So you've been taking care of the weak baby;
bring her to the doctor, feed her medicines,
buy her food, take her temperature,
enduring the nights without air-con,
taking care of the lil monster, blahs.
And all I want to say is THANK YOU
for being around and being such a sweetie.

Also not forgetting,
thanks for the stuff you bought me.
Don't we want more pay day?
I'm counting down to the next one.
I know you love me right baby? Haha.

Before I end this entry,
I just wanna let you know that
you're my pillar of strength that never falls,
thank you for everything.

"If I could escape

And re-create a place in my own world

And I could be your favorite girl

Forever, perfectly together

Now tell me girl, wouldn't that be sweet?"

PS: Lets plan for a sweet escape this Christmas?

Smack That

Hello all. It's been a VERY long time. Seems like I am only able to update fortnitghly now. Bloody bugger. All because I'm usually so damn tired and busy before and after work.

Work has been crap and more crap. 2nd colleague just resigned and she's even "newer" than me please! That's how horrible my boss is okay?! So now I have to take over both their work and it sucks because it's a total change of job scope and I'm already so familiar with what I am doing. Argh!

I am also thinking of resigning but not until I find another job. My boss is just a total bitch. Major! Those who did their internship at this hotel would know how her reputation is like. For example, if I were to leave, I would be the 10th person in this year alone.

Anyway, MINE has been very sick. Fever for one whole week already and despite seeing 2 different doctors, the fever and all is still there. So I reckon, no Zouk Out this year AGAIN. )):

I'm getting very worried. It's never a good thing to have prolonged fever. Sigh. Hope it comes down real soon.

HUGS MINE REAL TIGHT. I'll be there for you, even if it means going to the hospital and staying over with you. Get well soon sweetheart.

"I feel you creepin, I can see it from my shadow
Wanna jump up in my lamborghini gallardo
Maybe go to my place and just kick it like taebo
Then possibly bend you over
Look back and watch me"

My Love

-coughspluttercough- Yes, am finally back again! Like everyone else, I "moved" over to Blogger Beta the last time I blogged and this time when I wanted to log in, I almost couldn't remember my user name and password. I see so many damn new features but I have absolutely no time to blog, much less explore Blogger Beta. ):

Anyway, today's the 30th, which marks the end of November! 25 more days to (my favourite holiday of the year) Christmas! And 31 more days to 2007! Whoopee!

Since Christmas is coming, I've been thinking long and hard on my "What I Want For Christmas" list. Haha. Got a couple thought up already but I still need more to at least hit a 10 items on my list. HUR. Will definitely blog 'bout the 10 "most wanted" items when I round them up. (:

Work's getting a lil too political for my liking but it's all because my boss is just a bitch. Honestly, she's fine but I really despise the tone she uses on people when she's talking to them. Like hello, none of us are 4 years old toddlers toddling around. Another colleague has just tendered her resignation letter because of her and this is the 2nd person in my 1 and a half month stint. Bahh.

So the weather has been a total bitch as well. Damn rain all day long. Bloody hell makes me want to sleep in the office, especially after lunch. -grumble- Monday, ended up on MC again (Yes I know, don't nag) but I was really sick since last week. Damn weather and flu bug, which sadly, I have passed to MINE and she was burning up to 39 degrees last night. ):

28th has passed and boy has my bank not seen 4 digits for a VERY long time, 3 years in fact. Hahaha. This Saturday's shopping with my 2 best girls, Belly & MINE. There goes the 4 digits, damn.

Before I go, here's a teeny treat for everyone. The lil chocolate piggy smelly kangaroo monster, Hershey. ((:

"I can see us holding hands, walking on the beach, our toes in the
sand"

Little Ms Busy

Yes I know, it's been a LONG LONG time since I've updated. See, I'm a very busy woman now, right. Heh.

Anyway, I've been totally bogged down by damn work. Going home at an average of 1930 daily, which is like 2 hours after official time. Bloody bugger. My boss is still as per normal, being an bitch of an ass. So yes, life's pretty fine and dandy in the office.

Besides "unwillingly" becoming a workaholic, my social calendar is still active like it used to be before I started working.

About 2 weeks back, Vivo-ed with Mummy, Lil Brat and MINE. Honestly, I don't find the place all that fantastic and plus it was packed like hell cause it was Sunday. Belly and Fish came to pick us up after that and we all headed to Mount Faber for a drink before heading back home.



Last Thursday, met up with my Yong Tau Foo girlies for Jo's surprise birthday dinner at Village at Heerens. Yes, finally had a full attendance YTF gathering for once and not at Zouk. Hur.

Then on Friday, it was Mummy's birthday. Had curry fish head with Mummy, Lil Brat, Simon, MINE and a friend of Lil Brat's at Apollo Banana Leaf. We headed on to Liquid Kitchen, Havelock Road to chill. Belly and Fish also came down for awhile. As per every Friday, Zouk it was after Mummy's celebration but this time Jie came along too!

Sunday was dinner at my place. Mummy cooked a total of 7 dishes for 4 of us (Namely: Baby, Mummy, Belly and myself) and we wiped out everything! Hurhur. Yes, my mummy's cooking is good okay!

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Aside from my daily activities and what other nonsense. Life's not that all bad. Sure there are days where I feel like the biggest moron in the entire universe and what have you.

But let's just make something clear. Don't take my amiable attitude towards people for granted. If I'm nice to you, I expect you to be nice to me. Which in more direct terms, I won't show face if you try to be funny with MINE. When I say I won't show face, I mean it, so don't cross that line.

Someone tell me, how do you measure love? I'd really like to know.


Edited by MINE on her phone. ((:

"You're nothing but a damn facade"

So I may be annoying, a pain in the ass, a bitch, fucked up, crazy, emotional, possesive, anal, a cry baby. And you may be a total asshole at times.

I just want to say, Happy 9th monthsary. I still love you, just the way you are.

Don't be mad at me anymore. I'm sorry okay?

Everyone, I'm the biggest moron to make MINE upset. The biggest fool in the entire universe. )):

To All My Ladies

Shout out time!

Jie - Jie, we need to have a proper talk soon. There are some things that I would like to speak with you about. Besides all that serious shit, I really miss hanging out with you. Meet soon please. Loves.

Queky - Quekypooooo. I miss you, you idiot. Where have you disappeared to? And when are we ever going to meet!! Text me when you see this. Misses.

Ryl - My lil' Ryl. Things may not be going as well as we both hope it would but remember, we have faith in you. You gotta have some faith in yourself. Missing you badly. Call or msn me anytime you need someone to talk to kay? I miss you, even more so a thousand miles away. HUGS.

Bel - Smelly Belly. In 2 days time, you'll join me in the 2- club. Welcome to the club honey. To many more crazy nights out and tattoos. LOL. Love you la you bitch. Happy Birthday!! You're 20! I just have to stress that. Hur.

MINE - Hello sweetheart. Where is my entry and damn testimonial huh huh huh?! ((:

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I am so tired, sleepy, exhausted and what have you but I cannot go to bed because if I do go to bed, I wouldn't be able to wake up for work. -screams- Thank God today's just half day or I'd drop dead and die ten times over.

Anyway, finished work on Friday around 1915, I know, late huh? I've unwillingly become some sort of workaholic. Bahh. On average I end work 1 hour later than the supposed time daily. Argh. There's nothing I can do about it because there's just so much work every single damn day.

Reached back to MINE's around 2030, headed straight for the shower then straight to the bed. Knocked out till 2330 then got up, changed and headed for dinner/supper. By the time we finished dinner/supper and got to Zouk, it was already 0130. Hah.

Stayed till closing then Belly kao pei-ed for Geylang Tau Huey and we ended up there. By the time we got back to MINE's, it was 0530. Tell me, how to sleep?! If I went to bed, I seriously can forget about going to work. NB.

I want to sleep with my baby on the bed now. Argh. Time to get ready for work. -whines- )):

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*edited: 0916 hours.

I am in the office. -grumbles- Alone at that because I'm the only one on shift today. NBCB. Sigh. So as you can tell, I'm doing anything and everything but work.

Oh oh oh! Today's the 28th! Which means, PAY DAY! Cha-ching. Just checked my bank balance online. For once I see money inside le! Though it's just half a month's pay but it's still money. -beams-

MINE has already planned to go Vivo City later in the afternoon to shop. Yay! But I need to nap first when I get back. Now, I'm going for a toilet break. Hehehe.

"Her need for me; And mine for she."

With Or Without You

Bahh. 2nd week into work and I am already sick. Bloody bugger. I don't know is it because of the lack or rest or what but I am down with a really leaky nose and sore throat plus I have some difficulties breathing.

Took MC last Wednesday because I overslept like major. x: But it was a blessing in disguise because now I have medication with me. /:

So far, work is mighty fine minus my boss. Seriously, am I lucky or what? The 2nd largest hotel in Singapore and I have to get the boss that the WHOLE hotel hates. Let's just say I have the urge to bitch slap her once daily. Hah.

I love my colleagues and hopefully the feeling is mutual. Here they call me "Lil girl" (Because I'm the baby of the department) or On-dre-ya (Correct proununciation of my name).

It's lunch break now and I just settled for a sandwich from 7-11 because I have zero appetite. Smart la, last night still had Popeyes for dinner/supper, asking for trouble.

Life's pretty much the same with work. I still have my late night suppers and regular clubbing at Zouk. Still meet up with the usual suspects to do silly things like cruising around in the Evo 9. Wheee.

Thank God for the PH tomorrow or I'll prolly drop dead and die. Arghh. Okay, I've got loads of work to do. Another time.

P.S. Baby, I love you. (:

"Through the storm, we reach the shore
You gave it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you.
I can't live with or without you."

the ups and downs

Today, or rather yesterday was a day of equity. It contained of both good and bad news alike. The good news, I'll share with everyone but the bad news I'll keep it private because it concerns others.

The good news would be, I GOT A JOB! Like finally, I know. It's a job that I somewhat look forward to because it meets my expectations in most areas.

Firstly, the remuneration package exceeds my standards. I'll be getting more than $1,500 (I refuse to disclose the exact figure) and once after confirmation (3 months probation), there will be a pay increment of $200. CHA-CHING! :D

Secondly, it is a 80% desk bound job, lovely job scope and typical office hours but that means I have to get up mother fucking early, which is everyone's worry. YES I WILL WAKE UP FOR WORK! I PROMISE! ):

Lastly, it is a 5 star corporate hotel chain in City Hall area, which would look pretty good on my resume in future. (: But that also means I'll be around that area a lot, Hello Marina Square.

The bad news just basically made me cry. I cried because I felt stressed and more importantly bad. I admit I have been insensitive and selfish and I can only blame myself for what happened. I'm sorry, it's my fault.

I wish I could just lie down and forget everything in the world. Pretend I'm invisible to all. Keeping everything to yourself is hard to do. I hate being a burden so keeping everything bottled up is the best way to run from reality. But how far can I run? How long will take before I lose it all over again.

But maybe, that's how everything just goes away, maybe, just maybe.

"Hold me and tell me everything's going to be alright
Wipe my tears away and tell me everything's going to be alright"

hope my foot

I am so sick of Marina Square.

Went for another interview there today. Tomorrow, I'm headed back to the same area for another interview, 3 working days in a row. I'm so sick of Marina Square! Especially of the Macdonalds there.

But by the looks of it, I might end up working in that area. Bahh.

Anyhoo, the first thing I heard on the radio early in the morning was Eddie Grant crooning "Gimme hope, Jo'anna. Hope, Jo'anna". Like WTF.

Seriously Joanna did not give me any hope but made me very dulan and even grouchier. -.-

P.S. No offense to any Joanna out there, my friends named Joanna included.

I'm Bringing Sexy Back

Firstly, HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY LIL' BRAT. I'll see you at Zouk soon. ((: Love you!

Good Morning Singapore. It's 0700 and I am still awake, as usual. (:

Friday, I went for the interview after sending MINE to school without sleep. Waited for an hour before they told me they weren't able to interview me cause the interviewer was stuck in an urgent meeting. Fucking fuck.

Back to grandma's to sleep but she was complaining bout a family member for an hour, then my baby cousin came along and disturbed me while I was asleep. So I pretty much only slept 2 hours. Grrr.

Walked mummy home after dinner and accompanied her for awhile before cabbing back to MINE's. I was too tired to endure an 1 hour's bus ride, I'd die.

Zouk it was with Belly, Elena and MINE. It wasn't really fantastic but okay I reckon. Supper at Zouk's prata shop and by the time MINE and I got home, it was 0500. We knocked out pretty much immediately after our showers.

Saturday, slept in till 1800 and MINE slept in till pretty much that time as well. That was how tired we both were. -mumble-

Headed out to town for dinner, just the two of us. Emerald Green's foodcourt for Korean food, so fucking filling till we both almost puked. Walked around aimlessly, window shopping till we bumped into Tau Pok (Bessy) and Tau Gay (Zen).

Chilled at Spinellis with the couple before heading off to Butter Factory with Belly. Okay, so Butter's not our kind of club (all our virgin trips). The R&B was kinda old school, Rouge style. MINE and I just spent time there yawning and stoning away.

Thank God for Belly's guest list or I'd faint if I had to pay (since when did I pay to club anyway). Left for Zouk around 0100 plus.

Phuture was good because it was rather empty. No pushing, no staring, no scolding of "Your mother never teach you manners ar. Fucker. Chee Bye." to anyone. (The above 3 actions apply to me)

Okay, I'm finally tired. Goodnight everyone. Till then.

"Dirty babe
You see these shackles baby I'm your slave
I'll let you whip me if I misbehave
It's just that no one makes me feel this way"

I'm emo, very emo.

P to the M to the S

Everybody please clap your hands. It is officially 0530 and I am still wide awake.

I have to get up in an hour's time to get ready and send MINE to school and then "do nothing" till 1115 for my interview and then continue to "do nothing" till MINE's done with school.

FANTASTIC! Considering that we're Zouk-ing later at night, I think I'll just drop dead and die twice over.

I would very much like to go back home and sleep but I cannot! Went back home on Tuesday and OMFG, I couldn't recognise my house. Not because I haven't been home in like ten thousand years but because, IT'S MOTHER FUCKING MESSY.

The floors are covered with card boxes and the make shift toilet is disgusting. The house is just plain disgusting la okay. The only decent area left in my house is my room (where my mummy has "moved" into for the time being).

Fucking upgrading. Upgrade my ass. The stupid bangalah workers will finally stop walking in and out of my house by the end of next week which means I can finally go home and sleep but not in peace BECAUSE MY NEIGHBOURS NEXT DOOR STARTS THEIR UPGRADING. I will fucking ban all drilling and hacking. -pulls hair-

I've been having this crazy bout of mood swings/PMS for a day or two already. Yesterday, I was talking to MINE bout my mummy till I cried and then, I couldn't stop crying and MINE was tired from the lack of sleep and tolerating my mood swings for 1 whole day already and so we fought, and I CRIED EVEN MORE.

Nahbeh. I think I cried for a full 1 hour. No matter how hard I tried to stop crying, I couldn't. So much so I fell asleep crying but at least with MINE hugging me to sleep.

Woke up with swollen eyes and even Belly noticed when she came over to MINE's to chill. BAHH.

So I'm emotional and a huge cry baby. Sometimes, crying is just a form of stress relieving for me and it's also a sign that, I need to talk to someone. But everyone's too busy to notice. Especially when you're the one with all the free time in the world, everyone just passes you and go, because they have better things to do than listen to your nonsensical insecurities and worries.

"Take me to somewhere,
Somewhere where we belong."

It is 0500 hours and I am wide awake and craving for pizza or rather, food in general. I can't stop eating! ):

Know what? I shall go and sleep since there's nothing to do anyway.

Oh oh wait! Guess who's back in the house? MINE has adopted Hershey! He's been here since Monday.


The lil' one when it stayed over in July. ((:

Yesterday, MINE and Hershey both fell asleep on the couch, together. So cute. Will take pictures soon. ((:

Time to hug MINE. Byebye.

Glock-Glock Shots To The Block

So the plan to go home really failed, utterly. Bahh. Oh well. Headed to Belly's place after the damn interview. Waited for Belly to finish her school work before heading out to run some errands with her.

Basically on Thursday, I travelled from MINE's place to Woodlands then to City Hall, then to Serangoon Gardens, then to Geylang Lorong 23, then to Bras Brasah, then to Sunshine Plaza, then to Dhoby Ghaut, then to Skate Park, then to Taka, then to Selegie Tau Huey, then to Mount Emily's playground and finally back to MINE's. Mad huh? Hur.

Friday, MINE did not go to school, AGAIN. -shakes head- We were both too knackered from the lack of sleep and the previous day's activities so we slept till like 5 odd in the evening. Heh.

Went out with the in-laws to the central. Had like, hokkien mee, prawn noodles, oyster omelette and fish & chips. So KNN filling please! Then to NTUC for grocery shopping and back home to change before heading to Zouk to meet Buds.

By the time MINE and I got to Zouk, MINE's dearest Buds was already half way to 'Land of Drunkards'. HAHAHA. At Zouk there was Vodka with Cranberry, Red Wine, White Wine and our ever favourite Sour Apple 7up! (: Zen, Bessy, Jo and Jie then came along and it was so damn funny with Jie high and Buds gone. ROFL.

Supper after which with Lian Jin, his look alike, Buds and MINE at River Valley's 5 Star Chicken Rice. DAMN SHIOK LA. -drools- Home sweet home to MINE's it was then. ((:

Oh oh, forgot to mention. I lost my Project Shop Brothers card holder on my way to Zouk and it contained my I/C, Zouk card and EZ Link ($17 value!). I was so distressed that my mood was totally ruined till SMRT called at around 0200 telling me they found it! I reported it lost at Orchard control station cause I lost it on the train.

So today, headed down to City Hall to collect my dear I/C and Zouk card (Honestly, I didn't give a damn about my EZ Link) and to meet mummy dearest. MINE, Mummy and I then walked around City Link, Suntec and Marina Square before settling down at Carl's Jr for dinner.

Knnbccb. We ordered 2 meals amongst ourselves and shared and we couldn't even finish the damn food please. Bahh. But the salsa sauce is damn shiok! Then we walked mummy to bus stop and accompanied her to wait for her bus.

MINE and I finally did a lil' shopping. -beams- Mummy bought me a striped spag top from Zara and MINE bought a polo from Topman. Wheee! :D I LOVE MY MUMMY!

Dilly dallied our way to MoS and Buds arrived shortly after we did. In we went and started drinking games with Ming and Lian Jin. After which, we joined Sam, Suhan, Diva. KNN, wrong move.

Sam asked if I liked Champagne and like of course I said yes cause I do but I know it's my weakness when it comes to alcohol. So just because I said yes, he opened a bottle of Moet! -beams-

In total I drank like 3 glasses of Moet, 2 shots of JW, 3 glasses of JW with water, 1 glass of Absolut with water and 1 glass of Absolut with Cranberry but I still remained sober. Which proves that my alcohol tolerance level is still doing might fine. ((:

BUT, MINE is dead knocked out. I am very sure she drank more than me. After all Sam and Suhan shoved so many JW shots down her throat. My poor baby. I tried to help her drink as much as I could but they insisted on getting her drunk, which they did. ):

Thank god for Jay and Buds or I wouldn't know what to do. Thank you both for sending us back and helping me with MINE. Love you both dearly!

Okay, time for me to sleep. I have a slight headache, which I think is caused by the alcohol from both days. -.-

MINE, remember the promise you made to me in the toilet. I'll keep mine if you keep yours. I love you. MY BEE BEE, MINE. ((:

"Catch me ridin' dirty"