Oh my fucking god. I'm so darn pissed. My Internet explorer hung on me again! I finished a whole bloody entry already! God. Now I have to start all over again. Thank god I'm using Netscape now. Argh.

This school week hasn't been a good one for me. Been feeling sick the whole bloody week and missed quite a couple of tutorials and lectures. I'm due to receive a warning letter for BESE. I know what yall are thinking. God Drea, its only the 4th week of school and you get a warning letter?! Bahhh. Typical of me. But I'll do just fine. I always do just fine. *smiles. Every semester, my stomach and gastric has to act up for a week. Then for a whole week, I wouldn't turn up for any lessons. I know I should see a doctor. I think everyone has given up on convincing me to see a doctor. Oh well, that's me for you. Anyway, this goes out to my project group members, Fan, Dele, Nel, Ryl, and Jess. Sorry for my lack of punctuality and absence. Really sorry. Love you guys anyhow.

So tomorrow is submission for Comm Skills 2. At least I didn't do last min work this time. So I'm kinda wrapping things up now. Giving my Resume and Cover letter a final polish and it will be ready for printing. Wheeee! Next week there's going to be Accounting class test. God I dread it. Bahh. We shall see how it goes. At least tomorrow school starts at 2pm for me. Which means I can sleep in a lil more. Wheee! :D But I'll have to rush to work after lesson. Bahh. The only thing that is keeping me to work is bling bling. You can never have enough of bling bling. *grins.

Enough about negative stuff. Guess what everyone? I've got a surprise. I've got a new haircut! Before you go, Aiya, Drea's hair is always the same. Nooooo. Its short on top and long layers below. Basically, a lil punky. My mum and sis says its too punky for me. But wth. As long I like it, that's what matters the most. Everyone will have their own opinions. I'm rather pleased with it. *smiles.

Time to finish up my work. Tete~

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Yeah
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Try so hard to say goodbye

So I'm in a cranky mood. Why? All thanks to all the viruses and what pop ups you have in today's "advance" technology. God. Its screwing my Internet Explorer up big time. So darn fucking pissed. Enough of complaining.

Comm Skills is due this Friday. Argh. Datelines. Screw them too.

So I actually came online with many great things to blog about. Suddenly, I'm in no mood. Bahhhh. Another day. Gotta do my project stuff anyway.

*ps: If I'm angry with anyone, you guys would know it personally. So don't worry, if I'm still talking to you, I'm okay! Don't worry yeah? Love all! -muacks!

Everyone tells me. Andrea belongs to the type where she speaks her mind. No holds barred. That's what some say is good whereas some say it isn't good. At a certain point in time, I would like to tell people who say its good to shut the fuck up. Because how many of you can handle the truth? I hardly can handle it myself.

When I am my true self, noone is able to accept me. Cause noone likes the truth. I'm beginning to wonder if its just me and my insecurities. Lets just talk about my TP friends. How many of you even know me well? None. How many people think I'm a bitch. I can tell you, many. Don't tell me "Don't judge a book by its cover" because it is only human nature to do so. I do that at times too.

I'm losing my best friend not because she cannot accept me. It is just plainly because of something that has nothing to do with me. Nothing at all. You. You know who you are. You know me the best. You know what I will do. I will not forgive you. Never. I haven't done anything. Not a single thing. But because of a reason that has nothing to do with me, I have to be sacrificed.

Andrea isn't the same person anymore. I hardly speak my mind anymore. I just rather keep everything to myself. I'm tired of broken promises and lies, fake friendships and friendships that don't last. Its not my fault that I'm hard to understand. Sometimes, I don't even understand myself.

I hate everyone. God I hate all of you. Its been a long time since I sat in front of the com and tears unknowingly roll down my cheecks. Fuck. Everyone is too busy for everyone. Noone bothers to stop and look around them. Best Friend screwed. Rest of Friends, equally screwed. FUCK. I hate lies. Its so fucking unfair. God. FUCK YOU ALL.

Happy Birthday Beef!

Happy 20th Birthday Beef. Now not a teen anymore so grow up! Don't be a big baby and I love you! -hugs n muacks!

Friday
Had a talk with Ryl about Friendship during lunch break at Mensa. Oh well. Whatever. Being independent is the best eh? But sometimes, its too much for one to take and eventually, you'll break down into pieces.Met up with Beef after school and we headed to town for some retail therapy. Whee! Bought a couple of stuff and got Beef another Birthday present. Around 9 plus we got pretty bored and started searching for people to go clubbing with. Then we remembered that Sha*** Chia. Oops I mean Eddy was going down to Monks so we went down to join her. Bumped into Ryan there and we started asking her about Xiao Ping. Xiao Ping, if you're reading this, please contact us. Everyone is truly worried about you. So in the end, spent the night at Monks with Eddy, Ryan n her gf. Not too bad just that Monks was the quietest ever.

Saturday
Met in town to celebrate Beef's Birthday! Walked around town doing some window shopping and went to Far East to collect some clothes she ordered. Lala~ Then headed to Big O for her Birthday Celebration. God so bloody full, both of us were bursting. The food was okay and I have say that Coffee Club's Mudpie is better! Way nicer! *drools. Met up with Lili before that and Beef got her 3rd Birthday present! *winks. Took some pictures which I will upload here soon. When I'm finally done with my work that would be.

School is still as stressful as it is. Loads of things going to be due soon. Well, at least my insomnia is cured. Or to be precise, I'm too tired to suffer from insomnia anymore. Work and school is draining me out totally. Enough said here, got loads of work and tutorials to do. Aiming to do well this year. (Yeah Right.) Bahhh.

Feeling a lil blah at the moment. I have no idea what "Feeling a lil blah" actually means. I reckon you get the vibe.

God, there's BusE&SE later at 0830. !@&*%$ Chee Neh Pok. Full Fledged formal wear at 0830. Mad please. Then after that, would be my favourite Zhang Wei's lecture. I swear I will kill her one day. Not to forget, she my god damn it fucking CP. Sweet eh. I almost killed her the last tutorial. She asked me a question. I didn't understand what she was asking. When I finally understood and answered her, she didn't understand what I was saying. Wtf. She needs to do something about her sentence construction man. Ah whatever. At least I know I'm not the only one who wants to kill her. I think half the Year 2 Tourism cohort agrees with me.

So today, no show at school for me. Crazy gastric, backache and headache. Apology goes out to Ryl too. You know what I'm talking about. *winks. So although I wasn't feeling very good, I still met up with Beef. Went to Sakae Sushi. Her birthday treat from me. Got her present already, so I'm safe. But, Bessy Tan Wei Mei, You still owe me a Birthday Present! Hello! Don't pretend! Went shoe hunting. Saw a pair of Nike's. Fuck suah. 199 bucks. My mum gave me 200 only! I don't want to spend all on a pair of shoes. Blah. Probably get the Nike Air Trainers, the one Beef wants but doesn't come in her size. Heh. Oh, Quek and Beef each have a blog now! Wheee. More blogs to read. Currently, Beef's blog is still under construction. The picky arse can't decide on a proper template.

My template is still a lil screwed up. If you actually take a closer look, there's a slight screw up with the font size. Shall fix that and the links real soon. When I feel like it that would be. Maha!

I don't want to go to school! *wails.

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated, I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye

And rendered me
So isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment fall for forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away

My hope
dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

I'M BACK! -Waves, jumps and hops around screaming like a mad bitch. I repeat. I'm BACK!!! Wheeeeeeeeeee. The freaking internet connection is finally back.

Update update. Hmmmm. Been really busy with work and school. But now work is cut down to once a week till the OFP outlet opens. Which probably will be mid August. Guess its good news that I'm not working so often anymore. Beginning to feel the stress and pressure as datelines approach. Plus, I can hear Ryl nagging at me to not work so much and neglect my studies. *winks at Ryl.

Bbq at Ecp last Saturday and following that we all went to Hard Rock. We as in Joanne, Gerri, Cheryl, Jamie, Beef and I. Fun fun fun. *beams.

Argh. I'm suffering from side effects of not blogging for such a long time. The side effect would be. I don't know what the fuck to say in the entry. Ah whatever. Another day. I'M BACKKKK. Just had to say that another time.

I'm busy. Too busy. Busy with school. Busy with work. Busy with everything. No time to update. Bahhhhh.

Bahh. In school right now with Ah Ryl next to me blogging too. Heh heh. *winks at Ryl. I'm so bloody bored. Especially the past two days. Cause Beef went to Bintan and she's coming back today! Wheee! :D So due to boredom, I ended up watching last night's Portugal vs England match. $#@!#%^$!#@& England is out! *wails. First it was Spain, now England. The only one team left that I support is France. They had better make it through!

Yes I don't really watch Soccer but Euro and World cup I do okay. Maybe not the whole match cause I don't have the patience. Throw me a ESPN Cheerleading competition then its another story. Heh heh. Having Comm Skills 2 now. So bloody waste of my precious time. The HTM freshmen orientation will be later, hope its good. Or to be precise, hope the freshies are good.

First week of school has been okay so far. No major shocking and big project. But they always seem small in the beginning. Bahhh. Been late for almost every first lesson of the day. Hehs. Thank goodness I have my alarm clock, handphone, Ryl and Beef to wake me up. Imagine I'm still late. Lol. Oh well. Its Andrea.

Mum's going to get the net connection up and going by next week and we're most probably going to ikea this weekend to get my new bedframe! Yay!

Darn! I'm hungry. Lesson's about to end. Got to run!

Its 5 am and we are absolutely bored. We refering to Beef and I. Over at her place rotting our lives away. So we decided to engage in a mentally torturing way to blog. Here goes nothing.

hElLoXxX eVeRyONeZz!!! wO sHi AnDrEa aNd My AiAi bEsSsSsIiIeEeyY. HeHeXxX. Ni MeN hAo Ma?? tOdAy hOrXx, BeRi SiAnZzZ wOrXx. Go OrChar lOaD GaI gAi aLsO nO YaNz dAoxXx bIo oNe wOrX. [injected remark by aIai] mEee loRZZZ. RAHHHHH.

Okay enough. That took us a bloody 12 mins. I don't have the brains of the Ah Lians. RAHHH. LOL. Just imitating a monster. Fuck, Bessy Tan just farted in the aircon room. Fucking smelly. [injected remark by bessy] i cant Stop farting and she cant stop rubbin her nose] Okay, so we are mad. Crazy fucks laughing like mad at 5 Am in the morning! Bahh. Hahaha. Was laughing at happy tree friends just now. Basically, just laughing. Mad already. Heh heh. [ hey im not the only 1 w the farting fits. YOU TOO OK.u fart in my room....u farted in TOWN. think no SMELL no SOUND i duno???u just announce ur farts' arrival ALL THE TIME]

Change of topic. Can't believe I'm talking about Farts on my blog. Back to serious stuff. School starts tommorrow. Wheee~ I'm in T03. Wonder who my classmates are. I've already known a few in my class. Anyone else? Been asked to do some fliming thing this week for the Tourism Academy at Sentosa. Err, right.

Cheekys last Wednesday. My last clubbing before school goes chaotic for me. Well, I was let's say not very myself? Okay fine, I was drunk. Maha! Thanks to Beef, Leong, Jamie, Xp, Lenny and Li Wei who took care of me, technically they were having their own fun while I was on the floor. Forced about 1 bottle of water, a cup of warm water and a small carton of orange juice and a whole lot and I mean whole lot of puking before I was okay. It was the most terrible 1 hour of my life. I never want to get drunk again! Never.

Don't know wtf to say anymore. I need to blog daily to find inspiration. Meanwhile, everyone have fun and take care. Love yall loads. Muacks!

(Christina Milian)
(Pauli Pol)
(Stay out, baby)

Says he wants you
He says he needs you
That's real talk, then why not make him wait for you
If he really wants you, if he really needs you
Really got to have you
Take your time and feel him out
When he's a good boy, I mean a really really good boy
Why not let him lay with you?
Thats when you give it to him good. .

Dip it low
Pick it up slow
Roll it all around, poke it out like ya back broke
Pop, pop, pop that thang
I'mone show you how to make your man say "Ohh"
Dip it low
Pick it up slow
Roll it all around, poke it out like ya back broke
Pop, pop, pop that thang
I'ma show you how to make your man say "Ohh"

You gettin' bold
It's growin cold
It's just the symptoms of young love growin' old
You think it's time
And you thinkin' of leavin', but give it time
It's late at night
He's coming home
Meet him at the door with nothin' on
Take him by the hand
Let him know what's on
If you understand me y'all come on

All my ladies wind it up if you know just how to move
All my fellas jump behind and show her what you wanna do
All my ladies wind it up if you know just how to move
All my fellas jump behind and show her what you wanna do
(Ooh Ooh)

We can move if you wanna
We can move if you wanna
We can move if you wanna
We can move. . .

Oh, oh

I Am Perfection

Perfection. Define Perfection? Can Perfection even be defined? My point of view. No. Everyone is perfect. Imperfection is the beauty of Perfection ain't it? If anyone of you are suffering from a lack of confidence or low self esteem. Remember, you are who you are. Be yourself and that's Perfection.

Booya! 9 more days till school re-opens. Anyone excited? Dreading it? Well its both for me. I shall not rattle on about my timetable again. I'm so darn excited to be a Junior! Like finally! Exhilarated to meet everyone again! There's going to be new clothes, new bags, new hairstyles and not to mention new faces. *winks. Now just patiently wait for the official timetable to be out. Oh HTM people remember to go for the bloody waste of my precious time 10 hours Entrepreneurship Lecture on Wednesday, 16th June. Looking forward to seeing every single one of you!

My mum had better pay my Cable bill asap. I need my net connection! Especially when School re-opens. I need the connection!! Bahh. At Beef's place now. Duh~ Where else. I need to host my blog image. Shall do it when my net connection is back. Who cares what my blog looks like now. Content is the word. :

My sister was watching my Bring It On Vcd today. Brought back a lot of memories for me. Loads of them. I miss the Cougars! Gawd. I miss Cheerleading. It was my life in KC. Probably one of the few things that kept me going even during my Sec 4 depression. Only thing I looked forward to I guess. This is one memory I'll never forget. Never. The tears when we got National Champions for both years. The hard work, late nights and sacrifices. The "surround sound" of people cheering us on. Beating the snotty MGS girls twice flat upside down inside out. I mean they didn't even get 3rd place. Hah! That's for being mean and snotty. But its not about the winning. Its for the love for it. I know the Cougars are still training on their on out there. I'm sorry I can't join you guys. My schedule is too crazy. Love and miss each and everyone of you; Gen, Grace, Dee, Sophia, Hui Yi, Khoo, Amanda, Krystle, Sheena, Meli, Peline, Farah, Sam, Channel, Rachel, Priscilla, Raodah and a couple more that I cannot remember. Heh. Sorry ah. Getting old. Miss you guys!

2 whole months of holidays have been clubbing every single week for me. *faints. I'm terrible. Maha! Chinablack on last Monday,7th June with Ryl, Chy, Quek, Jem, Xiaoping and other people. Wheeee. Mad dancing please. Fun Fun Fun. Met Tricia there too! A pleasant surprise. So anyone up either for Cheekys on Wednesday or Somewhere else on Friday? Last week of holidays and I MUST CLUB. Before I won't be able to do so for a few months. *mutters.

I miss my darlings too! Chy, Ryl, Keke, Quek, Shaun and Jem! Maha! Miss you guys loads. Especially Kerrie!!! I haven't laughed a lot in a long time. Looking forward to your silly antics when school re-opens! Take care you lot! Everyone else online too! Miss yall like crazy! Shawn, Tox, Ryl aka.landlady and etc etc. Take care too!

Oh did I mention. Daniel Radcliff is so cute. Heh. :p

Monks 3rd week in the row! Maha! Next week I'm going down again. Seriously I'm bored of the place. Repeated music most of the time. Boring. Then maybe Chinablack on the following Monday. God. I'm clubbing like mad. Its draining lil cow's bank. Heh heh. Thanks sweetie. I love you! *muacks.

I'm still pretty worried about school. Its 9 fucking modules darn it. I will survive. I will! I think. Maha! Oh well, a challenge God has given and I will do well this semester! Work has been post-poned to 14th June. *mutters. So darn pissed but oh well.

Basically everything is going good for me. Just that the insomnia is still as bad. When without sleep for one whole day again the day before yesterday. I think I seriously need to see the doctor. Its getting real crazy. Lil Cow asked me this: "When are you going to stop smoking?" Drea: " Errrr. Good question dear. How about you?" Lil Cow: " Errrr. Soon soon." Mahaha!

I'm missing everyone! My darlings, my iRc pals, msn peeps and everyone else! I miss yall!!
My darlings; Ryl: I miss you my dear. I hope everything turns out fine soon. Be strong, I know you are. Love you darling.
Quek: Ducky! Next week Monks yeah? Long time since I clubbed with you. Love you loads! Take care and don't work too hard!
Keke: Ho Hei Hei! I miss you like crazy!! We haven't seen each other for how long? A couple of weeks yeah? Hope you're doing fine slacking at home and I can't wait to see you again! Love you babe!
Shaun: Hey dude, hope you're recovering well. Take care and I'll visit you with the rest soon.
Sel: Darling! Nice clubbing with you just now! Hehe. Missed ya loads. Glad you're still doing fantastic! Oh oh oh. I want Shredded Chicken Noodles. Please de-bone it for me ya? Mahaha! Love you so so much! Take care and we'll meet up soon again ya? *muacks.
Eddy: Sharon Chia! Muahaha! Another time for Monks yeah? Meanwhile, please take care of yourself and cheer up yeah? Chicken Rice soon too kay? Love you!
Lil Cow: Pigggggy! Heh heh. This pigggy can't wait for you to cook for me. I'm soooo hungry. Hehe. Thanks for everything. I love you! *muaccckss!

Timetable is out! Well technically not really. Got some "secret" way to search for it, so I guess nothing is really official yet. But if it is, I'm in the same class as Ryl and Adele! Yay! Luckily I'm not alone man. If not there wouldn't be anyone to cover my ass and take notes for me when I skip lessons. Heh heh. :p So who else is in 2t03 this semester? Can't wait to find out. I hope no free riders in my class please. Or I will have another enemy this semester.

I've got 2 CDS and my timetable is FULLY packed like fuck. 10 modules hello! Including the 2 CDS of course. I've got Public Speaking and Socioloy. Yippee! I'm gonna have to drop one. Cause the timetable is fucking crazy. School starts at 9 on Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays. 8 on Thursdays and 11 on Friday. What The FUCK. Chee neh. Its fucking early please. Was complaining to Quek and Bessy like fuck. Last semester with one day of the week starting at 9, I'm already like taking cab almost every week. Now what?! Everyday. God save me someone. The worst part, I end the earliest at 5 pm! KNN CCB. I will be in school the whole fucking day. And NO LONG BREAKS. Its lesson after lesson after lesson. Seriously, its that bad. I'm going to DIEEE.

Then I'm starting work on the 7th of June. Please hello! I'm supposed to work when school reopens. How the fucking hell am I supposed to work with such a timetable. I have fucking 9 modules! Last semester with 5 modules, I was so stressed that Reservior became my second hang out. Now what?! I'm going to so so die. Like major please. I really hope I'm going to be able to handle the madness.

Chy is not in the same class as me for the first time! *whines, weeps and throws a tantrum. My darling from Sem 1. I'm going to miss your falling asleep in class and dropping almost every other thing every single day! *whines. I hope you get good classmates this sem but at least you've got Mel with you. Ryl Ryl is in the same class as me for the first time. I hope I get some of your smart genes and do better this sem. Maha! So who's in 2t03? I'm in 2t03! Excited? I am.

Venue: Taka foodcourt

Scene: We peeps were havin dinner..me n drea baby, the creamy OMU rice.Eddy..pig's organ soup w/o the organs.And SelHam..rice wit dishes.

A conversation we had went like this:

SelHam: I went to marina south wit my frens..we had steamboat, the zhen fa huo hai xian. The prawns were alive! u noe how my fren killed them? *selham all excited* she plucked at their feelers..n poked a satay stick thru them!

Everyonelse: eeeeeee...*twists face in disgust in unison*

Bessy: Why didnt u just drown the prawns? *actions a big bowl of water and the dumping and pushing of prawns into da water.

Everyonelse: hmmm.. *portray thoughtful expressions on their faces and agree*

(5 seconds later)
Bessy: You noe...PRAWNS SWIM IN THE WATER!

(everyone stares)

(drea n eddy erupts in laughter...)

(selHam..stares in space..............)

MUAHAHAHAHA...get it??do u get it??this is bessy presenting injected humour on this blog, on behalf of drea.

Just got home from Monks. To be precise just got to lil cow's place. :D Clubbing was good. Met Yip, Nick, Ching Yen and a whole lotta other people. Before that was towning with Rooster, Cow, Duck and me myself lil miss Piggy. Maha! Yes, shocked that the Cow and Duck are talking? Well, nothing is impossible in this world ain't it? They got along so well that they had a hell of a time laughing the shit outta me. Go on, tell the whole world my new middle name. So finally Drea's funny? Fuck you two suah. Maha! Now its time to play with water.

Back from a nice cold shower. Currently eating Tom Yam cup noodles. Darn it I'm fucking hungry. Hrmmm. Should be meeting Eddy, Dawson and Sel tommrrow for Cheeken Lice. Heh heh. My favorite! They don't call me a wild boar for nothing ya know? I'm sitting here wearing my KC P.E. uniform drinking from a cup that has a IJ logo. God, don't I love my School. Miss those crazy bitchy KC days.

Bessy's grandmother just molested me! She smacked my butt! Maha! Cute ass you reckon? Lol. Enough of self indlugence here. Lil cow is half dead lying on the bed, and I'm still hungry! Shall go look for more food. Maha!

Life is often unpredictable. One day you're happily in love with someone, the next day she's gone. That's life. You never know what's going to happen and anything can happen. "Yesterday" was our 1st Year, 1st month anniversary. Happy anniversary sweets. Crazy things have happened the past two months while we were apart but I hope it has made the relationship stronger. I Love You.

// Baby i love you ( i love you too )
You know i need you
Gotta have you ( what )
Cant be without you ( J.lo )

[R. Kelly]
Its like downtown New York in the middle of traffic jams
all i really want you to know is who i am
find me low key in the back of the club, or with some fine females, rollin on dubs
you and me big pimpin on a shopping spree in L.A
papparatzis and critics who give a damn what they say

[J.Lo]
Boy i never knew i could feel they way i felt, when i met you i could never forget you
and boy when you look my way i realize more and more i adore your pretty eyes
what i wanna know from you is do you wanna share my love's bliss
i long for the day when im feeling your kiss can you love me for a lifetime for just in one night im helpless for you
baby but its alright.

Baby i love you ( love you )
Baby i need you ( need you )
I gotta have you ( i gotta have you babe )
Cant be without you( be without you )
Baby i love you, ( yeaahhh )
Baby i need you ( need you )
I gotta have you, ( i gotta have you babe )
Cant be without you

[J.Lo]
Papi, i got something to say to you
Blessed and cursed on the day that
i felt the power of you inside me it was strong and i loved it,
And there comes a time in our lifes when things change, its a brand new day.
And baby ill spend it with you.
what i wanna know from you is do you wanna share my loves bliss
i long for the day when im
feeling your kiss, can you love me for a lifetime but just in one night im helpless for you
baby but its alright.

Baby i love you ( i love you too )
You know i need you ( j.lo )
Gotta have you (pied piper )
Cant be without you ( j.lo )

[R. Kelly]
Its like downtown New York in the middle of traffic jams
all i really want you to know is who i am
find me low key in the back of the club, or with some fine females, rollin on dubs
you and me big pimpin on a shopping spree in L.A
papparatzis and critics who give a damn what they say.
rear-drop-top bentley on somebodys highway,
who let me jump in some club on his vallet
got alittle smoke, got alittle drinks sittin in V.I.P
got alittle buzz on my hands up honeys feeling me
got that criss sittin on ice like a gansta lean
hands surrounding them dice like security
at the party in the Ritz Carlton's penthouse suite
all my thugs and me breath smelling like hennesey
got a few friends flying in from San Diego
its a suprise party for my homie J.Lo
I need you ( baby i love you )
I gotta have you babe ( baby i need you )
baby i love you ( i gotta have you )
ooo i swear i do ( cant be without you )
(baby i love you )
oooo (baby i need you )
Ladies do you know what im talking about when a man gets inside yo soul and just takes control*

Average Everyday Sane Psycho

I'm back! Okay maybe not. I'm at the lil cow's place to be precise. Been dying to blog and go online. Like major please. Anyhow, let's track back to what I've been doing for the past week or so.

Thursday, 13th May: Met up with the gang and headed to Marina South for Bbq Steamboat. Fabulous stuff I tell ya. Ate and ate and ate and had so much fun. I was the first to K.O at around 2200, soon after everyone K.O too. But, we ad three lil piggies that went on eating all the way till 2300. We were literally the only table left there. Maha!

Friday, 14th May: Met up with Sel, Eddy and Cow and headed to monks. By midnight, we had a very high Bessy Tan and Sharon Chia. Muahaha! Sel and I were the only sober ones left so we ended up trying to take care of the two. Xiao Ping joined us a lil later. Danced alot that night and I didn't spent a single and I mean single cent. Eddy paid for everything. Maha! Thanks mate! Take care and hope to see you tommorrow! Sel, I miss you already! We'll meet up soon.

Saturday, 15th May: Cow and I slept till about 4 then headed to TM in the evening to meet Xiao Ping and Farhani. Slacked around till 2300 plus, Cow and I headed home while the other two headed for more clubbing. Tsk tsk.

Sunday, 16th May: Towning with Cow and I went to cut my hair! Like finally. Not much of a difference though. Heh heh. Can't really remember what else happened. :p

Monday, 17th May: Towning again. Met up with Shawn and Quek first then met Cow and Xiao Ping after their gym session. Walked around, crapped and bullied Xiao Ping. Maha! Met up with Stacey and friends and played some pool before meeting Quek again to head home together.

Tuesday, 18th May: Decided to be a good lil girl and went to my grandma's place. Had a feast as usual. :D

Wednesday, 19th May: Met Cow and Xiao Ping at Bugis. Walked around as usual then sent Xiao Ping off to work before heading to town to meet Leong sweets and Jamie. Missed you so much!! You better go on friday I tell ya! Miss dancing with you!

So pretty much that's about it. Maha! Been quite busy as Quek would say. Constantly towning. Finally its back to the towning days after about 2 months. *beams. Been eating ice cream everyday. Another bad habit other than smoking. I think I'm going to grow fat soon but I don't care. And no I don't diet, cause I think its stupid. No offense to those who diet. I miss the gang! Keke, Shaun, Jem, Chy, Ryl, Becks, Yvonne, Quek and etc. I miss yall! Meet up soon again ya?! I know its going to be hard as all of us are working and busy. But I really miss you guys! Oh oh oh. I'm going to start work on 1st June. Like finally right?! I rather be working than doing nothing all day long. Okay, its a rather long entry already. I guess I'll stop here. Till next time. Don't miss me. *winks.

My cable access is down! *sulks. I hope my mum clears the bill soon enough cause I'm dying of boredom at home. No Ching ching = No towning or Expensive slacking. Everything's budget budget budget. *mumbles. So how do I manage to blog? I'm at the ducky's place. *looks over shoulder. Urh. She's asleep as usual. Before she calls me an ungrateful brat again. Quek is the best type of friend you can ever have. Go on grab a Quek, while stocks last. *winks.

So yesterday was TV day for me. Was glued to the light box from 7.30pm till midnight. Got up from the couch for toilet breaks and ice cream. Other than that, my eyes were glued. Survivor All Stars ended on a rather nice note. Technically it hasn't ended. There's still the Viewer's choice million buckeroos to give away. I voted! I mean, I'm such a survivor fan, how can I not vote. I voted for The Shii Devil. For non-survivor fans, that would be Shii Ann. The asian kick ass chick. Why do I think she deserves the second million bucks? She stood tall and won the immunity when she knew she was getting the axe. That was really amazing. The way she preserved and stayed strong even when she was outnumbered. *applauds. Then The O.C.on thursday. I think I'm going to miss it. *wails. I don't miss O.C. for anything!! But its Keke and Yvonne's birthday. I mean I did consider not going but everyone WILL kill me. Ahh fuck suah. Ducky's going to tape it for me. :/

I've been quite happy. Comparing to the last couple of weeks. Yes I've been rather happy the past few days. I guess I finally sorted out everything. Sorta a load of my mind although I'm still suffering from serious insomnia. Exam results rather okayy. I mean, Andrea had no supp paper. Its worth celebrating okay! Looking forward to school reopening on 21st June. I mean, fresh blood to check out. The fresh blood had better be of good quality although the better quality ones usually come from HTM and Marketing. The truth is, that's where all the happening people are. I'm not being biased (okay maybe a little) but that's what I truely believe. Maha! So yes, stop asking me if I'm single now. Yes I'm single and available. Lol. No I'm not dating anyone. I'm over the lovey dovey crap for now. Its just me me me and me. Yes I'm over you you you you, yes you! I don't care anymore cause you ain't worth it. Not one bit. Like seriously. I don't need someone who doesn't know what he wants. He wasn't man enough for me.

I still need a job. Cash strapped. Major. Need the moolahs and ching ching. Help! I need new clothes, new shoes, new this and new that. Read: Need not want. Bahhhh. The trouble of being penniless. Most importantly I need money to help my mum to pay as many bills as possible. Sounds more like a need now? I know what else I need. I need to smoke. Later go buy. Fuck suah already.

I like my new layout. Don't you? So Andrea. *winks.

Happy Mother's Day to all mummy's out there. I would like to tell everyone that, I Love My Mummy! *beams. Oh well, she wouldn't be seeing this but bahh. Fuck suah. Anyway, I wrote my mum a love letter last night since I couldn't get to sleep. Left it on the kitchen table for her to read it in the morning. So when I woke up, guess what?! She's cooking Tom Yam for me. Awwwsh. Ain't my mummy lovely. All I did was write a letter of thanks, sorrys and telling her how much I love her and I get a feast! Mahaha. :D

To my "disciple" Ah Ryl. I'm so proud of you! You changed your own blogskin! *beams. Its easy ain't it? To my blog's No.1 fan Sus. Thanks for the support and yes we'll be hunting for fresh blood next semester together. *winks.

Towning today. Had loads of fun. I'm in a pretty good mood still. *beams. Met up with Quek first for lunch and headed to buy my bag. On our way there, we bumped into Sel Darling and Zhenhui! *beams. So happy to meet you both! So we headed to the store and while I was deciding to buy which bag, Zhenhui was eyeing a nice Spain Jacket which cost 139 bucks. After some thought he went, okay I'll take this. Rich man. Bought the France (white base and blue trimming) Adidas Bag from the Adidas Concept Store at Pacific Plaza. Not bad, we spent 200 bucks at the store at one go. I feel good man. :D

Met Shawn for dinner later. While he was busy filling his "empty" stomach with Cheeken Carler Rice, I was wondering if I should have bought the Spain (orange/red base and yellow trimming) Adidas bag instead. Plus, everyone said it was more "Andrea" and eye-catching. After much consideration and "marketing sales talk" from Shawn. I changed the bag. Hehe. I'm SO HAPPY. No regrets man.

For my happiness today. Especially the bag, its all thanks to tox! Thanks for the present! I love it like hell!! Thanks thanks thanks thanks! Love you loads and I owe you one. -hugs and muacks. Shawn, thanks for your company too! Had loads of fun! Marilyn and Derek, thanks for bumping into me! Made my day too! Love yall! -muacks! I'm a very happy girl. *beams.

Managing Business Systems: C+
Macroeconomics: D
Tourism Destinations: B
Travel and Tour Business: B
Arts Appreciation: C+

So nooone posts their results online but I'm in such a unbelievably happy mood now. That nothing and noone can spoil my mood. Well, my results ain't fantastic or anything. Its quite okay for me. The fact that I hardly studied and never did tutorials just covers everything up. I passed Macroeconomics! Although my aim for Arts Appreciation was an A. But bahhh. I passed everything. No supp!! Wheee. Shawn, you owe me a double or is it a triple treat now? Wheee~ I don't ask too much from myself. Why get upset over results? What's done cannot be undone. Live for the moment. :D

Stayed at home the whole day. Pretty much sleeping the whole day that would be. Finally had a good sleep. Not a exactly peaceful one but at least I slept.Woke up around 1600, ate and went back to sleep at 1700. Talk about being a pig. *grins. Woke up after that and ate, ate, telly watching and ate. Of course Andrea wouldn't miss The O.C. for anything in this world other than Adam Brody aka. Seth in person of course. *winks.

So the neverending story starts playing again. I'm to get into character and try to act again. So I hate acting. But I love my friends. Don't blame me for being cold, blunt or even mean. I've had my fair share and I'm almost done with it. I'll do as much as I can but no promises. How this story will end or will it even end this time round, I don't know. I'm sorry for everything and the circumstances yall are caught in but that's the was life goes. Love you both. I'm here. Ears to listen, arms open for hugs and shoulders to lean on.

I wanted to say something on my blog but I forgot. *ponders. (10 mins later) I was here to whine!! Results are supposedly out tommorrow or on Monday. *grumbles. Help me someone. I miss school la fuck suah. I miss Cheeken Carler One. (For tp-ians to be, you'll find out the joke soon) I miss cutting lectures and being late for tutorials. I miss the com lab (although my matric card got confiscated once for eating) I miss everyone. I miss school. *whines.

Had a great fun with the gang today around ECP area. Well, not the complete gang though. Jeremy aka. Jem, Trevor aka. Trev, Shaun aka. Brother bear, Rebecca aka. Becks, Kerrie aka. Keke and of course yours truly Drea :) (pssst: I was the only tourism student, the rest were hospitality. But I still love yall as much or even more)

I literally dragged myself outta house without any sleep but when I got there, it seemed like I was the one who looked most awake! Headed straight to ECP, met Becks there and we had Macs for breakfast. It started to drizzle a lil so we decided to head to Parkway for some pool. Play for an hour or so. Keke learned how to play pool and boy it was hilarious! Haha. Silly girl. Walked around Parkway for awhile which resulted in Jem buying this very nice Addidas t-shirt and Becks buying a pair of nice and not to mention cheap slippers from Charles and Keith. Being piggys, walked over for Katong Laksa. *drools. Fantastic stuff I tell you. Everyone was pretty tired so we headed home and took pics in the bus! :D

Was so tired from not sleeping for 24 hours. Got home, watched a lil telly and snuggled under my covers till about 2200. *yawns. Came online to upload the pics. Pity some of the pics are in Beck's digi. Thanks guys for tiring me out. I thought I never would feel tired again. Love yall loads. *muacks n hugs. Pictures here.

Start: 0636 hours

0100 hours: Went offline as I was having a major headache, decided to do some reading.

0330 hours: Headache was unbearable. Took a panadol extra, a nice fag and started reading another novel.

0430 hours: Gastric was giving a lil problems, half tempted to pop some gastric pills but decided that some instant noodles would help more since I've hardly ate anything in 48 hours.

0500 hours: Finished the instant noodles and continued reading. Pondering if I should try to hit the covers and take a snooze.

0530 hours: Flicked off the lights, laid on my bed and hoped I would fall asleep.

End; 0645 hours (now): Blogging and going to prepare for ECP outing later at 0800 hours.

That's how the past week or so has been for me. I don't even know what it is like being tired anymore. Passed the point of exhaustion. Going to meet Shaun, Jem, Keke, Yvonne, Trevor, Becks and Ron at Bedok Interchange at 8am. Yes, I'm going to ECP without any sleep. Good morning folks. Bahhh.

// I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
Sometimes some people get me wrong, when it's something I've said or done
Sometimes you feel there is no fun, that's why you turn and run
But now I truly realise, some people don't wanna compromise
Well, I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies, and
Well I don't wanna live my life, too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

Well, I'm so tired baby
Things you say, you're driving me away
Whispers in the powder room baby, don't listen to the games they play
Girl I thought you'd realize, I'm not like them other guys
Cos I saw them with my own eyes, you should've been more wise and
Well I don't wanna live my life, too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady*

I don't try to be beautiful; I am.

So I'm fucking sick. Supposed to go towning with Leong sweets but I woke up feeling like fuck so I cancelled the outing. I'm sorry dear, was looking forward to spending the day with you but I couldn't. Slept at 6 in the morning as usual, woke up around 5 or so. Haven't really eaten anything cause I don't feel hungry. My gastric is at it again. *mumbles.

I literally have nothing to say except, I need to smoke. I must go out tommorrow! Yes, I still need a job. Recommendations anyone?

Happy Birthday Jem!! Although you can't see this but I love you! Hope you're enjoying yourself now! Almost forgot about your birthday. Lol. The gang's at Chocolate Bar celebrating now. *mutters. Wanted to go join them, but I was at Quek's place slacking with Shaun and I was wearing hot shorts so yeahh. To late to go home and change and plus, I'm like major broke. I want to be there! *whines. Shaun's already asleep that pig and here I am blogging away. *mumbles. Anyway, hope yall are having fun and sentosa soon yeah? I miss everyone!

My stomach is at it again. Haven't eaten a single thing other than maggi mee and a lil of Quek's pasta. Don't even feel a tad bit hungry. I think I shall go make some Mac n Cheese.

Announcement: Yip and I are Hot hot hot hot hot hot stuff! *whispers: I'm the hottest. I can see many going "Urh, whatever" already. Lol.

I'm still sick. I feel like crap. The worst part, I'm stuck at home. Home alone. *grumbles. I hate being alone. Especially when I'm sick. So I'm a big baby when I'm sick. I hate being sick, I hate being alone. Fuck suah. Stop asking me to see the doctor already. I don't go to doctors until I'm near my deathbed. So the fear of being alone is here. Now, I fear dying alone.

// If only you were here with me*

I despise the pleasure of pleasing people I despise.

Just about to launch on a verbal war with a mad bitch on my blog before I decided that I have better things to do and ain't going to waste my time someone who is mentally deranged. I thought I was the mad one. Just to let you know, I have better things to do than link and link and link and link to your blog. I've got my own methods. You ain't worth my time linking. Oh by the way, my condolences goes out to you. Work harder to get her heart. I'm sure she will be touched one day.

I'm sick. Yes I'm sick. Crazy flu + headache + stomach ache. I'm aching all over as well. My right ankle had to give me problems after what? 2 years. I predict a fever and I'm always right. Didn't sleep until 7am this morning. Spent the whole night reading. Finished the novel Quek bought me already. Just started on a Jackie Collins that my sis borrowed from the library. Its not that I didn't want to sleep. I couldn't! Woke Quek up from dreamland around 4am, sorry darling. Thanks for talking to me anyway. Enetation is down again. Wonder how long its going to take for me to see the comments again. So yeah, use the bloody tagboard.

I read something that wasn't really for my eyes I guess. Well its a public blog so everyone can see it right? Its crazy. The kissing, the sleeping, the cutting and what have you. Then you tell me "I lead a independent life now" Oh fuck off. Its either you're lying or you decided to tell me the "good" side of the story. Just one thing I have to say. Don't unknowingly drag me into it. Do your flirting and kissing somewhere else and be discreet. Don't get me involved. I'm the "evil" ex now. Piss off. After meeting you for dinner that day, I thought maybe you didn't change that much after all. Now I'm wrong. I don't know you anymore. Good luck. You would probably be the first ex I refuse to speak to. You have disappointed me time and time again. Even after breaking up, you still continue to do the same. I'm over and done with this. I'll just pretend nothing happened. That I never loved you that much. That I almost wanted to hug you and make things back the same when I saw you yesterday.

Didn't want to blog actually but I had better do so before Quek calls me a ungrateful lil punk ass brat. :p

So towning again today. Met Quek for lunch at Pastamania again. Lol. I love going to Pastamania @ Scotts with her cause she gets staff discount and the chefs there are real generous with the toppings. I had 5 extra prawns in my pasta and my lunch was all paid for by Quek! *beams.

Went to look for lil Ryl who was working. To kill time while waiting for Ryl to finish serving her customer, I went to try this 114 bucks Daniel Yam cocktail dress. Was wondering if I could fit into size S went Quek went, you think you're very fat? Grabbed the S and went into the changing room. Holy crap please. I mean yes I could fit into the S but it was rather small and uncomfortable. So I'm a M. *mumbles.

Headed down to Kinokuniya to buy Ryl's Bridget Jones Diary for her and Quek gave me a surprise! She bought me V.C Andrews - Celeste! *beams. I lurrrvveee you ducky! Thanks for the book! :D

Hung around for awhile then met Ryl during her break. Ryl couldn't finish her food so me being greedy as usual, did a wipe out on behalf of Ryl. :p Headed to Pacific Plaza and spotted the Addidas bag that I'm dying for. Quek bought herself a belt from Quicksilver and Quek, I still like the brown one better. Ah well.

The people from Coffee Club still haven't called. *frowns hard.

Coffee Club interview today. Went well. Hope I snag the job cause I need a job desperately! Pray for me people.

After being left alone in town first by Quek then by Shawn, I met up with Yip, Sab and Nick after the interview for awhile. Then met Bessy for dinner. Nice meeting up with people I haven't seen in awhile. Thanks for the company guys! Love yall! -hugs.

Having a slight headache now. No idea why. Guess its the late nights and all, getting to me. Been back in action on irc, playing trivia like the good old days. My trivia skills are getting good. Guess I'll just keep myself with trivia and books.

// At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, your haunting me
I guess I need you baby*

Me

According to Miss Stephanie Quek who came over to my place to chill today, I didn't inherit one particular gene from my mother. That would be the funny gene. Well, I'm no joker that's for sure. I'm not the clown in the group or the one who makes people laugh all the time. But that's me I guess. Why am I not funny I don't know. But I do know that Shawn thinks I'm funny, funny in a weird way I reckon.

Someone mentioned to me recently that I'm unpredictable. That's something new to me. Am I that unpredictable? I know I'm hard to understand. Not many understand me, well enough that is. I do know for a fact that I quite a bitch at times. That I'm straight forward or blunt. Too honest for my own good. Sarcarsm is my 2nd language not chinese.

Is that all that I am? Who am I then? What characteristics makes Andrea up? -shrugs. I'm trying to find my feet in the midst of the commotion in my life. Searching for myself, searching for the girl who just turned 18.

To all HTM freshies, on 6th May there will be some SIP event thingy held in school by the HTMIG at LT19 from 0900 to 1200 hours. Check Blackboard for more details. Ain't I sweet? :p

Towning with the gang today. :D Caught 50 first dates, walked around, ate alot and laughed alot. :D Collected my birthday present from Ron. Thanks pal, love it! :)

Headed to Topshop where I tried two tops and a skirt. I love the skirt. Its bloody 66 bucks for crying out loud. *mumbles. The Addias bag at Topman is so nice too! I love it. Its 69 bucks, holy crap shit. *grumbles. Got stuck at Buger King due to the sudden downpour but we made a dash to Borders anyhow. Was quite fun to be under the rain. At Borders I saw my book again! :\ Sarah Waters - Affinity, saw another author (Sarah Wohart or something) that caught my eye. But I'll finish my collection on Sarah Waters before I move on. Then there's V.C Andrews to go. The trouble of being broke. I need a job badly. Any recommendations anyone?

An email from Maureen. Its rather meaningful, take some time and read it.

The One That Got Away
By Mark J. Macapagal
The Manila Times

In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with...and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in
the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be
married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one? Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."

Self Inflicted Pain

I'm sure this sounds familiar to some. Taking a pen knife slashing your wrist till it bleeds, punching the wall till your knuckles are bruised and what other self torturing methods you guys have.

The main point, venting your anger on yourself. Thinking that by this way, you won't hurt anyone but yourself. Wake up and look around yourself, the people around you, the people who love you so dearly are going to get hurt emotionally. Stop all this crap. Its hurting everyone around you. Don't make me threaten to not speak to you. I love you dearly. So does she. We all do. -hugs.

Commenting board is still down. Fucking enetation. Sorry to all who have commented, I can't see your comments for the time being. Use the tag board yeah? Thanks.

So its god dammit 0430 in the morning. I fucking still can't get to sleep. Insomnia back in action again. This time round, with a whole "new" set of problems. I'm going to be ranting and raving a lil today. Just feel like it. Feel like a whole fuck load of shit now. My usual advice, if you don't want to see it click the bloody "x" on your top right hand corner.

My friends have been a real supportive bunch. Thank you all for being there and offering me advice, love, hugs and everything else. Thanks for being able to accept me for who I am. Whether it is me being straight forward with my feelings, my (as some would call it "weird") preference for girls at times. Basically, thanks for loving me as I am.

I'm going to be real honest here. I don't know how many more entries I can post here. How long before my hp gets cut. Whether if I'm able to attend school next semester. I'm facing some serious financial problems at home. Too many unpaid bills. Money going one way, which is out not in. I have no idea what my mum is doing about it. I don't want to ask either. She has enough burdens as it is. Been living without allowance for about 2 months or so. When she gave me some money for my birthday, I had half a mind to shove it back to her and ask her to pay the bills. But I need the money to survive. Kept it anyhow. As some of you know, I've been walking half the journey to and fro school. No, smoking is not the main reason. Its to save the 80 cents for the other bus journey. Plus, the walks are pretty calming. Gives me sometime to myself in the day. I know, some ask why am I smoking then? You should be saving the 10 bucks for transport. One last pack okay? Until I get a job for the holidays.

If you bothered, you would have msged me on my birthday. I don't believe that you will forget my birthday. Cause you didn't. You had the cheek to msn me happy belated birthday more than 24 hours later. Know what? I don't need the wish if it didn't come from your heart. I don't need you to pretend you care about me. I don't. Don't tell me you are still here for me no matter what. You have changed. Changed so much. Maybe its just your way of handling the situation. Then I have nothing to say. Cause that's your weakness. You know it. Don't tell me you don't read my blog anymore. I know you do. Even if you don't, I don't give a fuck shit either. I'm living well without you. I may not be happy now, but I'm happy cause I don't have to put in so much effort to make you happy when I'm not. I loved you so much, you jolly know how you treated me. And listen up. I'm over you. So over you. Good luck to your next girlfriend. Remember what I said, if you aren't going to change your ways, every girl that walks into your life will leave. Because, love isn't everything. The world doesn't revolve around two people.

To the other you. I'm tired of being the one taking the initiative. Tell me that those kisses meant something. The msgs meant something. That everything meant something. I'm tired of guessing what is going on. Tired of being stuck in a haze, not knowing what to do and what to say. I have to think before I do or say anything. Worried that I may say something to put you in a spot, that I may say something wrong. The feeling fucking sucks. I don't know. I'm about to give up. Tired of being the one fighting. It takes two hands to clap. Do what you want. I'll still be here, for how long? I don't know.

To my bestest friend. You'll know who you are when you read this. I know asking you to cheer up won't work. Things have been a mess for us. Its been such a long time since we even truely laughed on the phone or even joke around. When we are out, you are busy and I keep to myself and my ciggarettes as much as I can. I love you so much. It really hurts me to see you like that. You may not realise how worried I am. I really am very worried. I'm here no matter what. Looking forward to the calls at 3 am in the morning since I can't sleep even. Please come to me. Don't keep everything to yourself please.

What I need now is to marry some rich fuck. Or get a real rich Bf/Gf who has the moolahs. Intro anyone? *laughs. I think i'm going to do what I did about 2 years ago. Disappear from human contact for a month or so. I love everyone.

Yay! I'm 18 and its the holidays! *beams. Had a great time with my darlings at Chinablack last night, although the birthday girl was on a puking frenzy (wonders of the straw) I enjoyed myself throughly. Everyone was pretty tired so we all headed home rather early.

My mummy is cooking tom yam for me now. *grins widely. Thanks to everyone who made this birthday a unforgettable one. I love all of you! :D

Quek* Ducky duck! After about one year and I finally get to club with you! *grins. Thanks for everything and don't forget, you still owe me my birthday present! Hehe. Love you loads! *muacks n hugs.

Sel* Darling, hope everything is going well now. Let me know if your wallet and all gets returned okay? Don't worry yeahh? Too bad you weren't there with me at Chinablack. Missed clubbing with you so much! Another time perhaps? Take care and we'll meet up soon. -hugs.

Ryl* Ryl Ryl~ Thanks for the birthday present!! I love it!! Been eyeing that stud since last year. And you guys actually bought it for me! So sweet! *beams. Love you loads and sorry for the slight puking disaster and too bad everyone either woke up early or had to wake up early the next day. You fulfilled your promise to me. It was the best birthday ever. -hugs.

Chy* Chy!! Yay! You got in! I remembered the smile you gave to the bouncer when he looked at Khoo's Id. You and Kerrie were so happy in the lift please. Lol! And of all people he checked Cheryl who is actually legal already! Haha. Thanks for the present and everything else. Hope you managed to puke when you got home. Take care and we'll meet soon k? *muacks.

Shaun* Shaunie Shaun Shaun, thanks for the Mango top that I have been eyeing since I first saw it! Love it love it love it! *beams. Thanks for taking care of me when I wasn't feeling well and all. Thanks for making this a memorable birthday. Don't worry about your operation, you'll be fine. Remember to be a good boy yeah? *winks. Love ya loads! I'll see you soon k? Take care. *hugs n muacks.

Keke* Kerrie Ho Hei Hei! Lol. I can imagine your face now. Girl, thanks for everything. Soon, it will be your turn to go clubbing legally! And I remembered what you said in the cab. On your birthday, you are going to open a bottle and dance like mad! I have Shaun and Quek as witnesses. The next time you club, you are going to shake that bootie I tell you! I love you loads! Meet up soon k? -hugs.

Becks* Becks!! Thanks for the present and everything else! You looked so different ahh. Pretty that is. Hehe. All of us looked pretty that night. *grins. Hope you had fun yeahh? Take care and enjoy your holidays k? And remember to bring that aussie hunk back for me k? *grins. I'll be waiting for him. Hahaha. Love you loads babe! -hugs.

Jem* Hi hi hi!! Thanks for everthing pal. Love you loads. This birthday is a unfrogettable one. Especially when its the first time I puked and left for home so early. Nonetheless, I enjoyed every bit and soon we'll club again. On Keke's birthday. *whispers: She said she's going to open a bottle. *winks. Take care and enjoy the holidays! -hugs.

Marilyn* Mei Nu!! Thanks for going down and celebrating my birthday with me! Love you loads!! Too bad I screwed up and went down for a breather and never went up again and missed you bar top performance. There will always be another time yeah? You take care and don't think too much. I'll see you soon to turn your Condo upside down together with Adele, Chy, Ryl and Mel yeah? Remember, he wasn't man enough for you. *winks!

Shawn* *smacks you ass! Now, I did that first! Stop the smacking ahh. We aren't very close hor. Lol. Joking. Thanks for the cookies!!! Love them to hell! Finished them on the very day as you know. Hahaha. And don't worry, I'll definately support your cookie business next sem. Discount please! Take care and thanks for everything! -hugs. Oh, say hi to Fatsy for me.

Everyone else* Adele, Mel, Jermaine, Ryna, Khoo, Teresa, Ling, Baa, Tox, Shawna, Elaine and etc. ( Sorry I can't name all, too many but yall know who you are) Thanks for the birthday wishes. Love yall loads. For those having holidays like me. Enjoy. The others, have fun during work and school as well. Thanks! :)

Happy Birthday To Me*

I'm 18 and legal to hit the clubs and smoke! Join me at Chinablack later at night k? If not go get me a present! Muahaha. *winks.

*ps: commenting board seems to be down. Of all times. *mutters. Its okay. There's still the tag board! *grins.

I'm sick! Okay maybe its nothing serious. But my gastric is back in action. I've got god dammit gastric pains. Before yall jump into conclusions and go "Drea! You haven't been eating again right?!" No. In fact I've been eating regulary. Overeating I reckon. Hehe. Shall not elaborate on how much I've been eating but trust me, its alot.

Due to the gastric pains, this lil girl hasn't studied yet! :x I'm going to study after I'm done blogging because someone called and was so fierce to me earlier on, I had better go study before I get scolding from that someone tommorrow. :p

Chants " Cookies cookies cookies cookies" to Shawn. I'm looking forward to your cookies on Saturday or something. :p

// Everybody in the club getting tipsy!*

Three down. One to go.

Today's paper was easy. Much easier than expected that is. Although Daga gave us a whole load of hints and clues which were pretty obvious, I thought she would make it up by giving super tricky and brain wrecking questions. But Nooo! The questions were brain dead please! Practically off the revision notes she gave us. But, yes there's a but. Andrea Lim who is as careless as usual made a grave careless mistake. I thought that Versailles was in London and Windsor Castle was in France when actually its the other way round. Bloody fuck these two palaces. At least 5 marks flew away. Guess I'm not fated with royalty huh? Haha. I just want my grades to stay the way they are. Not expecting anything above B+.

Macroeconomics to go but it seems like most people are celebrating the "end of exams" already. These are those who have no problems with Macroeconomics of course. But Andrea Lim has begun planning for partying even when she mostly probably will be taking a supp paper or two. Haha. Was on Msn conference with Kailing and Marilyn and talking about Chinablack on Saturday. Omg please. I hope and pray that Chy & Ryl get to go. *crosses fingers, toes, eyes and whatever body part you can cross.

Now I need to get that biological clock of mine fixed. Its in a mess and I look like some zombie looking for its victim around TP Business school. :P

Its almost 4am and I'm wide awake sitting in front of the com eating rice. Second serving already. Heh. :p Okay, so I'm stressed. Pigging out non-stop, reservior as 2nd hang out during breaks, major irregular "sleeping" hours, crazy mood swing and yes, I've been blogging and blogging. That's probably another way to destress. If you think I'm over blogging, what the fuck are you reading this?! Click that lil X on your top right hand corner.

Tourism Destinations is going to be a killer paper. For me at least. Cause Chy and Ryl the two smarty pants seem rather confident about it. I'm not going to get my hopes up high as I still have some trouble with the god dammit Currency codes, airport codes, country codes, GMT and EFT. Bloody hell.

Oh oh oh, for the people who have been complaining that I need to pile the weight on (which I think is total crap), I put on 1 kg! *scowls. So I'm 46kg now. That's where its going to stop. Can't afford to put on more.

Ah fuck. Back to the bloody notes. *mumbles.

// She wants to know what you want*

Two down. Two to go. My biological clock is messed up. Big time. Just woke up from a 3 hours rest. Slept 2 hours yesterday. o_O

Chinablack this Saturday anyone?

I'm supposed to study, but something so hilarious just happened I have to sabo my sister! So I'm in front of the com eating my PJ sandwich about to start flipping my notes when she mutters about how she always can't find her keys in the morning. Then she found them, said a bye to me then i heard her opening and closing the door. 5 seconds later, I hear her giggling outside the door. She opened the door laughing and said. "I actually forgot to wear my socks and shoes!" God, it was too much for a girl who had 2 hours of sleep. I can't stop laughing. Talk about bad memory man. Amanda Lim ah!! Don't tell people I'm your older sister! *winks.

Happy 20th Birthday Cheryl Leong!!!

Girl, hope you have a great 20th birthday. Yes its the Big 20. Hahaha. Man I feel young. Okok, I will not go on before I get smacked the next time I see you. Hope NUS isn't killing you with the exams on your birthday. Anyhow, hope it will be an enjoyable one for you. Good luck in whatever you do and stay irritatingly smart. Missing you!! I'll contact you once exams are over yeah? Then we'll go clubbing together!! My bar top dancing mate. *winks. Love you loads!! And oh, did I mention I miss you!! -hugs n muacks.

I asked myself this. Am I happy now? The answer? Honestly, I don't know.

Supposed to be cramming for tommorrow but as usual, my mind is taking me to many places. It like the nearer my birthday is, the worst it gets. If only people can just forgive and forget. Then maybe things wouldn't turn out to be like that. Or maybe, they decided to forget the girl who tries so hard all the time. I've given up. Completely. Even asked ducky if I should try one last time. Maybe my birthday will be a good opportunity. Then I remembered, I'm a jinx on my own birthday. Something has to go wrong every year without fail. Then, the birthday girl always ends up in tears. Not tears of joy or happiness mind you. Friends. Ha. I laugh at that word now.

On a lighter note, i've got my ciggys. Yes! Sharing with Kailing. Going to get it from her after T&T paper. God damn it. I need the ciggs.

Will one die from eating overdue peanut butter? If yes, please prepare for my funeral. Lol. Made PJ Sandwich was happily eating untill I realised the peanut butter has been left there for quite some time. Took a look at the expiry date and fuck it read 16th March 04! Chee pok, by that time I was left with one bite of the sandwich so fuck suah. Just ate it anyway. Haha.

Okay I know I'm supposed to be studying but I can't seem to dammit. It wasn't a productive day. Not one bit. Considering I have 2 papers on Tues. I'm pretty dead. So again, please prepare for my funeral.

Then the god dammit fucked up weather. Its like fucking hot lahh! But its good in a way, it ensures that I don't fall asleep while i try to understand what Gross Domestic Product is. Hahaha. Just joking. I know what it is! If I don't, then good luck to me.

I need to smoke please!! Don't tell me no. Especially to the smokers. Don't come tell me what "Smoking causes cancer. General health warning!" Fuck ahh. Tempted to ask Marilyn to share a pack. I'll see how. I'm so fucking stressed I tell you!! Need to smoke!!! I need to drink!! I'm very cranky at the moment. Its 3am!! I'm not one bit tired. Kao, I'm this close to taking my mum's ciggs. *tahan.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fcuk fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. Spot the difference. (Inspired by one of Quek's testimonials.)

2 days to exams. 5 days before its over. 6 days to my birthday.

Technically I haven't really studied. My mind just keeps drifting off. Drifting off to things I shouldn't be thinking or worrying about now. I'm supposed to think about The Vatican City, What should be in a Tour Manager's file, The difference between MIS and TPS, Tariff or Quota?! *mutters.

I have a question for everyone. If you could choose, which Charlie's Angel would you date? Cameron Diaz the "cute and pretty",Lucy Liu the "intellectual" or Drew Barrymore the "kickass"?
Please answer this!! I really want to know!! Ahahaha.

I miss you. Yes you you you you you you you you. If you think its you then yes its you! I Miss You!! Ahhhh. Fuck it.

// I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memories seep from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless then maybe
I'll find some peace tonight*

I don't have a single D for any of my coursework grades!!! *beams. 4 days to exams. 7 days before its all over. 8 days to my birthday, and I ain't looking forward to it. Not one bit.

// Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share, with no one who truly cares for me*

20th April, Tuesday
Travel & Tour Business: 0900 - 1100
Managing Business Systems: 1400 - 1600

21st April, Wednesday
Tourism Destinations: 1400 - 1600

23rd April, Friday
Macroeconomics: 1400 - 1600

Exams are in 6 days. *mutters. Its all going to be over in 9 days. Hang in there everyone. Study hard and Good Luck. :)

// Everything means nothing, if I ain't got you*

Things aren't as simple as they seem. There's more to the eye.

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them

Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share, with no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

Okay. So maybe my blog is too pink. Click that lil X on your top right hand corner if you don't like it.
And oh. Quek is the my favourite friend. She's the funniest and being around her is really FUN. Ask her to be your friend now! For more details, please tag me or something. *grins at Quek.

Okayy yes you see a new template. Why? Refer to the previous post. Don't want to explain. This template is much simpler although you can see the banner above its fine. Someone teach me how to get rid of the banner. Simple, clean and neat. Tired of complications.I realised that its been a long time since i did shout outs. So here goes.

Seline darling* Sel darling~ Was so suprised to see you in biz park today. Or rather suprised to hear you scream drea. Haha. I've miss you loads and loads and loads. You have no idea how much. Too bad you were rushing for lesson and I was rushing to eat. Hee. :p Really hope to catch up with you real soon. Immediately after exams okay? To celebrate my birthday. I still owe you half your present. Hahaha. Really really miss you loads. Don't worry I'm fine. Thanks for asking. I'll fill you in asap. Take care and study hard for your exams okay girlfriend? Or my PL Partner. Hehe. Tell Zhenhui to shoo. Bleahh. *muacks babe.

Ah Quek* Donut, thanks for being here for me when i need you the most. Although things have come to the point where you don't even know what to say to console me. Thanks. Please cheer up. You used to be the only one who could cheer me up. But now, I see a different ducky. A rather "happy" one that is. Happiness that doesn't come from within but rather smiling for the sake of it. It hurts me to see you this way. No matter what I'm here for you okay? After my exams, we'll meet up with Sel okay? Miss spending time with two of my closest pals together. Love ya duck.

Ah Ryl* Auntayy Ryl~ Its been a long time since we called you aunty huh? Anyhow, just want to wish you good luck for exams although you don't need any!! Bring the distinctions back baby! Last sem 2 distinctions right? I want you to get 3 this sem!! Haha joking. Just do your best and don't stress yourself out too much okay? I know things haven't been going very well and its affecting you. I guess you and I don't feel comfortable with the group anymore. The reason? I'm not sure either. Just want you to know, whatever happens I'll always be here. I love you and you know that. *hugs*

Chy Chy*My everdearest Chy, please study hard for your exams. Don't laze around at home or basically get your eyes off that tv!! No more Arsenal and Man U quarrels with the boys anymore please! Haha. Down to serious things. Somehow, things between us have been rather awkward. I don't know. But I guess its because of the Shaun and Jem thing. There seems to be a barrier between the both of us somehow. I just hope, our friendship doesn't get too affected. Cause I love you. Its been a great 2 semesters with you and I want things to remain as they are. *hugs*

Keke* Kerrriieeeee~ *hugs* Haven't been seeing you recently cause I've been heading home after school. I miss you loads. Always remember you as the one who made me laugh so hard at Simpang. I honestly miss those days. Babe, study hard for exams yeah? Don't just laugh laugh laugh and I'm here if you need me okay? Going to give you a beeggg hug when I see you tmr or something. *smile girl.

Jem* Yishun~ Suprised to see this? Haha. Wait wait. Hello hello hello! Okay, enough of crap. Yishun, study hard for your exams and after that, you can go shake that bootie of yours already!! Love yew! Hahaha. Bye bye bye!

Shaunie Shaun Shaun* Brother bear xiu xiu~ Haha. Things haven't been going well one bit. I can't promise that things will be the same again but just don't isolate yourself please. With you missing from the group, everything seems so wrong. Everything. Study hard for exams and I'm here if you need me. You know I'll be here. Love you. *hugs*

Quek, Ryl, Chy, Jem, Keke & Shaun*I'm going to be a lil blunt here. But I know yall understand. The 7 of us used to be so close. I'm sure memories of 85, Simpang, Shaun's place, Ryl's birthday are still fresh in your heads. I don't know about yall but i miss the times together as a group and i miss the group alot. I want to make my stand first. I know what i say may not help but I'll give it a shot anyhow. I'm not upset with Shaun anymore. So I hope you guys forget about the matter. I had a part to play and though I was hurt. I'm fine. Everyone makes mistakes, for noone is perfect. I'll pick up my life where it stopped and continue. The issue between Shaun and I are the least of my worries. My opinion? Basically, its between the two guys. Yeah i know, face and all what not rubbish shit. I don't know. I personally think yall should talk things out. Be civil and open minded. We are friends after all. Honesty is important. All i want is for the group to be the same. Everyone to laugh together. Not one isolating himself, the other not happy, the rest getting affected and all sorts of funny situations. Don't start assuring me that things will be the same. I'm bloody sick and tired of hearing that crap. Honestly I am. I don't want empty promises. I love yall so much and you guys know, its pretty much everything I have. The 7 made me pull through the stress with school and the problem with her at that point of time. And yall have yet to go to sentosa with me! I just hope this will help. That the whole group will take some time to think about everything. There isn't much time left, exams are coming so are the holidays. And trust me, the holidays might just make things harder. I'm tired of being the middle person to tell Shaun not to drift away. Please tell each other what yall feel. I've tried my best to put the group back together, if all else fails. Then, I'm Sorry. But as long as we believe and try, and noone gives up. There will always be a glimmer of hope. I love each and everyone of you. God bless and good luck. *hugs all tight*

WHY AM I USING BACK MY PREVIOUS SKIN?! CAUSE EITHER I ACCIDENTALLY SCREWED MY BLOG UP WHICH IS HIGHLY IMPOSSIBLE CAUSED I BLOGGED EARLIER DURING MBS OR SOME FUCK SHIT HACKED INTO MY ACCOUNT AND SCREWED EVERYTHING UP. LIKE MY LIFE ISN'T SCREWED ENOUGH!!!!SO THE SKIN WAS HALF DESTROYED AND IM SO FUCKING GOD DAMNED PISSED. EVERYTHING IS IN A MAJOR MESS. I HAVE TO REDO THE WHOLE DARN THING FUCK!! AND I'M NOT GOING TO DO SO, CAUSE EXAMS ARE COMING FUCK IT. I'LL THIS FUCKED UP BLOG WHEN I WANT TO. IM GOING TO SLEEP EVERYTHING AWAY. I HATE EVERYONEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IRRITATING!!!

*ps: ignore the profanities. god damned it im being fucking sacarstic. just let me be or click that lil X on your top right hand corner dammit.

I'm depressed. But I can handle it. Handling it better than i did 2 years ago. I won't die. I'll do just fine. I guess.

Ice cream more ice cream please. I've eaten about 1.5 litres of ice cream in 36 hours and i want more more more! Been eating and eating. Loads of ice cream and chocolates. I guess that's the only two things that can cheer me up now.

Tuition was horrible.
1. My student is half a head taller than me when she is only 12 for gods sake.
2. She is a EM1 Student.
3. The weather was so darn hot!!

Bahhh. I'm going to stop sulking about tuition and be a proper tutor. Went towning with my cousin after tuition and finally for once i managed to window shop proper. Saw so many things that i want. And to make matters worst, i fell in love with another pair of Levis. I know i know. I own too many Levis. But come on, I can only wear 2 outta 6 now!! Be fair people!! So its 3 pairs on the waiting list.
1. New type ones
2. Saddle stitch.
3. Red loop.
Now for the worst part. 2/3 costs $160+. I'm going to faint. Plus with my iPod mini, someone get me a suga daddy/mummy please. I need one!!

to that special someone*you

Ninety miles outside Chicago
can't stop driving I don't know why
So many questions, That need an answer
Two years later, you're still on my mind

Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart
Who holds the stars up in the sky
Was true love is just once in a lifetime
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
What the wind says when she crys?
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninty-seventh time, tonight

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that I was the one for you

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watch the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me, tonight?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know that I was the one for you

I want Ice Cream. More Ice Cream. More more more!

I have no life. All i do is eat and sleep, then eat and sleep again. My handphone seems to have gone wrong somehow cause its so fucking quiet! Someone call me, ask me out. Or something!!!! God, i'm pathetic. Bahhhhh.

A girl has got to dream doesn't she?

My Birthday Wish List!

-- iPod
-- Canon ixus i
-- Nike Dunk Highs
-- Neon Orange Mango Tank Top
-- Black Voodoos Doll Top
-- Pink Roxy Denimn Skirt
-- Addidas Jacket
-- V.C Andrews - Falling Stars or Sarah Waters - Affinity
-- Rook Piercing
-- Striped Note Book from Paperchase @ Borders

"to love and be loved, is to hurt and be hurt" quoted from Leong Love is supposed to a many splendour thing ain't it?

The "walks" home have been quite calming in fact. Minus the fact that its 30 something degrees out there. I guess being alone made me realise a number of things. Like for one, I have been holding back. Holding back what some may ask. Holding back my freedom of speech. I know, i've been through it on one of my previous entries. No i'm not going to rant and rave like a Mad woman again. Just I don't know. Would you rather be someone who speaks her mind without any friends or someone who keeps everything to herself and is the most popular person around? I'm definately not the latter as most would know.

Now, i'm getting comfortable with being Me. Me being alone. I admire those who are truely independent. People who watch movies alone, goes shopping alone, have a meal alone. Am I not independent or is it just insecurity? I'm learning, and one day I will do just fine, just fine Alone.

Cause I want it all or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you've reached the bottom
It's now or never
Is it all or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing...

Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No room inside
For me in your life

Okayy so this is my new blogskin! Tada~~ Honestly i think the colour combi doesn't really go but dammit. Give me some opinions okayy? Got a chatterbox for the chatterboxers. Hahaha. Ryl's birthday celebrations pics are up too! Let me know how this blog looks now okayy? *winks*

So now i'm going to speak my mind. Or lets say, speak without using my brain. Something i have been holding back for such a long time. Last time i did that was probably in KC days. Fuck everyone. I can only depend on myself. Me, Myself and I.

Independence would be the perfect word. Or isolation/anti-social or something like that. I need time alone. Or maybe everyone just piss off. Go somewhere else with your problems. I happen to be human too. And i have my own set of problems. I'm only 17 for gods sake. I'm not supposed to be worrying about so much shit. I'm supposed to be studying hard. Which i obviously can't.

Friends? Seems like such a distant word now. After all the KC fuck. Now it seems like Some TP fuck is brewing waiting to explode somehow. Maybe its just me after all. Maybe i'm just hard to get along and picky and stubborn and what have you. As simple as, its either humans can't face reality and take real shit. Or I am just TOO blunt. I choose to believe in the latter.

Love? Fuck that shit.

Money? Guys, i don't even know if i can continue studying. So i hope yall get the flow.

I'm fine. What haven't i gone through. Just that this time, i rather go through everything ALONE. Tired of being dependent on people. Fucking Sick and tired.

This world is just so fucking full of shit. Or maybe again. Its just you ANDREA LIM.

So-What am i not s'pposed to have an opinion?
Should i be quiet because i'm a woman?
Call me a bitch (bitch) cause i speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if i sat and smiled

When a female fires back
suddenly big talker don't know how to act
So he does what any little boy would do
Makin' up a few false rumors or two
That for sure is not a man to me
Slanderin' names for popularity
It's sad you only get your fame through controversy
But now it's time for me to come and give you more to say

This is for my girls all around the world
Who have come across a man that don't respect your worth
Thinkin' all women should be seen, not heard
So what do we do girls?
Shout louder,
Letting them know we're gonna stand our ground (our ground)
So lift your hands high and wave'em proud (wohoh)
Take a deep breath and say now,
Never can,never will
Can't hold us down

Nobody can hold us down(us down)...Nobody can hold us down(us down)...Nobody can hold us down(hold us down)
Never can never will...

So what am i not supposed to say what i'm saying
Are you offened with the message i'm bringin'
Call me whatever 'cause your words don't mean a thing
Coz you ain't even a man enough to handle what i sing
If you look back in history it's a common double standard of society
The guy gets all the glory, the more he can score
While the girl can do the same and yet you call her a whore
I don't understand why its OK,
The guy can get away with it while any girl gets named
All my ladies come together and make a change
And start a new beginning for us,everybody sing

Lil' Kim:
Here's something I just can't understand
If the guy have three girls then he's a man
He can either give her some head, or sex her raw
If the girl do the same, then she's a whore
But the table's about to turn
I'll bet my fame on it
Cats take my ideas and put their name on it
It's aight though, you can't hold me down
I got to keep on movin'
To all my girls with a man who be tryin to mack
Do it right back to him and let that be that
You need to let him know that his game is whack
And Lil' Kim and Christina Aguilera got your back

You're just a little boy,
Think you're so cute,so coy
You must talk so big, to make up for smaller things
You're just a little boy
All you'll do is annoy
You must talk so big, to make up for smaller things,
This is for my girls...

Ahh Wahoo ahh
Spread the word
Can't hold us down
Yeh we here
We Back again
Yeh Lil Kim and Christina Aguilera
Yeh
Can't hold us down!

Happy 18th Birthday Ryl!!!

Friday
Before heading for Ryl's birthday dinner. I accompanied Quek to TM to buy her present for Ryl and also a sunflower for the special birthday girl. People, yall should have seen the smile on Ryl's face after she got the sunflower. Non-Stop Smiling please. :D

After which we headed to Cafe Cartel (change of plans) at Suntec for dinner. Food was pretty okayy. Nothing fantastic but we sure did have loads of fun talking crap. Talked about loads of stuff while eating. Keke said she's buying Jem a ferrari for his birthday. Hahaha. Took some pictures and irritating clumsy plus blur ME accidentally deleted ALL the pictures in my camera. I almost cried please. My chicken picture is gone!! -sulks- Then we gave Ryl her Mango Dress. The silly girl was almost in tears. So glad you loved your present girl. Then Quek presented her birthday present to Ryl. Our silly Birthday girl put her head in the paper bag cause she was in tears!! (I have visual proof) So cute!! Quek gave her a pink Swatch Skin watch by the way. Headed to Esplanade after that to take more pictures. Ryl changed into her Mango Dress and boy she looks ravishing. Hahaha. So jealous. But i got Ice Cream from Shaunie Shaun Shaun! So so so nice pleasee. Thanks sweets!! :D All headed home after that. We were all pretty tired. Photos will be posted up later after Ryl send me the rest of the pictures in her Camera.

Today
Was supposed to crash the Macroeconomics Remedial but i was too tired to get outta bed so didn't go. In the end, i still headed down to school to accompany Shaun while he was doing his project. Apparently my grandma's place is across the road from Shaun's grandpa's place. We each headed to our grandparent's place. So nice of us right? Haha. Currently i'm like watching Miss Singapore Universe. Hmmm. No complains so far although i think the girls can afford to tone some parts of their bodies. Some abit flabby. Doesn't look that good on national TV. I'm not saying I have a perfect figure or anything but yeah. Miss Universe please. The opening act was pretty good. Loved the Retro looking short dress they were wearing. Nice please. Will be going down to the airport later to send my godma off.

Nothing much to blog about. Just updating my life. I'm getting so boring. Bahhh.

I am currently in school. Bored to tears. But staying here till Shaun and Jem are done with their project. Accompany Shaunie Shaun Shaun. Ain't i nice? Hahaha. Macroeconomics is finally over. 2nd last project down. Only left with Arts Appreciation and its pretty much done with too. Feeling much more relaxed and less stressed. Just need sleep. Need sleep badly. Then there is Charlie's Corner tmr to celebrate Ryl's Birthday. I know she's going to love her present. So excited please!!

This song has been stuck in this lil brain of mine. Perfect Song to club to.*winks at sweets* 3 weeks more before i can club on my birthday. Legally that is! Ha!

Beyonce Knowles - Naughty Girl

I'm feelin sexy
I wanna hear you say my name boy
If you can reach me

You can feel my burning flame

I'm feelin kind of n-a-s-t-y
I might just take you home with me
Baby the minute i feel your energy
Your vibe's just taken over me
Start feelin so crazy babe
I feel the funk coming over me
I don't know what's gotten into me
The rhythm's got me feelin so crazy babe

Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
We're gonna turn this party out
I know you want my body
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
I see you look me up and down
And I came to party

You're so sexy, tonight i am all yours boy
The way your body moves across the floor
You got me feelin n-a-s-t-y
I might just take you home with me

Baby the minute i feel your energy
The vibe's just taken over me
Start feelin so crazy babe
I feel the funk coming over me
I don't know what's gotten into me
The rhythm's got me feelin so crazy babe

Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
We're gonna turn this party out
I know you want my body
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
I see you look me up and down
And I came to party

I love to love you baby
I love to love you baby
I love to love you baby

Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
We're gonna turn this party out
I know you want my body
Tonight I'll be your naughty girl
I'm callin all my girls
I see you look me up and down
And I came to party